When was the last time your heart was changed by something you saw, did, or felt? Maybe your heart was warmed when a friend called unexpectedly or a stranger helped you push a heavy shopping cart through a snowy parking lot. Maybe your heart was softened by a baby’s big eyes and smile, or lightened by a glimpse of God’s glory in a sunrise, burst of laughter, or sweet taste of strawberries.
Remember when keeping secrets was something to admire? When you were a kid, you learned that keeping secrets—especially about birthdays, school events, surprise parties and plans—was good. As an adult, keeping secrets can backfire. Especially if your secrets are dark, harmful, and holding you back.
If we knew what He knows—if we could see the big picture with all the pieces—we would ask God for exactly what we have. Imagine that! If you knew what God knows, you would give yourself the exact same body, life and relationships you have right now.
As you get older, do you find it harder or easier to be who you were called to be?
Maybe you find it harder because of loss, grief, pain and circumstance. Maybe you’re just too tired and far from your childhood self to think about being who you were called to be, much less blossom into who God created you to be.
Your loudest and deepest desires are natural, primal and purposeful. You deeply desire safety and security, peace and healing. You loudly desire freedom and joy, love and life! Those are good desires, and you’re right to want them.
I once found those kind of mistakes — though they were small and not terrible in the grand scheme of things — difficult to live with. I didn’t know how to make peace with myself, much less forgive myself.
Visions of Vocation: Common Grace for the Common Good is one of the first books I’ve been assigned to read (I just started my Master of Divinity degree at Regent College in Vancouver, BC — though I think it should be called a “Servant of Divinity”! Not sure I’ll ever be equipped to master divinity, no matter how good the professors are).
What was the last leap of faith you took? I bet you were scared. Maybe you’re taking a leap of faith right now. You’re starting a new season of life in a new job or at a new school or with a new partner. Maybe you’re learning how to live without someone you love, or you’re slowly letting go of a dear friend and companion.