How to Cope When Your Husband Leaves You for Her


Saying – even just thinking, “My husband left me for another woman” – is heartbreaking, but help is here. These tips for coping when your husband leaves you for her will help you survive even when you’re completely shocked that he walked out.

“I can’t believe this happened to me, the pain is unbearable,” said Esmie on How to Get Over the Pain of Being Cheated On. “I spent nearly two decades of my life with my husband, just to watch him walk away. I didn’t know he was unhappy or that I’d be searching for tips on how to cope when your husband leaves you for another woman. Do men who leave their wives after all that time regret it? Do they feel guilty about what they have done? I know it doesn’t matter because when someone wants out, they want out. It’s just sad some people think marriages are so disposable. Before we got married my husband pursued me so hard and he wanted to rush to get married. So I said ‘yes’ and now…he files for divorce and that’s it. Wow. I pray for the day to come when I don’t wake up feeling this huge anchor on my chest, the day where he is a distant memory and I wonder what the heck I ever saw in him.”

I don’t know if men who leave their husbands regret it, or if the pain of betrayal ever really goes away. I don’t even know if time heals all wounds. But, I do believe that you CAN recover and rebuild your life. You might even find a way to be happier and more fulfilled than you ever were before.







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7 Ways to Cope When Your Husband Leaves You for Her

Here’s what one famous wife said when her husband walked out:

“I’m not sure what the future holds, but I do know that I’m going to be positive and not wake up feeling desperate,” said Nicole Kidman. “As my dad said ‘Nic, it is what it is, it’s not what it should have been, not what it could have been, it is what it is.’”

It is what it is. These aren’t the most comforting words in the world, are they? But it’s the truth. And the sooner you can accept the truth, the quicker you will begin to heal. Part of accepting the truth might be learning Why He Had an Affair and How to Recover. Your husband’s leaving may be the worst betrayal in marriage and it may be the worst thing your husband could ever do to you…but it’s what happened. The sooner you can accept that it is what it is, the sooner you can move on and create a better, more meaningful, happier life.

Here are seven tips on how to cope when your husband walks out on your marriage. This isn’t legal or financial advice; it’s how to heal your heart and self-esteem.

1. Realize that his leaving isn’t a direct reflection on you

No matter how beautiful, successful, slim, or rich their wives are, some husbands will be unfaithful. Men cheat and leave their marriages for a wide variety of reasons – many of which have nothing to do with their wives. To learn more about cheating husbands, read Is Your Husband Cheating? 5 Signs He’s Having an Affair.

More importantly, remember that your husband left you for another woman because of his problems – which aren’t a reflection of you! It’s not that you’re not good enough, or she’s a better woman. To be able to say “my husband left me for another woman” and survive, keep reminding yourself that your husband left you because he has his own issues.

2. Learn how to forgive your husband for leaving

“When you forgive, you in no way change the past – but you sure do change the future.” – Bernard Meltzer. This may be one of the most difficult thing to do after your husband leaves…and it’s the most necessary.

Don’t carry around the bitterness, misery, and pain of an angry woman. Don’t allow his choice to dictate how you live the rest of your life. Don’t let his mistakes drain the joy, love, and spirit out of your life!

Learn how to forgive. Actually, I should have put “grieve the end of your marriage” at the top of these ways to cope when your husband leaves for another woman. Right now, you’re grieving the loss of your dreams, the end of your marriage, and the pain of discovering that your husband won’t be spending the rest of his life with you. Allow yourself to grieve, and learn how to forgive.



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3. Stop comparing yourself to the other woman

You have strengths and weaknesses that she doesn’t have, and she has strengths and weaknesses that you don’t have. It’s pointless and futile to compare yourself to her, to try to figure out why your husband left. It’s a waste of time and energy! Accept the fact that for some reason, your husband had to go. It’s not even about you; it’s about him.

If it makes you feel better, make a list of your strengths and her weaknesses, and read them when you feel down on yourself. But I actually think it’s better not to compare yourself to the other woman at all. You need to focus on moving onwards and upwards after your husband leaves, not on what the other woman has that you don’t. This is your time to concentrate on healing and personal growth. It doesn’t matter who or what she is…what matters is that you have a life to rebuild, a self-image to recreate, and a new identity to focus on.

When He Leaves: Help and Hope for Hurting Wives by Kari West and Noelle Quinn will give you hope and encouragement as you learn how to cope after your husband walks out. There are no easy answers – but you can reach out for companionship and the knowledge that you are not alone.

4. Spend time with women who survived when their husbands walked out

Who will walk alongside you, as you work through the pain and process your loss? If you don’t know who to talk to, consider asking your friends and family members if they know a woman whose husband left her.

How to Cope When Your Husband Leaves You for HerIf she survived the end of her marriage in healthy ways – and if she’s stronger, happier, and healthier – spend time with her. Ask if you can buy her a coffee; learn how she overcame pain of his cheating on you and leaving. Soak up her courage, health, and wisdom.

One of the best ways to survive a traumatic event – and learning how to cope when your husband leaves you for another woman is definitely a type of trauma – is to connect with people who know what you’re going through. Gain strength and healing from women who have survived similar problems in life. Join a grief support group, or form your own little group of women who surviving such a major change in their lives.

5. Let go of your old hopes and dreams for your marriage

If you think your marriage isn’t over, read How to Know if Your Relationship is Worth Fighting For. But don’t fight reality. Don’t allow your wishes and pain to change how you see the truth. It’s better to face and accept the truth – to surrender to what is – instead of wishing your life could go back to the way things were.

And remember that you’re not just grieving the fact that your husband left you for another woman. You’re not simply mourning the loss of him as a man. You’re actually grieving the end of something that was so important to you. Your marriage may have been the focus of your life, and saying “my husband left me for another woman” may be the most painful words you ever utter. You lost something you believed in and thought would last forever. So, you’re grieving the end of the marriage you thought you had, that you hoped you had…you’ve been betrayed, and you aren’t as innocent and trusting as you were before.

This is a huge loss, and I am sorry you have to go through this. But to heal, you have to grieve not only the loss of a husband, but the loss of your marriage, the loss of the things you hoped for on your wedding day. You need to grieve the painful reality that your husband left you for her, and that you have to rebuild your life.

6. Get help coping with the end of your marriage

Counseling is about making sense of your life, and figuring out how to move on after betrayals, heartaches, and heartbreaks. Talking through your problems with an objective counselor, spiritual leader, or psychologist can help you let go. An objective professional can help you see your big life picture and your more detailed personality characteristics.

husband left me for herIn He’s History, You’re Not: Surviving Divorce After 40, Erica Manfred Erica Manfred shares her own divorce experience, as well as the advice of experts, with specific sections tailored to women in their 40s, 50s, and 60s.

If you feel lost and helpless because your husband said he doesn’t love you anymore, don’t spin your wheels alone. Invest in yourself emotionally and spiritually – a counselor or a support group for divorced women can help you make sense of what why your husband left. You need to focus on picking up the pieces of your life and starting a fresh new chapter of your life.

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7. Start something new in your life

This is your chance to embark on a new chapter in your social, professional, personal, or spiritual life! Volunteer, take a solo or group vacation, join a new gym, take a night class, join a support group, check out a new social club, quit your job, go back to school. Surviving a breakup can be about growing into the woman you were meant to be – and about exploring a different part of your life and personality. This may be the end of one stage of your life…but it can be the beginning of a whole new era! It’s up to you…

For more tips on coping when your husband leaves you for her, read How to Let Go of a Relationship.

If you need to talk about why your husband left you for another woman, please share below! Sometimes writing is the healthiest thing you can do. I can’t give advice, but I’m here to listen.







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875 thoughts on “How to Cope When Your Husband Leaves You for Her

  • Sasha

    Hi ladies….well, what can I say. Daughter came home and said dad was talking about Xmas and seems to think he can do presents at our house? I held out the olive branch last year, but really don’t want him in my house,and so asked her if she wanted to do it again. She said no,it would be too much, too awkward….against my better judgement I said if she wanted to, I would leave for an hour,walk the dog etc. She’s adamant,and I hate saying this,but thank god!
    He will have to do presents somewhere else. Should I do more? Am I being selfish. I’m led by her,and don’t want it to seem like I’m pushing her in any way….any advice would be great..hugs warrior blossoms….keep going xxx

  • SASha

    Hi ladies…well it’s been afew weeks,and the crap keeps on giving! Ughhh! So the ex tells our daughter he can’t have tea with her Monday cause he’s going out….Then on Monday rings her and says he’s cancelled his night out so he can spend time with her….really? My guess is the concert you were bragging about didn’t happen because something at home happened? So OW decides to take her daughter instead. My daughter on the other hand, saw straight through his BS, and told him. And then what transpired was a 14 year old whose anxiety and panic attacks increased! Her father ofcourse simply doesn’t have the emotional intelligence to deal with it, so minimises it!
    I’m so angry that I have to deal with this alone. Doctor has now put her on beta blockers., she’s in counselling and has a go to teacher too…it’s sad,that one man, the one man who should be there for her, has caused all this crap!
    And to top it all, he is at my sons beck and call ( my son from previous relationship). The same man who couldn’t be bothered with him previously, who would say, he’s not staying here…hell that was one of the reasons we disagreed….yet all of a sudden, he is his best mate. That puts me in a difficult position. I have no problem them having contact, but I do have a problem with my ex using my son to get information out of him. My ex knows everything going on in our house. So I keep tight lipped about my personal affairs. I went for lunch with an old male friend last week. My son automatically thought it was a date…..so ex then asks my daughter if mum is dating! See what I mean? It’s relentless.
    I feel at the moment that my ex will always be poking his nose in our business, there is no calm at the this time, and as strong as i am, it’s wearing me down.
    Both the doctor and counsellor have asked our daughter if they could get dad in to discuss, but she is adiment she doesn’t want him there. She says he’s the problem. But she doesn’t feel she can tell him that. How utterly sad ,that the one person who should know isn’t being told,so it’s a vicious circle. Now because my daughter trusts me and confides in me, means I can’t tell him either. I feel useless, but I will not go against the trust she has in me. So I feel like I’m failing her.
    The ripples of crap, continue on a daily basis, and this strong lady is feeling useless at the moment.
    Now if his life was so perfect, he wouldn’t be ringing my daughter excessively constantly asking her if she loves him, trying to FaceTime daily, even after taking her out for tea,questioning her, throwing money at her…why can’t he just get on with his life and leave us to it,and simply use his access time to have fun with her. He takes her to the same places for tea,cause my daughter won’t go to his house or have anything to do with the OW. What he doesn’t realise is,he’s smothering her ,and as my therapist said, eventually your daughter will turn her back on him…. never in my wildest dreams would I have thought he would be such a useless ,piece of crap.ahhhhhh!

    • Carol

      Dearest Sasha, I’m truly sorry for what your ex is putting you and your Daughter through, he has no idea the hurt he’s causing. These bloody men are only interested in themselves and how they feel. I’m glad you and your dear daughter have a therapist, she obviously sees her father for what he is. Its doubly difficult with the fact of him being so friendly with your son, this is probably because he sees him as a mate, and thinks he can use him too but in that kind of way where he tries to be best buddies whilst manipulating him into giving him information. Its so frustrating for you. Maybe he needs proper boundaries now and whether he should even see your daughter at all, if she’s in agreement of course as you’d have professional backing and evidence to show its causing her psychological problems and its not fair on her or you darling. Big hugs you deserve better. You are one strong lady we all love you. I’m still plodding on tears everyday, waiting for his bullying solicitor to respond regarding his lies and the fact the district judge ordered him to pay the petition costs. I’m still frustrated and angry that I miss him and find it so hard to lose that attachment to him. Looking back the last two years he has been emotionally and financially abusing me. I miss being part of a couple I hate he knew he had someone to go too yet he knew I’d be alone and he didn’t even care I can’t wait for the day they aren’t in my head anymore when I don’t care what he’s doing . Im surrounded by people telling me to toughen up , let go and forget them,
      not easy after 27 years hun. These men are pure evil. I’m hugging you tight Sasha thinking of you and your Daughter, much love xx

      • Sasha

        Aww Carol, Thankyou for responding. It’s so tough. We had tears again tonight. She feels so totally betrayed by him. Says she can’t trust anything he says and then says why am I not angry? I was honest and told her I am angry,but with his behaviour. I also told her the reason I don’t communicate with him like her other friends whose parents are divorced. Simple, they don’t stalk,constantly ring,question,etc,etc! I so want them to have a great relationship,but he is hanging onto her for dear life,and it’s smothering her. I hate him for that. Saw one of his friends ( ex friends by all accounts) who said, they felt I’d nothing to feel bad about, that he deserved everything he got,and by the looks of things he’s very miserable. Both our daughters are best friends. He told me our daughter has nothing good to say about her dad,and that spoke volumes . Dad rings her continuously when she’s at their house,and She ends up turning her phone off….it’s shear madness,and would make anyone anxious! Even after I’d tol d him to calm the calls down,he doesn’t care about anyone but himself,!
        Carol, cry as long as it takes. They are your feelings. But remember that you will get through this. Any man who can behave which so much cruelty,doesn’t deserve your time. You can do this, I promise ! Give yourself 10 minutes each day to think about him, then stop and get on with your day. You have to really make the effort, but stick with it. As time goes on reduce the amount of time you think about him…if you can get out in the fresh air, exercise is so good for lifting your mood, walking! Carol, don’t give up on you, and find your strength. Your allowed to cave into your feelings every now and again, but, don’t give into them….ever! Hugs my darling xxxx

        • Carol

          Dearest Sasha, I’m so sorry your daughter is so distressed. How could he do it to her and leave you to deal with the consequences of his dreadful actions. Its a pity he doesn’t get the message and move miles away. I’m glad she has such a great Mum and it sounds like her friend is very supportive, can she not switch her phone off while there as you can always ring her friend if you need her.

          I’m having a dreadful day for some reason, feel so lonely, just sat sobbing, how could he just abandoned me for someone like her just because I was unwell, and leave me penniless, he doesn’t care if I’m alive or dead hun. Sometimes I don’t think I can do this, I’m surrounded by people who think after six mths I should be over it. I miss him and it hurts sweetheart. Thinking of you xxx

          • Sasha

            Hey Carol, tomorrow is another day. You can do this cause your doing it! Ok, you’ve cried today,but you may not tomorrow. They say loosing a partner to someone else is like coming off drugs. Are you getting any better? The main thing is taking care of yourself. If you write down every little shitty thing he has done,and keep reading it. Keep going hun, I know it’s hard, but your in a far better place than when you first split.
            I’m under no illusion that my exes life is perfect…far from it! The man is a joke, he knows it,and everyone else knows it. He’s never seen in town with his OW….that tells you everything you need to know. I’d like to think when she has to sell her house, they will both F#@k off and move out of town, and there’s another headache…if he rents with OW then his daughter will turn her back on him completely….something I doubt he’s even thought of. Her thought is dad should have rented something as soon as we split, on his own…hell he can afford it!
            The headaches will always be theirs. Kids turning their back on the parent who has shitted all over the family. They have alienated themselves,and will always ask themselves if it was all worth it. I know my ex is living a nightmare,and I hope he looks at Ow and asks himself if she was worth it. From what I’ve heard that would be a big fat NO! Haha.
            Carol, leave him to it, stay NC, and work on you hunni. You have got through another day….hugs xxxx

  • Amanda

    My husband and I just purchased a home together. I noticed he was acting strange… I found out he was talking to and cheating on me with his boss! He than keeps saying he wanted to work it out and that he loves me but as much as I would work through it, he still goes home to her. This has been going on for just shy of 4 months now. I emotionally cannot deal with it any more I’m exhausted… I wish I knew what the right choice here was!

  • Kim

    Hi all i wonder if you can give me some advice my darling husband of 30 years is filing for divorce, i have told hime and his snotty solcitor that i will not sign any divorce papers until he makes it official about the agreement we decided on the equity on the house. A friend told me he cannot divorce me after two years unless i sign, only after five years of living apart.Is this true? I have asked his solicitor what grounds he is divorcing me on,
    I refuse to make anything easy for him after his dreadful behaviour with his floosy.
    Keep strong all of you, get mad not sad i have come a long way in two years you will too. Love to all Kim x

  • Marie

    I cannot believe that practically overnight I lost my life as I knew it, my husband, our homes, our family. Just 2 months ago I was helping a mutual girl friend deal with her husband leaving. I never thought in a million years she and my husband would have an affair. I welcomed this woman into my home, my family, even our family vacation! Little did I know the affair had started one month earlier.
    So here I am, hearing that he does not love me anymore. Loves the other woman and wants a divorce asap. I’m still in shock, my dreams of us together forever gone, my husband gone, the other side of my bed empty. Literally overnight. I know I’ll be fine, eventually, but I still have my moments of fury & despair. Thank God I have my family & friends to hold me up.

    • Jane

      Hi Marie
      I’m sorry to hear your news. Your story is not dissimilar to mine. Where do these women come from?
      I’m 10 months in and it still cripples me daily but finally I’m beginning to see some light at the end of the tunnel.
      My advice is not to be like me – move on now if you possibly can. Don’t waste time.
      Accept that he is obsessed (sorry – in love with) this woman and that as such you are not important any more.
      Accept that you deserve better and that the powers that be have a plan for you
      Accept that he will be a total dick in every possible way he can be because he is pandering to an insecure woman.
      He will not be happy long term – they rarely are – less than 4% of such relationships work out.
      His happiness is built on your misery – shaky foundations as you won’t be miserable for ever.
      Rebuild your dreams.
      You sound like a strong girl. Dig deep and move on.
      Xx

      • Marie

        Jane,
        I cannot tell you how much your message meant to me. You are 100% right. Ironically, this is the second time I am dealing with this. My first marriage of 20 years ended after my husband had an affair. This marriage, only 2 yrs old is now over, with him cheating with a mutual friend. I feel like a cat with 9 lives. LOL Yes, I will pick up the pieces and start rebuilding my life asap. I need to stop picking insecure and weak men. I am not bitter, just stronger. (with the help of my four amazing daughters) Hugs Jane XOXO

  • Lisa

    Hi Everyone,

    I’m a couple months past official divorce date and about a year and 3 months past DDay. At this point I’m on my way to a new life. I don’t want to be with him anymore (the person he was doesn’t exist anymore anyway), I don’t love him anymore and since the rose colored glasses came off I’m not even attracted to him anymore. But the thing that still sticks in my craw is how much energy he put into wooing and romancing her and made dedicated effort to spend time with her – all things he never did for me. He’s completely infatuated with her, and I’m jealous not because it’s him but because I want that for myself. I want someone to have amazing sex with and the strong, intimate connection that I never had with him but always yearned for. Why does he get to have it? And with someone who’s married with two kids, on top of it! Why do they deserve that and not me? Why did she turn that light on in him and not me? He blew up our lives and is trying to destroy another family – who does that and gets rewarded for it?? All questions that are pointless to ask, I guess, but it all just seems so unfair. So unjust.

    • Sasha

      Hey Lisa, has he told you they have an amazing connection, does he tell you how he woos her? My guess is, it ain’t what it seems. Like you I wouldn’t take my ex back if you paid me,and like you,the rose tinted glasses are off. My ex makes me feel repulsion. But I get it that these men simply go on with their lives leaving destruction behind…get this….my ex has asked to come back,cried to the kids,and stalked me for over a year….their lives aren’t as rosey as they want you to believe. Firstly, they are stuck with their mirror image…a cheat! Whilst the affair is secret it’s all so wonderful. But when the dust settles, and they only have each other, then the rot sets in. They are no longer part of the family unit, the sniggers,and whispers they have to put up with, then there’s the comparisons….sorry but I certainly wouldn’t want to start like that. No trust, constant paranoia that the other isn’t being truthful. Every time I think of it I laugh. She is so very welcome to my ex. He wasn’t all that anyway. A good provider, and decent dad at the time….but he was lazy. Overweight, lacked a lot of things. Hell I wake up each day and thank my lucky stars he’s gone. I’ve never had a conversation with him to get back together, I’ve gone NC pretty much since we split. And he hates it! He hates that I’m getting on with my life, going out, enjoying myself, meeting new people……
      The downside is the effect on my daughter..,he has done and said some really sad things to her, constantly asks her if she loves him, slags me off, tries to undermine me all the time. I ignore, Explain things calmly to my daughter,and make excuses for him. Why? Because I’m the better person, the responsible parent….
      Karma can after a year when he took our daughter away, and hadn’t been out the country 5 minutes,when one of my friends saw some guy leaving her house early in the morning…oh what a tangled web.
      So don’t be jealous of the picture they try to portray….it’s fake and tarnished like their shi**y relationship….laugh, enjoy life and leave the looser behind….hugs x

      • Lisa

        Thank you for the words of support, Sasha. You’re totally right, of course. This won’t work out well for him…he’s having trouble convincing her to leave her family for him. He’s now the ‘other woman’ and I’m sure his ego isn’t handling it very well, lol. What an asshat. On to better, even if that just means more self love.

  • Carol

    Sad day today. Hi my friends, well its been a sad day as my decree nisi, not the absolute was granted by the court this morning on the grounds of his unreasonable behaviour. It is the beginning of the end, its so distressing as its a journey I didn’t choose to make. My ex and his trollop did the choosing yet I’m the one in so much emotional pain over it. Sadly I didn’t get much family understanding today as to what this made me feel, just told to toughen up, move on, forget him and her and let go. All things I would so love to do, I try but I’m not good at it at all. I just want karma to hit them so much I hate not knowing if he’s happy or miserable or worried about the financial mess he’s in. I just know that six months on I’m still hurting so bad and despite my best efforts they are both in my head way too much. Thankyou for listening, love to you all xx

    • JulieN

      Hi Carol. Such a hard day for you and I understand fully how you feel. Your feelings are not like a tap you can switch on and off. It comes in waves but slowly but surely you get breaks in the waves and as time goes on, the breaks become bigger. Six months is no time at all to work through your grief and loss. Do it at your speed and in your own time. There is no right or wrong way to deal with this horrendous pain. Try to take it a day at a time and not think too far ahead. As for what he/they are feeling, I truly believe somewhere along the line they will get what they deserve. Karma has a way of dealing with low life scum. You are worth a dozen of them because you have honesty and integrity. I won’t tell you to not think about them because that’s impossible but be kind to yourself. When my thoughts run away from me I try and ground myself by looking at objects, hearing sounds, smells and taste. It brings your brain back to the present. Thinking of you xx

      • Carol

        Hi Julie, thankyou sweetheart for your very kind words and for thinking of me. I just wish I could stop crying. Looking back he has treated me very badly for the last two years. Nothing I did was right and everything including the debts were my fault he said as if I hadn’t been I’ll none of this would have happened so I keep blaming myself. There was a time when he was so kind and caring but he’s a monster now, I find it so hard to come to terms with though love. I put my heart and soul into our 27 years and he just threw me away like trash. I’m so sorry you’ve had to go through this awful experience too. Thankyou so much again xx

    • Rosa

      Carol, please be strong. I know exactly what you are going through. Believe me, after 20 years of marriage and now divorced after two years of separation the pain and anger is still there. I still feel so angry and sad when they keep telling me just go ahead and find yourself. They have no clue to the pain and anger we are going through. I can promise you this, you will be stronger and with time you realize that your husband was for such a long time not the man you used to know. He started falling into sin a long time ago. When this starts their moral, character and consciousness starts to decline! When everything comes out you see a cheater that started being selfish a long time ago. You cannot believe who is this person!!!It is like an alien has taken over his body and mind. Carol, please believe that it has nothing to do with you. It is sin that’s taken over him. When a husband abbandons his family all that was good in him is gone! Evil cannot live with good, lies cannot go together with truth and honesty. He is now blinded with selfishness and with infatuation! Yes Carol, it has nothing to do with love. Think this my dear, what has love to do with lies, selfishness, hurt and pain? Absolutely nothing!!!! Your husband like my ex are so lost in something that is fake, cheap and false. What helps me to heal is that the other woman has a lost soul, she is with a man that is destroying a family, lying to his wife and hurting his children. And you are jealous of her??? No Carol! Can two liars and cheaters make it right? Please be strong and believe in yourself for what you are! A beautiful honest woman that knows what true love is. You are honest and true to who you really are. Your husband unfortunately doesn’t see nor understand this. Please pray for him. The other woman brought out the worst in your husband. She has no moral nor self esteem. Can you be jealous of such a person? No! Carol, you’re a diamond like all these beautiful woman who are going through the same. I see it this way, our husbands forgot how to bring their diamonds to shine agap. They don’t want to work in taking time to bring something so precious in it’s full beauty again. These men prefered cheap glass that is shinning so strong at the moment but it will lose its light with time and no time, money or polish will ever bring that glass to shine like the diamond he once had……. Big hugs to you and to all on this blog. My blessings to all! Yours Rosa….

      • Carol

        Dear Rosa, you are so very kind to help me and I’m so grateful for your words of comfort. I’m truly sorry that your husband did this to you, no one ever deserves it. I so hope there is such a thing as karma and that they all get what’s coming to them. We love them with all we have. I feel like I’m in shock as he totally blindsided me. I truly thought I knew him, I can’t believe after 27 years he’s turned into a liar, a cheat and a thief. I just wish I could detach and stop loving him and stop thinking of them together. I don’t want them to be happy after the pain and anguish he has put me, the children and grandchildren through. I get triggers too, seeing a car like his, memories, supermarkets as we shopped together, these all cause distress and tears. I pray everyday for the thoughts and images of them together to stop and for the day when I don’t care where they are or what they are doing. He kept telling me it was all my fault. I also think she’s laughing at me yet I’m in such emotional pain. Thankyou so much Rosa take care xx

        • Rosa

          Dear Carol,
          it maybe a weak help but when you are imagining your husband together with the other woman, please think this way, she is with the bad side of him. Carol he is NOT the same person you loved. I have exactly the same feelings as you do my dear! I have pain when I go to the store where we once went together, I go still in panic when I go out with friends to drink a coffee at the bar. Too many pairs together and when I hear the music and songs of love I still want to scream, and cry out loud please turn off the music. Carol how I understand your pain . I used to have panic finding myself going shopping alone. I felt no sense in nothing. I used to hate the sun when it shone so bright and life was pulsing out side because I was dying inside. But give time to your grief, as I gave time to mine. Believe me dear Carol the healing is already working in you. One day you’ll realize the wrongs he has done to you and anger sets in. You realize that just one tear you shed for him was one too much! Strength will start rising in you and pride into your beautiful true heart. You realize it is the brokeness inside him. He did not want to face his own pain. A man who betrays his family is a man that is running away from himself. He cannot face the emotional pain he is going through, he is running away from who HE is and NOT from you. He cannot own his problems and stand to them. The women is a way of escape for him. But at the end his dark side will always come out again…. and guess what he will do???? Yes Carol he will do the same to her or she will do it to him! They are running away from themselves! My beautiful son of now 18 says, mum behind dads head, the truth is leaving him no peace…. he knows what he is doing is wrong but thinks he has got it right blaming it all on you. But blaming others will not help him because the pain he has done will turn on him…. Once dad realizes that it’s him not you he will fall so hard……WOW! that’s so true! . it will happen Carol to all those who uses us as their scapegoat …. it cannot work…… be strong and good to your self. One day you will be flying so high… higher than betrayals, lies and pain. You will be stronger and more beautiful than ever…. Be blessed!

          • Carol

            Dearest Rosa, you are so very kind to help me and I’m so grateful. Everything you say makes perfect sense. I just so wish the tearswould stop as he’s not worth it. Its difficult to cope with the betrayal and rejection especially for someone like her Rosa. I do get angry sometimes but nowhere near enough yet, if I could get angry I think I could cope a bit better. Like you I put my heart and soul into the marriage and we get put on this journey that we didn’t choose. How they can just throw us aside like trash I can’t come to terms with. I’m trying to do what you suggest when the thoughts of them come in, I do hope I can do it. Your Son sounds amazing and knows exactly how it will be for your ex. At times I think I will be ok then wham like you say I will get a trigger, it maybe a song, a TV program or a photo, or more commonly thoughts and images of them together and I sob like a child. Bless your heart for being there Rosa, everyone on here is amazing xx

        • sasha

          Hey Carol. Another mile stone to get through….sad, but those feelings will ease. Listen, going through these emotions your feelings are setting you up to heal, and love without any baggage in the future. All the women here know full well, that ache that stops you eating, keeps you thinking and fills your body with anxiety that at times feels unbearable.
          But what the OW is left with is that angry, disillusioned twat of a man who hasn’t Learned anything and will continue to make the same relationship mistakes.
          I still have days when I want to rip his heart out, but then I think to myself, why the hell am I bothering wasting my time on him.
          This man who tries to undermine me at every given opportunity. Keeping my son sweet, buying the wardrobe that me and my daughter were going to get….well, if he wants to do it, I’m not going to stand in his way. It just shows me how sad, desperate and pathetic he is.
          He did say mum can give me half the money…he will be waiting a long time. His decision,not mine….the biggest thing is, these men who seeem to be popping up everywhere still have their thoughts at the end of the day. I’m guessing at some point they wonder what the hell did they start. Oh and that woman who gladly cheated with them, will start to look tarnished very soon…..trust is a big thing, but between the two of them, their lives will be one long headache of accusions, distrust,and shitty lies….I’m glad I’m not part of that. And so should each and every one of you. I say you can’t wrap a piece of turd in a bow and call it a present….at the end of the day it’s still a 💩…..hahahugs xxx

          • Carol

            Hi my dear Sasha, as usual you say the right things at the right tine like Rosa and JulieN have. I hate the roller coaster ride of emotions hun, I am having some angry periods but not enough. I just don’t know how to break the emotional attachment to him for good, does that just happen the longer we are apart? I’m not sure. I was thinking today that apart from the lying, cheating and stealing the man she’s stuck with is nearly 60, overweight, balding, can’t see a thing without glasses, has bad back and ears, is moody and can’t do a practical thing around the house so she’s not got the best. I do wonder if my children are right Sasha when they say he’s using her too just for a roof over his head since I refused to let him move back into the empty marital home. I just want him to be unhappy, its frustrating not knowing. As for your ex don’t give him money, he’s wicked too for what he’s out you all through, you are stringer than he thought, I so admire you. Definitely turds you are so right. Lots of love and hugs, thankyou xxx

  • Jane

    Hi all

    I’m posting because I’m hoping that it will help me process my thoughts. I had my first court hearing this week for my divorce. It has been a tough week as a result. The hearing made it real for me I think and I realised that my husband who I’ve loved for 23 years really does not love me anymore. He has left me for an alcoholic, narcissistic, sex addict who is after his money. He’s gone and come back several times and I think that I was harbouring some hope that he would come to his senses and come back again but he is so utterly under her control now. He believes he’s found the love of his life and that the utter destruction of my life and his childrens’ is acceptable collateral damage. He doesn’t feel any remorse at all and show’s no sense of having been the bad guy or owing me anything. If anything, he is the opposite, I am a fly in the ointment standing between him and his new life. I am the one who is unreasonably wanting some of his money and I am the one who unreasonably will not let her children go whenever it suits him. He has successfully eradicated all feelings for me in a heartbeat. 9 months in since he told the children and left, I am still an utter mess; how do you accept it and move on? How do you suck up the financial loss, the loss of your married dreams, the loneliness, the reality of giving your kids up frequently etc etc etc etc. I don’t want any of that, I didn’t ask for it and I didn’t do anything to deserve it. Like all of you!

  • Jennifer

    Wow, I am in the exact same boat.
    My ex-boyfriend and I have been together a little over 4 years (nothing compared to a 20 or 30-year marriage), but I honestly thought he was the person I could spend the rest of my life with. (Then again, I’m only 31 – I have a lot more people to meet). We were best friends, we never fought, we made eachother laugh daily. We couldn’t get enough of one another. We had just moved in together (thank goodness we signed a short lease), we were both excited to take our relationship to the next level.
    This was the first person that I gave 100% of my trust to. That’s right, 100%. I trusted him completely which was very refreshing because it’s hard for me to completely trust people sometimes. But I loved the fact that he had his own friends, co-workers, and plans. I thought it was healthy that we could sometimes go do our own things. And we would always come home happy to see eachother.
    Well about a month ago, I saw some texts from him and his co-worker (I have never been a snooper, so I got mad at myself that I felt the need to do so). I saw dirty texts from them and plans for a future get-together. She said that their last “meet-up” was so awesome and she can’t wait to kiss and touch him again…… and I LOST it!!!!
    This other woman is married by the way…..
    At first, we were going to try to work things out. We had plans to see a couple’s counselor, he was transferring job locations so he wouldn’t be working with her, he was cutting all ties with her (at least that’s what I thought). A couple weeks ago, I decided to end things with him. Not necessarily because of the affair but because it was kind of a wake-up call that maybe we both aren’t happy in this relationship anymore. I think we were simply growing apart and evolving into different people.
    Well, last night he told me he wanted to be completely honest with me…… he told me that this was not a one-time thing with this person. That it was a build-up of months and months of flirting, kissing, and getting close emotionally before anything physical took place. Not only that but he told me that he’s starting to get feelings for her but knows they can never be together because she is married. He says he still loves me but is starting to feel close to this other person
    What a load of crap!!!!!!!!
    How in the world can you fall in love with someone who’s unavailable?!?!?! What goes through your sick head to believe it’s okay to get emotionally involved with someone who’s married?!?!?! Especially when you have a dedicated girlfriend waiting at home for you?!?!?! That type of sh*t would NEVER cross my mind.
    I’ve always been a fairly confident person but this has crushed me to the core. My ego is broken, my confidence ruined. The first person I gave all my trust to completely smashed it into pieces. I keep asking myself, “what does she have that I don’t?” and “why can someone else make him happy when I can’t?” and “what’s wrong with me?”
    Thank goodness we don’t have children, a mortgage, or any other shared assets. Thank God my ex doesn’t have facebook or the fact that I’ve never seen or met this “other woman”. I have no idea what she looks like and I don’t think I want to know. I don’t think I could handle seeing them together or seeing pictures of her or anything. That will make getting over this slightly easier. But it doesn’t take the pain away of feeling like I’m completely replaceable. That’s a horrible feeling.
    I really do hope he finds happiness (whether it’s with his married mistress or someone else – I think he’s got a lot of serious self-esteem and confidence issues), but I’ve decided that instead of trying to salvage even just a friendship with this person, I need to cut any and all ties once he gets his stuff out of the apartment. I’m planning on seeing a therapist, moving to a new apartment, and joining some clubs to meet people. I know the steps to take to get my life back on track.
    The only thing I don’t know how to deal with is I’m worried that I’ll never be able to trust anyone again (at least not all my trust). I gave 100% of my trust to this person and look where that got me…. I don’t want the actions of my ex to ruin any potential for a future relationship I might have. I don’t think you can have a good relationship without trust. I’m worried that he’s ruined that for me. I need help.

    • Sasha

      Hi Jennifer. So sad to hear what your going through. Regardless of how long you e been together ,love is love. I think your doing the right things. I’m seeing a therapist and god,has it helped. Your going no contact, removing anything that concerns your ex, and going out and meeting new people. Bravo,Hun, your on the right path. And regardless if you decided it was the end ( pretty much the same as me) it still hurts to find out that the one person who you trusted has deceived you in the worst way. Listen Jennifer, this is all about him,so let him own the crappy title. Deceitful, liar. Lacks self esteem ,confidence…..now when I think of my ex with all those wonderful qualities (haha) I thank my lucky stars I don’t have to put up with his crap anymore. And you should thank your lucky stars. Your therapist will help you with those negative feelings,but look at it this way…..you definitely won’t go for a man like that again. You’ll see the signs before you dive in….I am far from ready to date again, I’m still finding out and working out things…but I’m excited that the man I fall in love with, will be well worth the wait,and I will be a very good place…emotionally!
      My role at the moment is to help my daughter who is suffering,something she can thank her daddy for….anyway Jennifer, we are a positive,supportive community here,so always here to chat. You will get through this,rise from the proverbial flames,and come through the other end stronger,wiser and thankful. It’s a journey….hugs x

  • Carol

    Hi Sasha, thankyiu sweetheart, yes it was a good feeling, it could cost him about a thousand pounds I think as its only the petition I think he’s been ordered to pay but he won’t be happy and its a victory. I know he will appeal it and fight to the death but even that will cost him. I’m hoping it gives hope for the court case in full regarding spouse maintenance and pension, it may worry him. You are a great Mum Sasha and indeed you are the only one you’re dear daughter can trust thanks to his actions. These men deserve to be alone, they chose this we didn’t. Ironically mine used to say to me I know I can cope better on my own than you can!! Yet he made sure he had someone to go too as he can’t cope alone yet I’m alone. Take care love, hugs to you and your daughter xx

  • Carol

    Hi Sasha, always love it when you post as you boost me up. Yes these men don’t know how to love the only people they love are themselves. I’m sorry he still has to be in your life, he is a crap father and I hope he realises what he has lost in you and your lovely daughter. I’m so going yo try on the attachment. I had a little bit of karma today, not a lot but a bit. I had a letter from my solicitor today saying that the district judge has granted my decree nisi on the grounds of his unreasonable behaviour, in that unreasonable behaviour box my solicitor had written about the cheating and financial things he’d done. Well the karma bit is that the judge has made an order that my ex pays the divorce fee himself not half and half like he wanted, this even though I applied for the divorce!!! He will be very angry when he reads that plus the letter he will be getting requesting evidence for all the lies he’s told on his disclosure, which of course he doesn’t have. I’m a bit more hopeful that if this judge saw through him after just reading the basic information then when I self represent in court and his lies and deceit come out then I may stand a chance of getting some financial justice. Love and hugs Sasha and yo everyone here xx

      • Carol

        Hi Anika love, yes a small victory but still a victory I didn’t expect. He wanted us to go halves on the petition costs so he won’t be happy at all, he will fight but it will cost him to appeal I think. Hope you’re OK, hugs to you xx

    • Sasha

      Hey Carol….I’m fist pumping the air for you. Karma is a b**ch isn’t it. I think your ex is stuck in the 70s if he thinks he can get away with his lies. Long gone are the days when men were believed over women in the courtroom, just because they were men!
      And he’s had to pay all the court costs so double fist pump!
      I think these men’s brains are in their pants, cause they certainly don’t think logically. I’ve come to the realisation that my ex will never change with his shi@@y parenting, so I just have to remain the calm in the storm. Throwing money at my daughter and excessive calling is merely pushing her further and further away. She has now been diagnosed with separation anxiety . I have to be careful that I’m not too far away, otherwise she gets scared. It’s so blooming sad. My therapist said this is because I’m the only parent she truly trusts,and unfortunately given time she will totally detatch from him, unless he starts being the parent she needs…..the man hasn’t a clue what he’s done,and I’m in the thinking that I will deal with this together with my daughter to get her through it. I know I can’t depend on him. He’s already filled her head with so much crap already.
      I fear he will have no one in his later years ,and that saddens me, because he’s done it himself.
      Anyway Carol, now you are getting confirmation that karma exists, and long may it continue ..hugs to you and all the people here, getting through the day.

  • Jenn

    My husband left me last Friday without warning. He moved to Portland, OR to be with a female coworker who moved there, WITH HER BOYFRIEND, for school. She’s 23, my husband is 40. Not only did he destroy our marriage, he sabotaged her relationship as well. What’s worse is he left our 5 year old son here with me without money, food or transportation. I feel like a failure. I’m sad all of the time. I’m stuck in our marital home. He started projects around the house that he didn’t finish. I’m just not sure how to get through this.

  • Carol

    Well I’m so low today, sobbing my heart out. I had a letter from my solicitor saying that she’s not even sure if I should represent myself in court despite all the lues he’s told on his form e and the evidence I have to prove it all. He smirked at me in July and said you won’t get a penny from me as I’ll say I have nothing, now he has two incomes and I’m on disability. After 27 years I deserve maintenance and pension and the money back he stole. I still want to do ut myself as at least I will have tried. Why do they get away with everything, they are so cruel. I’m lost and broken yet hes still kicking me. I’m heartbroken, where is the justice its so unfair x

  • Sasha

    Hi ladies. I want to talk about the effects cheating has on the kids. My beautiful daughter has been suffering with anxiety which has now manifested into panic attacks. I’ve been watching closely and have identified it’s due to daddy constantly ringing her, constantly asking if she still loves him, constantly wanting to know what’s going on at home. The poor girl can’t breath. While he was away, her anxiety eased. The man is devoid of emotional well being. It’s all about him. I cradled my teen Wednesday night and we really talked and were truthful with each other. She hates I don’t talk to dad, she hates that her dad has lied,manipulated and generally given her the view that he’s not the man she thought he was. He’s minimised her having counselling,told her not to tell his parents….I wonder why!
    I’m in contact with school, her counsellor and have texted her dad to say back off, support her and try to stop questioning her …I wanted to rip his head off, but you can’t . I want to let his parents know ,but I doubt they would listen. I mean they haven’t been to the house since we split. The only time they see their only grand child is if he takes her..so every six weeks or so. They live two minutes away!
    What I’m learning is I have to be the better parent. I have to nurture, love, discipline,champion,cradle,talk,and be the voice of reason. My god, it’s hard, but she is the one thing in my life I want to get right. If I could take it away I would. I hope in time he truly understands the shit he has caused. I also truly hope he doesn’t loose the father,daughter relationship…. I’m not sure!

    • Carol

      Sasha darling, its so difficult, these men are total scumbags to not only abandon their families but to try to minimize the carnage they leave behind and the emotional damage to us and our dear children. I can never understand the mentality of people like that. I’m truly sorry that your darling daughter has been so affected by him, you are an amazing mum and I’m so glad as is she I’m sure that she has one decent stable parent in her life. The disappointment she feels in her father must be immense and he must take on board how his behaviour has affected her psychologically.

      They also can have us at each other, me and my eldest, she’s 38 had major words yesterday, she and her brothers are so angry at him but she shouted at me yesterday saying I’ve got to let it go, get angry and move on, she said if she was left she’d just get in with it and going online and talking to people about it will not help but stop healing. I told her all I wanted was a bit of comfort because for some reason I’d thought of my ex and his trollop as a couple, it may sound silly but I’d never thought in that context before as we were the couple, now they are, it distressed me and I was in floods, my daughter couldn’t understand, she said its nothing flipping new, you know there together so why’s this upsetting you. I couldn’t answer as I just don’t know why, I hate to think of him with someone else, I wish I knew how you all deal with that.

      Sasha, you’re daughter couldn’t ask for a better mum, she knows exactly what her dad has done and how he’s behaved and he’s a big disappointment to her which is hard to bear as like we do with our husband the children too out them on a pedestal. Thinking of you both, lots of love and hugs xxx

    • Anika

      Since our break up my eldest daughter developed OCD. I know ocd is due to genetic factors but she’d never had that before.so I think it was triggered by her crappy father’s actions. She was happy child, full of joy. My girl was looking forward to going for the family holiday last summer till the day she found out that daddy wasn’t going with us. She loves him dearly and there was a time she felt guilty because of that. I explained that he is still her father, he loves her more than anything and nothing will ever change it. It was obviously big fat lie because he loves himself the most and his happiness is more important than happiness of his own children. He is showering them with presents, this is his method of parenting, he thinks he can buy anything with money, even love. Ohh I so hate him for that…!
      I’m trying to do everything to make her happy child again and I hope i will be successful. My kids are my priority, that’s the difference between me and him.
      Sasha hugs to you and your beautiful daughter. fingers crossed she will fully recover from that.

      • Sasha

        Thankyou carol and Anika. Walked to the car this morning and the ex was waiting with my son. Asked lots of questions,and it took me all my strength to answer cordially. Never in my wildest dreams did I think my ex could be such a professional twat! He has torn his daughters heart out, destroyed her teen years, destroyed her trust in him, and generally been so selfish, it’s untrue. And still he thinks I want to talk to him. Sat in his car trying to converse about anything and nothing. Asking if I will let him know what the doctor says ….but do you know what? He had no effect on me. I saw a stranger. No flutter of the heart, no yearning, absolutely nothing! Amazing that like your ex Anika, buys her everything she wants, gives her a generous monthly allowance,and thinks that’s parenting, fu@@ the feelings part,or th3 wellbeing of your child….

        • Carol

          Hi sweetheart,
          He has no concept of what he’s done does he, like the rest of them evil idiots. You were amazing Sasha, I can’t wait to get to where I feel nothing instead of all this pain bless your heart love, hugs to you xxx

          • sasha

            Morning Carol. I hope today is a better one for you. Carol, everything you are going through is a path,to where you need to be. If all of us were honest, the biggest thing that pisses us off, is that we feel sidetracked in the beginning. Blinded by the ultimate betrayal, by a man we thought we knew. Carol, if you had never met your husband but knew him in passing,and heard how he’d behaved,you wouldn’t go near him with a barge pole. You’d see him as a weak, pathetic lying cheat. Youve to feel sorry for these men, who selfishly think about only themselves. We may idealise our relationship with them, but when you get truthful with yourself, the cracks were there. Trying to work through things just doesn’t happen because either one or both can’t be bothered!
            When you take those rose tinted glasses off, then you get angry,work through that, then grieve ready to put it away in a box and start rebuilding your life. Now, if you think for one minute that he is having a dandy time, think again. Cause when the dust settles,and he sees you getting on with out him,he will wonder! He may not come back, you may not want him back, but I don’t believe god intended any of us to go though this, without an outcome that will better us as people.
            My therapist says to me after each session….. be kind to yourself, and do one positive thing a week. Some days it’s just getting through the day, others it’s going out with friends, last week was getting new flooring in the kitchen….the flooring I always wanted, the expensive flooring….that I worked for! Hell I felt accomplished, and proud!
            I’m forever changed. That woman who existed before we split, doesn’t exist. She’s long gone. Now, I’m stronger, and weaker, I’m happier,and sometimes sadder, I’m feeling my way through the nightmare and beating it hands down. Why? Because I know he got the raw end of the deal. He has no real family now, he’s a part time dad, he’s with the woman he cheated with, and will eventually look at her as the problem of all the chaos he created, he will mask his faults and sadness to his friends,he will hate you, he will miss you,he will blame you…..but ultimately he will realise he fu@@ed up and there is no going back. He will know people will be talking about him, he knows he will loose friends, he knows .
            All the pain your going through is partly you ruminating. Self inflicted! Stop doing it, and each morning think, today is about ME! Carol, concentrate on getting better, really try to make the effort,and stop and think how lucky you are to have your children, grandchildren,friends…..you are the most important person in all of this,and you CAN do it. Life is short,too short. Try not to waste it feeling miserable.hard I know, but at the end of the day only you can make that change. Always here to listen. Today you are the warrior who won’t take any more sh!t! Hugs xxxx

        • Carol

          Dear Sasha, thank you so much sweetheart. I needed your post today as always as yesterday I was in bits, I had a letter from my solicitor saying again it would be far too expensive to take him to court but she also said it may not even be worth me doing it myself despite me being able to prove all his lies, I have the documented evidence. She also said the stress may be too much plus of course I still owe her money as it is!! She has though compiled a letter asking him to provide evidence and documents which he won’t be able to do. God I sobbed like a baby at the thought of him and her getting away with it, they have two salaries coming in yet he stole all my money and left me on disability plus I remember him smirking at me saying I’ll not get a penny out of him as he will say he has got nothing. It makes me so upset and frustrated, where’s the bloody justice. I’m trying to get strong Sasha, sometimes I’m angry but not enough. My Son came yesterday and just hugged me and held me, he says they will help with forms etc so I can fight for what I’m due. He said he understands 27 years is a long time and the rejection and betrayal is painful but he said I’ll get there. I didn’t tell my son how scared I am of still having feelings for that monster and missing him because he’d think I’m mad, even I don’t get it. Did you Sasha really love your ex for a long time and did any of you lovely ladies out there love yours a lot, how do you lose that if breaking up wasn’t our choice, how does that missing them and loving them feeling go away? I so want it too as I could move forward much quicker. I used to be truly strong and confident until this. And why the hell am I jealous if that trollop. My head knows he’s a evil wicked man now yet its like I still remember when he was really nice and kind, I find it hard accepting she’s not getting the best of him while I’m getting the evil side. I’m so glad you are getting stronger Sasha and you got your flooring, you are my inspiration love, lots of hugs xxx

          • Sasha

            Carol, how do you measure love? What I do know is any love I had for him has long gone. The person he is now is the stranger who happens to be the father to our daughter. And what a crap job he’s doing so far. I mean what prick knowingly causes so much crap,and still doesn’t take responsibility!
            I’ve wanted to scream today. Yet again, he’s doing the taxi service,so he gets to see out daughter. But, I have to let it happen, I have to hope that he isn’t talking rubbish to her. I also want my daughter to have that relationship,because they were very close before . Unfortunately he managed to f@@k that up big time,and that breaks my heart. Not for him, but her. I make excuses for him,and try and rationalise his behaviour because I’m trying to shield her from his bull!
            Love is earned,and if someone behaves the way our exes have, they definitely don’t deserve any of our love, sympathy or time. As long as my ex is being a half decent dad, then I just keep moving. Carol, detach,detach,detach. Hugs xxx

  • Carol

    Dear friends, why is everyday like flipping groundhog day? Everyone is helping me on this lovely blog, also by phone, in person or text but I’m letting everyone down as I still cry every single day over him. I can think I’m doing a bit better then wham a trigger. Yesterday it was because our old marital home has had an offer on it so that will be gone. Due to my health and him I’ve lost my career, my voluntary work, my marriage and my home it hurts so much. Today a friend text me to say don’t worry about that couple anymore, they aren’t worth it, well seeing the word couple triggered me as of course I know they are together I just hadn’t thought of it in that context before, they are a couple yet we used to be a couple, its overwhelmed me and hurts so much. How could he abandon me after 27 years and not look back for a second, he’s never said sorry, I know I could never have him back but it hurts that he never wanted too despite not being 100% sure he wants to be with her. My children are wonderful but say I must stop talking about him now but I’m living alone and flooded by thoughts of him and her. What am I doing wrong, why can’t I do this, I’m 57 years old yet have been crying out for my late parents today like a child xx

  • jane

    Hi all

    So, my idiot husband has now sunk to new levels of disgustingness. It’s not enough that after 3 years of coming and going with my so called friend, he finally left leaving his 3 little girls distraught, set up home with her and her kids opposite my kids’ school and flounces around like daddy warbucks in love, he now claims his business is worth nothing. So, he thinks it’s fair that we should sell the house and he’ll take half, I will have to go get a full time job as I have the ability to earn as much as him and so my girls will lose their home and their mummy wont be around much either. How can he possibly think this is OK? Why would any man want to do this to his kids? Oh and by the way he’s living in a 5 bed beautiful house, takes around 150K a year from his business and is currently on his 8th holiday of the year. Nice! Solicitor says not to worry but how can you not?

    • Anika

      Spechless.. What an egomaniac! How do those people can look into the mirror without disgust? How it’s possible his happiness is more important than his own children, his flesh and his blood? My husband did the same thing, just moved to his gf soon after my discovery. He didn’t care that that time our little girl had really nasty infection, that I was in extreme distress. He didn’t call to ask how was she, nothing. why would he care? For these narcissistic men they’re gods. They feel they can cheat because they’re so so special. I don’t think there is a cure for that…
      Take care

      • Martha

        Dear Ladies, now its been 9 months and counting for me after I found out about my husband infidelity or should I say my ex as he didn’t treat me as his wife again. Divorce is still not in the agenda. He moved out 2 months ago. Living by himself but I knew the OW has his apartment keys and sleepover few times a week. Even though he still comes home almost everyday to see the our 3 daughters and still see me almost everyday too at work, he seems more distant from us. His mother is living with me. She is frustrated too. I try to be civil as he keeps saying that I can keep all the asset and he only receives monthly payroll from our company which Im doing the Finance. If I give him a hard time, I worry that he will finalise the divorce and he will take half of our asset. Sometimes I still feel devastated, sad and pity myself from not being able to let him go and why I still love him and want him back. Sometimes I feel so angry and thinking of not letting him come home freely. I have mix feeling towards this issue. Most of the time, I just try to calm my self, pray more, doing more golf by myself which usually I played with him.
        How should I outsmart his OW? I know she is after our assets. She made my ex blinded by her charms even tough he knew she cheated her husband few times before with him. It’s just crazy and it does not make any sense. I knew this from their texting and my husband confirmed this issue.
        If only we all live nearby, having able to meet you all virtually in this thread is already a blessing for me. Hugs

  • Rochelle

    I thank you for this information, 2 months ago I caught my husband of 13 years, having an affair. He travels considerably for work and has been working about 1100 miles from home on and off for 16 months, he apparently met a woman on n his hotel and began an affair, not his first although I forgave him, I’m so hurt he did this again, and he filed for divorce. I want to hate him, and parts of me do but I still miss him, and that makes me feel like a fool. He behaves very coldly torwards me when we speak, I don’t know this man at all. I can not wrap my brain around the fact my life has been turned upside down, I’m barley getting through the day, yet he is posting photos and raving about his “great life” with this new woman. I’m bursting into tears at the drop of a dime and I see no end in sight.

  • Carol

    Hi dear friends, someone asked me today if my ex had an exit affair as he detached from me a couple years ago and has turned so evil. She said he acted cowardly abandoning me after surgery, taking all the money, emotionally and financially abusing me then and now. She said maybe he doesn’t love this woman but wanted out as he said he couldn’t cope anymore and because in July he wanted to move back into our empty marital home for time and space to think, that he loved me, but that may not be enough, that he may come home he didn’t know. When I said he couldn’t move in there as it needed to be sold he got angry but went back to hers where he still is, I don’t even know if she knew of his plans. I’m going to have to take Jim to court to expose all his financial lies as I really need spouse maintenance and pension but I’m afraid he’s going to get angry when he gets the letter from my solicitor asking him to answers all my questions regarding the lies on his court document form E. He doesn’t know I can prove the lies but he says a judge will believe him when he says he has no money left each month. I’m just confused if it was an affair as he loves her or whether he’s using her too. Either way I want karma to hit them both do hard. Tonight I just sat here and sobbed like a baby at how he could rip my life apart for her, I hate her, why the hell do I miss this monster, my head knows what he’s done but my heart can’t catch up, everyone around me can see it, everyone here can see it. I want to stop loving him but don’t understand how that can happen. I get frustrated and angry with myself as I try everything, plus they are in my head so much still, my imagination of course runs riot, its all rosy and lovely in their relationship, I don’t know that, they could argue all the time but not in my mind. I’m so glad I can vent here. Thankyou so much xx

    • Misti

      Hi Carol, I truly believe the only way through it is to feel every emotion and cry if you have to. One day (hopefully soon) you will wake up and not cry anymore and it will get better day by day. I use to cry every day all day long and now I’m to the point where I go days without crying and I don’t think about him like I use to. I’m actually getting to where I really don’t care. I don’t want to hear about him or hear about what he’s up to. It just doesn’t matter. He’s not a part of my life anymore. Granted we still run the business together so I do talk to him maybe once or twice a week. Before that use to devastate me and I would try to keep him on the phone for as long as possible. Now I just talk about business and then say okay thanks so much. Give yourself time to heal. You will get there. Everyone is different but I do believe you have to mourn the loss of him like a death but you will get better. Hugs to you and everyone here

      • Carol

        Dear Misti,
        Thankyou so much for your kind words and help, I’m truly sorry you’ve been put through all this too. It comforts me to know things will get better, I just need to believe that, Sasha and Annika on here have been wonderful and patient with me too and now knowing you were crying all day everyday like me but now don’t gives me hope. I just miss him so much and hate her with a vengeance yet he did it all and didn’t have too. I can’t understand why I can have loving feelings for a man like that, no one around me knows why either. I hope you carry on getting stronger love. Thank you so much xx

    • Sasha

      Hi carol. Your grieving for the relationship. It’s irelevant if it’s an exit affair. That’s something only time will tell. Stop demonising their relationship. It will do you no good. I totally u derstand how you hate her, but look at it another way. You have no idea what he’s told her about you. She has no moral compass,and she has to live with the shit her and your husband have created. Now he may get mad when he finds out you have proof…tough!
      Now is the time to look after YOU only. Carol, your still here, I’m sure you’ve managed to laugh at certain times,throughout this….and your working through becoming that person who wants to be happy…and you will be.
      If you think they are loving the happy ever after,think again. He’s lost his family, his home, will soon be known as the man who thieved from his wife….I’d say, his life is far from perfect. Please stop ruminating,because you can’t change a thing.
      What you can do is CHOOSE your mood, it’s said, the pain from a break up lasts at most 20minutes…any longer then it’s self inflicted. You have to consciously stop. Keep doing it and in time it will become automatic.
      You are a wonderful woman who IS getting through this. I promise, that there will come a time when he doesn’t fill your thoughts…hugs hunni xxxx

      • Carol

        Dear Sasha, as usual you are the voice of reason I just don’t know what’s wrong with me. Why can’t I be strong like you and the other ladies here, my children want their Mum back and I’m letting them down. I feel like a weak failure as I want my head to see what a horrible man he’s turned into as its like I can’t accept it. Its the trauma of how he did it just abandoning me, sick and with no money and hasn’t bothered since, so cruel. I could never do that to anyone. I want to forger them so much and leave him behind but 27 years is so long. I don’t want to feel broken anymore I truly don’t. I’m so grateful to you and everyone here hugs to you xxx

  • Tam

    My heart is with you Patricia as I am in the same boat. My husband and I moved to this town 7 years ago. We have both worked hard and have two beautiful teenagers.
    Husband has always been very outgoing and makes friends easily. I like to keep to myself and life for me is all about my children, my home, my pets and my work. My husband told us – on Fathers Day, a fortnight ago, that he’s been seeing and sleeping with a work associate for the past three months. I am at a loss, absolutely shocked and let down. The children are devastated. He’s gone already and got a flat with her. I’ve been left alone, no family close by, no real friends, just me. Lonely and trying to navigate thru this with the kids just as heartbroken as me. It’s hell on earth and as optimistic and supportive I’m trying to be im scared. And very worried about our future. Financially and emotionally.

    • Tam

      The length of time together was 18 years. And it’s horrible to feel so disposed of and discarded after nearly two decades of putting him and everything he wanted and needed before myself. This really is the climax of a mans selfishness and ego.

  • Annika

    Carol I know what you feel and I can only imagine how hard it is for you after 27 years together( This year it was our 10th anniversary, together 14 years). I have two young kids to look after so I’m trying to be strong but I always feel down closer the weekend when I know he’ll come to visit children and he’ll behave like nothing ever happend. He looks offended when I’m cold and official towards him. He expect me “to behave” because he’s paying me quite good money ( recently he’s not doing this in regular spells so it will end soon I feel..) What I realised is that I do not love him anymore, in fact I detest him so much that I feel almost sick! Last weekend he didn’t come to see children, his phone was off and his mother had panicked that maybe something bad happened to him. I was dissapointed when he called back in the evening ( told me some bull***t excuse), it crossed my mind that I would prefer him to suffer or even be dead! Scary I know, but that make me think that I don’t care about him or love him. It is just the hurt I feel, the fact that he is enjoying his new life, being with 10 years younger woman..
    I envy Sasha that her ex is suffering with his trollop, that she has a satisfaction of knowing that. For me and you Carol is bad that “our” husbands so easily discarded us and they lead shamelessly happy lifestyle. I wish karma was real.
    I can’t say anything to comfort you darling but I wan’t you to know that I’m here thinking of you. Hugs to You, Sasha and other ladies here.xxx

    • Carol

      Annika, thank you so much sweetie for taking the trouble to help me it means a lot. It is such a heartbreaking journey to be on and we never chose it. I’m truly sorry you have been treated so badly too. No one deserves it. I know I definitely want things to go wrong with them but its not happening fast enough, he has loads of debt and she has three teenage children at home so that will drive him crazy after a while as he grumbled if our children and grandchildren were noisy or made a mess. I just need to find the strength to fight him in court. My head knows he’s a liar a cheat and a thief but my heart doesn’t seem able to accept it yet, it still seems to see the kind caring man he was. I can’t wait until I no longer miss him or have feelings for him. I hate her and want to hate him. I know what you mean about weekends, I used to love them as we went places together, now I detest them as memories flood in. My children and friends are great but they want nothing to do with him and can’t understand why I can’t be like them, and neither can I. I just wish I could fast forward time. Sasha here is an amazing lady as are you. I need to find the courage and strength you both have and other great people here have. Thankyou x

    • sasha

      Hey Anika, . I totally get your hate and anger, worry about the future because I’m still feeling all those things to a certain degree. We all feel it. I’m embarrassed,especially as I live in a small town where everyone thinks they know your business. This morning I painted my face, did my hair and went to do the weekly shop. One of my exes so called mates ( haha) was there and came up to me to talk. I still feel I need to project the happy image. He started to say something about my ex,and I stopped him mid sentence.I Said unfortunately I’m really not interest,and am in a rush. Lovely seeing you,then continued shopping. My wonderful friends who have stuck by me,know that I don’t need to hear every detail of what he’s doing. That is for my sanity,more than anything. BUT, I’m resolute in the fact that the man I spent so long with will never ever have the pleasure of my company in his lifetime again. I have never suffered fools,and other than having to discuss daughter issues I am really not interested. It’s been 18 months,and I have come to realise afew things….which you will too
      1- im worth more than he will ever know
      2- my life IS better without him in it
      3- I cannot control what he does / says
      4- I CAN control what I do / say
      5- he will forever be known as a liar, cheat,dickhead
      6- his child has no respect for him
      7-I am becoming the person I want to be
      8- the next man I fall in love with ,will be someone I can truly cherish,respect and love without fear
      9- I am doing things on my own
      10- the future is something to look forward to.

      As hard as it’s been I’ve continued to focus on my daughter and I. We are planning a long weekend in London half term. My friends are my rock, and even at 50, I’ve got my shit going on! Haha. You, Carol and all the other wonderful ladies can and will get through this. I’ve still got some way to go, but do you know what? I will be damned if I let that twat dictate my moods. I will be damned if I give him my time, and him and his disfunctional family can go rot in hell where they belong. Our children need to see one parent showing them true morals, love,expectations and trust. Love to you and all the other wonderful ladies here. Kick ass! Xxx

      • Anika

        Sasha to the rescue, as usual ..! Sasha I really admire your strength, you’re such an inspirational woman. I woke up last night and couldn’t go back sleep and my head was full of worry then I thought about you how strong and positive person you are and my ”nightmare” was over. I thought if Sasha can do it, I do the same and I try to look on the bright sight of the whole mess. You are right we are better without these lying, selfish, narcissistic scumbags! I survived somehow last weekend, I saw him briefly, he didn’t even say ”Hi” for the first time, there was no small talk, nothing. He seemed to be angry with me, my daughter said that in the restaurant he was texting constantly to his tart and went outside to make a phone call. Wonder why? Anyway, I’m done with him and I’m not going to ”investigate” the reason of his unpleasant behaviour.
        I booked a holiday cottage with my friends for this half term in a lovely picturesque place, I want to show my children that they can have fun with mummy, show them that holiday without daddy can be exciting too.
        I’m certainly not ready for another man, truthly I don’t want to rely my happiness on another man. I try to be happy on my own and then we’ll see.. My priority is my family, my two lovable children and work. You’re telling the truth, we’re women with moral standards, we are worth more than they ever know and they will forever be known as dickheads. Big brava to you and lots of love to everybody here.Thanks for cheering me up Sasha!

        • Sasha

          Hey Anika. Thankyou for your kind words, and bravo for getting through the weekend. I totally agree that we shouldn’t be with a man just for happiness,and you have the same views as me. I’m certain,y not ready yet to rush into a relationship,and that in itself will stand me in good stead. I certainly dont want to carry all the BS into the next relationship.
          What a fab idea to get away with the kids. I cherish my time with my daughter. We do far more together, and make far more wonderful memories. Other than take her on the annual BS boring holiday to the holiday home,my ex does bugger all with her. All he’s good for is throwing money at her. Some memory hey?
          My home is our haven and the changes I’ve made have made the place fresh and new. Not one sign of him ever living here haha. That really has been therapeutic. He really is becoming the dickhead stranger and the thought of him makes me cringe.
          I was with a client today,and she told me I was a beautiful person inside and out…now that’s worth more to me…I left with a spring in my step and validation that I’m a decent human being.
          Your doing great Anika, onwards and upwards. Wouldn’t it be great if we could all meet up,chat and laugh! Hugs for this week xxx

          • Anika

            Sasha you made my day yesterday! I’m so glad you’re doing so well and your positive energy attracts other people. I do feel so much better too. He is showing more and more his true colours and that makes me think I’m better without that asshole. I don’t want to waste my life.! I don’t regret I met him because I have two beautiful children and what we had few years back was the pure love. What he has now is dirty and soiled relationship based on lies and suffering of his family but it is his mess. What I have is a clear conscience and the fact that I can look into the mirror and think that I’m a decent woman just like you Sasha. I agree it would be fantastic to meet up sometimes in the future, Carol get better love!!.
            Carol you get over that too. You” let it bleed, let it hurt, let it heal and then let it go”. I hope that there will be the time when you become so tired of thinking about him and his nasty partner that you’ll just simply give up and leave it behind you.Sooner or later he will drown in his muddy water.
            I’m visiting also regularly another website for ”chumps” like us and it helps me tremendously. There are more of us everywhere. Keep fighting, you’ll get back up again.xxx

  • Carol

    Patricia, I’m so very sorry about what’s happened to you. Sasha here is amazing she’s helped me so many times. I was totally abandoned too after 27 years, he left me after major surgery and emptied all the bank accounts and took my own personal money. The children and grandchildren want nothing to do with him. He’s moved in with her which hurts so much. Like you I think of them together all the time. Please take Sashas advice on board she really knows, I just wish I had her strength but I’ve not got there yet. My heart goes out to you, hang on in there you don’t deserve this after so many years. Thinking of you xx

  • Patricia

    Hi It is so nice to see that I’m not alone, because I am feeling very alone. My husbad of 40 yrs. told me 3 months ago he has been having an affair with his assistant at work for 2 years and left me to move in with her. I can’t believe the pain I feel. I thought something was going on with him, but I couldn’ prove anything as thier affair was going on during work hours. He was always home his usual time every night, but something was different. I think of them together all the time. I know I have to move on but it is very hard. I can’t discuss how I feel with my children as they are also in alot of pain and I don’t want to add anymore for them. My friends are also my husbands & he still sees them (the men) but it is hard to talk to our friends as I don’t want to put them in the middle of this mess. I am a strong person but it is very hard when you feel so alone. So far he has been reasonable financially , but I have no idea how long that will last. I retired about the same time as he started having his affair. Now I have no job, my family & friends live hours away, I sit in my empty house out in the country just thinking about them together and how he could give up his children ( they don’t talk to him anymore) grandchildren, home and a future we had planned for retirement for many years. I hate that he says he’s happy, when all I have is pain. It’s easy to say I have to move on but I don’t know how. The future is very scary right now for me. Again it is comforting that I am not the only women going through this.

    • Sasha

      Hi Patricia. I’m so sorry your going through this. I think your still at the shocked stage and no doubt the time you were together was an absolute lifetime.
      I totally understand your scared of the future,like most of us here. What I would say is ,it’s early days for your husband. He may have been carrying on with the OW during office time, but it’s a whole other ballgame when they start to spend proper time together. That really is the testing time. My ex moved in with the OW almost immediately after splitting. Didnt take him long to realise she ain’t all that. The problem is he’s stuck with her now,cause he knows I don’t want his sorry ass back. Doesn’t mean I’m not struggling. My ex makes great money, pays half the mortgage and child maintenance ( we weren’t married although together over twenty years). However he moaned forever about the amount he pays . I was just too smart for him and photocopied everything. Bank accounts, work accounts….I had to safeguard my daughter some how.
      I hope your husband continues to treat you the right way, but if it were me I’d start snooping, and get to grips with all things financial. Take each day as it comes, cry, get angry, but I would leave him to it. I’m pretty sure at some point he will throw some crumbs to see where the land lies…they always do. Try and get out with friends, don’t sit in the house, cause that will drive you mad. Be kind to yourself hun we are all here with support. Hugs xx

      • Patricia

        Thanks Sasha I have already been printing financal things. I also found a hidden account that he has and has had for a few years, printed that information. I know he can change the way he is treating me anytime, so I am trying to protect myself as best I can.
        I am seeing family & friends as much as possible for company. I have decided to join a gym, hopefully it will give my mind a break.
        I hope it will get easier.
        So sorry you are also going through this.
        Take care of yourself, chin up.
        Hugs

  • Carol

    Hi dear friends, well I thought I was doing a bit better, now I found out he hasn’t paid the mortgage or secured loan since pay even at the reduced rate they allowed. His solicitor kept saying I held up the sale and causing the arrears but its actually him doing it!!! He said on his financial disclosure he’s paying £800 mth but he’s paying nothing, no utilities either because he’s with her. He’s take home pay after all tax deductions is £550 a week, maybe more yet he says he can’t live. Its so upsetting that he lies all the time. A few days ago my therapist and gp pointed out to me that over the last three or four years I have been psychologically, emotionally and financially abused, my whole career was in medical and mental health yet I never realised, I feel so ashamed, I didn’t even know it was happening to me. I’m still crying everyday, the strength I want hasn’t arrived yet, can any if you lovely people tell me how to cope with them living together, I try to distract myself but I keep picturing them playing happy families in her home like he did for 27 years in ours. How can he just walk away and feel nothing, leave me alone and leave the children grandchildren and friends for someone he says he likes but doesn’t know if he loves, he said she’s worth losing everyone for but doesn’t know why no one will speak to him!! I feel rejected, broken and for some reason jealous of her even yet I know he’s now a monster and so cruel so why can’t I detach. Its five mths since he left eight weeks no contact yet I’m thinking of them all the time . Any help would be so welcome x

    • Sasha

      Hi Carol.im so sorry you are going through this. He’s playing a very dangerous game isn’t he.?
      I realise you have limited funds, but can’t family help you fight his lies,and what is your solicitor doing.?
      It’s never ending BS,but all he has is his trollop,and mark my words his life will be extremely stressful. Continue NC,and give your solicitor a kick up the ass.
      I’m so pleased your seeing a therapist. It’s really resonated with me because my last session, my therapist said my partner was controlling. I’d never thought of it, but he always needed to know where i was, she said it was a form of domestic abuse. Now I think back ,she’s so right. He did it in a way that was very clever…..
      Carol, stop thinking of them. He’s pissed because everyone knows he’s a deceitful twat,and everyone knows he’s treated you very badly. He has to justify what he’s done and make you out to the baddy. It’s often the case I’m afraid.
      Carol, please start seeing him for what he is. A weak arsehole of a man. Where’s your fight girl, why aren’t you fighting to regain your life,that can be oh so great without him. You knew you wouldn’t get anything from the house,so let that go. BUT fight for spousal maintenance what ever way you can.
      I know my ex hates sending the maintenance every month,he hates I don’t speak, he hates I’m working and getting on with things,and most of all he hates that I don’t want him. He’s stuck with the ugly old trollop who shags other men behind his back,and I could blow his sad life apart, but I’m so done and realise he deserves his living hell….. I don’t need to say anything,because I don’t want him. His daughter sees a man who is desperate to change things but knows he cant,and says she doesn’t want us to get back together anyway.
      Keep going hun, try and dig deep,and work on getting better..look after you! Hugs xxx

      • Carol

        Oh dear Sasha, you are wonderful, always here when I need some help and a boost to move forward. He’s been making life hell love, despite no contact he’s financially trying to lie his way out of everything. Family and friends have helped me financially but my solicitor said she is happy to write him a letter asking questions and showing him and his solicitor that I have evidence for it all. Obviously he doesnt realise I have this and won’t be able to back his lies up. Plus now I’ve got statements on the way from the mortgage and secured loan companies which will show he’s not even paid the reduce rate since May!!! Yet on his form he’s saying he’s paying £800 a month. Hes paying nothing our yet saying he’s not got a penny left. My solicitor is giving him 14 days to respond and on the letter stating that she’s going to say if he doesnt then its going to court. I will fight Sasha, 27 years I devoted to him and worked most of it, he stole my money. I have the forms to apply myself and my solicitor said she will help in the background which will be much cheaper. Court will frighten him as he’s never been a brave man, hates confrontation. I’m hoping the marital home will sell soon as its had lots of interest, of course I scuppered his plans to move back in there, I still don’t know why he was going to as he just said he needs time and space to think so he’s still at hers. My Daughter said he’s stuck therw even if he doesn’t want to be as he’s nowhere else to go, the trollop is herself going through a divorce and has two teenage sons and a teenage daughter at home so that should be fun especially as he always moaned about the mess and noise our children and grandchildren made. I’m trying hard not to think of them together. I’ve written down all the awful things hes done and remember him saying she was worth losing everything for despite him not knowing if he even loves her!!! These people are disgusting. Like you I didn’t pick up on how I was being treated. I hope you and your darling Daughter are doing well. I so admire you. Thankyou for everything love xx

        • Sasha

          Hey Carol, that’s it, you make sure you show him out to be the liar he is. Hunny, I admire your determination,and I think you will be fine. My therapist said it can take several years to get through such deception and betrayal. Sod that haha. I’m 18 months along, still wake up panicking about my future, but the saving grace is I don’t have the ex . Trollop is oh so welcome to him,his lies,his laziness and he is welcome to a woman who has no class. I do sometimes wonder if he ever looks at her and thinks I gave up everything for you and it was the worst decision I’ve made. He knows he will never ever be in my life again, I made that perfectly clear,but I do miss the man I thought he was….unfortunately he doesn’t exist. All these men are pathetic,weak,manipulating excuses….Carol, my therapist said to me I should do counselling,something I’m looking in to. God, if I can get through this BS, I know I can get through anything. Got chatted up the other day,and damn it felt good. He asked if I fancied going for a drink, but I’m not ready yet.
          Hunni, wouldn’t it be great if we could catch up over coffee…I live in the West Midlands ….not sure where you are….anyway, stay strong and never give up on what you deserve. Hugs hun xxx

          • Carol

            Hi Sasha, sweetheart you would make a great Counsellor no doubt about it. You help all of us here so much despite going through this yourself. I’d love to meet up sometime, I’m in Somerset love. I’m trying to get stronger and I’m definitely going to show how much he’s lied on his court financial disclosure form. He doesn’t know I have the evidence that I do. I still have trouble accepting he’s living with trollop, why am I now getting his evil side while she’s getting the nice caring side. I think I put him on a pedestal for some reason and I’m struggling knocking him off. I know I have too hun. I got very upset this morning as I don’t yet know how to cope with triggers. I went to the town we used to live to meet a friend for a coffee, as it was early I didn’t think for a minute I’d see him. Well I parked up then about 20 yards in front of me I realised it was his car. I sat in mine as I somehow froze, for some reason I even shook, then he came out the barbers, got in his car and drove off, he didn’t see me. He didn’t look happy but not sad either, I only saw him for two minutes yet I sobbed like a child, I hated he was just carrying on like he hadn’t abandoned me or his family. That he was going back to her, my head knows he’s a liar, a cheat and s thief so why doesn’t the anger and hate I hold for her come for him yet? Its like I still miss him but he’s a monster Sasha. I need these emotions to go away, I so want to see him and feel nothing but is that possible after 27 years of loving someone. I hope you and your gorgeous Daughter are doing well. How great too that you were chatted up, I’m glad it made you feel good, you deserve it, uour ex is an idiot, didn’t realise what a good lovely person he had. Thankyou as always, take care xx

  • Carol

    Well I’m devastated, as well as lying all through his form E I’m now stuck. I saw my solicitor today and gave her the evidence to prove he’s lied. She said she can see how much he’s lied but it would cost me thousands to take him to court to prove it as I may get little in return. I broke down as after 27 years I feel I deserve spouse maintenance and pension, he’s living with her and she works. He’s lied, cheated and stole all the money. She said she will put together a letter with all my questions and queries and send it to his solicitor giving him 14 days to respond or a form A will go off to the court. My only option she said is to take him to court myself but I’m scared too as I will be alone there while he will have his solicitor. My solicitor said she will help in the background so it doesn’t cost nowhere near as much. I still can’t believe he’s done all this to me and still is being so cruel. I even still have feelings for him, this scares me everyday as I so want to fall out of love with him, is that possible after nearly 30 years he’s all I’ve known. I even feel jealous of her, non of these awful emotions make sense. Any help would be so appreciated. Thankyou

    • Sasha

      Hey Carol, how the hell is he affording a solicitor if he has no money? Or is the OW paying?
      What exactly is your solicitor doing? Has she given an indication of wether you could get maintenance out of him. I know your health isn’t good,so you have to ask yourself if it’s worth it.
      I totally get the pain you hold, but you need to start thinking of you. Carol why would you want that piece of s*** back? Would you ever trust him again ?
      How much do you value yourself?
      Listen, carol you will have good days,sh@@ days ,great days, bad days….only you can decide what attitude you will have for that day. Yes it’s hard and god it can be soul destroying,but come on girl change your mindset.!
      I completely hate my ex with every bone in my body, but do you know what, I told my therapist last Thursday,that I wanted to stop feeling like that….it doesn’t effect him, just me! She told me to start grieving for the relationship we had wether that was good or bad…..and that’s something I haven’t done. For me, it’s the end,to a better life. I love that he fathered my child, he was always a good provider, but hey, he has also cheated,lied,manipulated…..that is who he is,can’t change it. Like my therapist said, all his actions lead her to one conclusion,that even he knows he’s fu@&ed up, and wants to come back…unfortunately he also knows I’m not interested. I’m so over the BS,and I truly think all of us will be a million times better off I’m so positive the man who will truly cherish me,is winging his way into my life……for the time being, I’m working on me, So tomorrow I want you to do something nice for you….paint your nails,put your slap on, ring a friend……we all love you, and you are special….hugs xxx

      • Carol

        Sasha darling you always come to my rescue at the right time and I’m so glad you do. I think he’s paying for a solicitor with the £7000 he took from me!!! Mine thinks I could get money from him as he’s bringing home over £2000 a month and thankfully I can prove many of the things he’s lied about but she’s worried about the costs for me if I have to pay her for it. She is going to do a letter asking all the questions I want answered, he won’t be able to answer them, well not honestly anyway, she’s giving him 14 days to reply and stating if he doesn’t a form A will be sent to the court. The letter will also make his solicitor realise he’s lied to her several times and she signed off the form E on his behalf so I don’t think she will be pleased. I need the strong Carol to come back, my eldest son said today please don’t cry anymore its time to be a badass now and fight for what’s yours. I will fight, if I have to represent myself I will but its tough with all these emotions. I just remember him laughing at me saying you won’t get a penny from me as I’ll lie and say I’ve got nothing. I don’t think liars and cheats should prosper. My solicitor did say she’d help me in the background and thst won’t cost too much. Your therapist sounds good, I hope your dear Daughter and Son are doing well. Sounds like you’re ex is getting karma I so want thst for him and his trollop. I also want to hate him like you do yours. I need to get them out of my head, my days will be so much better then. Loads of love Sasha, you’re amazing xxx

  • Colleen

    My husband had an affair and I found out. At the time I knew my marriage was in trouble but we just kept doing everyday life kids, work, etc. My boys were 17 and 14 at the time very involved in baseball so I spent a lot of my time doing that. He started a new trucking job that would take him on the road, as I look back I see this was the beginning of an easy way to get away. One Sunday he went for a run and something inside said look in his truck. In the cab of his truck I saw a bag of tras with Xmas wrapping paper which I knew wasn’t mine. I looked through the the trash and found the tag that said To Bill Love Cheryl. Along with an empty box of KY jelly. My heart sank. He was leaving that night for his job and would be gone all week. I didn’t say anything when he got home from his run, Injust wanted to watch his actions. That week I did a lot of a lot of investigating. I found a Chery on his Facebook page found jewelry purchases on his bank acct. when he came home the end of the week I said we need to talk. We did I asked him Bill is there someone else 2x and he denied it and said when do I have the time really… At that point I took out the wrapping and said really who is Cheryl. He sat there stunned and said I’m sorry. I cried and said take me home. He said to me I’m sorry She is an old friend he dated I said really we have been together 28 yrs before me was my stepsons mom they were never married. She was before that so over 30 yrs ago and he was in his early 20’S then. Fast forward for almost a yr I thought we were working it out but t times I knew something was wrong I would asked and he say Intalked to her or she stopped at my work. He blames a lot of his issues on his childhood instead of taking accountability and I believe him everyone said these the excuse. I wouldn’t see it. I found the wrapping in Jan 2017 by Oct I thought we were moving forward. Backup… We tried counseling but he didn’t like the man so a friend suggested to me you can’t fix your marriage until your husband fixes himself, his sexual abuse a a child. You can sit back and be patient and in the end it may not work out which I did, but my husband would give me huge false hopes and I believed it would work. Then in Oct he was acting distant and I said what is wrong he said I don’t know I knew I said I didn’t think we would have this conversation again. I said you need to make a decision he said I can’t. I said well you just did you need to leave by fri. That was the hardest thing I ever did. I was still holding on thinking he will realize what he has done nd I’ll give him 90 days. Jan came and he spent the night after Superbowl party we made love and he even said to me the next day father he held me all night extremely tight and wouldn’t let go he didn’t want the night to end when the alarm went off. 2 weeks later he said he had divorce papers I cried and he gave then to me. My son would be graduating in June and my excuse was and advice from his sister tell him you need time don’t rush me I had a lot on my plate with graduation helping my son plan for college etc. He backed off and again I thought he needs this time to realize it is a mistake. Well after my sons Grad he got upset he wasn’t included in a party the felt he was excluded from my sons activities when this was not even a party for my son another grad. Maybe this is another plan to begin acting like jerk so I would get to the point of letting go. He said he had the papers revised I went over the 1st ones nd changed a few things he promised he would continue to pay his half of the mortgage not touch my 401k nd keep the boys in the home. Then the 3rd papers he blindsided me and severed me at a restaurant. He had the waitress serve me. The papers totally changed he wants half my 401k half equity in home nd so on. That day was the day I let go this man now disgusts me. Everyday it gets worse, I don’t cry over him it saddens me the family is no longer a unit and I worry about the future financially. I do have a good job that I could take over the mortgage but it is going to be a struggle. I’ve hired n attorney now initially his papers were written by him he wanted not us to lose money by hiring an attorney. I was advised at this point I need to hire attorney. He has changed into someone I don’t know. One day after his ugliness he was at the home with my son I was at work, left a card on my bureau saying “I don’t know the man I have become” “The tongue has no bones but it’s strong enough to break a heart. “For I know my transgressions and my Sin is ever before me.” ” I’m sorry I broke your heart” then a week later he did something and pressured me on the paper. He will find out this week I hired an attorney. I know I need to move forward I just can stop shaking my head how things have gone and this was a man who I married I know he has personal issues for so long I said to myself he is pushing me away intentionally because of the mess he has made and feels he can’t fix it now which is very cowardly. I also don’t know if he is with this women if they live together or what . In the beginning he slept in his big rig but you can’t live like that forever. How do I let go of trying to find out the real truth I just want to know what the real truth is. Yes we did lack in communication and that has a lot to do with our marriage gone bad and holding on to resentments and not talking about our feelings maybe because if I Tried he would always turn it around.
    Thanks this is long but I needed to write it down
    Colleen

  • Victoria

    Hi My husband of 6 years left me out of the blue 6 weeks ago he said he was unhappy and that things weren’t as they should be between us, leaving me wondering what I had done to let our marriage fail. He then revealed that he now has feelings for a woman he works with who he has been friendly with over the last 2 years. He still claims these feelings have only developed since he left me but I’m sure he has ended our marriage to be with her. I’m so broken and feel I will never get over him. I can’t stop thinking of the two of them together and wondering if they did have an affair. Will it help me to recover if I fight to know the truth or should I just accept it’s over and try and move on regardless!?

  • Michelle Capelle

    My heart is breaking. My husband of 30 years is leaving today. In my anger I’ve said some pretty awful things to him that I’ve apologized for, but this gives him justification to leave angry.
    I have been dealing with my husband’s emotional affair with a woman he worked closely with and ran groups with. He said he wanted to work on our marriage but we never had a chance. Initially he cut off the groups with her and she left the office to rent another one. Come to realize that the last 4 months, he reinstated the groups with her This has been going on close to two years. How I found out is I saw them having lunch together. They usually did after Wed/Thur group. I confronted them and this is what she told me in a extremely condescending voice. “Your marriage is DEAD. Don’t worry you will be taken care of for the rest of your life”. My husband piped in saying we need to talk about this later and she said “Oh let her talk after all this will be the last time”. She kept saying in the condescending voice voice “Oh I feel your pain”. She then proceeded to tell me that the reason he lied to me is because he was afraid of my anger. I responded with please don’t condescend to me and we had no chance with you interfering in our relationship. You deliberately went after a married man. You claim you love your daughter, but are you the kind of role model you want your daughter to emulate. Later after much scrutiny from many sources my husband told her she was cruel, left the group as a therapist for the second time plus left his writing group that she was involved in as well. Still as I went to visit him in his office, I noticed she had shifted the group meetings that she has to run alone to a empty office in the suite of offices instead of going back to the former group room setting outside of the of the suite. My husband claims this is temporary until this month. I can never trust him and that’s when I lost it and said very cruel things. The first time I suspected something was he was acting unusually irritable and snapped at me. I asked him if he was having an affair and he said an emotional one.

  • Stacia Baquerizo

    When my husband of 20 years left, I thought I would never recover. The pain was a feeling like I never thought was possible. I still am constantly torturing myself thinking what could I have done differently so he would have stayed and loved me. My head knows I have to move on and live the rest of my life but my heart doesn’t know how to live without him.

    • Misti

      Stacia hun, that’s the thing isn’t it? We sit and look at other couples and think he loves her, he didn’t leave her. What’s wrong with me? Why did my husband leave me? I’m going on 9 months since my world imploded. And we need to remember that there is something inanely wrong with these men at their core. Our husbands have no morals, or integrity, or honor and by their actions no souls. Hugs to you. Just know you are not alone. I’m going on 21 years of marriage and together for 28. I know nothing else but him but it’s time to Look for joy in other things. Don’t let him destroy one more day

  • Stacia

    I was married for 20 years and my husband left me out of the blue for another woman. I feel like i was slapped in the face. I had no idea he was unhappy. It has been a year and some days I will just sob and feel like my life is over. The pain is so unbearable. However I do have a 12 year old daughter so I need to be strong for her. I know I have to accept the fact that he has moved on and that I need to move on as well. I am hoping God will support me and get me through this.

  • SASHA

    Hi ladies. Well the last few weeks have been hard going. My beautiful daughter and I decided to go visit relatives a few hours away, and we had only been in the car five minutes and my ex is ringing our daughter asking where she is,then throughout the day keeps ringing her. He’s relentless. I’ve also got issues with my son,who has relapsed and started drinking again…stress is not the word! I’m off to see my therapist tomorrow ,because I feel like I’m about to explode.
    As for what kind of women go for married men, and don’t think anything of tearing the kids hearts out…these women have no shame. I’d say their self respect simply doesn’t exist! Enough said.
    Anyway remember ladies that you are a wonderful,human being,who deserves to be with a real man….hugs all xxx

  • Carol

    Hi dear friends, well five months in and I’m not as ahead as I’d like to be. Some m moments when I think I can do this but then the rest of the time consumed with thoughts of them together, of course my imagination says their world is amazing and wonderful. Yesterday though I had a copy of his financial disclosure, the form E which is a legal court document, I just sobbed as yet again it is so full of lies, after 27 years on marriage he left me penniless yet still doesn’t want me to give me a penny. He hasn’t provided bank details of where his salary is paid in only statements from our old account I froze back in march when he left. Said I ran up debts he will have to pay, says he’s living at his parents when he’s been living with her, says my illness caused him problems as I gave up work, despite me needing more surgery and having a feed tube he says there is no reason why I can’t get a job, says he only took a pension out ladt year(he’s 60 next year) , I know he has a work one and two private ones, he said we haven’t been able to afford a holiday since 2008 yet we’ve been to France every year with the children and grandchildren and he and I had separate holiday yo up until September OK last year. He says he’s paying £800 mortgage when he’s been paying £125. It upsets me so much to tjink he lies so much, this form looks as though he hasn’t got any money left, can I do anything about it, when he left he sneered at me and said you won’t get money out of me I’ll say I’ve got nothing. There is no equity in the house, in fact money will be owed on it. Any help or advice would be so welcome. I meet with my solicitor on 4th September. Why on earth do I still miss him and have feelings after what he’s done and is still doing to me, it makes no sense, its like my head knows it but my heart doesn’t. I’ve gone no contact for a month now I hope it helps distance myself. How do you lovely people cope with feelings if rejection for someone else? It hurts so much and is it normal to even feel jealous of her as I do sometimes. God I used to be such a strong woman, where’s she gone xx

    • Jane

      Hi Carol
      Gems these guys aren’t they? Don’t worry about the Form E, he’s just making himself look ridiculous. Your solicitor will advise you that through him/her you can ask questions about your ex’s form E and he is legally bound to be honest. If he still lies you may need to pay for a forensic accountant to find his money but it will be worth it and you should be able to recover the cost from the ex. In the end, any judge will look on him very badly if he is seen to have lied and/or hidden assets. My ex has claimed on his Form E that his business is worth £200K – he was offered 1.3M for it recently! My solicitor says it’s standard MO and to ignore it. We will see! Emotionally of course it is very hard no? How can they lie to blatantly and care so little? I don’t know and maybe we will never get closure on that side – time is a great healer I hope. Take care. X

      • Carol

        Thankyou Jane for your help. I hope my solicitor helps me sort him out for good. I’m sick of his lies, I was truly hoping he’d somehow gain a conscience and be truthful on this form but no. I so wish I had more anger toward him as thst would help me yet for some stupid reason I still miss him, I’ve never lived alone before. I hate thinking he’s with her, he had someone to go too. I so appreciate your help xx

    • Sasha

      Hey Carol. Is your ex stupid? So he has another bank account,which he will have to disclose. Your solicitor can ask where his wages get paid, proof etc. His lies will catch him up. Make sure you tell your solicitor everything. Where you stayed on holidays, hotels, dates etc.
      Carol, you are strong, cause your still here, even with your illness. Your amazing,and your ex will get yo look like the prick he is when it all goes to court….I take it he’s still with the OW?
      My ex told afew people he was decreasing child maintenance payments. Never said anything to me, and at one point asked if he could pay £100 less to put into an account for our daughter. I told him no emphatically. No discussion!
      You are going through so much so don’t be too hard on yourself. For some reason, I’ve felt low over the last few days. But I know my life is far better. My ex still tries to be the kids best friend. Even bringing my son a gift back off holiday. All of a sudden, since the split, he’s bending over backwards for him, yet couldn’t really be bothered prior. Ughhh, it’s tiresome, but I don’t think he will ever change. He even paid for my favourite perfume for our daughter to give me,extremely expensive. Nice jester I know but I had told my daughter not to get gifts,and just enjoy her holiday. And I don’t want to sound ungrateful,but I don’t want anything from him. Regardless if he paid for my daughter or not. It’s one step forward ,two back I’m afraid.
      Even now, although I know I don’t want him back, I hate what he has become…the lies to the kids, the throwing the money around,telling the kids everything he’s doing…my son more than our daughter,cause she’s told him,she’s not interested.
      And I could be a real bitch and tell him about her caller, but I can’t be arsed..cause he deserves everything he gets…come on girl, we are all here for you …hugs xxx

      • Carol

        Hi Sasha, thankyou sweetheart your voice of reason always makes me feel better. I am just worried my solicitor will look at his form e and say its not worth taking it further as it looks like he has no money left. He himself sneered at me when I last spoke to him in July that he would make it look that way and I wouldn’t get a penny!!! So sorry you feel a bit low its a horrid feeling your ex is trying his best to get you back onside it seems but you are amazingly strong. Yes mine is still with hers, the children say its because he’s got no choice as he can’t afford private rent, his credit is knackered and hus plans to move back to our old home were scuppered when I put it back on the market so even if he doesnt want to be there he needs her for a roof over his head, the children said if all was rosy why would he even want to move back to our old house by himself for time and space to think as he put it, but I don’t know as of course I think its heavenly for them. I so wish I had your strength love, I’m five months out yet still miss him and even have jealous feelings towards her and live with the daily fear I can’t lose that as surely I would have done by now. You are an inspiration, take care love xxx

    • Misti

      Hi Carol, I want you to know I am almost 9 months in and it does get better. I don’t look for my husband everywhere I go anymore. I don’t expect anything from him. He’s just not a part of our family anymore and I’m actually getting okay with that. He’s the one missing out. I’m the one that has everything. I have our beautiful children and their love and respect. Just give yourself more time to heal but you will get there. When I was only five months in I cried everyday, ten times a day. I lost twenty pounds from stress, my arms wouldn’t quit tingling from anxiety. I didn’t know what to do. Just keep your children close and you will get through. I can’t wait until it’s been a year. Just think how much better we will be. Hugs to you and all the ladies here

      • Carol

        Hi Misty, how kind of you to reply thankyou so much. It came at the right time as I’ve been down today, its a bank holiday weekend and I went out alone whereby we would have gone out together. If I go in a supermarket or a clothes shop I find myself thinking oh I’ll get him this or even look around for him like I used too. Then I remember, it feels like I’ve lost a limb. I also keep seeing couples holding hands and then picture him and her doing that like he used to with me so I was walking along the street in floods of tears with people looking at me. I’m glad it gets easier I hope that happens soon love, my children and grandchildren have been amazing but feel sad as that can’t take my pain away. I so want to get angry as I think that will help me and I want to fall out of love with him but scared that won’t happen. Oddly enough I hate her but not him yet. Thankyou again love I’m just sorry you have endured this too xx

    • Annika

      Oh Carol I feel sorry for you, your stbxh is such a shameless, greedy prick. I feel pretty bad too recently. I’ve just come back home after holiday( I visited my family living in the country I came from) and it was so difficult after that break to open the door knowing that nobody is waiting inside for me and children. when I was waiting for taxi in the airport I thought that ”my” husband is with his mistress and that instead he should be here waiting eagerly for us with opened arms. But what is done is done and it’s not going to change, he demolished every piece of life we had together. He is not what I thought. My only crime was my loyalty and that I loved that person too much and I couldn’t imagine him with other woman than me so missed all these signs.It hurts because I still love him( I think) and every time he comes to visit kids I have to hold my tears. I’ve never felt that helpless. I can’t accept that he is so happy, so careless and that my feelings doesn’t bother him any more. I’m nobody, just the person he used to know in his eyes. But I will try and try to change and become that strong and independent woman I was before I promise to my children.. My happiness isn’t that important, I want them to have a happy childhood despite all the crap. I’m better than him. He chose his own happiness over children’s because he is not a man but selfish immature boy.
      SASHA thank you for your warm words, I agree that it ‘s pointless to argue with my mother in law, he will be always her darling son..
      Take care ladies

      • Carol

        Dear Annika, thankyou so much for your kind words of help and comfort. Today sadly is a bad one, lots of tears wondering why he did this, seeing couples everywhere holding hands which caused images of them together doing the same. I so want to hate him, I hate her totally so why not him. It must have been so difficult for you with the holiday and when you have to see him. They have no moral compass do they hun? They cause such terrible emotional pain yet seem to feel nothing, in fact they try to blame us. Like you I never saw it coming either so was blindsided. Now he still wants to cripple me financially. Its like they turn into evil monsters, in fact if I met mine and he had been like this I would not even have wanted him as a friend let alone a husband. I can’t wait to go a whole day without crying or thinking about them together and the pain of rejection. Please take care Annika, love to you and your dear children xx

        • Annika

          Thank you Carol, you are such a sweet person. What a shame he’s not seeing this. He should be with you, helping you through your illness but instead” he’s having time of his life”..What a cruel, treacherous person he is, just like mine..
          My (”my” – doesn’t that sounds weird now?) husband has a history of alcohol abuse. You wouldn’t suspect that, he can be charming, he seems to be in control of his life, he looks good and healthy now.He is sober for more than 2 years now thanks to me. I was with him in his darkest moments, even when everybody was saying I should have left him but I loved him so much and I remembered how lovely and carrying he was before so I fought for him with all my heart.I so badly wanted our children to have their father back. He said he would pay me back, he will make me ”the happiest person alive” if I stay. So I did because I couldn’t imagine life without my soulmate and I thought no matter what I will stand by him and support him and celebrate his sobriety to the rest of our life. And now that…! This is my reward for my loyalty for my love.He said he wants to start a new life with a cart blanche. He’s a different person. It is that ow who has what should be mine. Someone in other website wonders about her ex and think-” how he could consider the kind of woman who would f**k with someone’s else’s husband and then ENCOURAGE him to tear his family apart an upgrade over someone who had been faithful and devoted to him for so many years”.It puzzles me too..It really does.
          Hugs to you Carol and all ladies here

          • Carol

            Dear Annika, you are really kind thankyou. It does hurt that he chose to abandon me at my most vulnerable, and to drain the bank accounts too, there should be a law stopping spouses doing this type of thing, just leaving their family and not looking back. Its wicked. You poor thing too, you did all that for him, supported him through getting off of the alcohol and he treats you like that, you don’t deserve it love, no one here does. Neither of them, our husbands or the trollop have any moral compass, he certainly didn’t upgrade from you Annika, he definitely downgraded. Let’s hope karma gets them all soon, I’d like a front row seat to watch that. Vtake care xx

  • Nicole baldonado

    Thank you so much, after reading this I have realized i am not alone. My husband and i have been together 13 years (married 9) we were extremely happy. Or so i thought we were. We have 2 beautiful children 9 and 7.He went to work in a different country and cried as he left because he felt like he was going to miss out on our life together.
    After his first shift over there (6 weeks) he come home and something changed. He was dressing better, dying his hair, getting Botox ect… I asked him if everything was ok and he said yes. But i knew there was something going on. We never fought, had a great sex life. He worked and I stayed at home with the children. He left Feb 12th and I felt like he was hiding something in his backpack but I just chalked it up to he was going through a midlife crisis as he is turning 40 next year. Finally on Valentine’s day I found out.. He denied It for 6 weeks told me I was crazy, said I need to go on medicine ect. I am adding extra stress to him. I knew he was showing someone else love because he would barley message me. Which he would do non stop saying how much he loved and missed me and didn’t know what he would do without me. I will never forget the day. March 22nd.i had sent him a message saying how sorry I was that I knew he wouldn’t do anything to hurt me. Then his gf messaged me. She said she had no idea he was married. He lied at first, then told her he did have a family but we were separated and promised her divorce papers. At first she lied and said they were just friends. The next day she told me everything. He bought her a diamond necklace they spent everyday together and she was in love with him and she could not believe he did this to her.. Yes her… As he got off the plane in Amsterdam he calls me and says hi babe. I confronted him and he told me sorry I thought we were through… That was it… I had to go pick him up from the airport and pretend like nothing was going on because our children were so excited to see him. When he got home all he said was I am sorry. I loved you but I was never in love with you. The other women sent me messages, pictures of them half naked together. How much he loved her and couldn’t wait to travel the world with her and marry her. She told me it was over between them he was a great actor and lier. Then they got back together I reached out again because he lied to the kids and I and took her on a vacation. She proceeded to tell me she hates him and will never speak with him again. I felt horrible. He made me feel awful. Told me he was going to ruin my life. Needless to say he has lied, manipulated and hurt me more then I could have ever imagined. Now I am done. I have finally found out they are back together and he is only coming home every few months to spend 13 days with the kids and the rest of his time with her. I was angry when I found out the third time that they were back together. Then I took a real hard look at myself and said is it even worth it to care about what they are doing? No. She is 25 he is 39. If that is what he wants then go ahead. It is still a struggle trying to understand how he could be so in love with me. Then a month later could not even sit down with me and explain what went wrong. He just says life threw a curveball at me and it just happened. Tells me he didn’t have the magical movie passion with me but he has it with her. It shocks me that when the men you trusted the most can sit there and blame you for there every mistake in life after you take care of them for 13 years. The hardest part for me is that he was my best friend and I have lost him for good but,I have now realized i am so much better off, I am starting to love myself again. I realize that I have taken care of him and my children all these years and forgot how to be me and love me. So thank you to you all. Reading your stories really helped me because tonight was a struggle ❤️ I hope you can all heal and realize that it is not our faults and that we all deserve to be treated like the women we are.

    • Sarah

      Hi Nicole- sounds a bit similar to my situation. Its hard very hard. I think he will realise in next 3 to 6 months what he has done and regret especially if he is full on relationship with her now versus a date here and there. A true relationship with every day realities is much different than going out a couple of times a week with somebody. I have no advice honestly as i am also dealing with all of this…. in last month i have realised i have no control over situation and need to let go. It is hard to do yes. I have stoped looking at their fb pages; stoped obsessiive thoughts of what they are doing and my contact witj him is regarding our son. He was also my best friend and i was his best friend so yes it is even harder. He has said that he loves both of us but he needs to focus on her now and see pitential, yet hes afraid i might not be willing to take him back if tjings go wrong. i do think we deserve better than beeing left for a younger new thing. It happens so often… we are not alone. But yeah… the grieving process is really hard. Try to keep busy; when you are having a bad moment, leave the place you are if you can to change scenery…. read books on this… exercise helps too

      • Nicole baldonado

        Hi Sarah, I honestly don’t know if he will regret it. He has opened up a bit in the past 2 days. Saying he is worried about us, and himself. That he can’t believe this is his life now. Also he told me that he was never unhappy in our marriage which makes no sense. I just know I have to get him off my mind and try and find out how to not have my best friend there. Try to be me not with him. It has been the hardest thing in my life. I have blocked her from My facebook because i don’t want to see her, it hurts way to bad. He is only home a couple weeks every few months so hopefully it may get easier. How do you find coping? Do you understand? Do you think he will come back? Much love to you, I hope everything works out, ❤️

        • Sarah

          Hi Nicole,

          It has been so hard. I think hardest thing i have ever been through. I had a declick in my head recently. After weeks of him still giving me hope he all of of sudden changed his words saying to not wait for him. He has spent almost every day and night in last month with her. I just couldnt do it anymore. I needed to cut cord with him. No more texting, no calls. Yes i will have to see him becsuse of our child but interactions will be polite but minimal. With time we might become friends again but this is my way to move on. I also see a counsellor and read books. I also found the vicki stark (or something like that) website about husbands who leave their wives unexpectly. She has good resources that help and you can get a 7 day email with steps to help cope. Do i think he will come back? I thought yes it was just a phase, infatuation, something new and he would get over it. But he hasnt and honesytly… im at the point where if he did, i might not want him back. He has turned me off in last couple of weeks with his actions. Stay strong and try to keep pushing through. I have seen light a bit but you have to cut cord…. lots of love and know you are not alone 🙂

          • Nicole Baldonado

            Hi Sarah, I think that has been the toughest part for me was cutting the cord. Not thinking about him anymore. I talk to him less and less. He works away so it is a bit easier for me. He has expressed a bit of remorse saying he is worried about me, the kids and himself and can’t believe this is his life now. Said he was never unhappy in our marriage. Which makes no sense. I have realized I am so much better off without him. His girlfriend can have him. They have both lied a d I have no more time for it. Just focusing on the kids and I and becoming happy again ❤️ thank you for your Kind words. Slowly but surely we will get through all of this heartbreak ❤️

    • Gladys Sanchez

      Nicole your story is my story is so similar and painful you are not alone I’m not alone today is a hard day but I know many more will come I just wonder do you think they will ever regret this cowardly act?

      • Nicole baldonado

        Hi Gladys, I would hope they would regret it but I really don’t know. I mean his gf messages me screenshots of how in love he is with her, half naked photos of them together. She has told me three different times how it is over and she is so sorry she would never date with a married man… Yet they are still back together. So at this point I don’t believe anything ither of them says. I have blocked her off Facebook. I told him I forgive him and I want a divorce so I can move on. He fi ally told me the other day that he is worried about the kids and I… But is he really?! Obviously not that much because i have asked him over and over why and how he could do this. He will never answer me. He has no answers. At this point I am trying to move on and be happy in my life. It is so beyond hard. I wish you all the best. Stay strong ❤️

    • Nathalie

      Hi,
      Im in the same situation, i got married with a man from Egypt 2 years ago in his country and im from Sweden, i know him from 5 year. I went to Egypt to live with him and after some months he was starting to go out with friends, seeing girls and leave me home all the days, taking drugs then he become very bad and started to hit me after he hit me i forgive him to give him a new chanche, then with the months i was so depressed and alone and also his mother was knowing that he is cheating on me and she was covering for him, he was wasting all the money on drugs and going out and i had to start to use my saved money, the only money i had beacuse i was not working there. In the end i wanted to move from that country and i was starting everyday to send emails to get him a work in Dubai so our life could change and i wanted to have a nice life with him snd get children and start on new i sended maybe 3000emails until one day they call him and he got a job while he was telling me you will never find one is wasting time. Then he got the job and his sister was sick in hospital even here he i find out he cheated on me in the hotel so he send me back to Sweden and told me to wait in Sweden until he go to Dubai and get his full salary it been 9 months and it was supposed that i will go to him in december and first he was telling me soon u will come u have your ticket booked we will start to look for a flat and then he started to reject me and i se him online on websites chats and apps and this days he have find a girl from his country online and they are texting 24 hours with me he was never sitting with me like this one day i told him to respect our marrige and dont give his number to all women in Dubai beacuse i know he was doing it so he scream on me that im dirty and a sick human and he will divorce me insted of comcentrate on us he had plan this to end it beacuse now he is a manger there and he want to sit alone and he have money and sweden didnt work out to take him here, he have keep our picture on a app and been gone 4 weeks witout saying a word and 4 days ago he find this girl from his country online and sit 24 hours online and chatting with her insted of communicate with me and about our marrige i feel so alone and all i wanted was the best for him always but im so hurted , i also have my ticket to december and i was prepearing myself but he have find this women and also she se that he have our pic, im really lost and depressed is there anyone who want to help me with any advice?

      • Nicole Baldonado

        Hello Nathalie,
        I am so sorry to hear your story. It breaks my heart knowing so many of us have to go through such a tough time in life. I know it seems like life has got you down now but I can only promise is does get a bit better ever minute that passes, every day that goes by. I still struggle and cry somedays because my husband told me he was very happy in our marriage. So it all doesn’t make sense in my brain. What I started to do was not focus on the two of them together. I mean she didn’t even know he had a family, and when she found out she was devestated and still took him back. Then promised again that they were through she would never be with him and they are back together again. So at this point I just know they both lie. I blocked her on social media, I started reading up about blogs and was thinking of starting my own to help people like us get through those tough days, started reading and excersizeing. I am so much better off then the lies they tell me and I know I deserve better. You have to be strong. I know how hard that seems to be right now but you are!! You will get through this because noone absolutely noone deserves to be hurt in any way shape or form. Once you realize how much better off you are without him, you will become a better version of yourself ❤️ trust me when I say that. 5 months ago I didn’t think I would laugh or smile again and I am starting to. I still have horrible days but I just look at myself and tell myself I want to be someone’s first choice not there last. Stay strong I am always here of you ever need to talk ❤️💪

  • Kim

    It makes me smile when I read about things we can achieve without a man. When my husband left I had the worst garden in the street he never went near it unless I nagged endlessly, you ought to see it now, its amazing I am so proud of myself, its one mass of colour. I have also been painting and decorating something else I had never done as husband was decorator. You learn a lot about yourself when you live by yourself, somehow now I am on my own it seems more important that the house and gardens look nice, I have even grown some runner beans my late father would be very impressed. Love to all keep strong. Kimx

  • Carol

    Thankyou Sasha,
    I so appreciate your kind words and encouragement as always. In between I feel I can do this but still cry every single day so the stronger feelings are only a small percentage of the day love, I wish it was the other way around. I still feel a sense of loss. I do still have feelings for him and the thoughts of them and that scares me everyday. I’m having to get used to living alone which I’ve never done before, he knew he had someone to go too. The fact he didn’t care and crippled me financially and has a solicitor who bullies me is so hurtful. He is a completely different person Sasha. I haven’t spoken to him for over a month now which does help, I just hate that he’s with her and living there, its like I never existed for 27 years. I could never do this to another human being. I’m still battling with feelings of rejection sweetheart, like I’m second best. I’m so blessed with my children and grandchildren who say things with him and her aren’t as rosy as I think they are, he’s always been a weak person and money obsessed, I just want karma to hit them both, the odd thing is I hate her but don’t hate him yet, the emotional roller coaster is awful. I pray every day to get strength like you and others here have. Sounds as your ex really now knows he may a huge mistake and lost a wonderful wife and daughter, serves him right. I don’t think mine would admit it as it would mean he’d done wrong. Take care as always, lots of love xxx

  • Jane

    Hello
    I’m so happy to have found this site.
    There are people out there going through the same horrible stuff that I’m dealing with and surviving. Well done to you all.
    I was with my husband for 23 years, 3 kids, successful business, lovely house etc etc. He started acting weird about 3 years ago and I thought he was having a breakdown. Turns out he was having an affair with my close friend who I’d confided all my concerns in. Anyway, 3 years later he’s been back and forth several times but she hung on in there and finally he left for good in December. After everything he’d put me through I thought he would be decent about the separation; but no…instead he is being utterly vile, spending money on cars and exotic holidays with his girlfriend, constantly being drunk and partying like a teenager, renting a 30K a year house for her, and worst of all now demanding that our children stay with him more. The details are boring and I suspect achingly familiar to you all. I’m posting because I don’t know how to pull myself out of the dark place. 8 months on and I still cannot believe what is happening, I am unable to accept that I can’t reach him anymore and I keep expecting him to be decent. Of course when he isn’t, I find it incredibly difficult. I have a good solicitor and the divorce is in progress. I think he will take me to court over the child access (he has more than average already) and I suppose I’m utterly terrified. Scared I will lose more of my children’s childhood, scared that financially I’ll be in trouble, scared I’ll be on my own forever. How long does it take to start feeling better?

    • SASHa

      Hi Jane, oh hunni, how awful. Hugs.
      Firstly if your From the U.K., take heart. Most judges do not count the week as access,due to school time, homework etc. Depending on how old your children are, will determine wether they are asked. Bullying tactics aren’t taken likely by the courts,but making it difficult for dads to see their kids isn’t taken likely either. Most access time is afew hours in the week and every other weekend.
      My ex sees our daughter three times a week,and every other weekend. However our daughter hasn’t spent a weekend with him since Xmas….she also declines to see him every now and then, and there’s nothing he can do. She is 14,and can verbalise herself. Ofcourse my ex hates it…tough!
      Your children will make their views known. My daughter will not have anything to do with his trollop…that’s her choice,and if it changes then so be it. As long as she is happy then great.
      Come on Jane,only you can start the ball rolling. It’s bloody hard, but tiny steps. Make the best of yourself each day. Makeup,hair,etc. Believe it or not ,taking care of you,is the start. Fill your day constructively,and try not to runminate. I know that two of the most important people in your life really took the pi@@, and however painful it is,start by really taking care of you.
      Leave them to it, stay quiet,and start building a new life with your kids. Routines are a must, especially in a busy household. I continue to parent responsibley ,it really keep my daughter grounded. While my ex was being a complete twat, I was and still am always there as the voice of reason. Whenever I leave the house, I make sure there isnt a hair out of place and over a year later, I like it. I’m so worth it.
      Jane, you will have good days and bad days, but the bad days will get less and less…I promise you.
      Get out there with friends, old and new,reinvent yourself. You need to start carving out a new life . Don’t think I’m being cold, but he may never come back, if that’s what your waiting for? If he does, would you want him anyway? Could you ever trust him?
      Your ex sounds abit like mine. Throwing his cash around. He took four holidays with the OW last year in five months….all to our holiday home. This year he cancelled the first, didnt go last month,so she ended up going with his sister..I couldn’t give a rats arse….he’s said it could have been me on all the holidays …only one problem, I’d have had to go with him…I think I will pass. She is so welcome to him. Both liars, cheats,manipulators……like I said to him many months ago, you made your bed, lie in it. I have no feelings for him at all,and he killed what little feeling I had,when he played with our daughters emotions. For that he will have to answer to someone bigger than me….himself! Hugs Jane, take things day by day and be kind to yourself xx,

      • Jane

        Hi Sasha
        Thanks for your thoughts. I guess with the kids, they will make up their own minds but I’m scared that they are so terrified of losing him/upsetting him that they just do what he wants. His girlfriend is so awful and selfish but is now on a full on charm offensive with my girls – makes me sick! I do try to ignore it but it feels like I’m being replaced, he is essentially re-establishing an identikit life 1 mile up th road with a new woman, he gets frustrated because I am the fly in the ointment – it is so heartbreakingly painful. I don’t want him back, he’s been back 3 times at least!! I do however, think I deserve some respect.
        I’m 8 months in and some days it feels like it has just happened. Good advise though – thanks. X

        • Sasha

          Hi Jane, these men are all the same. My ex moved in with his Ow seven weeks after we decided to call it a day…..it hurts, but ….. can you imagine the sheer lack of trust between them…I would love to be a fly on the wall. He told our daughter he’d never cheated but we know he did. The OW is exactly what he deserves….I’d say he got exactly what he deserved. I laugh to myself sometimes,because I know she is everything he wouldn’t go for. Haggered, bleach blonde short hair, and a reputation that is only deserved by a woman who doesn’t have any morals. As for her, she’s won the booby prize. He’s even more overweight, lazy, drinks even more ,looks grey….what can I say. His life is one long headache. I see karma every working,and I hate the fact he has ruined his life,because he was my best friend,. I know it’s right not to go back,it scares me,but with the help of my therapist I’m getting there. I’m a year and half down the toad and even though I don’t think of him as much, I still feel the pain, I still harbour anger….but I know I’m going to be fine. So will you. The OW will never take your place,she can try, but your kids already have a fabulous mum. Never forget that. What can she offer?shes hardly moral material. Shine like the beautiful woman you are. Leave them to it. Apparently affairs on average last two years. Well I hope my ex is totally miserable with her and her with him. My ex really isn’t a catch,and it took me a while to realise it. Much love hun xxxx

  • Carol

    Hi Sasha, gosh you have been busy, well done you it sounds great and will add value to the house I’m sure and also knowing you did it yourself. Brilliant, your daughter will be surprised, its great she’s home soon.

    I’m still pretty much feeling everyday is groundhog day. I can’t wait to get like you, no thoughts of him, that must be so good. I truly want that day to come. I’ve stayed no contact and it is helping. I can’t get why I’m jealous of his trollop though. Course now he can’t go back to the marital home as I put it back on the market, he can’t and never will get a mortgage anywhere else due to his bad credit, he can’t afford private rent so his only option is to stay with her, he’s still living at hers yet told his solicitor he’s not cohabiting but with his parents, he has now finished his form e apparantly but will lie on it. He said he will say he’s got no spare money or pension so he doesn’t have to pay me anything!!! My solicitor is hoping to get it for me plus the £7000 he took from me, but I’m now running low on funds so he will try to drag it out. I can’t believe how these men can change totally, he’s a monster, not the man I married. I so hope no contact helps me lose these feelings for him and the attachment to him. The thoughts and images of them are still there far too often but I’m working on it just not that good at it yet. My Daughter and son are convinced its not rosy as he’d of course planned to go back into our marital home as he needed time and space!!! Now he can’t do that, he said he doesn’t even know if he loves her, he likes her as she listened but might not be with her in the future he said , who knows!!! I’m sure she’d be thrilled to gear that. He’s always been money obsessed yet is in huge debt already, no equity in the house, indeed a loan of about £16000 is on it so that needs to be paid. My children think he will he crapping himself worrying about whether he has to pay me or go court. God Sasha I’m so waiting for their karma as I’m sure she thought he had money, yet he’s got nothing but debt.

    I so hope you have great times with your Daughter on her arrival home. Also good luck with giving up smoking, big anyone can its you. Take care hun, lots of love, Carol xx

    • Sasha

      Hey Carol. Something in you has shifted…your words seem stronger….no mention of loving him, wanting him back. Your children are right. He will be crapping himself,but he’s done that all himself.
      Leave him to it and see how things change, Sounds like he has no where else to go ….serves him right. Let your solicitor get everything you deserve. He won’t be able to lie about money…..get everything you deserve,and don’t give an inch.
      My exes GF needs all the help she can get by all accounts, she’s stoney broke,so my ex fits the bill. She’s welcome to him. Her ex husband told me she’s in so much debt that when the sale of the house goes through, she will still owe money,and will never be able to get a mortgage. If she thinks my ex can,then she’s thicker than I thought…not my problem though. My daughter FaceTimed me tonight by the pool alone. She said dad was so quiet,not himself at all…kept asking her if she was enjoying herself……said to her things just aren’t the same,and one day hopefully mum can forgive all the shitty things he’s done…. he still loves me, always will……shame he has no clue that I don’t care what he hopes. He should be more worried about who has been servicing his GF…..
      So what with the new garden furniture I bought afew weeks ago and the kitchen makeover….I think my nest is coming along nicely….amazing what you can do when your in charge of your life…feels good…..carol, keep going hun, you are amazing!

  • Sasha

    Morning my blossom buddies…..I thought I’d let you know what I’ve been up to over the weekend. I’ve redecorated the kitchen. Kitchen units included. Now I could have forked out for a new kitchen, but why bother when I’m going to have to sell in afew years…so I got some great advice from a friend who also happens to dip in and out of interior designing. She told me about kitchen cupboard paint,how to apply etc….so I took the bull by the horns and spent Friday and Saturday giving the kitchen a fresher look. I’m so pleased with the outcome,just waiting now to have new flooring put in to complete the look. This blossom warrior, definitely can! Keeping busy and achieving small goals sure is rewarding. My daughter will be home tomorrow so off out to buy her favourite foods later…..life is good, and not a thought of the ex. Next thing on my list is to stop smoking which I took up after the dramas of the split! Slowly,slowly catchy monkey! Enjoy your accomplishments no matter how small,because then you know your heading in the right direction….hugs to you all xxxx

  • Annika

    Today my heart is bleeding. My mother in law is going to see her son’s mistress! I can only imagine that the ow is pregnant. Two weeks ago he told me he ended up their relationship because ”she wanted something more”. Now that..
    I know I wouldn’t take him back, I wouldn’t be able to live with him like nothing ever happened but I’m shocked that he is so different now, so carefree and joyfull while my life is in such a mess thanks of him.
    Take care sweet ladies, that forum is so helpful, good luck to you all.

    • Sasha

      Oh Anika, when it comes to inlaws, blood is thicker than water. Plus you do t know what he has told them. Forget it Hun, as much as it hurts. My inlaws haven’t been to see their ONLY grandchild since we split. They live two minutes away . So my daughter only sees them when her dad can be bothered….and that averages out as every six weeks…..
      Isnt it strange how morals go out the window ,but I guess it’s their son and they want to see him happy ,for now anyway ( forget the manipulating, coward of a liar he is,or the fact he couldn’t leave the relationship before entering another).
      Don’t waste time on thinking about it. Thank your lucky stars you hAvent got to put up with his crap anymore.
      I thank god I don’t have to put up with any of his disfunctional family anymore. The parents don’t have friends, the sister doesn’t have any friends other than my exes OW….it’s sad but you got to wonder why…..
      My life is far better without any of them in it. Just see it as another part to letting go,and closing the door to that chapter of your life.hugs xxx

  • Carol

    Sasha sweetheart he definitely is, thankfully I have kept records if almost everything and I think he’s terrified of going to court because he knows myself and the children have lots of evidence and can provide it to squash every lie he’s told. I think him and her thought they were being clever, she’s also going through a divorce apparently. Its pissed him off that I’ve put the house back on the market after he took it off without telling me. He was planning to move back in for some reason but I think he’s stuck with her and her three teenage kids now as financially he can’t do anything else. I’m just hoping the pensions can be traced. He’s not got a good enough memory to be a good liar, he’s totally lost the plot as some of this is out of character for him so I think she’s telling him to do this stuff and he’s stupid enough to do it and it could cost him a lot. He certainly doesn’t want to pay spouse maintenance or pensions, his solicitor mentioned it three times in this last letter but I hope to get both, he lied, cheated and stole leaving me penniless why should I care if he’s nothing left to live on or to take her out. I am working hard on not ruminating, I’m not good at it yet but I will keep going. I still don’t get how these men can lose everything for someone they barely know, they think they are madly in love, nothing on this earth apart from death would make me leave my children and grandchildren. The problem is now I’m living alone for the first time I find my imagination goes crazy, I picture that he has someone still and everything is loved up and wonderful, of course I don’t know that for sure but that’s what it is in my head. I’m getting angrier than I was especially with these letters full of vitriol and lies, its like he’s now an evil monster, the lovely man I married is gone and I just don’t know what happened. Like all of us here I was blindsided, didn’t see it coming it is like a bereavement. Why do I now feel second best? Why do I feel worthless and unloveable and like shes laughing at me because she hot what she wanted, do you all feel like that too. Sasha your dear daughter sounds wonderful, she has morals and follows her mums great values and ethics, I’m sure she makes you so proud, she sounds such a lovely girl who knows the dreadful things he’s done to you both. I always look forward to your posts here as you help so many of us, you keep us going despite enduring this yourself. I admire everyone here, we can draw strength from each other and hopefully come out stronger than ever and not worry about what are ex is doing or even have them in our minds anymore. I can’t wait for karma to work its magic, he sneered at me when I said thst and said there’s no such thing but God I hope there is. Take care lovely lady, love to you and everyone here xxx

  • Carol

    Hi Sasha darling. Thankyou for your kindness, I too can’t forgive and every time I get another horrible solicitors letter full of lies I think did I ever know him at all. He’s lied to everyone even his solicitor yet she doesn’t know it yet. He’s trying to say he has no pensions yet I know he has. My solicitor said yesterday that he’s shooting himself in the foot every time he misleads people. I’m like dear Martha though in as much as I’m finding letting go hard and I don’t know why as there can be no sugar coating what he’s done to me, the children, grandchildren and friends, I should literally hate him and really don’t grasp why I don’t, oddly enough I hate ger with a vengeance. I do a but better then back in it yet again, its like an emotional rollercoaster. Do we really ger to the stage where we don’t think about them, where they are, what they are doing? Plus being rejected for a marriage wrecker like her rips through my heart and sole and I need help and advice how to cope with that to move forward, its like I’m jealous of her, but she’s not won a great prize. I’m sure it feels empty without your darling daughter at the moment but she will be home soon. Lots of love to you and all you wonderful ladies out there xxx

    • Sasha

      Hey Carol….I think your ex is playing a dangerous game, but let him play it ..the courts don’t take too kindly to liars. Let him dig his big enormous hole. He’s got a
      That loved up foggy head,that won’t last, will be his downfall. Carol, you need to start to think smarter, because your future is at stake. Do you seriously think he will play fair? Had I not photocopied everything,my ex would have been happy to pay a crappy maintenance for his child. I knew that money would be an issue, and the time I had to put up with his rubbish, I knew I had to play smarter.
      You will eventually come to the point that you stop thinking about them,I promise you. But you have to put the work in. Which means, stop ruminating, whenever you think you can’t cope anymore,tell yourself you most definitely can. Start thinking about your future without him.what it looks like,and how much better you will be. Don’t roll over and hope your life can get back to where it was,because honestly, it can never be like that.
      You can get through this Carol, so start finding things out, we are all in your corner,supporting you…hugs xxxx

  • Sasha

    Hi ladies. Well my daughter is now on holiday with her dad and god, do I miss her. They went early Thursday morning. So I get a call from a friend of mine,who was going to work early Friday morning. Seems my exes GF has been very busy. My friend saw some bloke leaving her house at 5 am in the morning…..not even 24 hours and she’s playing away…haha…..so you see ladies, even when you may think their lives are better, they most definitely are not!
    I hate to say it but I’ve been laughing ever since. To be able to know I know what he doesn’t ,gives me great satisfaction…..went out with the girls Saturday night,and boy did we laugh 😂 .
    Enjoy your week ladies xxxx

    • Misti

      Oh my word!!! That is awesome! I can’t wait for karma to come to my husband. So I’ve been having this married guy friend contact me for the last week. I told him about my situation cuz we use to be friends. Then he tells me his marriage is bad and so forth. Needless to say he’s been snapping and texting constantly. I haven’t been responding until today. I texted him and bluntly said to text his wife call his wife Snapchat his wife. I said my husband is gone and I’d do anything to get him back and guess how his affair started? Instagram messaging. Then I said I’m not doing any of this because that’s how things start and what destroys families. Then I promptly blocked his number. Ladies there are so many creepers out there and we deserve so much more. Don’t sell yourself short. I would rather be alone. Hugs Sasha you’re awesome

      • Sasha

        Misti, you are a true lady. And the guy texting is a lowlife creep. Glad you blocked him. These guys don’t have a clue do they?
        I’m waiting till she has to sell her house. Her ex, has been bailing her out till their daughter hits 19,then she will have to sell. What my ex can’t know is she has CCJs ( county court judgements against not paying bills etc ) she will never get a mortgage,there’s no collateral in the house,and she will be on her arse. My ex won’t be able to get a mortgage,cause he’s tied into our house for another five years…..so I guess they have afew months of playing happy families,then the proverbial will hit the fan.
        It’s a shame that my daughter would only go on holiday with her dad if her friend could go isn’t it? Says it all…..
        And karma has worked her magic…because I’m guessing the romance of the century is a joke. My daughter said dad talks about you all the time…haha
        Keep going hun, and take it day by day…..life is for the living,and we are the only ones that can change our lives to what we deserve…hugs xxx

        • Misti

          Thank you Sasha! I don’t know what’s worse, to have your daughter go on holiday with her father or to have your kids father abandon your kids along with their mom? I’m heart broken with the abandonment of my children but if they left with him for holiday I think I would be devastated. I’m here for you. Hugs hun! Stay strong

          • Sasha

            Misti, both are hard, but I would never try and stop either of them having that relationship. I think it must be harder for my ex, than me ,because he knows she will be coming back home to me. She face times me daily, and tells me how much she misses me. I always say have fun,and enjoy…because I love her more than ever. Now if he starts playing his crappy tricks like he did on their last holiday,then it would be curtains for him. My daughter has told her father, that if his GF appears on the holiday again ,she will never go again. He knows he has to seperate the two…how sad is that to live like that knowing your only child can’t stand the trollop your with….haha. That again is karma working!
            As for your husband…he’s missing out daily, and that’s his loss, but worse, he will have a lot of questions to answer later. Your doing fabulously ,and your ex knows it! Keep doing what your doing,heading in the right direction,and let him deal with the fallout.
            My ex asked our daughter if she loved me more….that kind of tells you how insecure these men are! Unbelievable really.
            He buys her everything* she wants and she plays on it..whereas I have rules, my style of parenting hasn’t changed. And you know what it’s working for us. She tells me everything, trusts me 100%, and sees her father for the weak,pathetic ,lying,manipulating man he is and probably was all along! I’d say we had a lucky escape…hahaha ….enjoy your day my lovely 😊

    • Rosa

      Dear Sasha,

      thanks for your support in all this! I love reading your posts! I wish I could see the same with my ex! He ran off to another country and I am so curious of how he is doing! He left me after 20 years of marriage for a filippina of 24! Plays the sugar daddy with all our money that we saved together and stole it all for her!Thank God I am healing and I realize that ALL cheaters are the weak ones! They have such low self esteem and no integrity! They think they are on the best side but are so foolish to realize that the woman they chose agreed to cheat with them!!!! Why don’t they realize that they are going to hit low bottom one day and realize that they are on the worst side???????? Blessings to you!

      • Sasha

        Rosa, so he’s in a different country? Good, far better for you. I doubt the 24 year old bimbo will be madly in love with him…that’s his karma. Being with someone who is there just for the money. I’d say you had a lucky escape hun.
        God I love it when I don’t have to interact with the twat. I’ve always been the stronger of the two. Just know that these men come to a point when they know they have made the biggest mistake…tough I say! Have yourself a great week, do something great this week, tKe a walk in the sunshine, buy those shoes, get out with friends and smell the air around you. Life is great if you want it to be. You are in charge of your own destiny now. Like a book, with words unwritten…you are your own author! Hugs hun xxx

        • Rosa

          Hi Sasha,

          thanks so much for your support and courage that you give to all of us! To all the beautiful ladies out there I pray that healing and strength sets in for each and every one. I hope that the scars that we need to carry will be sealed one day with a golden lining. The golden lining that reminds us what strong, faithful and loving persons we really are! We kept true to our vows, value and honesty! We can walk head up high and all those cheaters out there will never be able to reach us. I know one thing for sure…. when the betrayer plays the victim it is because he knows….. he has lost it all! My ex husband is still playing the victim and is trying to justify himself to his own son!!!‘ His very „wise“ words… life is not a battle, you should enjoy everything in life und do what your heart desires, Life is not to fight for especially you are not to fight for love….. Do you understand such WISE words????? Help me here because I just don’t get it???!!! On top of this he says….. son I would love to give you my experience so that you may take it with you……pls help Sasha, what does he mean? Is he going crazy or I have missed out on something….

          Big hugs to you!!!

          • Sasha

            Rosa…his words are his BS way to justify every sh@@@y thing he has put you all through. So his life is fabulous? Well let’s see how fabulous his life is, when his kids see him for who he is….that for me has been the hardest thing. My daughter had a fabulous relationship with her father. Now she sees him for who he is and is solely dissapointed. He use to ask me all the time if I loved him,now he’s doing the same with her…pathetic.
            I think they just think things through. They must believe that life will be far better,the kids will just slit into place and life will be peachy! Well I hate to break it to them, but they loose friends, respect, family, they don’t bank on having to pay more money out,and that wonderful life is suddenly extremely stressful. My daughter and I spoke today, and she had a disagreement with dad in front of her friend. She told him he was a waste of space,and an embarrassment. And that mum deserved far better,and thankfully would never have him back. He cried! I told her to apologise to him. Regardless of what he has done,I haven’t bought her up to talk to anyone like that,not even that twat! So you see, they are left with women they won’t be able to trust, their lives won’t include the happy ever after because blended families don’t tend to work well when cheating is involved.
            I bet your son probably shook his head and thought WTH! When I struggled, I would go out and do something with my daughter…worked every time. Creating happy memories,when your life feels crap, is therapeutic,believe me…hugs ,strength and love xxx

    • Carol

      Hi Sasha sweetheart. I bet you miss your beautiful Daughter but she will soon be back home with you where she belongs. I’m so glad Karma has visited your ex and her, I so want that day to come for mine. He too will never get another mortgage as his credit is knackered. I saw my solicitor today who said now his form e is ready we can go further, he also said he will be claiming for the £7000 of my money that he took, hopefully maintenance and pensions but all depends on what it says on his financial disclosure. I know he will lie, he just had letter sent to mine full of awful lies and said he’s not cohabiting but stays with a friend sometimes, well just so happens that his so called friend is the bitch he left me for!!! I don’t know how to prove it though its so frustrating. He doesn’t know if he loves her just that he likes her and she listened. At times I think I can do this, I used to be so strong but I seem to have lost myself at the moment. Then I get the image of them together and wham floods of tears again. How do you and the other wonderful ladies here cope with the feeling of being rejected and the worry of having feelings for your husband. Everyone around me can see hes a no good, lying, cheating, thieving scumbag yet although I know it too its like my mind can’t quite believe it. When I go a whole day without crying or thinking of them I will be so pleased and when I don’t care where he is or who hes with or what he’s doing I will be happy I can’t wait for that to come. He still had the nerve to say he loves me and that he may yet come home!!! Well I don’t think so, the arrogance of him but for my own wellbeing I have had to go no contact as hes messed with my head so many times as I think he knows I still have these residue feelings for him. I just so want karma to do its thing. Sasha you are amazing, if I can be half the person you are going through this then I’ll be glad. Take care love xxx

      • Sasha

        Carol, you can’t quite believe it,and we all felt like that hunny. Well believe it. He wants it all. And sod your feelings. Come on girl, and start your road to getting what you deserve. I haven’t done anything other than realise my own worth as a human. I truly wish I could forgive,and be that person…I can’t! Not yet, but I’m sure in time. Because I know once I really forgive, I will be totally free….but , I’m my own person, have found the strength and stuck two fingers up. And, I’m happier…who would have thought…hugs and strength to you Hun xxxx

    • Martha

      Dear Sasha,
      I wonder how you do manage letting you daughter on holiday with her Dad. I myself felt very hard when my eldest daughter stayed at his Dad’s apartment last weekend for one night. He’d been asking many times for her to stay with him and finally my daughter said ok. But her purpose is that she wants to investigate his apartment so she can report to me. The day after, I went to his apartment because he left the key in his pant’s pocket. That day he came home and went out with his motorcycle. I was terrified when I was there. I found 1 shirt that is not his, so it must be hers and found some long hair. I thought by seeing it myself it would give the feeling of letting him go. I felt disgusting towards him but not for long. It’s just weird how I can’t hate him enough to let him go.
      Cant wait to let Karma do its work but in the mean time all I can do is to move on and love myself more.
      I am too experiencing a married guy texting me even though he doesn’t know about my separation. The world is getting crazier.
      Since I and my ex haven’t legalised our separation, does it mean I should call myself single or married? Its so confusing since I still want him back sadly. I don’t have guts to tell anyone but only some close friends and immediate family. I am not ready going public being single.
      Glad I found this thread and get a lot of support from you ladies.

      • Sasha

        Hey Martha. Your seperated aren’t you? Your you! Your wonderful, and your getting through this day by day. That’s remarkable!
        It’s hard knowing you have been replaced, it’s hard knowing how badly this man you spent so long with,could treat you the way he has. This isnt your battle hunni. Your battle is getting back to the person you were,getting to a point in your life where you know you can live without him,and thank god,he’s not in your life. Ask yourself what kind of life you would have if you did take him back. Wondering where he was if he was two minutes late, checking his phone, pockets,trying to believe his explanations….is that what you want to go back to?
        I’m not anti men ,and some women can get past the cheating, lying etc…..but I often wonder what their lives look like after the affair…..something I just could t do….I know I deserve far better, and so do you….hugs my lovely.xxx

  • Carol

    Hi Sasha, you are an angel and the voice of reason admist the chaos. I have never felt such heartbreak since I lost my dear parents. I just don’t get why I can still feel for him after all he’s done yet everyone else can see it. The letters from his lawyers frighten me and are full of lies but have a bullying tone, he doesn’t want to pay me anything yet after 27 years I feel he should. The odd thing is Sasha is he’s living with her still but says he wants to go back to our old home by himself as he can afford to rent alone. He said he’s taking two weeks to do that so why if he’d finished with her would she give him two weeks to get out, I certainly didn’t. None of it makes sense, I’m not going to be his back up plan, he left me penniless and he’s no idea of how he hurt me and the family. I used to be so strong, I was everyone’s rock yet I feel broken by him and her and his lawyer. The change in him is unbelievable, like he’s now evil. He tries to make it all my fault, blaming my illness, saying he didn’t like my nasal feeding tube, him and his solicitor said I should be working not on disability yet I worked all my life until surgery went wrong. He accuses me if debts yet he did the finances for the 27 years we were married. I do need to toughen up. I’m scared of the future, of living alone as I’ve never done that. I so want the anger and hatred to come, oddly I hate her. I’m hoping that the longer I go no contact the more detached from him I’ll get but is it really possible to fall out of love with someone after so many years. I just hate feeling second best to someone like her but like you say Sasha she is a trollop, has no morals. I so want things to go wrong so they feel some pain too then I feel bad for wishing bad on people. I do get periods when I think I’m going to be ok then the thoughts and images of them come back, I haven’t yet gone a day without that happening since he left at the end of march. I hope our husbands and their trollops live with guilt every minute of every day. I do hope your new job is going well love and that your dear Daughter is doing ok. Loads of love and hugs xxx

  • Carol

    Dear Sasha, as always your wonderful posts came at the right time as do the comments from the other wonderful ladies here going through this dreadful experience. Its been two weeks since no contact, four months since he left. Once again back then when I last saw him he messed with my head, he said he still loves me but it may not be enough, then arrogantly said, I may come home, I don’t know. He’s been living at hers but now says hes going to move back into the family hone until its sold, I said why as your living with her, he said he can’t afford to rent and needs time and space to think. Someone told me he’s been financially, emotionally and mentally abusing me for quite a while. Then today I had a awfully distressing letter from his solicitor fullbof insults and lies, thankfully u can prove this but its very upsetting, how can he say he loves me then treat me so hurtfully. Its like I’ve not known him in 27 years. I’m not coping as well as I’d like. I feel totally broken, I still gave obsessive thoughts and images of them too. How do you all cope with the rejection, I feel she must be better than me as he’d still be with me. I’m thinking of you all xxxx

    • Sasha

      Hey Carol. He is as all our exes are….manipulating you, lying,simply thinking he can come and go as he likes. Many spouses who go through this experience suffer with PTSD….it’s mental abuse. So he can’t afford to rent with her? Tough. He made his bed ,let him lie in it. He tells you he loves you as a back up incase things don’t pan out with the trollop. Come on Carol, I know you love him ( or think you do) but ask yourself this. Would you let anyone else treat you like he is.? I’m guessing the answer is NO!
      Don’t give him an inch. You know the truth,let him get on with his crap….and stop worrying about her. She doesn’t come close to you and your moral standards. These men never go for better. FACT! Start telling yourself that you are worth so much more. Perhaps write everything down in a journal. Feelings, how he has made you feel, his actions etc. You will be surprised how negative it will read…..
      Hugs my darling ,you can get through this xxxxx

  • SASha

    Hi girls. Hope things are getting better day by day. Started my new job last week,and settled in better than I thought. Today we are celebrating my daughters birthday. Presents opened,table awash with cards and laughter heard from her friends. This is what life is all about. Her dad came to give her presents,which was nice..( I made myself scarce,said I needed to get something from shop. Do you know what, I felt absolutely nothing,even though birthdays were a real family thing. The only thing now is he simply isn’t part of our family. He’s been very quiet lately which has been bliss,other than asking my best friend last week where she drinks now ( yep, strange thing to ask your exes best friend….transparent or what) . I feel so proud at where I am. I was talking to my counsellor the other day,and we were discussing my part in the relationship,and I came to the conclusion that I had bailed out years ago. I was literally treading water. I never gave my all during the last three years if I’m honest,and stopped any intimate goings on too. It was like a lightbulb going on…I was preparing myself for D Day. What I also realised is I’ve hindered my own recovery by worrying why he’s at the house, following me etc….yes he’s acted appallingly ,but I have no control over that. My guess is, he did all that cause he was hurting, only the kids were used in his silly antics. My kids aren’t stupid,they know who he really is…and he has to live with that.
    I think I’m ready to get back out there,and enjoy the company of a male. I’m not talking settling down but having a bit of fun.
    I also know I am free from a man who just wasn’t my fit, who always made a joke about everything, was held back by his own emotions. I’m passionate, fiery, empathetic,love to laugh,and Trustworthy…..everything he hasn’t got,and doesn’t deserve.
    Ladies, I really didn’t think I’d get to this point,but I’m here, living and breathing 16 months on,and even though I try not to worry about my future,know I can handle anything. Onwards and upwards girls xxx

    • Misti

      Sasha you sound so healthy! I’m only 8 months in so I’m still struggling. I haven’t heard from mine since last week. He called on Friday and came over and helped me fix the pool and took me to get tires on my car. I texted him after he left on Friday and said thank you so so much for helping me. I love you. Well he said “thank you” and I haven’t heard from him since. Keep in mind we run a business together and usually Monday thru Friday he calls for something for me to do for him. I do all the book work. Well it’s Wednesday and nothing. I’m trying so hard not to care and not think about him but I struggle every day. Why do I even still think about the lying cheating dirtbag? I can’t wait until I wake up and don’t give a crap about him. Hugs to you all and keep hanging in there!

      • Sasha

        Hi Misti. It really is one step forward ,two steps back. You can’t rush your emotions,and as frustrating as it is, you are heading in the right direction. What your ex is doing is handing you the crumbs. He isn’t bothered that you still love him, heck he probably believes he did you a favour fixing the pool,that he really went above what he should be doing. For your own well being,stop the texting,the communicating where necessary,and work on you. What your feeling is so normal,but every time he shows a little bit of kindness ,you go two paces back.
        My ex took our daughter on holiday early this morning,and totally ignored me,didn’t even look at me…..so I’m guessing now he’s either going NC, or has decided to try and punish me. I Couldn’t give a rats arse. I spent too much time putting up with his crap when we were together…let the trollop have the honour now.
        Misti, don’t think his life is suddenly so much better than yours cause it isn’t. He will be going through a range of emotions. It will hit him,later,when his honeymoon period crashes. Could you imagine being questioned every time you were at the exes, or every time your late, or if you look at another person? The trust between your ex and his trollop will always be an issue….because they both know what each is capable of. Oh to be a fly on the wall. And that will prettty much be what is would be like if you took his sorry ass back. You could never trust him, and far from getting your man back, you end up with the booby prize in the end.
        Don’t forget, along the way, they will loose friends, get sneered at, their world will be a nightmare…I find it funny. So……..concentrate on you, not them. I promise once you do that, it will become easier. Hugs and here’s to your fabulous first day in taking control. Xxx

        • Misti

          Sasha, you are so right! I had a great conversation with my 22 year old son who is wise beyond his years. He said mom he’s an idiot and when he wakes up out of his love fog and his life is boring he will realize that he lost his whole family and will be miserable. That really hit home. So I’ve been no contact since last Friday and I’m just going to leave him to his pathetic little life and move on with mine. Much love to you! Love your words of wisdom

      • Martha

        I feel you Misti, by running the business together it is making the separation even harder for me. Now, he wants us to go to office separately and he no longer sleeps in the house. He wants to set a clear line because he wants to be serious with this OW. I fight everyday to let him go but yeah….easier said than done even after 8 months. 3 days ago, my youngest broke in tears when her daddy put medicine on her sprained pinky finger. She want her Dad to stay home, but he just left anyway. Last weekend, he waited until the kids slept then he left, early in the morning before the kids wake up, he arrived home. He troubled himself a lot to show his OW that he is serious. I can’t lie that I still feel jealous. But looking at the fact that he is not at his best attitude (lying, manipulating, cheating etc) I know I should better take care of my self and the kids especially. How I also wish that every day my mind is not consumed by thinking of him. I feel I haven’t lost my sanity by reading this helpful thread because other people who are not experienced what happened to us, cant really feel what we feel. Hugs and stay strong for us all.

        • Misti

          Thank you Martha, it really does help to read this thread. I think they must be dead inside to be able to see the hurt they have caused their wife and children and still continue with their lifestyles without it phasing them. Running a business together is a double whammy but we have to stay strong. Hugs to you

    • sarah

      I’m somewhat new to this thread. I posted earlier. For me, the point were I just let go was tonight when he said he will be taking holidays with the other women and presenting her to our son {he has been back with her in less than 2 weeks}. Just made me realize that if he’s able to move on and take big steps like that with the other women, than his feelings for me are not there ( even though he persists to say he stills does have feelings, he’s unsure, conflicting emotions, and needs to let her in to know if it would work with her}. I basically told myself wtf. Why am I waiting around for a man who rejects me. Yes I’m afraid of the unknown. Yes I’m afraid of being alone. I have anxiety, panic attacks, really dark moments but in the end, he doesn’t want to be with me. If he did, he would be. Idk what the answer is although it’s nice to see some of you have been able to move on. It’s reassuring, so thank you for posting!! And please keep posting…. reading this thread has helped me a lot.

  • Sarah

    This forum has been amazing. Reading about other women who have gone through similar ecperience and how they coped and moved on really helped me tonight. My husban asked for separation about a year. Last few years werent the best but never thought it was to that point. Found out that he and a co-worker got close emotionally for months and once he announced separation to me, they really began to see each other in secret until i found out. Hes been going back and forrh between me and her for last year. And two weeks ago he went back to her again. Feels horrible… anxiety, fear, loneliness, obsessive thoughts about them… but reading this forum gave me hope and some strengh. Even thougj i know maybe in 2 minutes i will be a emotional wreck again, your posts have helped. Thank you and like some of you, i still love him so much that if he came back to me again, i would take him back. Tried the no contact but its hard considering we have a son and because in some ways he was my best friend… So trying a limited contact where i dont small talk with him. I hope and i know i should not obsess over them but that he will wake up from this fog……

  • Tonya

    My husband left me for another woman and has moved into her house which is around the corner from ours, he has an illegal business right across the street from my house, his words were” I didn’t respect him I didn’t appreciate him”. What type of respect does he think this move is going to get him all the neighbors know our business, he’s right across the street from our house EVERDAY and barely sees his kids, he has stopped financially for anything unless it’s directly for the children. My son wants him to come home he’s 10 and he tells him “It’s up to mommy”, yet he’s the one that left trying to save face from our son, and our 7 year old daughter doesn’t want him to come back because she says “he doesn’t respect you mom”!(her words). As much as he has done to me(us) a big part of me still loves him deeply 30years,19yearsmarriage,4children,3grandchildren but I have to think about the message I want to send to my daughters, my granddaughter on how they should be treated, to my son on how he should treat a women and this is not it!!! I am making baby steps but I’m stepping!

  • Anika

    So ”my”husband few days ago informed me that he ended his relationship with his mistress. It was a huge shock for me and I’m still confused. He said she nagged him for the divorce and he realised he didn’t want to end up our marriage. he said he is still in love with me… Now do I believe him? NO! I just think the honeymoon is over and the reality hit him finally.
    Last few weeks I was successfully avoiding him and that had a healing effect. I’ve started to have even moments of happiness and felt stronger day by day. I really thought I was on a good way to leave it behind him. Now I’m so so confused. I’m so angry with myself that I let him to open that wound again, that I let him to penetrate my soul.. God I still love that idiot..and this is a problem.
    I know he will come back to her, I don’t think she will give up that easily (on her fb there is still their photo), I know he is emotionally unstable and I have to keep away from him and never ever take him back. I know..Everybody is telling me that. The truth is I can’t help and stop thinking about him and it annoys me that I think that my anger is gone and it’s replaced by sadness. I hear that voice in my head ”it was JUST a middle age crisis” and I feel am loosing that strength I builded so carefully up .
    He’s not going to change and it’s probably a matter of time and he’ll find someone new. Ladies please explain me what is going on with me? How am I going to switch off my emotions? Once again he made me feel so vulnerable and I hate myself for that.

    • SAsha

      Hey Anika…they really are a piece of work arent they….you are bang on as to why he’s returned. The mistress doesn’t look so good now they don’t have to sneak around. The excitement has gone and he’s either realised he got a bum deal OR she kicked him to the curb….the thing is, whilst they are in throws of their all time fabulous love affair, they disregard their families feelings,even thrusting our noses in their s**tty goings on.they have no moral compass,and don’t care about anyone but themselves. The lies,manipulation and crap come easy,and continue even after they leave the family home.
      Anika, does this man who ripped out your heart deserve another chance? Would you be able to rebuild a strong,loving,trusting relationship?
      I know that feeling, when my ex begged he wanted to be back home on his leather sofa…for an hour or two I was confused, even elated that I had won. How sick does that sound? But I knew I would never take him back.
      I was done very very early on,and perhaps the only thing that has pissed me off is the cheating…because it makes you feel worthless,you question the whole relationship. I’m grateful I turned the whole episode to my favour, and found the strength to show myself and him that I would not take his crap, would carve a life out for my family without him,and let him get on with things. That meant no contact for my sanity, finding a job, making the best of myself ( eating healthily,taking care of myself,having fun,removing everything from the house that reminded me of him, redocorating ,buying a new car)
      It hasn’t been easy, you can vouch for that Anika, you know those days when you can’t get him out your head. What we are all going through will probably be the most stressful thing happen in our lives. You know what, none of us are dead, we are all still breathing.
      So what about the cheaters….well they don’t get off Scott free. Over 50% will wish they could go back to their old life, they will have less money, will loose friends,will be less committed to the cheating partner,won’t trust for fear of being cheated on, and once the honeymoon is over will come back to Earth with a crash. Depression, drinking more, gambling,stress,anxiety.their kids neve4 look at them the same,their own parents will always be in their corner,but secretly hate the shame.
      Oh and the chances of the relationship lasting …well, time isn’t on their side.
      My ex has finally got it, that I will never take his sorry ass back, I don’t want to be friends, I have no respect for him,and he’s stuck with a trollop who he won’t be able to trust . She is soooo welcome to him,cause I know I deserve so much more…and by heck, I can’t wait for the next chapter in my life.
      Anika, stay strong,and really be truthful to yourself about what your relationship looked like before you guys split. Here as always, hugs hun xxx

      • Anika

        Dear Sasha thank you so much for your help. You’ve heard this lots of time but I say it again- you’re an amazing lady and true inspiration. I hope one day I become as strong as you are.
        I feel better today, you asked me if I would be able to rebuild ”a strong,loving,trusting relationship” and my answer is NO. The man I love(d) is not worth my feelings. If he loved me he wouldn’t unzip his trouser in the first place. I can’t change him, that is for sure. I invested into this marriage over 10 years and I’m done with that, I’m not going to lose another year. He’s life isn’t that rosy at the moment, the honeymoon is over and he is drawing in his s**t, but it is his pool and I’m not going to throw him a safety ring! I let her to do it..
        Yes,I have these moments of weakness when I’m seeing him because I’ve never stopped fancied him and because I remember how charming he was few years back. But it is not the same man I married, my sweetheart become a soulless zombie.
        His lover thinks she met a prince (the same one who burned his own castle) but all she has (had?) is a man who she won’t be able to trust. He loves himself the most and then one day she will realise she made me a favour and I hope I will feel an enormous relief even if it hurts right now. There was that idea in my head that by taking him back I would punish her, I would show her who’s the winner but then I’m asking myself what is the point if the winning price is a ton of rubbish..?I rather concentrate on myself and my lovely children and let him to continue his ”fantasy” life with his filthy princess.
        Sasha thank you for your support, I really do.

  • Misti

    All of this makes me so sad. I asked my husband if he was happy today and he said yes. Then I asked him how he can be happy without his family? He doesn’t call us or come over. He’s just abandoned me and his kids and he sounds so happy about it. No remorse no guilt. Who is this person? I’m so so sad. How can these family men do this? I don’t understand how one person can be so happy by causing so much pain to their family. I wish I didn’t care and could let go but every time I hear his voice on the phone all my feelings bubble to the surface. I need help

    • Sasha

      Hey Misti, hugs my darling. They really are devoid of loyalty and don’t see the sheer devastation they leave behind whilst in the throws of the affair. At this point there is nothing you can do or say that will make a difference.
      Misti, it’s your time to be strong for your children. Surround yourself with good friends and family,and have a go to person to offload to.
      You have to make that switch consciously,and as hard as it is,and we’ve all felt that stomach churning,knotted feeling, can’t eat or sleep….I’m not going to lie and say it’s easy, but day by day it does get easier. Will yourself to stop any questioning, or communication unless it’s to do with the kids. Concentrate on you now. Don’t focus on him or his shitty lying life. Let her deal with that. The worse thing you can do is keep on at him, or show him how low you are.
      Come on Misti, you’ve made it this far, your still breathing. How’s the time to grab the bastard by the balls and show him, your doing just fine without his cheating ass.
      I’ve been to see my counsellor today,and she asked how I was….I start a new job Monday, that I got because in my own time I took a year long course which I passed with flying colours. So I’m gabbing about it,and she congratulated me, and says….Wow, you’ve been through the worse thing a person can go through and you managed to study…well I laughed, thought a bit, and said I’d never have accomplished it had I still been with my ex…..see where I’m going Misti….
      yes there are still times where I feel the need to talk to him, see him….but I remind myself, that I’m better without him. Knowing that at a drop of a hat if I tried, he’d come home, actually I don’t want him ( hell hes made it obvious over the last 18 months he wants to come home)…why would I want a man who cheats, lies, manipulates, etc. Why do any of us think we deserve so little out of life.
      I get great satisfaction knowing he’s stuck with a woman who looks like an OAP on crack..and she’s younger than me hahs! And she’s stuck with a wreck of a man , even more overweight ( I’d say he’s put on 3 stone easy) who is in the pub more than he’s at home, gambles more, looks like shit…
      My life has changed so much…I really have to watch money, budget( something I’ve never had to do) but that’s it….and do you know what,my daughter doesn’t go without,I have. Far better social life, my close friends always say I look so much happier, I’ve got my spark back….and all I did was cut off any communication. Even now I don’t bother…why. Because I have nothing to say. He doesn’t deserve my time and he knows it. Misti, start thinking about the here and now. Get through things day by day, get out there, push yourself, change things round the house, take the kids out….it will get better, hugs my darling xx

      • Misti

        Oh Sasha, thank you so much for your kind words! They really do help. I’m going to try everything you’ve said. You make so much sense. Today has been such a struggle. But I’m still breathing and I will be strong for my children. He doesn’t deserve us. I really hope karma is a real thing and one day he gets everything he deserves. Hugs to you. Thank you for taking time out of your day to talk to me. I get so lonely and sad

      • Lara

        You are a true inspiration, I’m glad you are fighting back, I have been reading people s posts, all of us are at our lowest, yet we all come fighting back eventually, the adulterous are always the losers, in time, always comes karma , after 10 months of lies and deception, nine months later I am starting to heal , this forum is amazing help xx

    • Lara

      Even though it’s hard, try not to have contact, my husband is the same, almost ex husband, one minute we were happy on holidays , next I find out he is having an affair, that I can accept, but the cruelty, callousness, deception, stealing, i can’t, so hurtful, 28 years we were married. I am getting stronger each day, and you will too, learn to start loving your self again, have one happy good day a week, for just yourself, and gradually you will one day say f😄😄😄😄 him ! You are the better beautiful person xxxx

    • Linda Bailey

      Hi Misti, i’m so sorry to read what you’re going through. I went through the same thing, only thankfully I had no children. I lost a 16 year marriage in 15 minutes and had no clue that my husband was not happy. I had no clue that he was having an affair, because he met the woman at the gym at 5 o’clock in the morning, and instead of going to the gym they would go to a hotel room. He was home every day after work and write me love letters every single day . In fact the day that I found out that he was leaving, he lied and said that he was going to look at some shirts at a store, but he was really at a rental place renting an apartment with his new gal. He told me about five times a day he loved me on text. This was 2 1/2 years ago, and when I would read people tell me that it would get better I would never believe them. The one thing I kept on reminding myself of is that the two of the in fact the day that I found out that he was leaving, he lied and said that he was going to look at some shirts at a store, but he was really at a rental place renting an apartment with his new gal. He told me about five times a day he loved me on text. This was 2 1/2 years ago, and when I would read people tell me that it would get better I would never believe them. The one thing I kept on reminding myself of is that the two of them have no say in my life. I only have one life, and I’m not going to let anyone else decide whether I’m happy or sad. I was fine before I ever met him and I was my own person, and I’m my own person again. Everything that I read about dead people said would happen has happened. I’m almost glad that it happened now, because I can look back now and see all of the things I missed. All of his love letters were only to keep me from believing that he was cheating on me. Wasn’t because I was special. My new name for him is “Eddie Haskell.” He talks very loving even while he stabs a person in the back. I have a business with my husband and it’s one that I can’t get out of, so we have to contact and talk every single day. That was the hardest part of everything. Watching him drive away to another location and go on vacations together while I was in a town where I knew no one.

      I know it’s very hard for you to believe that things can get better, but if I can give you any advice it would be to keep your eyes on your life and not his. Relationships begin with an affair have less than a 1% chance of lasting, but even that shouldn’t be on your mind. Learn to love yourself, and your children we’ll see your strength. They will see that you did not let a man walk all over you. They will see your self-esteem. You only live one time on this earth do not let other people rain on your parade. There is a wonderful website that has helped many people. It’s got some bad language on it that’s for sure, but I think the part that I would tell you to pay attention to would be the stories of all of these people That abandon their loved ones have in common, and that is that they are narcissists. That’s how he can leave and not worry about any of you. He’s the main event! The name of the site is chumplady.com. Swear words don’t bother me, but they may bother you. This woman has been abandoned twice and it has cost her quite a bit of money. She’s an award-winning author and she’s funnier than Phyllis Diller. I can remember being in the middle of tears and reading some of her responses and I would start laughing so hard that I couldn’t stop laughing. Many on there say that she has literally saved their lives. She will help you to see what happened to you and what you were dealing with and weight of a p this woman has been abandoned twice and it has cost her quite a bit of money. She’s an award-winning author and she’s funnier than Phyllis Diller. I can remember being in the middle of tears and reading some of her responses and I would start laughing so hard that I couldn’t stop laughing. Many on there say that she has literally saved their lives. She will help you to see what happened to you and what you were dealing with as far as an ice cold person who seems to be able to just walk away and never think of the past even one bit.

      The girl that my husband left with had just broken up from her husband a month before and travel to our town because she caught him cheating on her. She divorced him, and took up with my husband immediately. She was well aware that I knew nothing, because he told her that he was going to text me to say goodbye even though he knew I had to see him in the business. She was nice enough to tell him that he should never do that that he should talk to me face-to-face. Well he didn’t talk to me face-to-face and I caught him staring at her photo one night. He admitted the affair and within 15 minutes I asked him to leave and he’s never been back. I’m so thankful that I stood my ground and didn’t let him stay like he wanted to. He thought he could stay and sleep in my house until their apartment came up for rent. I told him he needed to go live with her and her daughter. Then I sold his motorcycle that they were writing all over and that I had just paid off. LOL Well I had to do something right? So I know that it seems like you want to die and like you’ll never get over this but if you will just keep repeating to yourself like I did, “it will get better, it will get better, it will get better!” Just hold on tight and keep your eyes on yourself and doing for your kids because I have to tell you that one day he’s going to be very sorry for what he de so I know that it seems like you want to die and like you’ll never get over this but if you will just keep repeating to yourself like I did, “it will get better, it will get better, it will get better!“ Just hold on tight and keep your eyes on yourself and doing for your kids because I have to tell you that one day he’s going to be very sorry for what he did.

      When my mother left my father for another man many years ago, my dad never said one bad word about my mother to us kids. He kept us out of it. My mother, on the other hand, always called my father names because she wanted to make an enemy of him to us. Well it backfired on her, and we could see who the good parent was, and which parent was a very negative angry parent. Father was devastated, but he went on to live a very good life and he met another woman. My mother’s relationship broke up immediately following losing her marriage to my dad, and she would sit around playing the song “since I fell for you,“ about a person losing their whole family for someone. My mother was very angry that my father met a good woman and was happy. My father ended up forgiving my mom, and she called him one night they spoke on the phone for three hours. My father died two days later. My mother was devastated. Karma has a way of working things out. Even Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie who were supposed to be America’s sweethearts! And Elizabeth Taylor Who stole Debbie Reynolds husband Eddie, all of those relationships failed. I guess the tabloids were wrong! Relationships that begin with affairs do not fare well.

      But don’t even spend one second of your time gloating about that, because I started to do that and I realize that by doing that my eyes were still on them. I felt that the best revenge would be to live my best life and to be happy. When we die and we’re on our deathbed, we’re not going to wonder about their lives; we’re going to look back on our own lives. I also leaning very heavily on my faith because I’m a Christian. My husband read his Bible every day that we were married, and now the two of them go to church together even though we’re still married. Neither one of them see anything wrong with it. Not my problem! I started praying for both of them and I hope that they will be happy. Believe it or not, praying for them begin to heal my heart. Jesus met the woman at the well and asked her where her husband was. She told him she had no husband. He said to her, “you’re right you’ve had for husbands, and the one you have now is not your own, go and sin no more.“ I have always thought of this woman as the woman at the well. She has very low self-esteem and cannot get along without a man. In fact neither one of them can go a day without another person in their life. That is not someone to be jealous of or to think that their life is better than ours. It actually shows that they have very low self-esteem. Tell your heart not to break, but Force yourself to get up every day wash your face comb your hair and put your make up on and get dressed. Don’t try to think about it. Just do it! You will feel better every single time you do it. And think of yourself like the old TV show with Marlo Thomas, “that girl!“ Or “Mary Tyler Moore.“ You’re a strong woman, and you got this! Your kids will love and respect you And they may learn to be happy even in the face of sadness, just by watching how you handle yourself. God bless you. Linda in Mesa Arizona

      • Misti

        This is the nicest thing! Thank you so much for replying. I was in tears while reading your words. I too have to deal with him daily as we run a business together as well. It is usually over the phone or text and I maybe see him once a week if that. But today I kept it just business and didn’t ask or expect anything personal. My arms still tingle all the time which I’ve been told is anxiety which I’ve never had before. I am going to start making a list of things to do every day to take care of myself and not worry about him or what he is doing. It’s got to get better. That’s the only option. Thank you thank you for all of you wonderful ladies for helping us through the worst thing we have been through. Hugs to you

      • Rosa

        Hello Linda,

        God bless you for such beautiful words. I am truly speechless! Thank you so much for sharing your story. It brings so much peace and help. I am so grateful that I have found this blog because it helps to understand that getting cheated on is not of how we are or what we do. It does not matter if we are beautiful or intelligent enough…… their cheating is simply not about us but it’s all about them. It is like you said, they have very low self esteem and no matter what we do, I am convinced that they will always go ahead and cheat and continue to do so. When a person is not whole inside there is no way anyone can make them happy. How I understand the pain we all go through! My now ex husband left his family after 20 years of marriage and his other woman posted a picture of both of them on facebook in a hotel room after doing their „thing“ ! She also wrote how great it is to do it with a married man! This just shows how low can a person get. All I want to say to all these beautiful women is that please don’t torture yourself for a person who has lost his own integrity!Please, take care of yourselves. ! Search God with all your heart and He WILL heal you!

        Big hugs to you!

  • Betty

    My husband is leaving me. He says he isn’t happy, and he stopped loving me 13 years ago. This after 29 years, October 1 would have been 30 years. I am hurting so bad and I am so scared of the future. He left me two times before, but he came back with a promise to work on reconnecting. He was seeing another woman the entire time. Guess he came back to get his finances in order. I fell for it because I wanted to save my marriage. He would do just enough to make me think we had a chance, all the while still seeing her. I tried to make him happy, begged him to read books on love language and any other article I could find on how to restore your marriage. He knew the whole time that he was going to leave me. Well, good bye asshole.

    • Carol

      Dear Betty,
      Love I so feel for you, I’m going through this hell myself but have been helped so much by lovely ladies here. Mine left after 27 years after I had major surgery, he emptied the bank accounts. I’ve only seen him twice since but each time he says he loves me and always will and may not be with her in the future who knows. He messes with my head Betty, giving me hope then taking it away. The problem is even after all he’s done I haven’t got to the angry stage yet, I miss him and have obsessive distressing thoughts of them together. I still have feelings of love for him which I don’t understand after all he’s done and although everyone says if I go no contact and not see him that I will detach and those feelings will go, what if they don’t I’m scared about that everyday. Betty I do hope that you stay on here for support, you don’t deserve this, none of us too, it feels like bereavement yet they are still alive. I’m finding the betrayal and rejection so difficult to come to terms with I took my vows very seriously and thought we’d grow old together, I’m 57 now, he’s 60 next year, how could he think this is the way forward. Thinking of you xx

  • Sukh

    Hi.

    I don’t think there is another woman. But my husband has left me. We’ve not even been married for a year. His family was emotionally abusive towards me and mentally harassed me throughout the run of the marriage. He did not tell me that his mom is bipolar or that his sister is also a bit crazy. That his father has another child with another woman which his mom doesn’t know about but him and sister do. I found out this and much more AFTER getting married and felt ambushed. He promised me he would stand by me and protect me from this. He promised he would ensure that this would not happen to me but it did and I feel he let it in some part. We moved out of his mom’s house way too late and by then the fights had increased because I was not in a healthy mental state. The constant harassment I faced from his family affected me negatively. Last week, I was wondering whether this would work. I was in my hometown seeking medical treatment and we had not been talking for a while except for practical issues. Around 5 days ago when I asked him for a document, he said ‘he’s done’. I begged him to reconsider but he says now he doesn’t know anything. He’s uncertain and has been hurt as well. He does not know whether we can work out and whether he even wants to work out. He asked me for space and told me he wants to stay alone for a while. I came back to our house to find that he’d taken all his stuff and moved out. Why would he do that? Is he lying when he says he needs time to think? Is he only saying that because he doesn’t have the courage to tell me he’s leaving? I do not understand what is happening or how to cope with the end of my marriage. Please help.

  • SASHa

    Hi Martha, I always think a woman’s intuition is never wrong. Why do you want to see for your own eyes? The fact he has his own place and sees the kids weekends tells me has the best of both worlds….you,as a go to if things go wrong. Having a business together and not dealing with the financial matters could be something your putting off because you want to reconcile, but something he’s putting off,cause it serves him better.
    Listen I can’t tell you what to do, but what I can tell you is your making his life very easy. I really get it that your hoping he will suddenly realise what he could loose…well seven months on and your still stuck. He may not live together with her, but I bet they see each other…often. So cut him off completely. When he comes to see the kids, go out, start showing him, your not waiting around. And show him the strong woman he fell in love with. At work, keep it business like, and yes it will be hard,but your not making headway doing what your doing right now. It’s hard to think they replace us with a woman who is never any better….hell, if you saw who my ex was with,you’d shake your head and laugh ….one of my exes friends said he’d left the premiere division for the fourth division…a good analogy, I thought. I know my ex is merely putting up with his life now,and I know he misses his family tremendously….now if I’m Honest,I know I’d never have got back with him, but I also know that had he been honest,and not a coward, we could have remained really good friends…my ex is desperate for some kind of validity from me…he doesn’t get it. If I have to talk to him, I’m very business like, I don’t do small talk,I don’t want to ….and I make it obvious he’s the last person I want to talk to….can’t help it I mean afraid. I’m never rude, but what he’s put my daughter through,and how he’s behaved, the lies, the broken promises…..he doesn’t deserve anything from me.
    I’m a great believer that things happen for a reason…..my ex told me just before Xmas, that he wakes up every day and can’t believe what he’s done, he’s miserable, do you know what, he follows many stupid men who thought life would be better the other side of the fence……I guess his other side isn’t what he thought it would be….
    Start respecting yourself, and take time to love you…hugs xxxx

  • Kimberley

    Hi I wondered what you ladies thought about my predicament. My husband left 18 months ago, I don’t have children he has a daughter and grand daughter I was very close to. His daughter was devastated when he left me and promised nothing would change between us and the little one who I looked after one day a week from being born to 7 years old. Upshot is I hardly hear from her now, and I walked in a pub recently and she and her husband were sat with my husband and his girlfriend it was like a dagger through my heart. I am struggling to get so see my granddaughter, I know my husband will always come first with my stepdaughter but I just feel like I have been totally replaced as a wife step mum and grandma. I hardly hear from them any more, don’t want to be like a puppy waiting for scraps. would you just walk away or keep pestering to see them. So disappointed the thing she said wouldn’t happen has. They have even been on holiday the four of them, I am not divorced yet what a mess. Don’t miss him but miss my granddaughter. Your thoughts on this would be appreciated. I have been really good to them all financially and other ways and really don’t deserve this. Thanks and love to all xx

  • Kimberley

    Hi ladies it seems all these men follow a pattern we all go through such similar emotions. Regarding the karma thing well it makes you wonder, my husband of 32 years is now living in a council flat round the corner from me near his floosy, since he left me and behaved so badly he has had two strokes and now has told me he has prostrate cancer. I wouldn’t wish bad health on anyone but apparently the treatment he has having makes you impotent, strange how things work out. He made it clear I didn’t make him happy so trying not to dwell on the illness’s he chose her she can look after him, don’t think she is the nursing kind, cant believe what’s happened in 18 months. I would have got through this much easier if I hadn’t to pass his and hers cars round the corner from me since he left.. Love to all,

  • Carol

    My heart goes out to everyone here who has been going through this hell. Why is it that these men just abandon us, their children, grandchildren yet try to blame us for what they’ve done. Also mine has messed with my head again today, he said he will always love me, not sure he will be with her next year who knows what our future will be then the text finished saying have I moved out our old home yet. If he still loved me why did he leave, if he still loved me why is he with her. I never replied but just had loads of tears. I was gaining great help and comfort from the good people on this blog but he’s upset me yet again. Also I’m finding that a big hurdle for me is dealing with feelings of rejection, like what has she got that I don’t, does it mean I’m worthless, how could he just cast me aside for her, is she laughing at me. Any help on dealing with this would he much appreciated, love to you all xx

    • Rosa

      Carol,

      what you are going through is exactly the same what I have gone through too.It’s hard to explain. There’s a battle in his mind, he is not sure what he’s doing. What I personally learned from my side is that a man who does this is hurting every one around him. He is in complete chaos and is shifting all the guilt around himself so that he can feel better. For your own sanity try to keep away from him and protect your self. He is giving a lot of tumoil ! You must understand that it’s NOT about you. The problem is in him. Why keep obssessing that the ow is better? Never in her life will she ever be better. It is your great pain that is blinding you from the truth. The truth is you are just perfect the way you are! There is no other Carol in the world that has your heart, your personality and the way you smile and laugh. A husband that cheats is NOT because the way his wife is but it is because who he is! Carol please realize that a cheater has a terrible void in side himself. The ow has the same void inside herself too! True love never hurts! He is out of control and is putting his own family in such a disorder. Think about this, the ow is helping your husband by destroying his family…… can she EVER be better than you???????Carol I know you’re going through such pain and confusion but please its not you. Your husband is trapped in a world of lies and deceit He has lost reality. He will wake up one day but now he is gone. Keep strong please. You are worth it! Everything in you is just perfect the way you are! Hold on to God, please pray as God is protecting you ! Big hugs to you!

      • Carol

        Dear Rosa, bless your heart, I can relate to all you say, I’m just terrible at letting go and I need to. He confuses me so much and I just want their relationship to go wrong so they feel some of the pain they put us through. I’m obsessively thinking about the two if them together and this causes me such distress, I’ve always tried to be a good person and help others so don’t understand people like them who deliberately hurt those who have done nothing to them. I’m so confused as to why I still have feelings for him as he’s destroyed me and the family, will those feelings go, is it possible to fall out of love with someone after 27 years. Everyone on here is so very brave and amazing I just wish I was too love. Thankyou so much for caring love xxx

        • rosa

          Carol,

          there is just the point! You said it. How can a person forget you after so many years! The truth is when they do this they are not the same persons anymore. They have denied their own self! By falling so deep into sin, the mind gets completely corrupted.can goodness go together with evil? No it can’t so the good part leaves. Can a lie go together with the truth? No! So the two things seperate. Our „husbands“fell for something they knew from the very beginning that it was bad but they lost themselves! They chose to fall in temptation and by doing so, decided to take hands with lies, deception and betrayal. Keep this in mind, darkness hates the light! So the cheaters choosing darkness they automatically hate the light. By hating the light they reject us in such a terrible way. So please keep this in your heart, you are the light!!!! God bless you…..one last thing…. you will be stronger and no matter what happens at the end, guess what AWAYS wins ??? The light!!! And who is the light in this case…..???? YOU of course! My prayers to you!

    • Sasha

      Carol, he tells you he still loves you,to ease the guilt. Mine said he loves me and always will…well. In my book you don’t treat people you love the way he had, and I also think, if he says it enough perhaps when he can’t stand his life any more he may get the chance to come back. Over my dead body….I’d rather stick pins in my eyes.
      I’ve let him play happy families with trollop. The same trollop,who use to take her daughter on dates with men, when her daughter was younger…the same woman who stopped her daughters counselling, because perhaps the counsellor was getting to the crux of the problem, the same woman who slept with her best friends husband…see the theme runnin* through …my ex has really met his match…and I’ve sat back and watched,his life unfold.
      Carol, start focusing on the negatives,because only then will you thank the bitch for taking him off your hands. I believe God has a bigger plan. Minus these weak,pathetic exes.
      My daughter told her father this week that until he found a decent woman, she wanted nothing to do with that side of his life…..she’s 13 fgs!

      • Carol

        My dear Sasha, you talk such comment sense, my family are saying I can’t trust a word he says as he tells lie after lie. He today said he is moving back to our empty family home, its for one of two reasons we think, either its because we found out he was cohabiting with her and doesn’t want the court to know or even more upsetting he plans to move her in what was our family home which would be the ultimate insult and would cause me such distress. When I saw him he promised it was just him living there but he can’t afford to rent anywhere he said. He got tearful said he will never stop loving me, who knows what the future will be, he’s not madly in love with her and may not even be with her in the future. I am so emotional when I have contact with him Sasha and the frightening thing to me is that I feel like I still love him despite him doing such evil things, is it possible to lose feelings like that after 27 years hun. Surely I shouldn’t even be like that after how cruel he’s been. My dear children are so angry with him for what he’s done and at how he’s lied, stolen and destroyed me. I used to be so strong but I feel lost. My heart will break if he moves her into our old home, my name is still on the deeds as a joint owner although there is no equity in the property. I would just hate the thought of her in the home my children and grandchildren have been in. Again today he messed with my head saying he will always love me but its not enough as he can never forgive or forget me shouting at him when I found out what he’d done, he said I’d scared him as he’d never seen me like that before. My dear children think I just want him to come home, not because I really want him to but because I think the pain will stop if he does but I could never trust him. I just need your strength and the strength of others here, I feel like I’m not dealing with this well or right sweetheart. Take care thinking of you xxx

        • Sasha

          Carol, why have you moved out the family home? Your ex has a bloody nerve saying he loves you but can’t forgive what you said..is he for real. 27 years is a lifetime,I agree,and yes it’s difficult to stop loving him, but your still at the early stage. You’ve been ill, have had so much going on,and all he’s thinking about is himself….your children will give you strength. Carol, I still think of my ex, my car is my haven,and that’s where I do my talking to myself. I’m a social care worker,and work in the community,so am in my car a lot…..that’s where I give my head a wobble. Don’t give him an inch. I would have moved back in, and let him try get you out,
          I knew my ex would be difficult,so photocopied everything, went to a solicitor the day after the split and dug my heels in. I played the game. Didn’t tell him I was working for six months,the agreement was he’d pay the mortgage till I got a job….and saved like an idiot, in that time. I brought a new car, handed the bastard my car back cause he never stopped going on about how I’d have to pay for it…my thinking was …over my dead body will I pay for a car in his name. The look on his face when I gave him the keys was worth every minute….I informed our mortgage company, which he hated, the phone contracts in his name…well I removed the simm card and gave it him in envelope…I regained the power and it kind of set my train of thought. Trollop is welcome to him and his disfunctional family,she’s welcome to his bullshit, lies,dandruff,slobbish ways,….he’s stuck with the local bike who looks like An OAP on crack…..and wether he’s happy or not is none of my business…he’s asked to come back,done some very strange things,but knows he will never enter MY home ever again. I don’t want to be friends,and I will never forgive him for how he’s treated our daughter. If he was on fire I wouldn’t piss on him. He’s lost friends, and is a complete mess,so I guess I’m seeing karma on a regular basis.
          Carol, replace that feeling you have for him, grow some balls and show him you mean business. He deserves nothing from you, and is trying to keep you sweet, so his life is easier.
          One of our mutual friends said to me just last week,that it seemed I’d done far better out the split than him,that he was a shell of how he use to be…my reply was…..good! Haha

          • Carol

            Hi Sasha love, I was left in the family home alone after he walked out, it was a three storey four bed town house and my health was getting such that I wasn’t managing stairs well or able to afford utilities. I was also miles from the children and grandchildren and very lonely and scared. The local hosing authority managed to get me a small bungalow literally give minutes from my children so that’s why I moved out. The house was up for sale but we have mortgage arrears plus a big loan on the house and my solicitor has told his that now I’m on disability benefits I cannot pay my share of the loan so if he sells the house he will have to sort that. I’m not sure why he’s moving back as he’s still paying the reduced mortgage and loan, I asked him if it was because he knew the court would penalise him for cohabiting and also if he planned to move her in. He of course said definitely not to both. He kept saying he isn’t madly in love with her like I think and may not even be with her in the future who knows, that he’ll always love me but can’t forget me shouting at him. He then cried and hugged me leaving me distressed and confused. I was always so strong I hate that woman, why can’t I hate him too Sasha I’m so scared I can’t lose the feelings I have for him as it hurts so much. My family say I need to go total no contact, will that help me detach like he obviously has. I need strength like you have and the other amazing people here love, thankyou so much love xxx

        • Sasha

          carol and Lauren……I hope today is a better day for you both. Carol I’m glad your near your family. So let him have the house,stop communicating with him, because while you do, you don’t move on. It’s hard,so hard not to communicate with the man you raised a family with, but for your own well being,start now. Cut him off,and leave him to it.
          I’m 50 and at times worry about my future, but it’s a future without a liar,a cheat,a manipulator in it. That’s the difference. There’s so much I’d like to say to him, but do you know what, it won’t make things easier, it won’t change anything. I surround myself with great friends, have got rid of afew who I don’t trust,and made some new ones.
          I still think of him from time to time, but know I’m a much better person without him. He doesn’t deserve my time, I don’t want to be friends with him, and I won’t forgive him. Wether right or wrong I can live with that. As long as he treats our daughter with more respect and stops his BS questioning, then all’s good as far as I’m concerned.
          Start thinking of yourself ,and how you deserve more. Only today I saw the landlady of a pub we use to frequent. She said I looked like a different person, younger and happy. When I thought about it, I thought yes I do. I’m not completely there,but I tell myself every day, the next man to enter my life will be extremely special. I’m in no rush, cause at the moment my daughter is my number one priority.
          Ladies when you cut these men off,when you stop listening to their bull, that’s when you realise just how strong you are. Hugs to you both, and never waver from the fact, that you are going to come through all of this stronger XX hugs

          • Carol

            Dearest Sasha, you are one amazingly lady, to be going through the same thing yet take the time and trouble to help us means such a lot. You are so right as every time I hear from him or see him he confuses and upsets me and even makes out he doesn’t love her too much and will always have feelings for me. My children say he is using me and trying to manipulate me for two reasons, one he doesn’t want to go to court, he said no judge would make him pay spouse maintenance as he’d tell them he’s got no money and lots of debt, he also said he wouldn’t be made to pay the money he took from the accounts despite him having no receipts as to what he did with the thousands in cash he took leaving me with nothing. Second the children say he’s trying to use me as a fallback in case it doesn’t work with her. I did get thrown yesterday when I still felt feelings for him Sasha, will the no contact help those feelings fade and go away, it quite scares me to think that I still have feelings of love for a person like this, I hate her too for helping destroy my family, people say karma will get them but what if it doesn’t, what if they live a wonderful life while I’m alone and broken. He’s lost his while family for her, yet doesn’t care but how would she feel if she knows he tells me he’s not madly in love with her and may not even be with her in the future!!! The thoughts and images of them together are still very obsessive and distressing despite distraction, my Daughter said to let them just be and eventually my brain will get bored with them, I so hope she is right. These men and women destroy families, how do they sleep at night, they even try and blame us don’t they, he said my illness got to much, that he found it hard to talk to me so I feel its my fault. You are an amazing person and Mother Sasha, I so want courage like you have, they’ve made me feel worthless and unlovable. Bless your heart and your beautiful Daughter xxx

          • Misti

            Sasha, you are inspiring! I’m 50 also. How long did it take you to get this healthy? I love your attitude! I feel like I’m starting to heal but I’m not there yet. It’s been almost 7 months since I found out about his affairs. Just wondering how long you’ve been apart since you seem so strong and healthy. Thank you for all you wisdom! It really helps

          • Martha

            Dear Sasha,

            Similar me and Misti, after 7 months I feel that Im not progressing. Still loving and caring for my cheating husband who is recently living separately in an apartment. As we both still seeing each other everyday due to running the same business together and he wants to be with the kids in the weekend, how can I easily let him go? He still hides this OW from the family and friends. And still deny that they already live together (I just assumed). Should I check his apartment? I dont even know which unit he is staying. I only know the name of the apartment. Would find out everything good for me? I still hope we can re-unite again.
            How I wish I have your courage.

          • sasha

            Carol, using no contact is for you to heal. How can you heal with him badgering you, and don’t be mistaken that those words he says are for his benefit only. You deserve so much more, so let the judge decide. Your children are right. The hardest thing to come to terms with, is ,if he loved you he’d be by your side. Once you get past that, then moving on is the next step.
            My ex is around daily,if not by the house, then on the phone to our daughter,or in the high street,or by my work….it’s 24/7. I’m a year and half ,down the road, and I never think what if, or I want him back….he disgusts me. I don’t get gooey when I see him, infact I tend to avert my eyes elsewhere…he doesn’t deserve a second of my time. He will beep his horn, or like last week ask our daughter to tell me he needs a word….my body language says it all. I’m never rude, but I certainly don’t encourage talk. He did say a couple of weeks ago, he was going to ring me but thought I’d tell him to fk off….I didn’t say a word…..ladies, cheats have shown exactly how low they are, regardless if your old relationship was in trouble, to cheat shows what a complete dick they are.
            By going no contact, which means no texting or replying, no talking on the phone,or small talk ( unless you have children ofcourse,)it means you can work things out in your head, learn to love yourself, see him for who he really is. I wrote a journal of all the crappy things he’s done,and when I’m feeling fragile I re read it…..
            Every little thing they do is for them, and no one else…my counsellor talked about forgiveness the other day…..apparently to forgive means your over it…..erm I’m well and truly over his BS, but he definitely doesn’t deserve my forgiveness….he can rot in hell for what he’s put my daughter through…..we have a fabulous relationship..share lots together,and he’s lost the relationship he once had with her.. and managed it all in his own…..

          • Martha

            Dear Sasha, how I wish I can be as strong as you. 7-months is not enough for me to move on. I still have to meet my husband at the office everyday even though we now live separately. We agree in the weekend we spend time together as a family to make things easier for the children. Is it possible to move on when I still see him everyday? Somehow I still love him and wish to re-unite with him. But on the other hand, he is changed now and not the man I married anymore. If I process the divorce legally, it would be even more damaging in terms of financial situation because I sense that OW will be happy to take control our assets and it will jeopardise my children’s education fund. Now I feel stuck and can not do anything significant than accepting the facts and letting him go.
            Thanks for your wisdom words for all of us here.

      • Carol

        Dearest Sasha, gosh you’ve so helped me this week, I’ve cried so many tears over him. My children and grandchildren are my world, he said, he didn’t realise that they and our friends would stop talking to him!!! What the hell did he expect, he lied, cheated and stole. My children agree with you, that he’s keeping me sweet as he wants to avoid court, he said he won’t have to pay spouse maintenance, pension or the money back that he stole, I have the evidence to prove it all, he said he’ll say he hasn’t got money left over, he changed utilities over to me within days of leaving yet says I should be grateful he’d paid them for the last month he was there. Now he’s moving back in and its strange as it needs to be sold. He said he needs time to think by himself and he loves me but could only say he might come home, no promises. I think my dear daughter is right when she says I just want him to come back so the emotional pain will stop, not because I want him for him, plus I’ve never been alone and my health issues make me feel insecure and unsafe at times. I’m definitely taking your advice and going no contact in the hope that distance allows me to detach. He obviously detached a long time ago, these men don’t allow us the same privilege do they, they take our choice away. Its unfair, he never even gave our marriage a try, like 27 years was just expendable. He was a loving, caring man but that’s not him anymore, I need to do what you advise and write down all the bad things about him and the dreadful things he’s put me and the family through. It feels like a bereavement although he’s still alive. He compounded my feelings of rejection when he said she can do things I can’t like eat out, drink wine, has more energy, he also said he didn’t like my feeding tube in my nose. All this has made me feel worthless, that’s why I feel she must be better than me. He told me there’s no need to go to court, that he and his solicitor can make me sign a clean break thing. He totally confuses me, says he may not stay with her, loves me but that its not enough as he can never get over me losing my temper when I found out about the affair. How did you and the other lovely people on here cope with the crippling feelings of rejection, the feelings of being second best to her. I’m practicing trying to let the thoughts and images of them be there without reacting with distress but I’m not very good at it that’s for sure, my daughter and son say if I keep doing that then eventually my brain will get bored and it will stop, I so hope they are right. Someone scared me by saying if I carry on like this I’ll never get over him and will always be this way, not helpful. Its like everyone else can see him for what he really is but its not sinking in with me, makes no sense. I used to be strong and logical never took BS from anyone yet he’s dragged me down. Can I truly ever lose feelings and fall out of love as surely that should have happened by now, its three months since he left. I wish I could give you a real hug Sasha, I admire your strength and courage love xxx

        • Sasha

          Hey Carol, your family see it, because they don’t feel your feelings. I can’t tell you if you will stop feeling the way you do, but I do know time does heal….he will have to pay spousal maintenance ( my only saving grace is i didn’t marry the man) start getting professional advice,someone who really gets you what you deserve. He’s scared, and he’s bullying you….my ex tried it with child maintenance. He earns a lot of m9neyand thought I’d agree to £350 a month. I told him to try,and I’d go straight to HMRC and let them decide,not before telling him I’d photocopied everything. He’s tried reducing payments ,but he should know me by now …hell after 22 years,you’d think so.
          Had some great news today,about my health, and it puts things into perspective….I’m ready to live my life by my rules,I start a new job closer to home next week, and have enrolled myself on a course at night school….the world is my oyster ladies.
          I saw a meme today and it’s true
          “ we chose our attitude,we chose our behaviour…..we chose to be happy” life is a choice, if you want misery, don’t do anything,but if you want a fulfilling life change your attitude….
          Carol, keep going girl, chose your attitude,and from this moment don’t put up with his BS any longer….hugs hun xxxx

    • Anika

      Carol ask yourself- would you be able to take him back and behave like nothing ever happen? I personally couldn’t do it. I wouldn’t be able to sleep in the same bed. That ow would be always there no matter how sorry he was. I wouldn’t be able to kiss him, I would be sick, yuk!
      They all try to mess up our brains, I suppose they so emotionally unstable they don’t really know what they want from life. Now ”my” husband is telling me he made a mistake and he regrets it, and in the same time he’s dating that b**ch and showering her with presents(obviously she let anybody on social media to know about it) These men are very immature, mine is not teenager any more and he fall in love with some silly woman and gave up of a family and every thing he owned.., that beggars believe. And they suppose to separate sex from emotions. Pathetic men.
      What I’m going to do is to look after myself and kids. I’m trying to be a happy single and pamper myself for a change.I want to feel good in my own skin and I’m doing a progress. I hope one day you will feel it too.
      Think about this Carol, his honeymoon one day will be over and he will dream about you. He will feel sorry the trollop he chose will sleep next to him. he can have that garbage any time now but he can’t have YOU. You’re beautiful, sensitive and carrying person and he simply doesn’t deserve you. There must be a greater plan for you, for all of us..

  • Carol

    Thankyou so much Anika love, what they put us through is unforgiveable yet the bizarre thing is despite that we still miss them and feel jealous of the other woman when in reality all she’s got is a liar and a cheat. They cut off their children and grandchildren, what kind of a person does that. I asked him if she was worth losing his family for and he said yes!! Unbelievable. I feel for you, Sasha and everyone here going through this. I just wish I can find the strength you have all found, some say after three months I should be over him but I’m not. The feelings of rejection and betrayal are the worst aren’t they. I didn’t know if others had the obsessive thoughts and images so its a comfort to know I’m not alone in that, I just hope it goes and the feelings I still have for him go too. Bless your heart, I’m thinking of you love and everyone here xx

  • Martha

    Hi Everyone,
    Having read the comments I feel like I am going crazy and being so dump for still loving my husband who left me 2 weeks ago for separation since I found out that he cheated on me since Sep 2017. I feel devastated up until now. I still welcome him home and let him stay for the weekend so he can spend time with the kids. On weekdays, he stays at his apartment. We have 3 daughters. We run a business together so we still go to work together in the same car. Every morning he come over and visit the kids after work. It sound odd but somehow I still want him to be around me so I still welcome him home. I don’t know if they already live together now with the new woman who also abandoned her family with 4 kids. Many told me how I have became so stupid for letting him get what he wants all the time. I don’t know what to do. Still wishing him back. I’ve invested so much in our 18 years of marriage with memories and business together. He is not living as a single already even we are not legally divorced as it is financially very complicated to split. He suggested me to find another man. He said I deserve someone better. Please tell me what to do.

    • Misti

      Hi Martha, I’m in the same situation, my husband of 20 years (together for 27) moved out last January. He has an apartment and I don’t know if they are living together. We have two businesses together and two houses. Our son works for us. Everything is so complicated. I don’t know how to proceed. I have to be nice so he doesn’t try to take the business away. He basically throws the affair in mine and my children’s faces. It is horrid. He never tries to see his 14 year old son. He thinks saying hi to him once a week if we are lucky is being a dad. He has went on at least five trips with her and her kids. She was married also and left her husband. She is 17 years younger than my husband. This is the worst thing I’ve ever been through. I’ve cried for seven months straight and am just wondering when I will quit caring

      • Martha

        Hi Misti, I can truly understand your situation. Im also tired of getting hurt but at the same time I still wish things get back as it used to be. Many said I shouldn’t think that way and accept the fact that he is changed. He is no longer the loving and sweet man I married. Easier said than done. All I can do now is protecting what’s left ie the kids and the business. We still go to the office together. I meet him everyday and eat lunch together. We still share the same bed when he stays during weekend. But I don’t know how long it will be like this. I try to put my feelings aside. Sometimes I can and sometimes It is very hard. He still hides this other woman from everyone. I don’t want to bother asking about her anymore. What is bothering me is that if I legalised the divorce than she can take control of his assets which I feel not fair. I have put my time and energy to earn those assets too. I’ve cried for seven months too since the day I found out. He admitted the affairs started on Sep 2017. Yesterday he told me that he is still not sure what to do in his life. Getting back with me is impossible as both families already know what happened and he can’t bear the guilt and shame. In stead, he thinks that being responsible is by continuing his relationship with her which does not make any sense. He keep justifying his wrong doing by giving nonsense explanation. Of all these situation, why I still feel hard to let him go?? I don’t understand.

        • Misti

          It’s so hard. My husband just went on the ow family reunion with her and her kids and she is related to my daughters best friend so he broke my daughters freaking heart. She was so embarrassed and hurt that her dad went to her best friends reunion like he’s doing nothing wrong. He’s left his family and has a whole new family. He doesn’t spend anytime with us except business phone calls to me. I don’t know how to let him go. It’s so wrong that another woman has my husband. And my kids have lost their dad. That hurts so much that it doesn’t phase him that he doesn’t spend any time with his kids. I pray every day that I can quit caring and move on. Hugs to you and stay strong! We must lean on each other to get through this

  • Carol

    Hi Anika, thankyou for your kindness, sadly I’m sensitive to many medications which makes things difficult. I never would thought it would completely overwhelm me like this and it does scare me especially when people tell me to forget him and move on otherwise I’ll always be like this as I then feel something is wrong with me as after three months I’m still so distressed and obsessed. Did you constantly think of them together love? and did you have images, if so did they go away. Thankyou so much xxx

    • Sasha

      Carol, three months is no time..wish I could give you a hug. It’s such a desperate time. Every5ing you say your going through is exactly what most of us went through,and are still going through. Ido agree with annika,see what your doctor says. Counselling has been my saviour,just letting it out to a stranger has a cathartic effect. Twelve m9n5s ago I’d have had a heart attack knowing my ex had just got himself a brand new Range Rover ,but when he dropped our daughter off it went straight over my head. Mind you he needed a bigger car,just to be able to sit comfortably…haha.
      We are all here for you, and I promise you will get through this. Do your crying,get angry,and remember you are worth so much more..hugs hunxx

      • Carol

        Dear Sasha, thankyou so kuch sweetheart, gosh I wish we could all hug each other. There is not much help here in the U. K for people in this situation, I am having some counselling with relate but its expensive and as he took all the money I have to fund it from my disability benefit. The anxiety feelings and panic he’s caused are unbearable at times. I just find it hard that I’m now in a small one bed place as he caused us to lose are for our bed family home, I’m alone for the first time ever, yet he has soneone. He messed with my head the last time we spoke on 1st June, said he wants to be with her now but there’s no guarantee he’ll be with her next year, that he’ll always have feelings for me. I got really confused so had to go no contact for my own sanity. I just hate thinking of him living with her, how do you all deal with that, its like we never existed in their lives isn’t it? The thoughts and pictures of them in my mind are the worst though causes me such distress and the fear of them not going away. Did you and others here still have love and feelings for him even after the dreadful things done to you, is it possible to fall out of love as it would be so much easier to move forward if the feelings went away. Take care Sasha, thinking if you and your darling daughter love xx

        • Rosa

          Dearest Carol,

          Please stay strong! What helped me so much when I thought of them together is as follows: they are two selfish cheaters comitting adultery. God is watching them!!!! She is having the „waste“ and he is betraying HIMSELF! When I think this way it really helps me….. They are both so selfish and lost….. I promise you, you will get stronger and one day you will realize that you are not hurting any more! When healing slowly sets in you find your self being grateful that you were the strong one and that you can walk with pride. You will feel free from so much hurting and pain! It will take time, but please pray and give your self to the Lord. I never thought I would say this but I am happy to be wthout my ex husband . A real man with heart would never treat his wife in such a shameful way! He was not good enough for me. He had to run off with someone just as low as himself! You are NOT the person to blame!!!! He is terribly broken inside! NEVER compare yourself to his mistress! She will never reach your beauty, your integrity and your honesty! I am sure the cheaters know how worthless they are and this is why they treat their faithful wife so cruelly . They desperately are trying to push their guilt on you but it will never work! Please be strong and never forget that you are NOT the one who lost, YOU are the winner!!!! Big hugs to you! Wish I could help…. I am in Germany….If you need someone to talk to gladly call me at any time…… please let me know…..God bless you!

    • Anika

      I still think about them but less and less. First few months I was looking at her facebook profile every day,believe me , it was awful seeing her so shamelessly happy, it was a torture. That woman has no class, it looks like she is almost proud that she stole someone’s husband, that children lost their daddy. But I don’t want to waste my energy on them, I suddenly realise they are worth each other. I have better and worse days but again I realised that I was lonely in that marriage long before, that he was an useless husband and father, that I’m better on my own and nobody (I really hope) is going to betray me especially in such a cruel way he did! Take care Carol and love to all of you ladies.

    • Anika

      Yes Carol I think I was obsessed with that woman for sometime. I was comparing myself to her and wondered why in his eyes she’s better than me (still wonder). I was browsing her facebook page and crying.. That woman has no class, it looks like she is almost proud that she stole someone’s husband and father. What an achievement!
      I realised suddenly that they are both worth each other. I don’t want to think about them, what they’re doing, etc. I had to stop all these intrusive thoughts. I still have better and worst days but with help of my family, friends and this forum I’m better and stronger every day.
      I hope that one day something will change inside you and you won’t look back. I feel very sorry for you, you are in a such difficult situation but please try to think positively. Sooner or later he will realise he made a mistake, a huge mistake! and he will live with a guilt to the rest of his life.If not that’s mean you loved the man who’s not worth your tears.He is a garbage!
      Lots of love ladies

  • Carol

    Hi everyone, I hope you can help as this blog is so helpful. My husband of 27 years left after I had surgery saying GE couldn’t cope with my illness anymore and had met someone else. He emptied the bank accounts and changed utilities into my name. I’ve had dreadful bulling letters from his lawyer since. I’m struggling with anxiety and obsessive thoughts and images of them together causing me great distress. I’ve good family and friends but keep being told to forget him and move on but its so hard. Also how do you cope knowing they n ow live together, its like I never existed, I feel like a bit of trash thrown away and worthless. I also don’t understand why I still have feelings for someone who has done such awful things to me. Will all this go away, I’m so scared I’ll be like this forever as in my mind and they are happy and everything’s rosy whilst I’m totally broken and cry all the time, it feels like a bereavement yet h es still alive. Any help or advice would be much appreciated, thankyou, Carol x

    • Anika

      Carol did you ever think about taking antidepressants? They helped me so much, before I was thinking about “them” all the time. Right now I feel so much better and more often I think that trollop made me really a favour..

    • Lara

      Hi , I am in the same position as you, it’s awful and I really feel for you , I feel so sad, and feel like a knife is twisting in my stomach, I don’t know how these adulterous men can be so callous, insensitive and deceitful?

  • Michelle

    I’m just wondering if any of the wives have any interest at all or truly CARE if the husband is unhappy? Have they considered that he may have been staying because of his obligation th the home and the children..that he may have been suffering in a loveless,heartless incompatable marriage but may have been doing the best he could at the time. Why is the wife the complete victim with no responsibility for addressing her husbands unhappiness? I believe honesty should have been in place for both parties…not just the husband…there is a reason a man might cheat,and maybe,just maybe the wives should take a long,hard look in the mirror to see that maybe they are NOT perfect and could have possibly been partially responsible for the breakdown. This man bashing on here is so one sided.

    • Lauren Keith in KC

      It seems as if you have an axe to grind or some guilt laying stuffed in you somewhere. I’ll take your bait and set you straight. Whatever problems someone has in their marriage they can ALWAYS either talk to their spouse about them or even more bluntly, just file for divorce. An affair is one of the most cowardly things to do to a wife, no matter HOW BAD she is, to children and to a family. Unless you are not the victim of your husband’s infidelity then the only other reason you’d be on a board like this would be because you yourself are involved in an affair with a married man and you’re snooping around on websites looking for ways to justify your shameless actions. You, my dear, are also a coward. Beat it off if this board and go find somewhere he’s you can justify and sling your BS to. We’re not buying it.

    • Sasha

      Hey Michelle, I’ve read most posts here, and we could be reading from two different sites. Your absolutely right that many are hurting, feeling they have lost their best friend, then there’s the way some of the men behave….I will only talk about how my ex. So it’s ok for daddy to sneak the other woman on holiday then surprise our daughter,when he promised it would be just their holiday, is it ok to stalk, question my friends, park outside the house daily,turn up at my work,try to bully me with ridiculous child maintenance payments, when the man earns much more . I pay the mortgage, bills,the only thing he has to do is pay a reasonable amount for his child,which thankfully he does because I was wise enough to photocopy everything. Am I being unreasonable when I have to consistently ask my ex to stop questioning our child….the same child that is now in counselling,because he can’t keep his mouth shut. Your very right,that our 22 year relationship was in trouble. It was no surprise to me,and I was relieved when it ended. The thing is I naively thought we would be able to co parent ,showing respect ,teaching our child that even when things don’t work out,mum and dad can still work together. How wrong I was. He rode roughshod over our daughter to make a point. Who tries to introduce a child to the OW two weeks after she gets the news mum n dad are splitting? We have had to endure over a year of absolute crap ,from a man who has dissapointed his daughter over and over again. So forgive me if I’m not a tad angry with him. And we are still dealing with his crap…ughhh
      And I really hope in time, we can become friends…but like the saying goes with friends like that,who needs enemies….

    • rosa

      There is absolutely NEVER an excuse for a spouse to betray the other!!!! Cheating on a spouse is soul rape! If a spouse was supposedly sooooo unhappy all he had to do is talk, communicate and not be a huge coward thinking betrayal is the solution. If a spouse had enough of the marriage then PLEASE have the moral and integrity to leave with respect! So if you are trying to calm a bit of your guilt, look at your own integrity!!!!! I have the feeling YOU are cheating……

      • SAsha

        Hey Rosa, hows it going. The thing is morality and respect are missing from those who think they are doing nothing wrong, sneaking around…..cheats are the scum of the earth,and this is why…..they don’t have the integrity to end one relationship before entering another. What they don’t bank on is the fallout when the shit hits the fan. Many friends are lost, that honeymoon period doesn’t last long, then the insecurity of wondering if the respective partner is cheating on them, less money, stress when your own kids see what a looser you really are,finger pointing by people who think your a complete pair of twats,suddenly realising that she / he ain’t all that….same shit, putting the bins out, paying bills,cleaning the loo,putting up with him/her asking if you ever think o& your ex wife, arguments because you were gone too long,feeling guilty cause your missing out on your kids, ….the list is endless.
        And all because they had met their soulmate…haha. Statistically, relationships that are started from cheating have less chance to succeed, are less committed,and if they marry, divorce rate is higher….doesn’t look good does it.

        • Annika

          Spot on Sasha! I read somwhere that these men also are using lot of energy to convince themself that “it was worth it”.
          I don’t know how many months/years it takes but ladies one day we will be content in ours lifes and it will be a time when their honey moon period will be over and a “normal” life they hated so much will begin. Sooner or later…

          • Sasha

            Hey Annika, I’m further along. Almost a year and half.
            I don’t care if they are long lost lovers, when you have kids and use them,then the cheat deserves everything coming to them. It’s been tough,and yes i do miss the man he was,but I’ve seen the man he is now,and want no part of it. I’ve cried for my daughters sorrow,I’ve craddled her, I’ve listened to her,and consoled her. The man who moans that he’s paying too much maintenance to his own daughter…I mean how low. I don’t look back, but do bring him to hand every time he does something to my daughter.
            Rejoice in the fact that there is a bigger plan for you. It may not seem it now, but I truly believe, my next chapter of life will be better than ever.
            So for now , all you ladies…. love yourself, leave the ex to get on with it,and build a better future for you and yours…much love xxx

        • Lara

          Hi , I am in the same position as you, it’s awful and I really feel for you , I feel so sad, and feel like a knife is twisting in my stomach, I don’t know how these adulterous men can be so callous, insensitive and deceitful?

        • Rosa

          Sasha dear you are so right!
          My ex husband has spent sooo much money for her and is acting so ridiculous! He acts like a teenager and thinks he got it all! My son is happy that he now lives far away because he feels so embarrassed with such a father! My goodness one day these cheaters will wake up in bed looking at their big „love“ and realize…… what on earth am I doing here with this person!!!! She helped me cheat on my family. I am so sure this will happen……and when reality hits them they will suffer ten times more as we did! ig hugs!!!!

  • Carol

    Dear Rosie,
    Sweetheart you are so right we think we know them but then find we didn’t at all, evil and wicked both them and the other woman. They never have any comprehension of the pain and suffering they cause to their spouse, children, grandchildren and family either.

    My head, like yours is full of confusing thoughts, the abandonment and rejection pain is a constant feeling eh love?

    Seeing them together really hurt but the thing that scares me is that they both seem to be living rent free in my head both in thoughts and distressing images, I don’t know if this is normal and will it stop.

    I’m so very sorry that you and your dear family and everyone on here are having to go through this dreadful emotional pain. We all have morals and compassion and could never do this to another human being especially one we took vows with.
    How they sleep at night or carry the guilt I will never know, he says she listened to him and they are in love, I just don’t want it to work as its not fair, they leave us, have someone to go too yet we are broken.

    I’m thinking of you Rosa and I’m thinking of everyone here, take care love xx

  • Carol

    Hi everyone, well today I saw him with her together in the car for the first time since he left at the end of march, seeing her sitting where I used to sit was like a physical punch in the stomach. I was crying so much I had to pull my own car over. I know all she’s got is a liar cheat and a thief but after 27 years I find it so hard to let go. I’m scared that I still have feelings for someone who can do what he did. I feel like she’s smug and laughing at me as she got what she wanted. How can I cope seeing them together I didn’t expect it to hurt so much and now I keep picturing them in my mind. Thankyou all so much xx

    • Sasha

      Hi Carol,it seems we have both been knocked for six. Listen, dig deep for that strength,and move forward. Your husband is a sneaky, lying cheat, and you don’t deserve that. He can try and justify his actions, blame you,whatever,but at the end of the day he is a flawed man. I get that you have memories together,but start looking at how badly he treated you. Let him run round with her, leave him to it. Let her put up with his crap. Then slowly ,the pair of them will realise there is no trust, they will question everything about each other. Not a good foundation for a loving relationship is it?
      The honeymoon period doesnt last long…..and by that time they realise what a mess their life is.
      I still miss my ex sometimes, but I definitely wouldn’t have him back. Why? Cause I’ve seen how low he can go,I’ve seen the other side of his behaviour,and he doesn’t deserve ME! I deserve so much more. This man has paraded his trollop,lied,not only to me but his child, he’s manipulated both my kids,constantly tries to engage in some sort of communication with me. I was done when he tried to introduce trollop two weeks after we split. His relationship with his daughter isn’t what it was,his daughter is now in counselling,he’s resorted to name calling to my children,about me….that’s the kind of man who doesn’t deserve any of my time.
      He’s asked to come back, hinted to kids and friends, stalked me,questioned friends and family….he’s a looser,and I haven’t had to do anything. I’ve sat by,tried to move on with my life,and I’m getting there!
      Carol,thank your lucky stars that when you come through this,a stronger person, you will meet someone who deserves you, who will cherish you, love you,and be your best friend!
      Do not give him an inch, or a minute of your time…gloves off now, get everything you deserve,and don’t let him try and manipulate you…your worth 1000 of him. Hugs and here.xxxx

      • Carol

        Dearest Sasha,
        Bless your heart I’m so sorry that he’s treated you and your dear children that way, you don’t deserve it either love. When I saw her sat where I used to sit it hurt so bad, I feel like I was never a part of his life. The way he and his solicitor are bullying me despite me being vulnerable and on disability is causing me great distress and anxiety. The confusing emotions I’m feeling frighten me Sasha, hrres a person who has lied, cheated, taken all the money yet I miss him and think I have feelings, how can that make sense and is it possible to fall out of love with someone after 27 years? Even more bizarre is my jealous feelings of her, I feel she is smug and laughing at me as she got what she wanted. You are one amazingly strong lady and I admire you so much, I hope I can become as string as you. I’m 57 and not physically well so not sure if anyone would ever be interested in me. I have no ever felt so rejected and betrayed like us all here we don’t deserve it. I’m afraid of the constant thoughts and images I’m getting of them, I’m not sure if that’s normal and if they will go away. I’m thinking of you Sasha, stay strong sweetheart and thankyou for being there xx

        • Ros

          Dear Carol,

          everything that you are feeling is perfectly normal. I am still grieving for the loss of my husband and most of all going through a huge battle in my mind. I keep asking myself where on earth is that loving and caring person I used to know? Who is this stranger that is treating his family with such cruelty? How is it possible that a person can act in such a cold and guiltless way? I have come to the conclusion that there is NO human logic to this. A person that falls so deeply into sin is captured by total selfishness and evilness. They are now living in their twisted world, where no moral nor integrity exists. I say they have become soulless. Please keep in mind that they are the ones that have lost NOT you. A person who destroys his family, his own flesh and blood is lost! They may be happy now but I am quite sure that it is only a matter of time that they will realize what they have really done. It depends on the hardness of their hearts! They have been captured by selfishness and sin and do not realize that all that glitters is not gold! They are giving up a diamond for glass! All they had to do is polish their diamond when it lost its shine!Insted it was too much work for them and they FORGET that they have a diamond! They picked an artificial diamond……. A cheater can only get another cheater! Think about it! I always think, how can a man have respect for a woman that was ready to cheat with a married man? How on earth can you fall in love with a person who doesn’t care about destroying a family? Cheaters are caught in a trap of illusion and when they wake up its too late! You love the husband he USED to be and NOT the stranger that he has become. Me too, after two years of emotional abuse I am still searching for that person that is gone!! It hurts so much! I promise you that with time the pain will go less. Keep that man who was not captured from sin in your heart…. that man of the past that loved you and your family…… he is now lost. You had the best part of him. The OW is having the rest…. the worst part…… the one who made his honest, faithful and beautiful WIFE cry……. An honest man once said to me…. any man who makes a woman cry loses his humanity……in that moment he is NOT a man anymore……… Be strong! God bless you!!!! Ros

        • Sasha

          Hey carol…..hope you’ve had a better week. And I hope your trying to fill your time without ruminating about the ex.
          My few weeks have been quiet,which has been a godsend. My daughter has just got back from a school trip to Paris,and I’m loving listening to her news. The ex, well he’s still the ex haha….seems his world is crumbling around him. The trollop has gone on holiday without him, and the word through the grapevine is he’s just lodging there now….too funny!
          His life is one big mess. I only correspond through texts,and that really suits me fine.
          I really see him through clear eyes now…..overweight,slobbish,and not a man I need in my life. And I feel sorry for him,cause he’s stuck …..

          • Carol

            Hi Sasha,
            Hope you’re doing ok, thankyou for thinking of me, sadly the week has been full of tears and constant anxiety including thoughts and images of them, it distresses me so much. I wish it would stop but they come unbidden. I think she just be better than me, and feel like I’m on an emotional roller coaster. I so want it to go wrong for them but what if they live happy ever after while I’m alone. I’ve not got to the angry stage yet I still miss him and it seems I still have feelings for him which makes no sense after what he’s done. She must be smug as she’s got what she wanted. I hope you are doing a bit better and I’m glad your dear Daughter enjoyed her trip. I bet your ex so wishes he hadn’t left you sweetheart he’s paying the price. I hope mine eventually does as at the moment they probably think life is wonderful. Take care love xx

        • Sasha

          Oh carol, it’s heart breaking* reading your words. …come on girl, your still alive! Listen, she is nothing to worry about, she was happy to take another woman’s man, so let her have him. Do you honestly think their life will be filled with butterflies,hearts and flowers? Give it afew months,then the shit will hit the fan. It’s hard not to do anything, but that’s exactly what you need to do. Please ,even though it’s hard, stop thinking about her. He’s the one that made the decision, he cheated when you needed him most….so start to take care of yourself, get your health back,and realise you really deserve better. Are you on FB, if so I am always happy to message you….less long winded…haha.
          Always remember,you gave him loyalty,love and friendship….in return he did the worst thing ever….don’t let him continue to cause you pain. I really promise you, you WILL get through this, hugs xxxx

          • Carol

            Hi Sasha, gosh you’re kind words help such a lot and come at the right time. I’m actually in hospital as I’ve had to resume feeding through a nasal tube due to I’ll health and rapid weight loss. Trouble is it gives more time to think. You are totally right as although I imagine everything in their life is wonderful but its probably not. He has money worries now but thinks the court won’t make him pay spouse maintenance or give me half of his pension, he also says no one can prove his cohabiting. All distressing stuff. Sasha is the obsessive thinking and images of them normal and does it ever stop. I just can’t get over being cast aside for someone like her and her smugness at getting what she wanted. He lost a wife and wonderful family for her, like your husband did, it beggars belief. This blog is a great support to us all. Thankyou for being there love I really appreciate it xx

        • Sasha

          Oh Carol, I’m so sorry to hear your not well. Please,please,please, start to think about your health. Obsessing is counter productive,and isn’t good for you or your health. Stress is a killer Hun, and even though I’m resolute in my mind, my blood pressure is shockingly high – something I’ve never worried about before.
          I choose my mindset,and ignore the sh**y life he’s leading. Every opportunity my ex gets, he manipulates, lies and wants both my children to feel sorry for him. As I’m not playing ball, he behaves like an irresponsible twat. My poor daughter has gone through hell,not only been lied to by her father but her aunt. She rarely sees her grandparents who live five minutes away….that tells me everything I want or need to know about his non functioning family. Because I’m so resolute not to put up with his BS, they stand firmly in his corner,fuck what he puts our daughter through.
          What they hadn’t banked on is me- warrior mother, who will not let them ride roughshod over my daughters feelings. She has seen for herself,and made her own mind up. And I’m absolutely gutted for her.
          So carol, find it deep inside you and fight for your new life. Fight to get better,because you matter.
          We all matter. I’ve come to realise that my ex was subtly controlling,and now he has no control, he hates it. If I had one wish, it would be for him to start putting our daughter and her feelings first…I won’t hold my breath, just try and be a parent who can continue to nurture, love and be the best mother I can be. She is my world. Carol, keep going hugs xxxx

          • Carol

            Dear Sasha, a big thankyou as always. I’m so sorry your ex is usingvyour dear daughter in that way but so glad you are there to protect her from his actions. I’m so lucky with my children too, they have been amazing although they hate seeing me so distressed and want me to move on and forget but its so hard isn’t it. The high anxiety is making day to day life difficult and being physically weak but although I try not to obsess about them it keeps happening unbidden which frightens me. Someone scared me today by saying that if I don’t stop blaming my ex for what he’s done and move on then I’ll always be like this. Your ex must truly regret what he’s done and what he’s lost but mine doesn’t seem to care, I so want things to go wrong for him and her so they feel some of the pain they’ve put me and my family through. The Grandparents behaviour is shocking and yes its all about control. I feel worthless and unlovable and feel she must be better than me as she’s healthy and I’m not, they have destroyed me, I used to be a strong woman, I’ve lost myself. I’m scared of living alone as I’ve never done that but my biggest fear is never getting them out of my head. Please take care Sasha, you are an inspiration love xx

  • Sasha

    Hi ladies…..I found out some distressing news this week which has knocked me for six. It seems my son from a previous relationship has been feeding my ex every detail of what is going on in my life. My ex didn’t really have the time of day for my adult son,and due to difficult circumstances would not let him stay in our home. This was part of the reason the relationship went downhill. Now it seems they are great pals. Now I don’t have a problem with that, but I feel utterly betrayed. It all came out,after my ex decided he wouldn’t return the garage key. Well my son sided with my ex and said some extremely hurtful things. Now I look back it all makes sense. Our daughter of 13 has been so upset with it all,and has now seen how dads manipulating behaviour has impacted our home life. Ive asked my son to leave, I’m literally heartbroken….but what I cannot and will never forgive is my exes devious behaviour.
    The reason my ex won’t give they key back is because he has bike ( riden once in four years). I told him to keep the key,told him he was pathetic and that I would get the lock changed. When our daughter went for tea with him, he cried to her and called me a b**ch. I just cannot believe he would say that. I’m broken this weekend, and it has just clarified that I will never take this man back, who by all accounts is playing a dangerous game with our daughter…..

  • Anika

    I’m ok from Monday to Friday. On Saturday /Sunday he visits children. Seeing him happy hurt me so badly.Now he is playing a perfect daddy, before he wasn’t that interested,he was avoiding them, he prefered being ”at work” . While he is having the time of his life, am thinking and worrying about my future, about children. I’m trying to convince myself that he’s not worth my tears, that I’m better without that cheater but there are moments like today that I just can’t think rationally. He lied to me, he disrespected me, he used me, he made me feel worthless last few months and I should be happy he’s gone but it annoys me that the man who I loved dearly left me in such a brutal manner and yet he expects me to be his ”friend for the sake of our children”.
    I want to believe there is karma and sooner or later he will experience this. I hope that that cruel woman is going to suffer one day too, I hope she will think about me and understands how painful it is to be robed from the family life..

    • kimberley

      Hi my step daughter who i was very close to really didnt want anything to do with my husbands new girlfriend but i walked in a local pub last week and there she was with her husband together with her dad and her, all laughing and having a good time i have now heard they are all going on holiday together. We were together 32 years and i feel like i have been wiped out and replaced its horrid. Also have heard ex has got prostrate cancer, i would not wish that on anyone but its strange how things work out isnt it. My mum says god doesnt pay his debts with money makes you think. Love to all keep strong. Kimx

  • Tiffany

    My husband kicked me and my boys out of the house only to start having sleep overs with his assistant softball coach 18 yrs younger than him, mind you he’s 41. I was in total shock when I found this out, because his excuse for kicking us out was that “WE” haven’t been happy for months. And that his kids didn’t like coming over because I made them feel uncomfortable. Not the case, because his kids didn’t even know what’s going on. I lived in a 2200 sq ft home and had to downsize to a 800 sq ft home, with no monetary help from him. I was unemployed at this time as well, if it weren’t for my parents we would have been homeless.
    I’ve prayed for the days to get better, and they are – one day at a time.

  • dee

    Hi all I read alot of your threads and it helped me a great deal. I have just broken up my partner and best freind of 15 years ,3 weeks ago. he is 60 and met a 31 year old, he was having an affair with her since Feb 2018 and I found out at the end of April not because he admitted to it but because I checked up on his travel history and discovered the betrayel.. I was suspicious in Feb/MARCH But he kept denying it and telling me I was being mad, I belived him thinking it was all my fault.
    Once I found out he kept changing his mind telling me he wanted to make the relationship work and then saying he was not interested in making our relationship work as he loved me but was not in love with me. He told me he was in love with this woman he was having an affair with. He moved out 3 weeks ago and I feel a sense of shock . He is now moving in with this new girl , but he calls me every time he needs validation around his Job. How long does this phase last ? Any input would be great.

    Many thanks .

    • Misti

      I’m kind of in the same situation. He left in January. He is 50 and the bimbo is 34. He just told me last week he doesn’t love me anymore again. He hasn’t said that since he first left. I have been trying with him for six months, calling him trying to go to lunch. He has taken 3 vacations with her while I raise our youngest son alone. He has done nothing as a father besides go to his baseball games. I’ve finally reached the point where I’m not calling him or texting him. He didn’t even try to see his kids on Father’s Day. I’m sure it’s because she didn’t have her kids either. She is married also so they both destroyed two families. I can’t forgive him for not still being a father. He is not a part of our family anymore and I need to quit pretending he is. Give yourself six months and you will probably turn the corner where you don’t want to talk to him anymore. Good luck and lots of hugs

  • Michelle

    It is a year tomorrow that my husband left for a younger wi
    Woman (15)years a coworker I have only seen him once we corresponded only to text about dividing our Ira I am coming along I guess but today is a really sad day

  • Carol

    Hi everyone, I don’t seem to be making much progress and it scares me. After being married for 27 years he left after I had major surgery, said we drifted apart but there was someone else. My heart is totally broken. His solicitor is sending bullying letters demanding I sign for a clean break and not claim for spouse maintenance as he won’t be able to live. He emptied both bank accounts and changed all utility bills to Kyle name and I’m now on disability benefits just to survive. What is upsetting me more is that I can’t seem to stop thinking about him and her together, even images of them, its so distressing and my anxiety is through the roof. I still can’t believe he did this, I’ve never been on my own before and I’m scared. Is it normal to have these obsessive thoughts and images like this and will they ever go away as I’m so worried they won’t. How can these men be so cruel and put us through such emotional pain, it hurts so much, people tell me to forget him and move on but I’m trying too but not getting very far. Love to you all. X

    • LaurenKeithKC

      Ok. The fact that you are still alive and able to make a post is tribute to you doing very well. This is one of the most brutal and traumatic things you will ever deal with in your entire life. It causes PTSD, anxiety, suicidal thoughts and horrible obsessions. I tell you that not to be depressing but to commend you for making it this far and for you to be gentle on yourself. It is a horrible thing to endure but I can say after one year I am much stronger.

      • Carol

        Thank you Lauren, yes it is horrific, I never saw it coming and certainly didn’t expect all these awful feelings, fears and emotions. I’m so sorry you’ve had to go through it but I’m glad you are getting stronger it gives me hope. Take care x

    • rosa

      Hi Carol,

      so sorry to ser you go through this! I wish I could help you. Believe me I am going through this just like you since two years. It is perfectly normal the way you are thinking and hurting. It feels like they are raping our soul every day. I also have the terrible and torturing images of my now ex husband together with his mistress. Please believe me that time will show you the truth and you WILL heal. Once a Person falls into such deep sin they lose everything that is good inside of them. It is the evilness in their heart that changes them so much. They are complete strangers and the Person they used to be is gone. I know the battle in your mind as you keep thinking there must be something good about your spouse. You just cannot accept and believe that he ever could take such abusive actions. I know you still love him….. BUT you love who you THOUGHT he was….. NOT the stranger that is so cruel. I am still in disbelief and shock. My ex husband did just the same things after 20 years of marriage. As time goes by and the healing comes…. even if with tiny baby steps, you realise that it is not you that made him go….. it is the weakness inside of them. It is how emotionally immature they are and that they were not MEN enough to have a family. Unfortunately time changes a person and the cheater shows who they really are! It is not you!!! It is their low self esteem that makes them who they are. The more they treat you cruel is because they know deep inside that the best is in YOU! They are angry at themselves… they cannot accept their flaws and loss of integrity. They cannot accept that YOU are BETTER……. Evil hates goodness, lies hates the truth…. Be strong and pray for his lost self. Don’t let hate and anger overtake you…. keep your heart beautiful and kind. May God bless and protect you. Leave your husband in Gods hands and pray for him as he is losing the greatest blessing in his life…. his family! My prayers go out for you and for all those whi are going through such a hard trial in life……

      • Carol

        Bless your heart Rosa, I really appreciate your words of comfort. I’m so sorry that you and everyone here have had to be treated this way. It does rip out our heart and soul. People keep telling me to move on as all that woman has got is a liar, cheat and a thief, its true but first some reason I still miss him but know I could never take him back but I don’t think he would anyway as he’s infatuated. I don’t even know why I feel jealous of her, none of it makes sense. I can’t wait to go a whole day when I don’t cry, think of them or feel anxious, I so hope that eventually happens. Everything you say I can relate to Rosa. Thank you so much, big hugs xx

    • Sasha

      Hi Carol, hugs hunni. Everything your feeling is pretty text book. I do hate it when people say move on. It’s like we are meant to squash over 20 years of memories,and forget the one person you trusted with your life. It’s very much one step forward an£ two steps back.
      Your getting there ,and will get there. Stop thinking of them, it serves no purpose,other than to distress you. When your mind wanders,mentally stop that thought and replace it with something else. My trick is to thank the bitch for taking him off my hands.( in my head ofcourse)..she can now have the misery of thinking will he cheat on her,cause between the pair of them,the trust thing will be a massive bone of contention. Concentrate on you, and your health. You have gone through probably the most distressing time of your life. BUT, your still here, able to tell your story,able to show compassion to others…
      My ex is adamant he never cheated. Do I care.? Not really. Asking numerous people including my kids,if I’m dating,and when I ask him to stop because it’s none of his business,he says it’s just conversation…can you believe the BS he comes out with. I was able to tell my ex, I would never take him back, I was a much nicer person without him in my life,and I deserved a real man with integrity. Something I never thought I’d say.
      I guess we are all mourning the people we thought they were. But you never know anyone 100%.
      So today, do something nice for yourself. Tell yourself, he doesn’t deserve you,and fake it till you make it. You are a beautiful,honest soul who CAN get through this. Hugs xx

      • Carol

        Dear Sasha, thank you so much for helping me. It is hard when others think we can move on so quickly. I just need to get the intrusive thoughts and images of them out of my mind. I try distraction, I just imagine them all happy and cosy whilst I’m like this. I’m still in shock really to think he did this during my surgery, took all the money and never bothered one bit how I’d cope alone. You are one amazing lady and I admire you and everyone here for the way you are going through this yet helping others. Someone scared me today by saying if I don’t stop thinking about them now then I never will and that prospect is terrifying as its distressing. Take care Sasha and thank you xx

        • sasha

          Dear carol, you will get past this phase , I promise you. Just think of all the shitty things he’s done when you were at your weakest, and thank your lucky stars you don’t have to put up with his shit ….he’s shown you exactly what he’s capable of. You don’t need that in your life. Funny thing is I have never thought of them together. Perhaps it’s because I really don’t care. He showed his true colours and dragged or tried to drag our daughter into his sad pathetic life. Only that backfired!
          See it like this, he wanted that life, leave him to it, and he will eventually see what a shit life he’s entered. But just concentrate on you, getting better,and carving out a new life. You can do it. Hugs xxx

          • Carol

            Thank you sweetheart, he has done some truly wicked things that’s why my emotions are confusing me as I don’t yet hate him like I should and I suppose I keep thinking she must be better than me as she wasn’t ill. He’s now got his attorney sending demanding letters saying I have to sign a clean break in 48 hours and refuse to go for spousal maintenance as he won’t be able to live yet he drained both bank accounts, changed all utilities to my name and left me penniless so I’m on disability. Thank goodness I have a good attorney who said she will not have me bullied. Thank you Sasha I’m just praying they leave my mind soon, he’s turned my world upside down like they do to all of us and the anxiety isn’t helping. Take care love xx

          • rosa

            Carol,

            it will take time to heal. Remember this, how EVER can this other woman be better than you. NOT in a life time. She is helping your husband to destroy his family!!!! I also asked myself a thousand times a day… what does she have that is better than me? The truth is absolutely NOTHING… She is so low that she attracted a married man that completely lost his sense of mind by cheating on his family. A woman that is so desperate, desperate enough to accept a loser and a cheater in her life! Is this the man you would like to have your future with? We all do mistakes and we are not perfect. Our „husbands „ think at the moment that they are so perfect that they have a right to treat us in such a cruel way. The anger they show us is the anger they have inside against themselves! The more goodness and patience you show the angrier they get. So please prepare yourself for this. It is the sin that is blinding his heart and mind…… all you can do is pray for him as he is losing his soul. You are fighting not against flesh and blood but against evil spirits….. Your constant prayers will protect you and your family…. God bless you!

          • Carol

            God bless you Rosa and thank you. The heartbreak they cause to us all is incomprehensible that’s for sure and the constant obsessing about them is driving me crazy. I don’t even know why I think she’s better or that she’s won as I could never do what she did to another woman and she’s now got a liar, cheat and a thief. I suppose I just don’t want them to be happy and it feels so strange and sad to be alone and not part if a relationship anymore. Also I think its because we had no choice in this, they took our choice away and that’s not fair. Everyone says times a healer, I so want time to go by as right now its so hard to imagine getting over this. Thinking of you Rosa, thank you so much x

          • Kimberley

            Hi Carol I have been reading your messages and can so relate. its 18 months since my husband announced he wasn’t happy and left to live with my stepdaughter, within weeks he was with an old “friend” and within months its was official he swears he didn’t leave me for her but its quite matter less isn’t it. He went from my soul mate and a really decent guy since a month before leaving and up to this day he has turned into someone I don’t recognise, nasty uncaring and down right cruel. He has flaunted said woman in front of me its like he has wiped out our 32 years together. She is horrid, never liked her before, unintelligent not attractive and older than me. I actually went in a pub at the weekend where my step granddaughter was and he was there with her talking to my stepdaughter and laughing it was like a dagger through my heart. I don’t know what happens to these men, how the callous uncaring streak comes in I think it must be a guilt thing they know they have done a bad thing but too arrogant to admit it. My husband since he left has had two minor strokes and now I have heard he has been diagnosed with Prostrate cancer. I have just lost my best friend to it and he never even texted to say sorry. I have mixed feelings about this not sure how to think, sorry he has it as I would be anyone but I just cant worry about it its not my problem now its hers, So much for this wonderful life he has planned without me.
            Keep strong I was doing really well till this last lot of news hit me seems he is always lurking in my mind for different reasons now. Take care. Kimx

        • Sasha

          Lets not forget that IF they wanted to our exes wouldn’t have done what they did. It’s not just down to the trollop. Our husbands made their choice. I’m not so quick to just blame the trollop. My ex made a decision,and regardless of the outcome, he valued his family less. That speaks volumes to me. These men aren’t worth taking back. Imagine it, never being able to trust them? Once that trust and respect for you has gone, kick them to the curb,and let them carry on. Yes my ex has asked to come back, and his behaviour shows me and everyone else he’s unhappy, well he can stay unhappy. He deserves every single crappy thing he got. We deserve so much more,and by heck, I deserve a better man, and will never settle for a cheating,manipulating,selfish twat!

          • Carol

            Yes Sasha it definitely takes two and our husbands had a choice, I said to mine was she worth losing his whole family for and he said YES so that cut through my heart like a knife. They deserve everything that they get, I just don’t want them happy, it feels so unjust and unfair. I need to get strong like you, I’m working on it. Thank you, take care x

          • Sasha

            Dear carol, I have bad days,I really do. But my mentality is she can keep the lying twat. She can keep his dandruff, his oversized body, his lying nature, his snoring, his cheating….cause he will! She did me a favour,lying on her back….he’s no catch believe me,I lived with the man for many years.
            The honeymoon period will end then he’s back to a mundane relationship, only he’s now not living with his family. And without less money hahaha
            My ex took trollop to our holiday home four times last year, but get this…he was meant to go last week, and said to our daughter he wasn’t going because he’d miss her…what utter bull! He would never forfeit a holiday. So my guess is he hasn’t gone cause his parents are out there. I was looking forward to a weeks break from his crap.
            We may never know what the true story is, but I see a stranger who I don’t particularly like very much ….and you will too. You may even be a better person than me and forgive all the shitty things he’s done. I can’t because he’s tried to drag our daughter into his mess…to me that’s unforgivable….
            Carol, you are a far better person than he will remember when you’ve long forgot about him. In the dead of night, the time will come when he questions what’s he’s done.
            Come on girl, you are a wonderful.beautiful soul who will get through this. Let her worry now, cause she’s already had a taste of how deceitful he can be, let her start questioning him when he’s late, or if his phone goes off….oh to be a fly on the wall….

          • Carol

            Hi Sasha, everything you say is so true, I need to remember the many faults and annoying traits he had and there were plenty. I suppose after 27 years I miss being part of a relationship as I’ve never been alone before. I resent him for causing this stress which has increased my anxiety. I know he’s going to lie about his income and outgoing and say he’s not living with her and I know he says he can’t pay spouse maintenance as he won’t be able to live yet he emptied the accounts and left me penniless so I’ve had to go on disability benefits. I so won’t them both to feel pain like they’ve put me through, all husbands and these other women don’t deserve any happiness, my children said Karma will catch up with them but will it I hope so. Like you say one day they will realize what they lost, they deserve to be alone and penniless for ever. Take care love xx

          • Rosa

            Dear Sashs, I so much hope I will see my ex the same as you now see yours. Karma has seemed to hit him quite quick enough! I admire your strength! My ex seems to be the happiest on earth even though he is still lying his pants off about me. Imagine….. after cheating, lying, stealing and cruel manipulation he writes to his son and says the following…….. Life is unique, never say never, take all the chances you get. Enjoy life…. life is not a battle and most of all you do NOT fight for love. Dear son, you must understand my point of view. I would so much like to give you my experience……. Please someone help me, what experience does my ex husband mean??????He showed his son how he lied, manipulated and mistreated his mother. He posted photos on facebook naked in bed in a hotel room after„ doing“it with his 23 year old Filipina…..and then he plays the victim to his son saying „let me explain to you my point of view so that you can understand me and see that your mother is the bad one😱😱😱😱I really begin to think…. help an alien has taken over his brain……To all you beautiful woman out there, I can tell you one thing for sure, if our husbands left and cheated on us it is because they knew deep down…… we were far too good for them….. so their low self esteem made them search for someone just as good as them…. another cheater and loser… ….Pleas keep being strong!!!! Big hugs!

  • Sasha

    Hey ladies. I feel so sad for the way all your husbands and partners are and have behaved. It’s almost text book,the way they all behave. I decided to get some counselling,because after over a year I still couldn’t get past the completely letting go. Yes I went no contact, yes I went back to work, yes I made sure he paid the right maintenance,and yes I made sure his relationship with our child was maintained. But in the dead of night I’d wake,feeling the loss,and even though I will never take him back ,I just wasn’t sure why I felt this way.
    Here’s what I’ve learned….
    It’s ok to feel sad sometimes at the loss. It’s ok to feel scared at your future. It’s even ok to want to wring his neck.
    Here’s why my life doesn’t need his cheating ass back….
    He’s a liar, a cheat, a manipulator, a very,very sad man who thought the grass was greener
    Here’s what I’ve endured over the last year….
    Stalking, constantly asking my friends and their husbands what I’m up to, who I’m dating, asking the kids if I’m dating , wanting to come back,turning up for silly things, trying to be my friend ( ughhh) putting on weight,looking completely lost, drinking more, gambling more.
    I’ve had him hug me, grab my hand and try and keep hold of it, had him tell me and the kids how beautiful I look.
    Now I’ve told him numerous times it’s over. I’ve tried to remain dignified,however our daughter is in therapy due to his pathetic behaviour,and Monday was the last straw,when yet again he fired off questions at my daughter. She’s been through enough!
    He lives with the OW, and he’s got exactly what he deserved. He tells everyone his life is fine, but friends see a broken man. I told him to stop asking, because it would never change things. I’m sad that this man who I spent over twenty years with, has ruined his life. I really try to empathise, but I guess I’m not there yet.
    Ladies you will get through it, you will be able to breath without that pain in your stomachs,you will be able to laugh again. I hope in time I can meet a man worthy of me, because I’m one hell of a woman,great mother and loyal……and he knows it!

    • Ilene

      Hi Sasha,

      You are one hell of a woman!! And you should be very proud of who you are! You held it together during the entire ordeal and you kept your daughter as your top priority. And that is awesome! You are a great inspiration! And there’s nothing wrong with getting counseling, glad you’re getting help and support through this. It is very hard, and I have gotten the inspiration from you to keep moving forward! After 20 years of being with my husband, I married him for I fell in love with him, and looked forward to spending the rest of my life with him. His drinking and his leaving me, the kids and the dogs to be with another woman is devastating. I feel very sorry for him, for I truly believe that he has damaged his brain with his drinking, and it seems like he thinks he is 2 different people, I really dislike the person he has become. And I realize that the part that hurts the most is that he does not seem to care about the pain he has and is putting me through. How could the person I married have turned into this person?

      I understand your pain. The hole my husband has left in my heart is very noticeable, and I see yours is too. Is it so unfair that you give yourself to a person and they shove you aside just like that. Then they seem confused, and they think that everything is ok and that you want to be their friend? And continue having another woman on the side? After the way they have disrespected you and the family, how can that be? They are lost, and they can’t have it all. Specially not at your expense. You do not deserve that, you deserve so much more!

      You’re an awesome person! It is a HUGE obstacle to get past! But you will find somebody who will treat you with respect and love who you are! When you least expect it. Take pride in the person you are. Your daughter will get her strength from you, and you will both be ok!!

      You have come so far! And you are a great inspiration! Let your inner beauty shine!! It will guide you through this!

      Wishing you lots of happiness in the near future! You and your daughter deserve it!
      Thanks for inspiring me!
      Ilene

  • Mel

    Hello everyone. I recently married my husband last august. We were together for 10 years before that. Im just in total shock. Im getting through it yes, but to hear your husband (who you just heard him say the most sweet and loving things during our wedding.) Say that he has no feelings for you, and that he hasnt in the past 3 years; it really kills you. It all started wheb he quit his job and started working with pur neighbor (whos a drunk) and they wpuld go everyday to the bar and there was this bartender. Ughh I never liked him going to the bar and he use to hate going to bars. During all this the homewrecker was getting him to do stuff around her house and protect her from her crazy ex. I told him it wasnt right, but he wasnt himself. I gave him 2 weeks to decided and he pulled me along with little hope. Sending pics of our wedding rings around his neck to coming home and giving me the slightest hope. It was pure torture. So in the end we broke it off. I had to give my dogs away and move into my parents house. Its like we didnt just get married or something. Now he wants an annulment, and i told him to shut up. Like dude im getting a divorce youre not annuling shit. Im still angry but im getting through it. 🙂 this all started in march and its been one month since the split. What hurt the most before i moved was that he said hed never be with me again and he would only cry a tear if he regreted us. It stings. It really does, but i dont think i could take him back. Hes broken, and i didnt break him. No matter what my issues were i could fix all of mine. He chose to run. So let him have his cake and a lot more too. 😉

  • spicy dijon

    My husband left me for his employee 31 years his junior. I found about the affair April 10th. He told me today he is done. He thinks about me but he is NOT considering there will be any more “us.” She is not pretty, not “hot”, not smart, not accomplished. She lives in a rented room and he is living there with her. I have no words for the depth of my grief.

    • Carol

      Sweetheart I so feel for you. My husband if 27 years left at the end of march just as I was recovering from major surgery and emptied the bank account. He met someone else, said she listened, he is infatuated. It hurts so bad doesn’t it, total shock and like a bereavement. I’m finding daily life hard, I expect you are too love, I keep thinking of them together very obsessively and its distressing me as I’m worried that will never stop. Plus I don’t understand why I still miss him and have feelings for him when he totally abandoned me and his family for her. This site is amazing full of wonderful people and Lauries words and advice help so much. I’m thinking of you, love Carol x

  • NadiaJ

    I have posted before but I am still finding things incredibly hard and would really appreciate some support and advice. After having an affair almost ever since we moved into our long dreamed of brand new home – which I discovered at the end of last year – my partner of fifteen years eventually moved out at the end of January and moved her into a one bedroom flat just up the road from our home. He has changed completely and is like an alien. He seems besotted. It is so childish. He has spent the last four months pressing her to get divorced (she is shooting her mouth off to someone indiscreet who keeps me informed) but insists, to me, that he has made a huge mistake and that he wants to come home, that he misses me, loves me, loves our life. To her he is saying he misses our house, that he will never have another house like it and saying nothing about me except that he has to handle me carefully and he knows he needs to just tell me to f off. She seems to be calling all the shots which is so unlike him. He is usually the one in charge and he likes it that way. She told him he had to come round and tell me to back off and leave him alone and what he did, instead, was visit and have dinner with me, telling me how nice it was to be home, kissing me, cuddling me and telling me he had made a huge mistake but it was “difficult” to come back. Difficult? He confessed that she is pregnant. He has three adult children and has NEVER wanted more. He will be fifty by the time it is born! He said he was hoping she would terminate it and then he still wanted to come home. But she didn’t get rid of it and he said he would have to stay. Now he says she might get rid of it. I am so distraught. I don’t have a family because he did not want one. She was having fertility issues in her marriage, obviously her husband, and supposedly her “pill” must not have been working. It is so obvious to anyone with a brain that she has got pregnant on purpose – she saw rich baby daddy, but he just cannot see that. He says she’s been in tears over it. But that’s because he’s said he doesn’t want it! Even if she gets rid of it, if he stays with her she is going to want a family and he has never wanted more children! He wanted to retire soon. He is introducing her to people as his girlfriend, introducing her to work colleagues, friends, has started putting their evenings out on social media and yet he hasn’t even officially told anyone in our lives that he has left me. And he tells me he wants to come home! He is talking to her about getting married before it’s born but, to me, is nearly in tears when he speaks of it. He absolutely doesn’t want it. I just don’t know what to make of any of this. I can barely breathe through the pain of it all. In the past, when he has abandoned his previous wives/partners (there are four of us now) he has always got away with leaving and then introducing a new person as if there was no cross-over. He is trying to do the same, I think, stopping me from exposing him by saying he intends to come back. But then I cannot imagine he wants this life, with her, when he has NEVER wanted a family. He scowls at kids that come near us in restaurants. He has so little patience for them. And working the hours he does he is never going to cope with a baby. So I am torn as to what to believe. I just don’t know what to do. He is under pressure from her to sell our home. She has already said to him that whatever funds they get are for their future and the future of any family they have! What a money-grabbing ho she is. They have only known each other five minutes! They both have somewhere to live. I will have nowhere! But he is not pressing me to sell the house. So, again, I think he is torn or maybe does want to come home. But all his words to her say the opposite. He rarely contacts me. But if I am out of touch he messages to say how much he misses me, that he cannot stop thinking about me. And he left post-its all over the house saying how much he missed me. It is just torture. Please help me.

    • Sasha

      Hey Nadia, it’s hard isn’t it. Even with the resolve I have of never taking him back. I think we are all at different stages of letting go/ grieving etc…
      He’s pretty much in the worst nightmare , kid on the way ,50, and from what you say can’t really be sure of what he wants. For your own self preservation stop contact,and get counselling.i feel the pain your in, the words jump out at me,and I know that feeling. It’s gut wrenching! As hard as it will be ,cease any contact,because every time you answer his calls/texts,he knows your there.
      That one person who you trusted has made your world come crashing down around you, but you can get through this.
      I’m over 14 months down the road, and although I’ve never been so sure of NEVER taking him back, when I have doubts I remind myself exactly how he’s behaved.
      My ex is now working overtime telling the kids how beautiful mum looks, asking if mum has a boyfriend, offering to do jobs in the garden if needed….he can kiss my arse! He’s stuck with the trollop who looks like an OAP….and he deserves every miserable minute he gets. I’m not a vengeful person, but I’m a great believer you get back what you put out in the world….
      The best thing I did was cut off all contact and let him get on with it. And lots of support! Hugs hun, your just having a bad day. Be kind to yourself and let him worry about what he’s going to do…..he caused his own misery xxxx

  • R H

    I’m saddened and I don’t know how to let go. Married for 21years with 3 children – 1day out of no where my husband said he wanted a divorce and that was it! 2 weeks later he moved into an apt- I then found out he immediately started seeing one of his asst. mgrs which is 20 years younger. I’m devastated and he’s happy and in love – it’s only been 3 1/2 months- during this Time I asked if we were doing the right thing and if he was happy – he said he wants a divorce and to move on- pretty sure he had an affair with her – he hasn’t denied it – why do I still live him – why can’t I stop crying – why can’t I let go – why does he get to be so happy???

    • Karen

      I’m going through the same thing. My husband and I have tons in common and he was always really attracted to me. After kids, he started chasing a younger woman. Then cheated with her, then left me for her. We’re in our 40s, she’s 28. It’s gross and not because of the age difference really just because if the commonness of this story and how pathetic it is. We’re not pathetic, they are. I’m finding happiness again by focusing on being able to make choices without his approval and really going after goals I’d felt held back from before. Don’t get me wrong, she is visiting the area for the first time and I’ve been crying for 3 days but I’m gonna let myself and then brush myself off and keep going. They’re fools with tiny egos that need the validation.

  • Ilene

    Hi,

    I am truly sorry for all you who have gone through this and are currently going through this. My hat goes off to all of you who have come out of this ok and as a stronger woman! I am not sure I have the strength to do so, but I’m trying my hardest. My heart is broken beyond repair, and have tried my hardest to try to understand what happened, why is this going on, why did he just bail, why after giving my husband 20 years of my life, he just constantly lies straight to my face and is so cold hearted towards me? Does he really have no remorse? How can he have chosen this other woman who has filed for divorce during their affair, leaving her husband in a state of shock. How can he just move out shortly after to be with her and tell me we need some space to try to work on our issues? But I don’t see him working on anything with me, just spending all his time with her when she does not have her kids? And when she is busy with her kids he comes to see me and the kids and is with us for no more than a couple hrs? How can he put this woman above his 4 kids, ages 13, 11, 9 and 6?

    I found out about this woman almost a year ago when my oldest daughter, she was 12 at the time, came to tell me that daddy was hiding in the bathroom, sitting on the toilet, texting on a phone she had not seen before. I confronted my husband about the phone, we got into a wrestling match over it and he ended up smashing it to pieces! He just said he was texting a friend, and since she was a girl he was scared I would get upset and got worried and that is why he smashed it. I’m an idiot, deep down I figured she was more than just a friend but I really wanted to believe him. Why would he have done this? Why would he lie to me? So I figured I’ll try my hardest to get him back, before his friendship with this woman turns into a full blown affair! But I failed, it has been the worst and most painful year of my entire life! Some days I wished I were dead, just so I did not have to feel the pain I was feeling, but I could not think of leaving my kids behind with this person, who I have no idea who he is! He is not the person I married, nor the person I had kids with! This person is a complete stranger! He had started drinking heavily a couple of years ago, and turned into a drunken fool, and of course, met this person at a bar. Of course, he blames me for his drinking and of course, it’s my fault he ended up meeting her. I get it, we have 4 young kids, I had gotten laid off not too long before he met her, and was thinking of making a transition to teaching, as it would be a more compatible schedule with the kids, and was busy driving them around to all their activities as I was the one who took care of all their activities, and would let him stay home and cook dinner, as he said that was his stress reliever after a long stressful day at work, so I gave him some quiet time at home after work so he could de-stress. I thought I was doing a nice thing, but I guess he was feeling neglected.

    But anyhow, I ended up figuring out who this person was, found out where she lived and found out her husbands phone #, and texted her and my husband and told them to put an end to their affair for our kids sake, or I would have to text her husband and let him know. She said she would back off, I guess my husband was not so interested in that and got upset at me. Anyhow, my husband would disappear for hrs saying he had errands to do. Took me a while to figure out that errands meant he was going to see her. Yes, I was a fool!! The husband ended up figuring something was up between the 2 of them, and he told her to stop texting my husband. My husband was pretty depressed and upset, but I thought finally, that would be the end of the affair. But on New Year’s Day my husband was gone for most of the day “running errands” and I realized they were together. I asked my husband, he said yes, he spoke to her, and I just lost it and texted the husband to let him know they were hanging out again, and that is when I found out she had moved out right before Xmas, and had taken their 2 girls with her, and asked him for a divorce. In January my husband told me we had issues so he was looking for a place as we needed some space to work out or differences. I had asked him quite a few times over the summer and fall to chose between me and her, and if he wanted her to leave me and let’s get divorced.
    But he said he did nothing wrong and didn’t want to get divorced, he wanted to to try to work out our differences and blamed me for yelling at him all the time and that was the reason he needed to move out. Yes, we had been arguing, I had argued with him about his drinking for a couple of years now, and asked him to cut down on his drinking and asked him to spend time with me and the kids, and help me with the kids a little more, for I really seemed to have no time to even keep up with the house work. The arguing got worse when she came into the picture and he seemed to have all the time in the world to spend with her, but no time for me or the kids and no interest in helping me. Started dissapearing most of the day during the weekend to go to bars with her and who knows what else, and coming home late after work to eat dinner with her and have some beers, for as he said, they are human beings and they need to eat and drink and what’s wrong with meeting just a friend for some beers and share some laughs after a long day at work. I didn’t understand why he chose to spend all his time with her and really didn’t want to accept the fact that it was obvious he was having an affair and had no problem lying to me, and making up after work excuses to be with her.

    Anyhow, he moved out in Feb. Promised me he would come every day to see me and the kids and cook dinner for us, but that was just another lie. He would only come on the days she was busy with her own kids, because as he told me, they were both mature grownups, who are just friends that make each other laugh, to help each other get through this tough time in their marriages. And they had an agreement to not be around their kids when they were together. He never gave me his new address, and told me he would only after I agreed to let the kids come over. His visits were short and only on days she did not have the kids, and he wouldn’t come every day on the weekends when she had the kids. Instead of cooking, he would take the kids who wanted to go with him to the pub to eat dinner, while he had a couple of beers. I did figure out where he lives, also hired a private investigator who told me she stays over at his place, drove by it one night to see for myself and sure enough her car was there. I told him I will not allow my kids to go there until we’re in the process of getting divorced, for they do not need to see that daddy lives with another woman while we’re still married. And he said that I am interfering with his relationship with the kids for I do not let him take them to his place. And he also told me that now that he does not live with me he no longer has the urge to drink like he used to, and that should be evidence that his drinking in excess was my fault, and that I should be very thankful to this woman for she is just his friend and is helping him sober up. I know from her husband that this woman drinks heavily and likes to go out to bars a lot and drink.

    I ended up hiring a lawyer, and I told my husband I want a divorce. He is upset at me and wants 50/50 custody and does not want to pay much on child support. He said he would get rid off her and try to work things out with me after I told him I would give him one more chance after he came over one evening to tell me he missed me and the kids. But then I found out he spent the night with her and I believe went out drinking with her the next day for he had a raspy voice when he came to the house, which he usually gets after drinking quite some.

    I really believe my husband is an alcoholic. Not sure if he gets drunk every night anymore as I don’t see him at night, and if the first thing he goes for on weekend mornings is the bottle of beer? Maybe he is cleaning himself up? I don’t know, but I have read that alcohol dependency can change the addicts personality, and make their life revolve around alcohol. I think he is a functioning alcoholic, as he is still holding onto his job. Or maybe it is just my trying to find an explanation to his hehavior.

    Why do I have such a hard time letting go? I never considered divorce as a way out, I said in sickness and in health, in good times and in bad when I got married, and I meant it. It’s obvious he did not.
    I even resented God for making me go through this, if it ends in divorce and that is frowned upon as a Roman Catholic. But then I started praying for my husband to be able to see what he was doing, and for her to see what she was doing, but no answer to my prayers. So now I pray for the strength to make it past this, and for the kids too.

    I just don’t understand how he can be so cold hearted and have no remorse, and keep lying to me that she is just a friend, even though I know she stays at his place most of the time she does not have her kids. And how he wants to start having a better relationship with his kids now, but only when she has her kids. And how he can spend money on her but tells me money is tight now since I kicked him out of the house and he needs to pay rent, so he can’t help me pay for the kids activities, which he has never paid for or helped me with before? How can he put her above his own kids? It just blows my mind! And does he want a relationship with the kids to pay less child support?

    I don’t understand it. Why do I feel like I need to help him for I really honestly believe he needs help and will regret what he has done. How can I feel bad for him when he is the one who has walked out on me? Why am I angry that now he’s saying he will be a good dad? Is that even true? How can he come over and think that everything is just fine and he tells me I will be his friend forever? He has betrayed me, and hurt me immensely, it’s more painful than anything I could have imagined pain to be, I’ve even had 4 kids without pain meds, and the pain is a million times worse! There is no way to describe in words how painful it is to have your heart ripped out of your chest and stomped on and thrown in the garbage when you have kids with the person who has done this! You know you just can’t walk away from them. You get to see them during the healing process and after, for the kids.

    I don’t know how all of you have been so strong and made it through this! I truly hope I have what it takes to get past this nightmare! I admire you!! And I hope my kids don’t have any long lasting effects from this. Most of the time they don’t want to spend time with him, and I feel so very sorry for them too. I just hope we can all make it past this, and I will be ok when he gets to have the kids, which he has not ever had overnight on his own. I don’t think that I’ll ever be able to forgive him for what he has put us through. All for his own personal satisfaction when life just got a little too busy. I guess easier to bail than to deal with reality.

    Sorry for the long story! It feels good to get it off my chest! Thanks for listening … and thanks for the advice in the posts, will try to use all the wonderful advice that I have read in these posts to try to make it through this horrible nightmare …

    Thanks!

    • Sasha

      Hey Ilene…..massive hugs hunni, I feel your pain with what you have written, and know your going through so much pain at the moment.
      I know your hurt,and cannot believe what your husband is doing, however you now have to concentrate on you and your beautiful children. Whatever you say,will never be enough.
      I would not let my ex have my child if he was drinking constantly, especially if he was picking her up in the car. You say you think he uses alcohol regularly, well I certainly wouldn’t agree to 50-50 parental access…..start to think about your children s future and yours. Your husband has not only lied and cheated, but ruined your kids view on him. Let him live his life,playing house with the OW….they deserve each other. She may have saved you from many years of future hell….you deserve to be with a man who cherishes you an£ the kids…..how long do you think they will last anyway. Cause his drinking is a real issue,and he won’t be ble to hide it forever….seems the pair of them got what they deserved. Living with a liar,who deceives….hows that going to work when the dust has settled…a house ,where both don’t trust….that’s karma.
      Irene, it’s bloody hard not to want to scream at him, and he will expect it, cause his ego will be larger than ever. Don’t!
      What worked for me was to cut him out I’m edi. I only discuss anything pertaining to our child. Other than that, it’s no contact all the way. I’m never rude, but I decline getting into any kind of conversation. I’m not interested in what he thinks,and it’s eaten him up.
      Get your big girls pants on, and start making those changes,to better your life. Yes it’s hard, but each day will get better. If you have to give yourself ten minutes a day to think about him,then really stop yourself….use your friends as allies,and for support. Eat well, try and sleep ,and really take care of yourself. Your kids need you…
      a friend said something very profound to me early on after my split..,she said,if it were your daughter what advice would you give? I knew immediately….haven’t looked back,even though he’s asked to come home, stalked me, asked friends about me cried to our child, gambles, …..karma repayed him,and his life is far worse than mine could ever be….always here if you need a chat xxxx

      • Ilene

        Hi Sasha,

        I am very sorry to hear you had to go through this too!

        Thanks so much for your advice and kind words! I hope I can fit into those big girl pants! I did tell my lawyer I want full custody, but he said we would have to allow him some weekends since he has no DUIs nor issues with the law. But he would try to help me get as much custody as possible.

        And you’re right! It is very hard for me to not argue with him! I am trying not to, but some of the things he says are very irrational to me, and just him thinking that he tells me he is not really drinking that much anymore, I can’t quite take his word for it. But he is going to go that route with his lawyer. He has a very high tolerance to alcohol and has never had a hangover so he claims he can’t possibly have a drinking problem.

        And actually, I did tell him if his daughters husband was like him, what would he have done? I told him I would have shown up at their house and taken her and her kids with me. You’re right! I never thought about it that way, for me, for my case. I was thinking more along the terms that he has an illness and he needs my help, one day he will realize it and then I will be able to help him. I thought I could do something about it, be strong enough to help him be the man he was once. But that man is long gone, and you’re right! Letting him go would be the better option in this case. It just makes me nervous if the kids end up sleeping over there, well mostly my 6 year old, as I worry if he wakes up, or daddy falls asleep before him, that he may wander off or something if my husband is not paying attention and does not hear him.

        But thank you so much for pointing that out! I’ll think of it from a different point of view.

        And yes, I don’t understand how they can have a relationship based on lies and be happy! But yes, you’re right, maybe once the honeymoon stage is over, and reality sets in, their dishonesty will be seen between them too. Or who cares, if they are happy, as long as they don’t hurt my kids feelings with empty promises.

        My kids are my biggest concern! I always wanted them to feel loved and grow up in a happy home. If my husband does not want to be part of that then that is his loss.

        Thank you so much for your kind words and advice! I will start thinking of it that way and do my best to move on without him and accept that it’s ok to let him go. And yes, I have to start thinking less of him, I just can’t understand why he is willing to throw it all away for this person. It just seems like such a big mistake to me! Maybe she has done me a favor and I will find out in time.

        It doesn’t make the pain any less, but I see there’s hope in the future to get past this.

        Thanks so much for listening to me and sharing your story and thoughts. It helps to see that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I just have to keep moving forward.

        Thanks!!

        • Sasha

          Ilene, I love that you are putting the kids first, because like me you are the responsible parent. I see myself as the go to parent for our child. Our relationship has become even closer since the split,and I’m there for her 100%.
          It’s funny how at the beginning we feel out of control,but that doesn’t last long. I truly believe that the time we spend getting through the crap of separation,makes us stronger,and able to enter a better and more rewarding relationship later on. Where as the cheater doesn’t change,only dealing with keeping their head above water. My ex has had to deal with being ignored by mutual friends, having to pay for two households now ( cause the woman he’s with has CCJs,and will have to sell her house in January….then the shit will hit the fan, cause they will only be able to rent) having his relationship with his daughter change which is the saddest thing,cause she was always daddy’s girl. To hear my daughter say she hates what he’s done and who he is ,really breaks my heart.BUT, he managed to do that all by himself.
          He’s overweight verging on obese, is drinking more and gambling. He’s literally parked outside our home daily to conveniently pick our daughter up…we Are 15 months down the road and he’s still trying to find out what I’m up to. Saturday our dog went missing and he turned up to help look. Once we recieved news he’d been found he came bounding through the back garden grabbed me and hugged me. And I felt nothing but pity for him. Because I knew he would never be part of our family again….at the beginning I to,d him he’d made his bed, now he had to lie in it,and I’ve stuck with it. I can’t have a man back who shows so little respect for not only me but his only child. And he knows it…..here as always …hugs xxxx

          • Ilene

            Hi Sasha,
            So sorry to hear about your dog taking off! But glad he was found!

            It’s awful what addiction can do to a person. It is very sad! It seems your ex misses you guys, but yes, the lack of respect is extremely hard to get over.

            My husband’s lawyer received a letter from my lawyer stating that 50/50 custody may not be in the children’s best interest and asking my husband what his schedule plans would be to support that. And also that our marital house, which is where I am with the kids, may be the best base home for the kids. My husband got really upset and started texting me very angry messages. He actually scared me a little, but i don’t think he would hurt me. But that was a new side to him I’ve never seen before.

            My oldest was also daddy’s little girl. She is also pretty upset with him over his behavior in the past, embarrassing her in front of her friends when he was drunk, and for moving out. It’s hard on them too! Yes, I also find it extremely heartbreaking! I just don’t understand how he can think that what he’s doing is normal and justifiable. And all he wants now is for the kids to go to his place. How can a husband and a father be so proud that he has his own separate place to live?

            My husband still looks ok, he claims to be drinking a lot less, but I don’t know that for sure. He has been lying for over a year now, so how can he think his word is all I need, to believe that is true? He still is doing ok at work. But I truly believe he is still drinking. Today he told me he has 2 lives, and that when he is with the kids, he is a member of this family. How can he think that is acceptable? How can he think there is nothing wrong with what he is doing? I think his behavior and his thinking are totally irrational! I believe the alcohol has messed up his brain. I think he has an alcohol dependency issue, and that he is a functioning alcoholic.

            And yes! I feel like I have no control! I sure hope that the kids will not resent me for divorcing their dad. And that we continue having a strong relationship,and they can know they can count on me!

            I just don’t understand why my husband is doing this? And can’t understand how he can think that everything is ok!

            That is great you’re standing your ground! Sorry to hear you’re still dealing with this! And I hope I can be strong like you!

            Thanks!
            Ilene

      • Carol

        I’m still so distressed over NY husband if 27 years leaving. I’ve now started having panic attacks and hate being alone. Everyone tells me to pull myself together and move on. Yesterday I had to see him for the first time since march, I tried to be strong, he got tearful hugged me said he loves me then went back to her and last night he text all cold again and doesn’t want to try again. Why do this to me, I’ve already filed for divorce as he emptied the bank accounts. My problem is I’m constantly thinking about the two of them together its dreadful, how do I stop will there ever come a time when I will not think of him. Love to you all x

        • Misti

          Hey carol, I am so sorry. This is absolutely the worst thing anyone can put you through. I’ve finally stopped crying everyday so I will say there is hope. You have better days coming. I quit calling and texting him and it has helped some. I don’t expect anything. I quit waiting for him to come over. Weekends are hard because we don’t hear from him. He’s a cliche now. A deadbeat dad that doesn’t even try to see his kids. He thinks because he’s still paying the bills that he didn’t abandon his family. Well he did. The one thing that is helping me is I’m redecorating everything that reminds me of him. My next step is to quit answering when he does call. If he calls it’s only for being so ness for me to do something for him. It’s never personal. He never asks how I am. He doesn’t care about me at all and the sooner I let go of him completely the better off I’ll be. I wish there was a fast forward button to get us through the worst of this and get to better days but just know we are here for you and take one day at a time. It will get better. Hugs xoxo

          • Carol

            Thankyou so much Misti, its so terrible what these wicked men put us through and how they mess with our heads. Its like as soon as they meet someone else they become strangers and turn so nasty, leaving us penniless and making us feel like its our fault they cheated. What scares me is despite the lying, cheating and stealing I still miss him and have feelings for him, I don’t understand why, there are moments when I think I hate him. I so hope these feelings go away. Another really distressing thing is him and her are in my thoughts constantly, I imagine them laughing, happy and all loved up while I and the children and grandchildren are devastated. Will there ever come a day when I don’t think of them or don’t care what they are doing it scares me. I so feel for you and your dear family Misti, I’m thinking of you and every other person going through this nightmare x

  • Laurie Post author

    I wish I had the right words, the best advice, and the most helpful tips on what to do when a husband leaves! But there are no words that heal a broken heart.

    I’m so glad you’re here for each other, that you can walk forward knowing that you aren’t alone. Take heart, and hold on to the hope that your life will become brighter and better than you can imagine! You will recover, you will heal, and you’ll be happy again. Keep moving forward, one step at a time, and you will find yourself in a whole new place. And it’ll be better than the old place.

    Here’s an article I just wrote, to help a husband cope with the shock of his wife leaving. Perhaps it might help you a little…

    4 Steps to Recovery After a Shocking Marriage Breakup
    https://blossomtips.com/how-to-recover-shocking-marriage-breakup/

    Take good care of yourself, for you are worth taking good care of.

    xo
    Laurie

  • Carol Packer

    I’m devastated as my husband of 26 years left me at the end of March while I was recovering from major surgery. He said he couldn’t cope with my illness. There is another woman involved. He emptied the bank account. The letters from his solicitor are awful and full of lies. He’s like a changed man so cruel. . I cry all the time I feel so hurt and betrayed. How can i stop thinking about him and missing him as despite the awful things he’s done I still have feelings for him and I don’t know why. Please help I’m scared and feel so alone. Thankyou.

    • Wendy

      So sorry this is happening to you the best encouragement I can give you is life still goes on just keep waking up and praying it helps believe or not my husband was abusive as well and the more I think about it he was just downrite crazy he cheated on me for years and when he cheated this one time I left and had fun with another guy well he used that against me of course when we decide we were gonna try and work it out this was before we were married long story short he would make up lies he wanted to belive about what me and the otger guy did and he would get so angry even when i told him those things never happened but him being crazy he believed his own lies and abused me for them I prayed for god to just have him understand everything he did to me and know that he was wrong and one day he apologized to me and told me how much of the way he was handling things were so wrong from him cheating not helping with the kids not helping financially he said all the things I was feeling about him my faith became stronger he would never have said those things to me and I couldnt believe it and all i could think of was god I asked for that even if we never got back together at least he knows and I know he knows and I can never allow him or myself to blame me for the demise in our marriage cause lord knows I tried…bottom line you and only you know when and how to let go no matter how many people tell you, when your done your done and you will continue on without him its hard but you can do it its his lost remember that…

      • Carol

        Thankyou for your kindness Wendy, I’m so sorry you have endured this heartbreak as well. Its awful how it makes us feel worthless, I feel cast aside like trash. I thought he was my soulmate as he was so lovely, kind and caring but now he’s like a stranger, a monster, the letters from his solicitor are full of lies and so hurtful. He’s left me having to claim disability as I’ll never be well enough to work again, he’s left me penniless by emptying the accounts. I’m thinking of you Wendy and everyone on here going through this nightmare xx

    • Sasha

      Hey carol. The lies justify his action to leave. Ofcourse you still love him, because you weren’t ready for it. Your hoping against hope he’ll come back. All natural Hun. It’s natural to feel scared too,but you know what, you CAN get through this. Take each day at a time. As hard as it is ,start by getting your life back. I felt the same to a certain degree, but then I was more pissed with the woman he chose….I put my big girls pants on,and simply worked on me!
      Try not to ruminate about them, because whatever you think, you won’t be close! Let him get on with it. And ask yourself, if you deserved to be cheated on by a lying,cheating weak man! My guess is not. I’m over a year down the line, and had my ex begging to come back, crying to the kids,asking my friends regularly about my life. I’ve almost forgiven all the nasty stuff he’s done,because I’m so over him. Yes I still think about him from time to time, but I’m a different person now. I’m in charge of my own future and he simply isn’t part of it. The grass may look greener for a lot of these cheating men, but when the honeymoon period ends,they soon realise that what they wanted was right under their nose. Love yourself for the beautiful woman you are,and be kind to yourself….hugs xxx

      • Carol

        Bless your heart Sasha, you are so kind and I can relate to all you say. I can’t wait for the day that I don’t think of him or them anymore. They are constantly on my mind. He’s made me feel like I’m a bit of trash, no longer needed. The worst but was knowing he first went to a solicitor two days after my major surgery 400 miles from home, then left not long after I returned home, he drained the bank accounts yet now I’m on disability benefits he says I can work as he’s not paying me maintenance. He changed all the utilities into my name has ran up debts which he blames me for and is even trying to get my car which is my independence. I’m so glad I have my grown up children and grandchildren but sad for them as he’s abandoned them too. I am so sorry you’ve endured this dreadful heartache but take great comfort in your words and advice. Thankyou so much, love to you.

    • rosa

      Hi Carol!!!

      Please be strong. You are not alone out there. These terrible things are happening neary daily! Same thing happened to me after 20 years of marriage. I know how you feel. You are acting fully normal. When they cheat they go cruel and angry… they do this in order to not feel guilty and try to put away their bad conscious. You think an alien has taken over their body… they are NOT the person who you married. You can‘t believe who this person is! It is like your good husband got kidnapped and a very baf copy is left behind. Protect your self and your children. I wish I could help you, God is with you…….

      • Carol

        Dear Rosa,
        Thankyou so much for taking the time to help it means a lot. You are so right in all you say, I feel total shock and like I’m in a bad dream. One moment I think I can do this, the next I’m in floods of tears. He blames my illness, said he couldn’t cope and doesn’t love me like he used too. I just hate thinking of them, I so hope there comes a tine when I don’t. I’m so sorry you have gone through this and all the others who have, no one deserves it do they. Thinking of you and everyone here xx

        • rosa

          Dear Carol,

          when the evil takes over there is nothing you can do. I always think that the dark side of these cheaters has taken them over completely! Please be strong . My prayers are for you amd all these strong woman who are now going through the most painful time of their lives. Keep in mind, all this has NOTHING to do with you. It is the wickedness that has taken over them. It is the only way I can explain. My now ex husband did just the se. He stole 40 thousand euros and blocked me from the bank! He opened a bank account in the Fillippines for his mistress and gave her 500€ . As if this was not enough he also bought an appartment over ther for 20 thousand €😱😱😱😱Ma son and I are saving every cent each month so we can survive! So as you can see, when the devil takes over they are insane!
          In addition to this he stopped paying my sons monthly handy bills of mostly 15 € per month and preferred to pay 80$ a month for his porno!!! And guess who found all of this out…… my son of 17…. I guess we need to pray for them as these are lost souls! Big hugs to you!

          • Carol

            Rosa, sweetheart that’s terrible, I’m so sorry for you and your Son, like you say our ex is now a complete evil stranger and when they lie, cheat and steal it just leaves us in total shock and having to ouck up the emotional and financial pieces. Then the lies they tell their solicitors, I don’t know how they sleep at night. My heart goes out to you Rosa and everyone else as its like a nightmare that we can’t wake up from. I’m left on disability benefits due to the surgeries and complications yet he and his solicitor are insisting I’m well enough to work so he won’t need to pay spousal maintenance. Take care and thankyou, I’m thinking of you x

  • Laurie Post author

    Thank you for being here, for sharing your story. I can’t imagine how difficult this is for you – I can feel your pain, confusion, and hurt.

    Take heart, for you will come through this. Take your life one day at a time – one step and one moment at a time! Just go slow, and give yourself time to heal. You’re in a bad spot right now, for sure, and your heart is broken. Give yourself the tender love and care you need. Be kind to yourself, and gentle. If you ever needed love and compassion, it’s now!

    Try not to worry about the future. Just take a deep breath, and do what needs to be done today. Focus on the slow steady growth of healing, and your future will unfold. You’ll start to feel bright and happy again — you’ll be surprised! Little bits of light, laughter and joy will creep into your heart and spirit. Your days will get better…and these days will be behind you.

    Here’s an article that may help you move forward…
    How to Heal Your Heart After Your Marriage Falls Apart
    https://howloveblossoms.com/ways-to-heal-your-heart-after-marriage-falls-apart/

    Take good care of yourself, for you are worth taking good care of!

    With love,
    Laurie

    • Carol

      Thankyou for this post it means so much at this dreadful time Laurie. I’ve never felt so worthless and devastated. He ran away and left me just after major surgery, at my most vulnerable time, he emptied the bank account and I’m on disability benefits now just to get by. My heart goes out to everyone who has been through this it is going through it, love to you all x

  • Lynn

    Hello, it’s been about a year since my husband left. He just came to ke one days and said that he didnt live me anymore. I wanted to do counseling and he did go one time, but after we left he said that it was going to be too much work and he wasn’t going to have time for that since he was starting nurse anesthetists school. We had been stressed for several months, but so many things happened in our lives in a 3 month time span that we lost each other. Last year, his father passed of ALS in January , my grandmother fell and broke her hip and had to be put in a nursing home, his brother moved 5 hours away and then his mom and little sister moved 5 hours in a different direction. He also had to quit his job and start school…but he still blamed me for all of his stress.
    Throughout this last year we have had times where we didnt talk for weeks and times where we went on “dates” a few times a week. It was up and down and he wanted to stay in touch with me no matter what. All along though there had been one girl that worked on the same unit as him at the hospital and he would text her quote a bit. Eventually I fix d iut that they had met for dinner a few times, would meet up to run and such…but he always swore that she was just a good friend and he was not interested in that way. He ended up finding for divorce in December and I was honestly floored. Even the day of our divorce (February 8th) he picked me up we went to court and then dinner after.
    Well, about 2 months ago her ex fiance saw him at her apartment and called me, I confronted my ex about it and he told me that she had gotten into the same school as him and she would be starting the program this year and that he was just dropping off some books and things for her to use. I told him that I could t keep doing this that I still loved him but that I couldn’t be in his life if he was going to be such good friends with her because I believed that she had been trying to get in between us this entire time. He cried so much when I left his apartment that night and so did I. We hadn’t talked until about 2 and a half weeks ago, he randomly started texting me just to talk. I was short with my answers, but nice. He said that he missed me and was so alone and missed his family. He talked about school and life. This continued for a couple of days. I agreed to meet him to see how I felt around him because I was supposed to be going to his sisters graduation this weekend and riding back with him. I wanted to see if I could handle 5 hours in the car with him. He agreed to meet with me. That was on a Friday and we were going to meet maybe Monday.
    Well Sunday came and he randomly text me that he didnt think it was necessary to meet that we should be fine and that I shouldn’t feel awkward. I just said okay and joked that he was trying to get out of seeing me, he said no, but he didnt think it was necessary.
    Monday came I didnt hear from him, Tuesday I messaged him about a present I had gotten for his sister for graduation. I wanted him to take it to her since it was jewelry, I didnt want to mail it. He said okay. I asked when I could drop it off because I didnt just want to leave it in his mailbox, he said he was busy that night and the next night too. I asked if he was seeing someone and he said that he was. He had just started seeing her that weekend. I was floored. He told me so many times that he didnt have time to see anyone. He didnt want to see anyone because he wanted and needed to focus on school. That’s why he didnt want to work on us, because he couldn’t right now. I found out that Thursday morning that it was the same girl that he used to work with at the hospital. I was running and errand before work and it was right by her apartment…his, our, truck was outside. I called him and he answered, he admitted that it was her and that he was just so alone and just wanted to be happy and was looking for happiness and wanted to see where things went with her. He had spent the night there, he said that they had been studying and he just stayed because it was late.
    She is literally a homewrecker. She had been engaged for 5 years before and during this. A few years ago she cheated on her fiance with a married man that had a wide and child. They got caught and she split that family up. Fast forward to now. I knew this was her plan and warned my ex when we had just started having problems and he said it didnt matter because he wasn’t interested in her like that.
    Now I’m not even sure how to feel, I told him that I would always be here for him, but not as long as hes with her. I feel so dumb. Has this been their plan the whole time? Has she just taken advantage of the situation? How do I deal with all if these feelings of self doubt. We were married for 7 years. I’m almost 30 and feel like I’ll never have a family now.

  • Denise

    Today is exactly one week since my husband told me he was talking to someone else, didn’t love me anymore and left. It’s like I don’t even recognize this person even his face changed. We were together for 14 yrsand married for 7. I feel like I’m loosing my mind. Nothing makes sense since we where ok just last week making all these great plans for today ur family. I degraded my self when he told me he was leaving, I begged, pleaded, poured my self, and even hurt my self in front of him. I knew that wasn’t going to help, but I was so desperate (still am) all these negative thoughts go threw my mind, but I’m trying so so hard for the sake of our 3yr old daughter. They say if you love something set it free and if it’s meant for you it will come back to you. I can’t take this excruciating pain and my damn mind won’t let it be, he says he’ll still be my friend and that he cares, but he refuses to stop contact with the other woman, saddest part to me is she knows his married and continues to have something with him, who does that? I look forward to the day where he no longer lingers in my thoughts and heart.

  • Maria

    Hi! I really don’t know how to cope with this. Last november, after 5 years of marriage and 7 together, my husband left me because he didn´t feel the same about me anymore (his words). Or course, three months later, he told me he was seeing a woman from work, and what´s worst, he had already introduced her to our 2 year old daughter. That only two weeks after he left us!!!! To make matters worst, in january he took this b**h on a trip with our car, the car we bought together (never even wanted to get out of town with us) and… went to live with her to the appartment where we were going to live! And appartment that took a long time to get finished… two years. I put all my life’s savings into building that appartment, but it is in his father’s name. I trusted them both because they were my family. I went to see that appartment 3 days before he left and told him pleased as punch that it would be over in a month… of course, he didn´t waste his time and just left. He left me in a rented appartment a town away from my parents, without a job (his family’s business, where I had been working for the past year and a half, closed a week after he left me), in debt and completely heartbroken. It was totally out of the blue. I didn’t see it coming. 2017 was a terrible year. First he found out he had a mild degenerative genetic disease and then doctors found he had an aneurism which in the end wasn’t and then the family business had to close. So it was worry after worry. I stood by him through thick and thin, praying to god that he wouldn’t take him away from me… and he took himself away instead. In the process, I lost my husband. Now I’m picking up the pieces… I had to come and live with my father for a while and have, after 6 months, found a part time job. I am worried about my daughter… he tells her I’m bad, his girlfriend even told her i’m a cunt. And they play in bed together! I thank god for my little girl, she is a ray of sunshine and bright as can be. Last week she told me her father had bought a new TV and that he had bought his girlfriend a watch. And that when he says he doesn’t have money to buy his daughter a pair of shoes! I left him all the furniture in the house, except what was mine from before and a few of the things we’d bought together (a washing machine and a TV LOL), i didn´t want anything that reminded me of him: left him all his presents and all. Sometimes I’m ok, but some days I go through the motions, wondering what happened and just seeing the other woman’s face in my mind all the time (I knew her, of course). He says he wants us to have a good relationship, on our daughter’s account, but when we are nice to each other it just kills me, it is as if we were still together. I’d rather fight… It hurts less. (Sorry if I sound too chaotic…)

  • peace

    Hmmmm, we’ve been husband and wife for over 28yrs. He’s had multiple woman n girl friends, had children with them, some of who i nurtured n still nurturing together with our three chn. The last time i gave up on him is when i learnt of his affair with a girl two yrs younger than my daughter n that they hv two children

    • Misti

      My husband just took his mistress to Mexico for a week. I haven’t seen him since. He’s hasn’t been a father since he moved out at the end of January. He told me he was going with a guy friend and then she posted a picture on Instagram of Mexico. I’m so stuck. I’m always crying after together for 27 years and married for 20 I don’t recognize this man. He has totally thrown away his family and doesn’t even care. How do you get yourself to move on? It’s been almost five months and I’m still wishing he would come home. My three kids all say he is trash and why would I want him back. Heaven help me

      • rosa

        Dear Misti,

        I am so sorry you are going through this. Wish I could be with you and give you all the support you need. I know exactly how you feel. After 20 years of marriage and being together 22 years my now ex husband is living „ happy“ with his 20 year old lover. I feel your pain seeing their pictures on Instagram. I saw pictures of my ex with his fillipine naked in bed after doing it in the hotel room. They had nothing better to do as to post it on facebook so that my 17 year old son could see it. I guess the evil has taken over them completely. They are completely lost and in a very thick fog. What I learnt it has absolutely nothing to do with you! It is the brokeness they have inside!!!! I din‘t know who my ex is…. I think an alien must have over taken his mind!!!! They turn to very selfish monsters! One day they will wake up but until then so much pain and tears have been shed. Please do not blame your self and God bless your children!!!! It hurts and you wish everything would be just a bad dream…. Please be strong! Your kids are with you and they are behind you. My prayers are with you!!!!!!

        • Misti

          Thank you so much! This really touched my heart. Today has been a really bad day. I can’t quit crying. I get business emails saying to my husband I hope you had fun in Mexico and I lose it all over again. I don’t know how to get through this pain. And I really can’t believe I still love him and everything he goes hurts so much. He thinks coming over and talking to the kids for ten minutes in a two week period is being a dad. It breaks my heart. I could never not be in my kids lives and he doesn’t care about any of us. My youngest is 14 and says he doesn’t care but I know he does. This is killing me.

          • Alice

            Misti and Rosa- can we please connect off of here somehow? I’ve been married 25 years and my husband is seeing someone younger than our daughter too. Could the three of us connect somehow to support each other?

          • rosa

            Hi,

            of course I would love to connect with you! I live in Germany…. my email rosanna_manes@gmx.de. Wold love to hear from you. Please write so that I can send you my number… we can contact with whatsapp❤️❤️❤️

  • Martha

    My husband 58 yr old retired drinks and is abusive when drinking …he left me and and been gone for a week . not the first time he does this but I know he is with the other woman. I want to move forward .without him.. I know I need to let go . just need extra encouragement . to keep gpi g on

  • Maria Craituna Galang

    My husband left me exactly a week ago and it left a hole in my heart. He has not texted me or anything because he is so mad at me for taking my car from him which is his source of income. He is a grab driver. (Like uber in other country). I know he loves the other girl and he doesnt love me anymore. But i just wish he will text to ask about his kids especially my youngest whom he is very fond of. But im already expecting the worst. That he will not even bother to ask about our youngest son. Just want to move on and forget the pain and anger.

  • Steph

    Hi. I’ve never reached out before on a site like this. I was 45 and my husband did what all these husbands did. For 25 years he seemed like a great husband. I loved him very much, and we have three daughters and I loved our family life. We always from when we were engaged that said divorce was not an option and we were together forever. I discovered his affair by stumbling on a secet email account. He said he would break it off, but just couldnt help himself and went back. He said he was weak and it didnt mean anything. Then bit by bit I discovered more- there had been many prostitutes and one night pick ups on business trips over many years. He had a list of sexual exploits – at least 100 women, and photos of women taken in secret like walking down the street. This affair also had been going on longer than I thought. I couldnt understand what was happening- it seemed impossible that my devoted Christian husband, wonderful dad, fun loving beautiful kind man could even do anything like this. Everyone liked him, he was so nice, and didnt ever let on he was anything but this sweet guy. I thought he must have a split personality, or be bi-polar or have something wrong. He was an expert liar. Then he left us- he played the victim who was going through a mental breakdown, but less than 2 months later he was back with her. He did it that way so he could say he broke it off with me first before hooking up with her- he seems to be the only one fooled by that lie. So here I am 2 years later, he divorced me, married her 3 weeks after the divorce, and like all the other men talked about here, totally changed. He became cold, said what people want to hear, dresses differently, acts superior, and even talks differently. She has 2 girls of her own, much younger than our three older teenagers. It seems his goals were to first win over his new family – many expensive holidays, most often to places he once took our family, building a new house, fun things. Now he has that, his next goal is to have one big happy family. He tries to acheive this by only seeing our girls with his new family present. For example, ask them(or expect them) to come to dinner with them, invite them on his family holidays. He will not see them on their own just as a dad wanting to spend time with them, despite them asking. He says ” this is my family now, and you have to accept them. They are just kids- dont be mean to them.” My girls have been abanded and replaced, and they feel so unloved. They tell me it’s like their dad died and they have to spend time with this new guy. Their grief has been enormous, as has mine, but he dismisses it as me being dramatic. My kids have all been on anti-depressants and had anxiety. One daughter was suicidal but got through it. I hate how I miss him, how much pain I still feel, how valuless, fat and ugly I feel, how much I can’t stand the thought of being alone forever, how I feel trapped, how I still cry at night if I think about it, how he hurts the girls so much, how he never seems to have any consequences for his actions, how society just accepts this as just the way it is, how everyone puts pressure on me just to get over it and get along, and how life can go from what seemed to be great to a horrendous illusion in such a short time. I doubt he ever loved me at all, as I know as someone who genuinely loved that love would stop you from hurting someone as much as he has hurt me. Was it all a charade, a game, or playing out a fantasy? Am I such a bad judge of reality and character that I was so easily deceieved for 28 years if you count our dating years. I still dont have a proper settlement, I cant move on because the girls have to finish school/college and the house is in the area they go, and I love living with my girls and treasure the time I have with them before they move out. I wish he would feel remorse and sadness for his loss of us, but he doesnt seem to have any, except he is annoyed the girls arent fitting in with his plan for one big happy family with his new daughters. My faith in humanity is very low. I have become isolated and withdrawn. I wish I could be really living life like so many other women do after divorce. I don’t want to let him ruin the next 30 years of my life but feel such great loss I am afraid what if my heartbreak is too much to recover from. .

    • Sasha

      Hi Steph. I know you feel like it’s the end of the world,your emotions are all over the place and you can’t see anything positive,because I’ve been there. My ex was happy to quash the last 22 years together and try and live the Brady bunch dream with our young teenager and his trollop and daughter…only he hasn’t banked on our child’s response. She wants nothing to do with his pathetic life. Now for the first six months he did everything he could to get our child on side….then reality hit. He also realised his new fabulous life wasn’t so fabulous. I never begged, asked for his time or rang or texted him. I went no contact,unless it was about our child. I handed the car back, brought my own,got a job,and forced myself to get back out into the world.
      If your waiting for remorse, it won’t come,because at the moment he has to justify why he left you,and by showing remorse,it shows weakness. The hardest thing to do is realise the relationship has ended,but whilst your going through the motions and not trying, you are giving him every reason why he made the right decision. You have your kids which is a blessing. You get to see them every single day, share their moments ,hug them,laugh with them…..
      I was very fair with access,but my ex takes it to the extreme….I have to reign him in once in a while,I’ve had to put up with over 12 months of him stalking,even though he lives with the trollop. I’ve had him turn up on the doorstep numerous times for reasons that are so pathetic it’s laughable, he’ wants to come back, misses the life we had, wakes up every day and wonders what happened….me on the other hand, found myself, started loving myself for who I am and told him in no uncertain terms that if he were the last man I wouldn’t be interested, because I deserve so much more… yes it’s hard, but it does get better ,I promise…. and yes I still have days when I want to ring him about something great that happened,but I simply cannot be with a man who lies, manipulates and found it very easy to rub our noses in his horrible sordid shitfest. And I didn’t have to do anything..I sat back and watched his sad life unravel. I also tried to co parent,but as I was playing by his rules he filled our child’s head with such crap that she now has to have counselling..for that I can’t forgive him…well not yet. Be brave, stay strong, and start each day with a positive. Give yourself a few minutes each day to talk about him,then stop yourself. When you think of him, force yourself to stop..it’s hard but in the long run, will make things easier…and try not to ruminate….it’s the worst possible pain, but life still goes on,and your kids deserve their mum to be happy…hugs Steph, you can get through this xxxx

    • Soph

      Steph your story sounds a lot like my Mothers. She was married to my Father for 25 years and he left her and divorced her. My mom has three girls my two sisters and myself with my Father. We definitely felt replaced and it wasn’t easy accepting that he remarried right after divorcing my Mom to the woman who has bee. Trying to break them up for years. My Father even had children with the other women while married to my Mom.
      And what hurts the most is now I’m going through it myself. My husband of 8 years told me he was never in love with me. He’s been cheating and loves this other woman. And he’s leaving me for her. She has the same situation as him married the same amount of time and also has three kids. I’m so hurt but I know this is right. I appreciate his honesty and it opened my eyes. I honestly can’t make anyone love me. And when he spoke about her it sound like pure love. And accept the the challenge of learning who I am on my own. I accept the new chapter in life. I feel bad for my three boys I never wanted a broken home for them. But life happened. Now I have to refocus myself on me like I should have done years ago.

    • Veda

      I never reached out of this kind of site before neither, i hear you Steph. My husband left me with the woman that i know, we used to play tennis together. She spent time on BBQ with us, we were friends. And she knew that we were married and happy together for more then 22 years, yet he is living with her now for more then a year, while still married to me. Total BS! I am still frozen in time and i cant move .. i feel like my vital energy is drawn out of me. I didn’t even confronted her yet…unlike him ~ asked him for separation which he postpones and keeping me in hope that he will return!? What makes him think i want him back?? We have two beautiful and smart boys that are 22 and 17 and this hit me on my head so hard that i still feel dizzy from it and going through my life and work etc. like some kind of Zombie. That is not my nature. I am jolly and fun and like to dance and sing … now all my motivation to do anything just vanished. I am 39 years old and stuck in the state of shock and disbelieve. I have good friends that want to help but i can only see that only i can help myself, yet im frozen. I started separation process today and hope to get out of this nightmare fast.

  • Sasha

    WEll, we have had a terrible week. I knew my child was finding things a little difficult,and in those times, I’ve tried to be there for her, encourage her relationship with her father,listen, nurture,and most of all show her how much she is loved. I received a call from school,saying she had a panic attack and had broken down. It seems all the questioning, angry dialogue about me she has to hear has taken its toll. At that point it was decided counselling was the best step forward. I cannot tell you how much my heart broke for her.
    I spoke to her father and explained it was unacceptable and it was to stop immediately. His reaction was to minimise what was going on and then slag off the trollop daughter…..he’s a real prized idiot! No other words!
    I have come to realise that he really is a pathetic specimen,and I’ve also come to realise I’m not standing for any more of his BS. So when he turns up and it’s not his access day,I will be telling him to go,if he continues to talk rubbish to our daughter I will be rectifying his behaviour….he even told her not to tell the grandparents about her getting counselling…..I bet he did! God forbid they should realise their son is a manipulating, egotistical piece of work….and all because I don’t want him. I’ve tried to show a United front, I’ve tried to include him in decisions about our daughter…what else is there.? And all this from a man who cheated with a woman who looks about 60 with a large tattoo on her neck…ughhhh

  • Neema

    What if your husband doesn’t conclude that He is going to divorce but He says that, he cant leave his girl friend?

    What do you do as a wife?

    • Annie

      I am going through same situation where my husband does not want to divorce me. He can’t leave that girl instead he left the house. My husband has known that girl for one year, she sell drugs and hooked him on pot. My husband has so much hate for me. I dont know what to do. He chose a trash over his family.

  • Sasha

    Hey ladies…I really cannot decide wether my ex is stupid or using our child to get back at me..he has been harping on about how much maintenance he pays and how he shouldn’t pay it,and if he got his own place ( at the moment he’s living with his trollop) then she would spend two nights with him. When she said she didn’t want to he said that he wouldn’t get his own place..like a spoilt child. He asked her if she loved me more than him,pretty pathetic in my opinion. Has reminded her that the house we live in is his,forgetting my name is on the mortgage…and it goes on and on. I’ve bedn fair with access,fair with maintenance,especially with what he earns…and still he moans. He knows I won’t take him back,so I’m just not sure why he’s behaving so obnoxiously….any ideas ladies?
    I’ve sent him a text and explained it’s unfair to do this to her and to please stop,and surprise surprise no response…I’m at my wits end ,it’s so tiring….

  • Young

    No need for revenge. Just sit back & wait.
    Those who hurt you eventually screw up them
    Selves & If you are lucky, God Will let you watch.

  • Alice

    Hi everyone – my husband left me in November after 23 years of marriage. He had been having an affair with a coworker (who I have met several times) for 1 month. He moved out the house the day after he told me then two weeks later moved into her rented apartment above a pizza shop. He then announced he was going away for Christmas with her, which upset our 2 children but just didn’t seem to care. We had a happy marriage and we had a very healthy relationship all the way through the marriage but then stopped abruptly when the affair started. It was the biggest shock of my life – I trusted him implicitly. We had immigrated 6 years previously to Canada from the uk where we had a successful business but wanted a better life for our children. It was a completely joint decision. He now says that he only came because it’s what I wanted and he gave it all up for me WTF – and it was the worst thing he ever did. He has tried setting up two different businesses since coming to Canada, both failing. Every time we argue he keeps saying this and it’s not true, he’s actually mental, he never expressed once any doubts about coming. Now he’s bought a house with this thing (who’s 32 and can’t even get a credit card her credit rating is that bad – he’s 49) she also has two children she has 5 days on and 5 days off aged 4 and 6. And I know that every time the kids go over he makes excuses to get out of the apartment. It’s not just the affair and leaving – it’s the horrendous way he’s treated me after all this. He’s a bad man and he was the kindest most honest person you could ever meet before this.

    • Annie

      So sorry you are going through this, unfortunately it seems it is common that good men change into someone unrecognisable when they detach from the wives they previously loved to bits! I like you was married 23 yrs to who I thought was my soulmate , we were together 31 years he was my best friend! He left saying he wanted to be alone, no responsibility etc etc 9 weeks later I found out he had been seeing a 32 yr old co worker ! As soon as I found out she wasn’t prepared for me trying to save my marriage and she dumped him!!
      He continued on through his midlife crisis and very quickly met and moved in with another woman who is his age! He’s now her mr wonderful paying for expensive holidays treating her apparently like a princess!!
      I have filed for divorce have taken over mortgage and continue to mop up the mess he left behind… I pray for one day karma will bite him on his backside!
      Try focus on you take care of yourself love yourself xxx

      • Alice

        Annie – are stories are very similar. It really hurts though that he didn’t even want to give us a chance. As soon as I found out he moved out to be with her. We were so in love before the affair started, he’d send me love notes in my lunchbox 2 weeks before the affair started. It still all feels like a dream.

        • Annie

          Aww Alice I know exactly how you feel Hun!! It’s like grieving a death you need to go through all of the process to get through! You will get there it takes time ! I’m 18 mth in but still have my wobbles, unlike our cheating hubbies it’s not that easy to switch off our feelings!
          Try and focus on you and be kind to yourself! Find you again and be happy your better off without someone who would treat you so badly! Much love A x

    • Sasha

      Hi Alice. Your story resonates with so many of us. It’s like they have a personality transplant. Hunny, concentrate on you and the kids. As hard as it seems,and as hurt as you are, nothing you do or say will make an ounce of difference. So don’t put yourself through more hurt.
      Realistically his new affair relationship won’t last the distance. He’s in the throws of passion, lust, and his brains are in his trousers. He thinks he’s in love,so let him live it…because before too long, her kids will make him think big time,about his kids..whilst he’s playing step dad to her kids, he will wonder about his own. Him passing the blame for emigrating is a cheap shot to justify his decision to leave…believe me it’s all about them feeling better about what they have done. I went no contact almost immediately and only discussed our child. I took a long look in the mirror and realised any man who chooses to do what he did, does not deserve my time. I let him get on with his love affair, he moved in with her pretty soon after too. They really are sad and pathetic. So find that strength inside you,and get out. Take the kids to the park, meet up with friends, re decorate….whatever stops you thinking about him. I’m a year in and my ex has realised his life is one big shitty mess. He’s told me he will always love me, misses us, etc….and I’ve told him he made his bed he can lie in it…I will never ever take him back. I am worth so much more.
      My life has changed ,but I’ve got my spark back, and he knows it. Hunny , I guarantee,that once the dust settles he will compare her to you in every way. He will wonder what your up to,why you haven’t called to stroke his massive ego….. patience my dear…..these men think they have it all, but when every day life gets in the way, they are stuck with a second rate woman ,who they won’t be able to trust…..let the fireworks commence! And to add, why do they never go for better….always cheap, nasty women….but never forget ,these men made the decision to cheat,and ultimately if they choose such women, they don’t deserve us! Hugs xx

      • Alice

        Thank you for your advice & support, you really don’t know how much it helps me to hear from other ladies. Your right about the trading down. The only thing she has on me is the age, I’m better than her in every other way.

    • rosa

      Dear Alice,

      don‘t believe a thing he says. When a person cheats on his family they turn to be real aliens! It is scary the way they treat you and how they TRY to justify their reasons for leaving. Deep down they know that what they are doing is so very wrong and that there is absolutely NO excuse in this world to justify what they are doing. Believe me, they act this way because they are without peace and so angry….. at them-selves! They know that what they are doing is very selfish and that they are showing their lowest self. In order to live this anger they need to find their scapegoat and that is you. Please do not take any blame for his cheating. We all make mistakes and we are not perfect. But a person who puts himself higher as his own family, is a person who has a very low self esteem. It is their internal problem. Please be strong. I know exactly the pain, anger, hurt and despair you are going through! My still husband has decided to abbandon his family after 20 years for a person half his age. For me he was my angel. So loving and caring and most of all so honest. Soon after he left me I thought an alien overtook his body and mind. He is cold, emotionless, cruel, manipulating and such a perfect liar!!!!! He is NOT the man I married. I guess it is the sin inside of them. When one commits adultery…. one loses his soul……

      • Alice

        Hi Rosa – it’s so true He is unrecognisable, even physically he has changed he doesn’t look like the same person. He has lost a lot of weight (and he was thin to start) he’s grown a full beard (has never had one before in his life). He has actually aged 10’years in 5 months. I still get crippling pangs every now and then but I’ve turned a corner. I haven’t cried for over two weeks now and Im starting to gain some weight back (I lost 24lbs due to stress). I helps so much to hear from other people going through the same things. Thank you

        • Misti

          Oh my word my husband grew a beard also and lost thirty pounds. I’ve lost so much weight also due to stress. This is the most painful thing I’ve ever been through. We run two businesses together so I see him all the time and he just walks into the house without knocking like he never left. I don’t know what to do

    • Alice

      Thank you so much for your feedback – I was thinking my experience was the worst I had read about, it sounds bad but it really does help knowing this situation has happened to other ladies – and they recovered.i have no family here for support and although my kids are older I don’t want them burdened with my problems. Just being able to tell my story made me feel better. I just need karma to crap all over him and I will be happy 😊

    • Becky

      After 21 years together with ups and down, I found a card on the 23rd of December from the woman he had been having an affair with for the last two years. I investigated further and found messages and semi naked photos from his 12 years younger co worker.
      The woman two years earlier I had a bad feeling about at a work function only to be told there was something wrong with me and iam paranoid. The last two years he has rejected me and pushed me away, hidden his phone, worked late and gone away on business trips. I confronted him last year asking if he was having an affair to be told I was crazy and needed physiological help. He convinced my 19 and 14 year old that there was something wrong with me when he would pick arguments just before they would enter a room to get me upset.
      I waited a month before confronting him about the affair, he lied and said he wasn’t, then he lied and said he was but not with her, then he finally stopped lying but not acknowledging he had done it.
      Now he is blaming me saying that I have caused him so much pain over 21 years, sighting things that have not happened so more lies, and me having post natal depression 19 years ago as reasons for his behaviour. Sadly he is a good manipulator and my kids are angry and upset but directing it at me. Because it’s easier to be near him because he isn’t upset.
      He refuses to leave the house and is making sorting out financial affairs easy, we have moved overseas and interstate for him to pursue and achieve his career with me looking after our children and my career taking a back seat, only to be told now I am a sponger, lazy and money grabbing amoungst other names.
      I am feeling lonely, scared for the future and most deeply hurt by his betrayal and subsequent blame he is placing on me. But the worst pain I am feeling comes from the rejection I feel from my children. Still so raw

    • Misti

      So sorry you are going through this. I am going through the exact same thing. My husband just turned 50 and his mistress is 33 with two kids. I found out New Year’s Eve and he moved out the end of January. Got an apartment and bought furniture for it without telling me. We have three children and have been together for 27 years. I am devastated. I just want my husband back and I cry every day. I don’t know what to do

    • Veda

      Oh my, I keep reading so many similarities with my situation here. We also immigrated here and soon as we got permanent residence off he goes. After 22 now 23 years of marriage.. same as most of you here .. never saw this coming, we were a unit now we are separating… BOOM out of no where … the only difference is he left me for an older woman … and she apparently has money. That is what he is saying to me … and i cant believe that he would found that justifying from my side.. i mean wth.. You are leaving your family that went through all this with you for a woman who has money? When did money ever brought happiness in the real way to anyone. I think i would feel better if he fell in love then doing this … is that odd?

  • Tracy

    5 years after our divorce I had hopes we could build a new relationship, when he always flies back, also hoped for him to have better bonding with our son. But 5 years on he has informed his mum who is very close to me and my son still, he wants to start a relationship with another women. Worst of all it’s the women who broke our marriage 5 years back, all along they have been together, but it has taken him 5 years to tell his mum.

    Will he really stay in a good relationship with this women? How can he leave me and his son?

  • anna

    I’m at 61 year old, my husband is 53 he has cheated on my three times for which I forgive him as he begged for one more chance, found out before Christmas he was cheating again so I kicked him to the kerb for real this time, he has moved in with this latest one who lives almost on my doorstep,but still texting saying he never wanted to part and will always love me !!!!!!!. hes flouting her around town in front of my family and friends , I have seen his new woman but she drive off at high speed either through quilt or fear, she is the 6th woman and home he has had that I know of . I have to be honest I’m not coping very well with it all, the last text I had was him telling me he wants out house sold and wants his half; so that could leave me home less. Keep praying to god t9 help me through this xxx

    • No

      What? 61 and he’s 53 cheater. Okay first is it your home? Is it one you bought together if you already owned it prior to marriage wait are you married to each other? If so, he has committed adultery and good he is letting everyone see it. Do you have kids together I have no way of knowing how long you were together but 6 times CHEATING on you. Why do you let him back..sounds like the house is yours in which case REGARDLESS OF HOW LONG YOU WERE TOGETHER IF YOUR HOUSE WAS ALREADY YOUR HOME BEFORE HE SHOWED UP IN YOUR LIFE HE GETS NOT ONE DIME HE HAS NO CLAIMS TO YIUR PROPERTY. ALSO, IF YOU BOUGHT HOME TOGETHER HE CANT KICK YIU OUT HE CHEATED. GO TO YOUR LOCAL SUPERIOR COURT AND ASK ABOUT THE FREE LEGAL COUNSELING TO FILE DIVORCE AND HOW TO FIGURE OUT PROPERTY ISSUESS AS WELL AS A RESTRAINING ORDER. i would mention to the local pd that your gusband has a who’re who tries to run you off the road and you need their advice because you are afraid for your life, as well as the increasingly more aggressive threats from your husband and his mistress who are threatening your homelessness.,do not sign any papers nothing not one..you can also call DIVORCE attorneys who always give you one free advice question you may even get an appointment with one for advice just know the only law firms never giving even one free answer to anyone asking for a desperately needed direction during such a tragic gut wrenching time are the christian law firms still holds true we cannot figure it out the ones who advertise how godly they are thee only law firms NOT helping not even one free answer to one little question. So YEP go see a lawyer bring your legal paperwork marriage certificate rental agreements or mortgages btw if you are leasing a property and you are not listed as a renter or leasee then you have to move..sounds like you are a home owner and he just shacked up with you used you and now thinks he’s been there long enough to take your house. Get a lawyer don’t be dumb anymore or trust and believe you will end up homeless and penniless..go cover your ads girl! And don’t be foolish have a boyfriend who has his own stuff. And doesn’t need yours.

  • Sasha

    Just thought I’d check in ,and wondering how everyone is doing.
    As each day passes it gets easier. Believe me when I say ,your ex or soon to be ex will have far less impact on your life as the days,months and years pass. It’s a year for me,and even though my ex has now resorted to slagging me off, mainly because I don’t care to have him back at any cost, I ignore all the nasty things he says.
    I have sat back and realised that my ex must be in a far more brutal place in his life than I . He’s now gambling daily, doesn’t go home till nine at night,and asks far too many questions about me. As long as he continues to be a father I’m happy with the way my life is going.
    Never let them see you as weak,hold your head up high, and enjoy something about each day….and love yourself for the fabulous person you are.
    Any man who cheats,rubs your nose in his bullshit,and lies and manipulates,does not deserve a second chance.

    • Anika

      I agree with you Sasha. Looks like your ex is paying for his stupidity. I asked my ex if he can find out how much I would get for my engagement ring and my wedding band. His face… That moment was priceless!

      • Sasha

        Happy Mother’s Day …..that did make me laugh….I’m in the process of selling his brand new bike he never used,and the golf clubs….he’s had a year,I take that as he doesn’t want them back,even though I’ve given him enough time….I’ve had a fabulous day with the children,been spoilt rotten…now that’s what it’s all about.
        My ex just looks a pathetic mess. Over weight,now seen in the bookies daily,that’s if he’s not trying to follow me. Telling everyone he’s met the love of his life,but doesn’t go home to her till nine at night….crying to both my grown up son and our teenage daughter…..it’s pathetically sad. I on the other hand ,hold my head high,don’t entertain putting him down,cause he’s managed that all by himself….I wish that in time he finds some peace,and becomes a man the kids can respect. As it stands the poor man is going through the motions,his life ruined,missing the family…and he managed it all by himself. His life will never be the same ,ever!

  • Guiamila

    Hi, I’m kim, 26yrs. Old. I don’t know what to do in my case. We’re in a relationship for 7yrs. And married for about 4mnths last year since he left us. And 1mnth og giving birth of our son. I don’t know what did I do wrong, I give him all his needs but seems it’s not enough for him. All I want to do right now is to file a case with them since they are both government employees. Is my decision right or not? How can I move on? It hurts me a lot because I want that my son will grow as whole. Please do help me. Thank you

  • Anika

    Remember girls- we are survivors.Yes we are.. You may not feel like that at the moment but that time will come, I really believe that. I posted my message few days ago, I felt so lonely, so weak. I’m starting to think that that b***h has made me a favour. He is her problem now! I helped him overcome his addictions, helped him spread his wings and he left me and 2 young daughters for some trash.He is a TRAITOR! All of them are, ladies! Stand tall, be proud of yourself, empty your mind. Think about Karma.Sooner or later.. But you know what, I’m not going to wait for that, I’m better than him. If there is a God he’s on our sides. Stay strong, we are the winners after all that..x
    ps. Sorry for my grammar mistakes, english isn’t my native language.

  • Sasha

    Well ladies, seems my ex is ramping things up . Because his life isn’t going how he planned and he’s decided I’m the better option, he’s being oh so very caring…ughhh! He’s now best pals with my 27 year old son( not his son). He’s gone out of his way to get him a better job with one of his friends. Very thoughtful hey? Only when he lived here, he didn’t have any time for him. He keeps asking our daughter how I am, and pops up everywhere. I wonder when he actually gets any work done. Yes not going home yin 9 most nights according to what he’s told our daughter…seems his new life is turning into a nightmare….I so wanted to be friends when we split, be able to co parent together, and I really do try to few the better person, but I’m still not at the forgiveness stage…what he has put our daughter though over the last year still has me shaking my head. I’ve told him we will never get back together.many times but he just doesn’t get it. Ego bigger than a rhinos….. but I will continue on my new journey ,and bee life..I’m far nicer,far happier(most of the time) and even though it’s scary, relishing my future.

  • Anika

    My husband is leaving me for another woman. I found out few weeks ago. I always stand by him, I was nursing him through his illness, I was looking after our beautiful children and now he’s leaving. no matter how good you are, how beautiful you are, how much you care if the person you trusted decided “to spiced up” his life. And he swore he will spend rest of his life with me. Now I feel so lonely but I have something he will eventually loose – love of our young children. He betrayed them the most..

  • Sadeeqah

    Hi… my name is sadeeqah iv neen married for 20 years ,my husband left me fo a younger woman nd I really can’t cope ,my family is veey supportive nd try nd helo but notjing seems 2 help , I have 4 kids thts taking it very hard nd tht kills me evens more im 38 md geel like some1 just pulled a mat out of me… Im been up more than 24 hours I cant sleep I cant eat I have a few medical conditions md feel very sick , im just trying 2 pull tru , I dnt knw how im scared I tryed talking 2 God bit it feels like he left me 2 I just want 2 forget this ever happened …. pls help I dnt knw what 2 do

    • Rosa

      Hello Safeeqah,

      I am so sorry you are going through this. I know how you feel and how it hurts! The same thing happened to me. Please keep praying. God is with you believe me. God will help you through. It seems at the moment you won‘t make it and that the pain overtakes you…. BUT you WILL make it! Please don‘t give up. God is with you and He is holding you. Please keep in mind you are valuable and a beautiful mother of four children. Your husband is the one who is losing it all. NOT you! Please keep strong. My prayers go out to you and your children! You will make it…….Believe me, you WILL make it. You are not alone. God is with you🙏🙏🙏

      • Wendy

        Thank you so much for the encouragement its so hard sometimes still but I believe I’m going to make it I keep fight everyday to thank you

    • Wendy

      Hi I’m sorry this happened to you I totally understand the pain I was with my husband for 13 yrs and we have 4 children together and I’ve come to realize that it hurts so much because of what your used to and you feel like the one person you thought you knew you really dont some where in our relationship it been a breakdown but i never thought it would result to either one of us leaving and when he left and still to this day I wish we could be back but I know it will only be the same thing so I just live in my truth the funny thing about my husband is that he just enjoy playing games I found out not only did he leave me to be with someone else while he’s with her and she thinks she’s won my husband, he’s also in a relationship with another women (he won’t divorce me)yea it hurts sometimes I just lay in my bed at night and cry cry as much as you need and when you done wipe your tears and find something to do to take your mind away really quick its hard and I think everyone has a different thing to make them feel better you just have to stay strong and it will get better because he lost and he will realize that

  • Wendy

    I have been knowing my husband since i was 15 I had a child at the time we were of course so in love we had our first child together when I was 17 we broke up a year after that because of him cheating he told me because i was more loyal to myfamily then to him however we got back together two years later and had 3 more children things have been rocky for about 7 years I struggled with finding my identity and he has always been a cheater I love him so much because of his good quality he’s a great father and he tried teaching me how to build for the future but i have never been receptive because i didn’t trust him long story short he told me he would never leave me so we got hitched and he didnt wanna tell anyone a year later he left me and told me he only did it for our children now he living with us but goes to see his girlfriend every chance he gets he’s told me he don’t want to be with me but then he tells me he does and still talks about our future I told him im not gonna allow him to treat me like this any longer and I contacted his girlfriend he then proceeded to give me separation papers and I ripped them up but now he totally friend zoned me but still lives with me and i despise him and he’s not even after by it I’m so confused but im not it crazy I know what it is I just don’t want it to be so i still find myself think what if changes but then I don’t want him back cause its not fair to me how he handled thing plus he wont tell me this is his girlfriend he keeps denying it and lying so i can’t seem to find closure

    • Kimberley

      Hi I have been catching up on the recent posts, my husband left me after 31 years last years after behaving very badly for months, said no-one else was involved but then flaunted his “old friend” in front of me within weeks and told me it was official within months. He has behaved very badly since, treat me terrible and been really nasty totally different man to who I thought I knew all those years.
      Any way its funny how Karma works, I try and have as little contact with him as possible but do hear from friends bits of what he is up to.
      Apparently his new girlfriend wont have him living there so he is still staying with my stepdaughter and her family (over 13 months now), he hardly has any work as he lost a lot of customers through his treatment of me. He had two mini strokes last year. He argues a lot with his girlfriend, her son is on the run from the police so that’s causes more problems.
      Well as for me I have quite enjoyed living on my own, I have got the nicest garden I have ever had and started decorating the two things I always hated and never did. I go on holidays with friends, (he has just about lost all his). So as much as I never wanted this part of my life to be like this (I am 57) my life is pretty good really his is a disaster, he looks terrible and is still being nasty with everyone. I look at him and don’t recognise him, sometimes think I had a lucky escape.
      So all of you that think you wont get over them going trust me you will and you can come out of it the other side learning allsorts about your strengths. I am so sorry that we were betrayed so but don’t let them take more of you than they already have, its there loss. Kim UK

      • Laurie Post author

        Thank you so much for sharing, Kimberley! Your words of wisdom and encouragement will help us move forward in hope. I’m so glad things are unfolding well for you, even though you never expected this season of your life.
        I’m glad you’re here! 🙂

      • Wendy

        Its so much harder for me to move on because he’s still living in the house and expect me to still be there for him and when i put my foot down and tell him i dont want to he wants to say all the ways hes been there for me and when we’ve been there for each other its so hard to be going through this situation a part of me wants to just leave and go stay with a friend but I have a responsibility to my children and its just so hard because i cant seem to close this chapter and don’t know if I will ever be able to do so

      • Maria

        Thank you for sharing your story Kimberley. It gives me hope that one day, Karma will eventually catch up with my 61 year old ex husband who left me for a 25 year old after being married to me for 34 years.
        You are an amazing woman!

        • kimberley

          Hi Maria trust me i am not amazing at all, its been a matter of making the best of a total mess. My worst issues have been how its afftected my 83 year old mother who was so close to my husband its nearly killed her. He didnt go near her for weeks before he left and hasnt spoke to her since i hate him for that more than anything he has done to me. I have realised one thing through all this no-one can build happiness on other peoples misery my husband has made a right mess of things,he looks ninety and is with a woman who everyone thinks is a joke. They all think the grass is greener and it just isnt. But it doesnt matter how unhappy he is as long as i can move on and i have, not easily but i cant imagine now ever loving him strange isnt it. My hatred and disgust for him has made it much easier. Love to you. xx

          • Maria

            Hi Kim, It took me nearly two years before I was able to tell my 82 year old mother coz she adored him. My mom took it pretty well – I guess she is trying to be strong for me. When I start missing my previous life, i think of all the horrible things he has done and somehow i snap out of it. These men are evil and don’t deserve any more of our precious time. One day, I hope to be where you are – able to say that I have moved on. hugs xx

          • kimberley

            Hi Maria you will get there i have been better since i have no contact and have stopped going to my local pub so i dont have to see them walking in together in front of me with no shame. Its not how i wanted my life to go i thought i would grow old with him and on top of that one of my best friends has terminal cancer and i have been caring for her so thats two people that arent going to be there. I am lucky that i have managed to keep the house and we have no children so there wasnt the trauma of that at least, i had a miscarriage years ago but because of health problems i never tried again. I think things would have been worse if i had had to move another stress i didnt need. I quite like my own company thank god and have some good friends but its not been easy. I actually went to see my GP a few months ago as i was having palpatations because of his nasty ways and she gave me some antidepressants called Sertraline and they really have lifted my mood and made me feel better. I am going to make a start on my spring garden tomorrow something else i find enjoyment in. He is going to India with the girlfriend in March just hope he stays there. Love to all Kim (UK)

          • Maria

            It must have been pretty tough seeing them together. I don’t know how I would react if i see them. It is a possibility because they live close to where I work. I hope I don’t ever see them. I hope your ex moves away from where you are – preferably to the moon:) take care!
            hugs from down under xx

  • Sasha

    Hey warrior ladies….been afew weeks,and my cheeky ex has floored me with his behaviour. Some will know that he wants to come back,has cried to my adult son…blah,blah,blah. He knows the answer is a big fat NO! Well Monday,my daughter wasn’t well, and due to work commitments I asked her to ring her father to take her to the doctors. No problem there…only as I was ready to leave for work, bold as brass,he walks into the house,and tries to greet me with a kiss. ( he’s always very touchy, feels, trying to hug or hold my hand). I asked him what he was doing, but laughed it off,as our daughter was in the same room. Inside I was furious. He plonked himself on the sofa ,so I got my coat,told our daughter to get her school bag and ushered him out the house. All the time he’s asking me how work is, how my car is going …..for a man who made the decision to try another life, he sure looked unhappy. He’s piled the weight on, looked like he hasn’t even put a comb through his hair …generally looked like sh@!. The whole incident has left me feeling insecure,angry and dismayed at his behaviour. Why would he think it ok to just stroll in MY home as if nothing had happened. I must admit I felt a tad sorry for him too. So even though I know I’m making progress,and my life is far better without him in it, why have I felt so angry literally all week. Not forgetting him turning up in the village I work in, middle of the day, when he should be working? It’s like he’s back to stalking me…but still living with the trollop. Told our child he’s there because it’s somewhere to live! Bravo,,another thing that manes our daughter question her fathers integrity!

  • Rach

    I found out on December 13 that my husband of 13 months was having an affair with a woman 15+ years older than him and 22+ years older than me. He abandoned me on a holiday and returned home where I thought he was coming to think and to get his head sorted. He actually returned to our house, packed his stuff and moved in with the old home wrecker. I was, I am devastated. I’m seeing a counselor but it’s slow progress and I see it taking many months before I see light at the end of the tunnel again.
    We had been trying for a baby and were yet to get pregnant, for that I am thankful. That while I’m gutted not to be a mum, I know that I won’t have to have further contact with him once our separation documents have been signed.
    It’s a terrible thing to go through and I truly believe you can only understand the real pain if it’s happened to you. My counselor says that regardless of what happened in the relationship (could have stabbed him etc) there is no excuse for infidelity. It’s just not ok. The blame on ourselves has to stop.

  • Debra

    Well, I’m joining the ranks of you beautiful women. My Navy husband cheated on me while his ship was ported in Hawaii- 3 weeks ago. I just found out less than a week ago- I found out, he didn’t have the guts to tell me. I left all my family, my grown girls, my well paying job and our home all back in Virginia to move to Guam to be with him. We got here October 21 and he deployed November 8. I felt so isolated and alone here. But I set to the task of setting up our new life and home here.

    He messaged and called constantly while deployed. Never once did he give an indication he had been unhappy. Like literally, he went to a mutual friend’s house, she was there and he gave it no thought as far as consequences. Since that day he has maintained full contact with her via messaging, texts and they play PS4 all day and night where I can hear him talking to her in the headset. He has decided he wants to pursue a relationship with her- leaving me homeless, jobless, but most of all hopeless right now. Oh, the kicker? She is married to a Navy guy herself who is deployed! So a cheater cheated with a cheater. I really feel like she has sunk her claws into him to bale her out of her own situation. But he doesn’t want to work on anything, he shows no remorse for the pain he’s causing. So yeah, this is my life now. We are stuck under the same roof until the Navy sends me and my household goods back to the states.

    I feel lucky honestly I have an amazing support system of friends and family. It really helps to know I’m not the CAUSE of the affair but simply the by product. I feel hurt, shocked, betrayed, ashamed and mostly just sad right now. All the uncertainty in my future is still overwhelming . I go through waves of wanting him to suffer and be miserable to throwing myself at his feet begging him to think about what he’s doing.

    Each day I experience waves of just sheer pain and sorrow that wash over me. And then sometimes I’ll hear an empowering song on the radio that will make me feel better. I guess when people ask if I’m ok the answer is no, but I know I will be.

    • Julie

      I’m so sorry this has happened to you. The pain is excruciating I know. But remember this is not your fault. For what it’s worth your husband is caught up in a fantasy but the main thing is you look after yourself and put yourself first. Not easy when you’ve put him first for so long. There is a website called Chumplady.com which has helped me stick with my resolve. She has also written a book which I’m currently reading. Note both the website and the book is from the position that you have had enough and want to end the marriage because of infidelity. Remember this is no reflection on you and all about him and his lack of values and morals. You are enough xx

    • sasha

      Debra, hugs to you. But you can get through it. I remember those early days, and the pain is hard to take. It doesn’t matter what we think or say it won’t change anything.
      Nobody can tell you how to feel or behave, but going no contact worked wonders for me. Yes it was hard, yes I had so many things I needed to say, but whilst they are in the throws of their fantasy ,nothing we say will make a difference. I’m pretty much still going NC after nearly a year. In that time, I’ve worked on finding myself again. Yes there are days when I miss him, want to talk to him,ask him things,but the way I see it is ,he had his chance. I only discuss our child,when needed,and know it’s the right thing to do. My ex, is desperate to come home ,realised he had what he wanted all along…well tough! I like my life, I have great friends old and new,I make sure I go out regularly,and I’m laughing more day by day, week by week. Do I still love him? Yes, but only because he’s the father of our child. Do I respect him? That would be a big fat no! He lost that with all the crappy things he’s done over the year. Do I want him to be happy? Yes. What’s ironic is when he’s with our teenage child he moans constantly about the OW,says she gets on his nerves and he is only there for somewhere to live. He asks how I am, what I’m up to, turns up unannounced with silly reasons,and I guess it’s his time now to work through it. Debra, you will get through this,but remember this is not your fault,no matter what he says…cheaters have a knack at passing the blame to make themselves feel justified. It really is empowering to know that after 22 years, I can live without him. I’d rather be alone than with a man I could never trust again…..hugs xxx

    • For the better

      They violated article 134 of the uniform code of military Justice. I know this because my ex husband did the same thing. He had an affair with a married coworker whose divorced was finalized this month as ours will be as well. The 25th. It is unfortunate that people who took and oath to protect their country can’t even uphold to their own marital vows. But you will get through this. File for spousal support to get back on your feet. If he refuses, go to his command. The navy looks down on infidelity. Not to inform them
      Of his transgressions but to help you get back up. It’s the least he can do. Sounds like a child to me. Sometimes these other women do us a solid though. Because they are with people who are willing to do the unthinkable with them. God has a way with telling us we don’t need certain people in our lives. Don’t wish I’ll but wish nothing but happiness for them because two people who are willing to destroy another person’s life and put them through this trauma…. well…. they deserve each other. Hang in there!

  • Pam French

    My husband is finally leaving me after almost 35 yrs. it was mostly good, but the last 3 yrs he hasn’t been happy. We moved to Oahu in 2012. He basically disappeared from our marriage emotionally, in 2014. The part no one can relate to with me, is he’s not even in love with another woman! No affair going on! I almost wish there was another woman. I’m lost and confused any help/advice??

  • Sasha

    Morning ladies.
    I’m almost a year without my cheating ex. It’s been a very tough year,however I’ve learned so many things about myself. I CAN cope without him, I like who I am,and so do my friends old and new, nothing about him cheating was my fault,no matter how many times he said it was, and the biggest thing…life is for living.
    In the early days I stumbled through each day,wondering why. Then I decided that was doing me no good, so I got myself a job after being a stay at home mum for several years. I went NC almost immediately unless it was regarding our child,and even though my ex has done some pretty stupid things I’ve remained dignified,not lost my cool ( even though at times I could have socked him one) and let his little love story play out. I don’t ruminate about them, from where I’m sitting they don’t have much going on. So as time has gone on his life is unravelling day by day. He’s seen most days in the wine bar after work,drinking alone, looks terrible, has put on more weight, tells me he wants to come home, met with one of my family members crying,saying he’d made such a mess of things,and how he loves us dearly and would do anything to have his old life back.
    Now I don’t want him to be unhappy,but I certainly dont want him back. In the early days that was all I thought of, wondering how he could throw over twenty years away,and when we split, I was very dignified and agreed it was the right thing to do. What I hadn’t banked on was how I would feel once he had gone, then finding out he had been cheating ,well it tore my heart in two. But, I have realised, that although I will always love him as the father to our child, Our splitting was the right thing to do.
    I take no comfort in knowing he is suffering,but these men who think it’s ok to cheat and don’t have the balls to leave before entering a new relationship have only themselves to blame.
    Take each day as it comes,give yourself a time limit each day to cry,and think of them, then consciously stop….fill your days with fun, laughter,and use your anger productively…when I felt anger, I’d clean….or walk the dog. What I’m trying to say is life is for living, don’t waste a second of it. Hugs to you all xx

    • Rosa

      Hello Sasha,

      I admire your courage and your strength! I am still struggling after two years of seperation and now being forced to divorce. After 20 years my husband deceided to cheat on his beautiful family for someone half his age. I am still trying to understand how can a person be so heartless and so cruel. I have learnt that his cheating is not me. It is the broken person inside him. Of course we all do mistakes but to destroy a family because of ones hurted ego??? It just shows the weakness they have inside. I am still hurting and still living in shock. Where on earth is the loving and caring husband gone? How can a person change so much? My „husband“ is putting all the blame on me and worse of all he is trying to justify his actions with his son!!!! I guess I will never find an answere.

      • sasha

        Hey Rosa. You hit the nail on the head…their ego! They are getting older, their day to day life is sooo ordinary,they feel something is missing. Well, stop the press, once all the excitement wears,they are stuck in a relationship that has the same ordinary things …like shopping, paying bills, only with less money. My daughter has seen the man she thought was the best thing ever, dissapoint her. I’ve cradled her when she’s come home, after she caught him lying, after he grills her about mom,it’s so sad to witness. I make excuses for him, because I want them to have a great relationship,however he just ain’t that smart,and continues to dissapoint her all the time. She absolutely loathes the woman he is with ,and silently I hate her too,because she most certainly isn’t anyone I would want my daughter to know….but I keep quiet,never tell her my feelings,listen and hug. Rosa, these men are selfish, and their oh so perfect lives are nothing but a smoke screen. I can see how miserable he is,and I ignore the silly games he plays to get a reaction. He tries to make you feel bad, because that’s his only way of justifying what he has done. Inside I can guarantee he is in great turmoil. Him trying to justify his actions to your son is a low blow and I’m sure your son will see through his BS. Just concentrate on your son and yourself. Make plans with friends,even if it’s to catch up,re decorate, change things,keep busy. We have no control over their actions, but we sure as hell have over our own. Rosa your two years down the line, and still here. You have the gift of having your son with you,so don’t waste any more time worrying about your ex. You are loved, you are strong and you are getting stronger day by day. Hugs Hun,and here if you need anything xx

        • Rosa

          Dear Sasha,
          thank you for such comforting words. There was a time I thought I was the one loosing but as the days go by I realize they are the ones who lost…. EVERYTHING! They have lost the respect of our children! How low and shallow is this. How broken can a man be inside to cheat on the persons he should love and protect with his life! The person they betray the most are themselves. A cheater is not because of who you are but because who THEY are! Dear Sasha they do not know what true love is. As long as they do not take responsability for what they have done, they will never find their peace. At the moment they are out of Gods will. They are lost! Really Lost!!! I am so sorry that you are going through this. Give a huge strong hug to your daughter! She has got every reason to be proud of such a strong mother! Think this way Sasha…. our „husbands“ can have the most ten top „beautiful“ woman of this world but putting them together they will NEVER have the value of a faithful and beautiful wife. NEVER!!! And they know it! Big hugs to you!!!! God bless you and your lovely daughter! Pls keep in contact. Would love to hear from you and of course I will always be here for you. Greetings from Germany!

          • sasha

            Rosa, how spooky. My mother is German and I spent many happy with my Oma and Opa. Thankyou for your kind words. You are so right. Let’s keep in touch ,because i would love to see you come out the other side ,like the Phoenix rising from the flames. I’m almost there. I don’t feel sick when I see him any more, in fact I don’t really feel anything. I just want my daughter to know she is so very much loved,she is my priority and always will be. My family are truly fabulous. Theirvsupport has been brilliant. Sending positive vibes to you and your son,and hugs xxx catch up soon…

          • Rosa

            Wow Sasha the word is really small 😊😊Your mother is from Germany! I am living here since 26 years. My parents are italian. I am so glad that you are lifting up and soaring high! I hope to meet you soon so that we can both fly so high. I am living in anxiety…. waitng for that terrible letter which shows me the court date. I am so scared of it. I don‘t want to see him. I fear him, I hate him and I feel so dum… dum because I feel so ashamed of seeing him. He will compare me with his other woman that is 25 years younger than I!!!!!!! I feel sooooo old😞 I know it‘s silly because a girl at such young age throws herself on a much older and married man… has absolutely no compare to me!!! Dear Sasha, that‘s exactly the point. The other woman will NEVER reach our value. They are cheaters and liars… just like our cheating spouses!Please stay strong. God bless you!!!

      • Maria

        I’m so sorry you are going through this. Know that you are not alone and there are others who have suffered like you did and survived. My 61 year old husband of 34 years just married his 25 year old “toy” and their first child is due any day now. We will never understand nor will we get an apology for the betrayal, the lies, the massive hurt they caused. Like you, I’m still trying to move on – whatever that means. But I will not spend one more minute of my precious time thinking of a bad, immoral, evil person anymore. Life is too precious to spend one more minute on him. It is easier said than done, but i found that No Contact really helps.
        Sending you a big hug and I hope you find it in your heart to be strong and move on. This too shall pass and from this experience will rise an amazing, beautiful, stronger, wonderful woman and that is YOU!

        • Rosa

          Hello Maria,

          please be strong! I keep adking my self, what on earth is going on here??? Times are changing so much and it‘s showing so much evilness. It is like you said, just pure evilness! What I have learnt in this terrible storm is that it is not us….it is the brokeness they have inside. I now feel sad for my STBX😞You know, the ones who have really lost are those who have lost their self worth. These are persons who have such a low self esteem that they need to cheat. They need to prove themselves that they still „ have it“.They need acknowledgement and appreciation because they don‘t know how to appreciate themselves! It is the emptiness inside that tortures them and they think to resolve their internal problem by getting it externally. This of course will NEVER work….. Can a broken person who destroys a family and leaves his precious wife, the woman he chose to love and share his life with, ever find a better person? Of course not! Our „husbands“ can only be with a person that reaches their level… they are just as empty and broken inside. It hurts to see how this person you trusted so much change into a stranger….. It is the sin that has taken them away…. it‘s not them anymore. They have lost God… My prayers go out to you! Let us beautiful woman stay strong… because we have still our worth, moral and self esteem. Unfortunately they have lost ALL of it……They have lost themselves AND their most precious blessings God gave them…. their wife and family… Huge hugs to you!

          • Maria

            Hi Rosa,
            I hope one day we can tell each other that we have truly forgotten them and we can laugh about it.
            One day, the tightness in our chest will go away and be replaced with peace.
            One day we will totally fine. hugs back to you xx
            Maria

  • Julie

    My husband of 22 years left also this past October. I feel so lost and broken and am finding it so incredibly hard to move on. I married him at 18 years old and have lived for him and my girls (who are now 12 and 24) for this whole time. I’m so heartbroken and sad, he already has a gf which he swears he just met but I do t believe him. He has cheated before and I thought I could get over it and trust him again but I guess I never fully did.
    I’m so lost I’m so many aspects: first of all, I still love him and had never been able to fully see my life without him.
    Second, I’m from another country, my whole family is there. He was why I lived here. For 22 years. I feel so alone. His family was truly my family since I got married so young and they have all written me off , he is a very spoiled man and in their eyes he can do no wrong so none of them have offered me any kind of support or even bothered to ask me if I’m ok. I feel so alone, I have friends but family is so important to me and now I have none around.
    Third, my girls are hurting. I can see it and it bothers me that he doesn’t at all seem to care. When he was about to move out, I found a notebook he had written in for months about what he would get out of moving out and it said: more freedom, more time to do what I want (mentioning hobbies like playing guitar , etc) and more money). It was so hurtful to see how he was basically thinking about it for that long .
    And lastly, he will not admit to anything , will not answer any questions I ask him about why and stuff. He says it’s all my fault, becaus I didn’t make him happy and didn’t treat him well enough .
    Im hurt, I feel like damaged goods, I’m angry at the betrayal and finally, I’m heart broken. He was such a huge part of my life, I don’t even know who I am without him. I know, it’s pretty pathetic but it’s true. I’ve never even been on a real date.
    I do t know how to move on, i feel overwhelming grief.
    Thank you for providing a place for me to let this out of my chest and sorry it’s such a long post.

    • Andrea

      Hi Julie, I’m so sorry for your pain!! It is a grieving process you need to go through to get through the fog! You need to concentrate on you and learn to love you again! I know it’s really hard but wasting your energy on him will just delay your healing!! ( I did this and do wish I’d not spent so much time worrying about him)! Join a group make some friends and find you again! When you’ve been in a relationship for so long we do lose a little bit of ourselves use this time to reinvent yourself and build a new life!! I promise I’m time you will get there!! Stay strong xxx

    • Sarah

      Hi Julie, I know how awful you are feeling at the moment as I am going through the same but without the children. Was with my husband for 20 years and married only 3.5 years ago. We both adored each other and he’d frequently tell me I was the love of his life and hoped he’d die first as he wouldn’t cope without me. Then suddenly in Oct 2017 he left. Said he wants to live on his own and that there’s no-one else. I think I believe him as he’s living with his parents but I don’t know if he’s depressed, having a mid-life crisis or it’s permanent! The pain we feel is almost unbearable and I think about him constantly from the minute I wake up to when I go bed and cannot believe our future is gone without even a fight. I don’t hate him at all as he’s a good person as he says he was lonely and wanted to do things with me but I prioritised other things before him. He says he just wants me to be happy and doesn’t want me to lose our home and is giving me everything and has even taken on a debt in his name so I can afford to stay here. He’s even giving me money each month to cover shortfall until I remortgage in my name only. I’m sure it’ll get easier in time for us both and I just live in hope that he’ll remember what we had together and thst the grass isn’t greener elsewhere. Maybe when he’s living on his own eventually, in a damp flat with hardly any furniture and none of his home comforts, thst he’ll think about what we had. I’ve changed myself, I wasn’t a bad person but just needed tweaking and now go to the gym and lost 2 stone ( which knocked him for six when he briefly saw me for half a second the other day and he couldn’t stop texting me thst week)! However he’s got his emotions back in check again now and we’re now back to radio silence. I wish I could give you words to make you feel better but I think time is the only thing we have and it’s time that will show us what our future will be. I think I will get to the point where I will say “ I don’t need you to be happy but I want you, so that we can make new memories together”. Who knows Julie, men are funny creatures.

  • DANIELLE

    Hello,

    I’m at a complete loss so I thought I would just write down how I get here. I was looking up support grounds for women that are left during pregnancy for another women and I found this site. My husband and I have been trying to have a baby for 2 years. We finally went and saw a fertility specialist and went through a procedure to get pregnant and it worked. I found out at 5 1/2 weeks pregnant that he was having an affair. He started the affair before we went through with the procedure. He left our house and had not returned. He is now living with his girlfriend and I’m 14 weeks pregnant, living in our house that I can’t afford and taking care of our two dogs. I’m trying so hard to put one foot in front of the other, but he takes her on all of these vacations, and just completely wrote me off. I don’t even know how to heal while I’m carrying his child and he is acting like I don’t matter af all. I guess I just wanted to tell people that I’m hurt, sad, devastated, angry, and so afraid that I will never come back from this.

    • Rosa

      Danielle I will pray for you! Please be strong for the beautiful life growing inside of you. Your husband is now blind and is not aware of what he is doing. Please it is not you but it is the weakness and emptiness in him. Please take courage and let God lead and protect you! God will guide you. Please let me know if I can help you. If you need someone to contact at any time let me know and I will send you my email.

      Gid bless you!

    • Julie

      Danielle
      I am so sorry you are going through this. I know the pain and stress of going through IVF treatment (unfortunately it didn’t work for me) and also the pain of my husband having an affair. The only thing I can say is to concentrate on that new life growing inside you. It is a blessing and will get you through your hardest days and give you a reason to get up in the morning. As to why our husbands do this to us, I have no idea. I struggle with that thought every day. Hang in there. You went through a lot to get pregnant and God has blessed you with this gift. Thinking of you xx

  • Lauren McCullough

    My husband separated from me suddenly without warning 4 months ago and started having a affair right away now he has moved her in and says he thinks he loves her… I am still in love with my husband and want to work on are marrige

    • Robin Grayson

      My husband of a year started staying out not coming home. He would be gone for a few days then back. Then he just came around during the day. I was told he is cheating he denies it. I then called local motels found a room in her name and he picked up the phone. He has not been home since. He tells me there is nobody else but I was told they have a place together. I told him if he wanted we could separate he has no. Today was the first day we had made no contact with me at all. I feel as my life has ended and I can not go on. Whybwill he not admit this? Why does he just leave me here wonderin? How do I get over all this pain and heartache?

  • Nadia

    I discovered in early December that my fiancé and partner of nearly 15 years has been having a relationship with a much younger woman (13 years) and plans to leave me for her. He has been telling her all the things he told me, in exactly the same terms, how perfect they are, how she completes him, how happy he will make her. He is narcissistic – I have realised over the years. He is all about power and appearance and how he is regarded. He wears the best suits, the best cufflinks, the best ties. He absolutely hates anyone to think badly of him. I became suspicious in September after hearing him on the phone. He got really angry and, with hindsight, he has been really angry with me for more than six months for no real reason. He has cheated before and he was angry then too. He is blaming me, saying it is all my fault because I never got over his previous affairs which were many years ago (those I know of). He says we should have split then, that it is all my fault, that he doesn’t love me anymore, that it is nothing to do with this woman but he just wants to be on his own and that he hasn’t been happy for eight years. This is such a shock. We just bought a new home and were so excited we danced around it. Their affair has been going on since we first moved in, it seems, and he has been planning to move her in and kick me out, all the while having be style and decorate it. I am utterly heartbroken. I can deal with the physical aspects but the emotional side is crippling me. He has told her he loves her, asked her to marry him, they are talking about having a child. He never wanted children with me. He has two grown up children and did not want anymore. He is now saying we never married as he had no intention of ever marrying me and “why did I think we had never gone through with it”. He says he wouldn’t have gone through with it. I feel I cannot function. He has been really nasty about our house saying he has paid more and he would rather see me in court and waste all the equity on legal fees than pay me my share. I have a lovely home, what I thought was a lovely fiancé who I adored and I thought we were happy – a bit boring maybe and stuck in a bit of a rut as we entered middle age but happy enough. I get on with his family, I have done so much for him and all the while he has been planning to kick me out and move in this young woman who is, herself, married and has not yet told her husband. Her husband doesn’t know. She just asked him to agree to a period of no contact so she can be sure of what she wants but he has bombarded her with loving messages telling her he will make her so happy, she is the one, they are perfect and that over the last 7 months they have, in fact, spent lots of time together, that they fell in love before anything physical happened and that it is real and perfect and he would wait for her till the end of time. I am at a loss as to what to do. I think he is having a mid-life crisis. I should have been different over his previous affairs. I should have either left or, in the end, got over them. I have, instead (and not realising) held them against him because he would not discuss them or really apologise or give me closure. And this has driven him away. I don’t know whether to email her to tell her he is a serial cheat and beg her to leave us alone, to warn her. If she tells him he will go mad and his rage is frightening me. If I don’t I suspect there is little chance she will choose her husband, given how infatuated she is with mine and given how much charm he is laying on. He is impossible to resist. I know I shouldn’t but I really want to give us a chance now we have actually gotten to the root of the issue and I can make some inroads into moving forwards. But he is acting like he hates my guts. He says he cannot bear when my name comes up on his phone as he knows I am going to go on at him. He has paid so little attention over the years, always putting his ambitions, work and himself first. It is devastating to feel that I do not know him at all and that he can have so little feeling for me after so long or, worse, to feel he actually hates me. He is so callous and cold I barely recognise him. I feel so isolated and lonely. I have spent so long waiting around for him to have a moment to spend with me that I see few other people. I have lost the opportunity to have children as he did not want them and he says he has been unhappy for years. Surely he should have told me if that was true, to give me chance to be happy with someone else. I am lost and alone and feel I will never cope without him, ever find happiness or meet someone else at this stage in my life. I am so desperate I just don’t know what to do.

    • Sasha

      Hey Nadia. These cheaters are in a realm of selfishness. You have done nothing wrong. Cheating is all about their own inadequatencies. Not yours! Please,as hard as it may seem, just concentrate on you. Let him go,and stop wondering about the why’s! I know it’s hard cause that’s exactly what I did. I made a conscious decision to cut him off immediately. No discussions, no begging, nothing! They talk about No contact on a lot of these sites. Done say 30 days others say 60….Well, I’ve been doing it for ten months,and it has been my saviour. I only communicate if it’s to do with our child. I learned to re love myself, get a job, pay the mortgage, bills, etc…..it’s very therapeutic.
      Nadia, your not alone….you really are strong….you put up with his BS over and over again. You deserve so much better. The egotistical narcissist gates being cut off. Because it’s always about them. Let me tell you, that dignity and self worth are valuable resources during these shitty times. Keep telling yourself you deserve better and get gawd his chance.
      My ex asked to speak to me just before Xmas,and told me he still loved me, missed me, our life, felt sad when he saw me, told me I was the best thing he ever had. I let him talk,and said nothing. Well nothing worth saying ….I told him to go home back to his OW. I felt liberated,and knew that although there was still some feelings there, there wasn’t enough for me to take him back…..hell im worth so much more. I may be 50, but my life deserves happiness…I will not be treated with such contempt…because he felt pissed that I never made him feel number one ( whatever!) karma has a funny way of turning up…..Nadia you deserve happiness, it may not arrive today, this month, this year….but that’s your time to work on you….hugs Hun

      • Nadia

        Oh Sasha, i am trying but I feel so bereft. I was content not to have a family because I loved him so much. But now he is not going to be in my life I am not sure how I feel about that and it is too late for me. And to know he is talking about children with her is just killing me. He is stringing me along, saying he is thinking about not leaving that he knows there is a lot to lose – he is only interested in the house and that I can take half of it. But all the while he is constantly messaging her, telling how wonderful she is, how much he loves and how nothing will change. I am driving myself mad with it. Is she so naive to think he is telling her only the truth? That we do not have sex? That we have not got along for years? yes we were boring but that was because he won’t ever take time out from his work. But he is lying to her repeatedly in their messages. About all sorts of inconsequential things. It is hardly the basis of a love story and a perfect relationship. I am so overwrought I can barely function. I haven’t eaten properly since I found out – at least I have lost some weight. I cannot concentrate. My work is suffering. I feel I am letting my colleague’s down although they are being so kind. But I have so few friends because I have spent the last fifteen years waiting around at his beck and call in case he had some spare time in the evening. I have tried to plan things with him in the evenings and weekends but his work always comes first. He now says he didn’t want to plan anything because he doesn’t enjoy spending time with me. I feel he jus recalling a different relationship! This is not the relationship I was in 🙁 I am so unhappy I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. I have loved him with all my heart since the day we met and to have him say I have not loved him, he hasn’t felt loved and that is why he has looked elsewhere is just more than I can bear. And to lose him to her and watch them marry and have a family so late in his life. He has abandoned so many women in his past. I really thought he had grown up at last. So did his family 🙁

        • sasha

          Nadia, I’m crying reading your response. I so feel for you. Can you block him from ringing or texting, change your phone. Why would he be texting you all those things? Cut him off ,now,because you won’t feel any worse than you do already. While he’s still contacting you everything is so raw for you. For me going no contact ( which I’ve maintained for nearly a year. Blocked his number from house phone,and mobile, however he can still text) was my salvation. I don’t want to know what he’s doing, and although in the early days it was hard,I did it for self preservation. Everything he says is to justify his decision to leave. Let him go Hun,and as hard as it is start rebuilding your life. Exercise is a great way to release that happy feeling. I know some will say fight for him, that’s down to you, but I think you need to concentrate on just you. You have done nothing wrong. He was lucky to have you. If he can’t see that now, he will in time. As for them talking about children, let them talk….he’s lying to you and lying to her…not a great start for them is it. My ex lied so much it made me think why I’d want a man like that in my life. They really are pathetic. I know you can do it…I’m rooting for you.. hugs xxxx

          • Nadia

            We are still in the same house. He is stalling because she hasn’t left her husband yet. They are in a stalemate. He isn’t texting he’s telling me these things and flaunting his affair under my nose it is just awful. And I have nobody. There seem to be no support groups near me. I am so alone.

      • Susan

        I’m also going through this,after 34 years ,mug husband is confused and says he has feelings for another women. Our marriage has endured difficult time,he’s a alcoholic in recovery,and gets close to other women in the groups,it’s not th3 first time he has done this,apparently an emotional affair ie except able for him,but not me.Hes destroyed our realatoinship countless times emotionally and financially,I always took him back and started over ,yet it’s like he doesn’t realize how many times I’ve bailed him out suffered in silence ,he’s says I’m the strong one ,well he made me strong for sure.The pain and hurt l8ke your carrying an anchor in your stomach is overwhelming,my 84 year old mom cry’s for him and can’t believe it,loves him more than her own son .Im more angry at myself for staying this long I’m 55 now and know I must let go as I will never be able to forgive him,I don’t feel anger like the other times ,just so very deeply hurt and simply depleated.

  • Donna Farmet

    After 20 years of marriage I was also cheated on. My husband was on dating sites while we were married and living our normal life together, sex and all. We had issues with our fiances at one time and he always complained about sex, either he wasnt getting enough or it wasnt satisfying enough. He says that it was always a chore for me. Keep in mind that we were having sex at least 3 times a week. He has always accused me of cheating, lying, etc.. We (I) was also raising 3 boys, worked a fulltime job, etc. Anyways we are now splitsville and he says it was all my fault. He says he chased me for 20 yrd and says something happened to him when he turned 50.. Any ideas on what is really going on here?

    • Rosa

      Hi Donna, I am so sorry to hear this. I tip on the famous mid life crisis. Same thing happened to me after 20 years of marriage. All I can say is that when a husband cheats on his wife he knows he is doing so wrong and in order to calm his guilt and bad conscioussness they blame their innocent spouse. I am going through the same as you. My husband blamed everything on me for his cheating. Please believe me. It is absolutely NOT your fault! I think that when a spouse commits adultery it is because they feel empty and have a great low self esteem and it shows how insecure and weak they are. I once heard that somehow they feel depressive and just cannt accept that they are growing old. When they don‘t have peace in their hearts this is what happens. Please don‘t ever put any blame on your self! It is them that have lost God in their heart. Pray and leave it in Gods hands. Never give up in praying!

      God bless you!!!!

  • Monika

    Hi Ladies,
    I’ve recently experienced my husband leaving me. We have a 5 year old daughter and 4 year old son. We were high school sweethearts and we’ve together for almost 18 years and married for 8 years. For the last few months he’s been so emotionally abusive towards me. I kept asking and asking what was wrong. Then he and the kids would start going on outings with his coworker and her kids. I didn’t think anything of it since she’s been to our house plenty of times. Then one day, I noticed the joy in his face when he said her name. I kept it in and finally one day I exploded and asked if he’s having an affair. He denied it. Well, on December 4th her husband went into her phone because also had his suspicions. He saw all the emails and texts. My husband finally told me that day. His plan was to tell me after Christmas so we could get through the holidays. He spent 2 weeks here and then I finally kicked him out. He was constantly on his phone. Not even paying attention to our children. I am so broken. I started seeing a therapist. I am ok one day and the next day I’m not. My focus is on the kids and my job (barely functioning). Ladies…this is so fresh- what kinds of things helped you cope. I am constantly thinking this woman is at his new apartment. Can’t grt it out of my mind.

    • Jord

      My husband left me a week before our anniversary. We had been together 8 years also… I’m 25 with our 5 year old.
      He is in the army and iv lived as a single girl and waited for him. In October he said he was leaving the army for me And his son and this where looking up.
      Beginning of Nov he met a 22 year old who is the female version of him apparently and began his 2nd life and affair.
      When he told me he was leaving me I begged him 2 admit it was for someone else. He swore on our son life there was no one else and lied and lied and lied. Eventually I had to hack into his snap chat… there she was there was the pictures.
      He had lied every time he said the army where making him work he was with her. He had even gone backward and forward on this Christmas leave to see her…. lying to everyone. He then told me boxing day he needed to be on his own so couldn’t see our son and was going back to camp… I believed him. Instead he went to a cabin in the woods in Cornwall…
      He hasn’t asked once how his son is. Hasn’t turned up when he should have to have him. He hiding with her. So I finally lost it with him and he now demanding when he sees our son. I have said he is 2 upset atm he need to make our son his priority and he can have him to his heart content. But atm he lied to much and put her over my son 2 much.
      8 years down the drain for a 22 year old has known 2 months.
      I am absolutely broken. And an absolute mess

  • Broken

    My alcoholic husband walked out on my children and I last night, yes on christmas day!! We have been together for 16 years, married only 4 years. We have two little girls that are 7 and 9.

    He originally walked out on December 8th to be with a 22 year old girl at his work, he was gone for almost two weeks. He came back on my birthday, December 21st, I think only because the guilt was hitting him hard and it was almost christmas. It was a really long hard few days while he was at home, he talked to the other girl constantly and of course that upset me. He couldn’t be here telling me that we are working on our marriage and still talk to her. He even left to take her to lunch on Christmas Eve. I tried to stay strong and encourage his interest in our marriage but obviously it wasn’t enough. I know a lot of the stories on here weren’t dealing with alcoholics so maybe my story is going to be different. As soon as we got back from having Christmas with his family last night be told me that he was sorry and that he couldn’t do it anymore. He was of course drunk, so he had to call the other woman to come pick him up. He didn’t take any of his stuff with him last night, which means he will be back for his stuff and his car. I am having a major problem standing up for myself, I want him to be here with us and don’t want to push him away, but he can not keep walking all over the girls and I. I have been a stay at home mom for the last 10 years, and recently started working part time at a preschool. Definitely do not make enough money to support myself and the girls. He hasn’t threatened taking money away from us or to stop paying the bills but i am still extremely scared for the future. How could he make a decision to walk away from everything we have built together the last 16 years? and for what? I know he doesn’t have responsibilities at her house, she probably doesn’t nag him about anything and he is obviously living in a fantasy world. I am so very broken and really just want this all to be over. Unfortunately i know it is going to take time, a very long time and that’s the last thing I have patience for right now.

  • Sad Jane

    I caught my Husband lying by chance on our first wedding anniversary and he tried to cover up with more lies. I tried hard to brainwash myself that everything he said was true that he did not have any affair, and continue living like with him for the next few weeks. I have also asked to check his phone, he did not allow saying that I would invade his privacy. He had been acting suspiciously. Few weeks of torment, I was unable to be myself. One day, I snoop his phone and caught him lying again. And that was the last chance I told myself. I suggested D and he agreed steadily, no sense of guilt or remorse. I was truly hurt, nine years of relationship ended and yet he could suggest me to go online dating. How did he become so heartless suddenly, am trying so hard everyday to move on but it’s so difficult. He was the one that I loved so deeply.

  • Trisha

    I’m reading all of your posts and it’s so heartbreaking.2 years ago my husband said he wanted to start seeing other people.We still live together.He’s been with several girls.One in particular is just like me in many ways and we look alike.Really strange.I still love my husband .He is bipolar and seems like he is never happy.I’ve tried to keep everything together.This last week I thought about ending my life and on top of that I have started to process what has really happened with everything.Divorce is too expensive and I can’t afford an attorney so I’m screwed.He has way more money than me.We have been married over 12 years.The pain hurts really really bad.Thank God we don’t have children.Just dogs.My life really feels like it’s over and I am only 39.I’m wondering if I can pull through Christmas coming up.

    • Emma

      Hello Trisha,
      I also read this post today and I just saw your comment. I can only imagine the pain you are going through. I know what it feels like to be so depressed that you want to kill yourself and I want to tell you please don’t do it. I know it’s what people always say and I am a stranger too you. But I know that there is always a glimpse of hope and I you can find a way out of this situation, even if you can’t see it right now. Are there any friends and family that you can stay with or get help from ? Perhaps you can find a way to make more money ? I’m sorry I live in the UK and things are different plus I’ve never been divorced but look into your options please try. Your life isn t over there always a way to move forward. Your husband also sounds like he may be classified as emotionally abusive so perhaps that could also be something that could be used to help you out of this situation in terms of receiving help from a organisation or something ? Maybe you could get a loan ? Sorry if none of my suggestions are helpful. I’m pretty young and I don’t have any experiance with divorce or marriage but I just had to say something because I felt horrible about the thought of you killing yourself. The world would be a darker place without you. You are meant to be in this world don’t let him take that away from you. Im sending love your way. I will be praying for you. I hope you can keep going and remain hopeful until you find a way out of this x. See if this article is helpful =

      http://www.oprah.com/relationships/what-to-do-when-you-cant-afford-a-divorce

  • Sasha

    Hi ladies it’s been afew months since I last commented. Working through anger, trying to get on with my life,and working hard to create a secure,supportive and nurturing home for my child to come home to, in all the chaos. As some of you know I went NC almost immediately and only communicate if it concerns our child. My ex rubbed our noses in his perfect new ,all singing and dancing relationship,and we simply have been muddling through. So it’s been 10 months and I’m doing pretty good most of the time. This weekend saw a massive shift. I texted my ex asking if he would like to open Xmas presents with our child Xmas day in the morning,and I would be happy to walk the dog,and let them have time. A couple of hours later ,he dropped our daughter off and wanted to speak to me. Firstly asking how I thought our child was doing,then telling me he’d never stop loving me,he thinks about me all the time,has felt sad,was desperate when I didn’t wish him well on his birthday,and wants to be sat back on our sofa. I told him it was unfortunate he felt that way,especially as he is living with OW,and it showed he had no respect for her either. ( not that she deserves any,but I will stay true to my self belief and at the end of the day she’s a human too). I guess I surprised myself. He kept hugging me ,trying to hold my hand,saying he hated the man I was with. ( erm, what man is that then.) I do love him, although I don’t think enough to want to go back. I’m grateful he was honest, however what he put us through,was sheer hell, and yes I take part of the blame for the way things ended. Perhaps I need to try harder,as I’d all but given up a couple of years prior…but I will not gloss over the bespicable way he treated us after we split. All because he was angry I’d checked out,and never fought for him. I know he would be back in a heart beat…..but I’m not sure it’s right,or would be any better. For now I’d like to think we can communicate and show a United front for our child.

  • Maria

    My 61 year old husband of 32 years recently married the 25 year old girl he started dating when we were still married. She is now 6 months pregnant. I can’t seem to accept this and forgiveness is so far from my mind at the moment. I really hope Karma keeps count of all a person’s wrongdoings. I have so much bitterness in me and I feel so lonely being on my own after being married for so long.
    Please help me

  • eve

    Hello, my husband just left me for another woman. We have 2 kids a 2 and 3 year old together. He comes to tell me now that we are on a family get away 100,000 miles away from home. I don’t know what to do with my self knowing my kids will not have a mommy and daddy home.. that another woman will be around my kids it’s seriously killing me right now… i love this man so much and specially love my family and to know we won’t have that anymore is completely breaking me.

    • Sasha

      Eve,do nothing. Even though your world is falling apart…do nothing. Let him go, say nothing and concentrate on your children. At the moment he’s in the throws of the affair…she will be on a pedestal,and he will rationalise his decision by thinking she’s the one. She isn’t! Leave him to work it out. As for your kids, I suggest you ask him to let the kids get use to him going before he introduces anyone to them. Most child experts say a year to get use to mum and dad splitting. If he loves his kids he will agree. I split with my partner ten months ago, only discussed our child and worked hard at getting on with things. It took him this long to decide he still loved me,wanted me,missed me…….only one problem now…..I’m not sure I want to go back with him. I never responded or gave him any idea of my thought, just listened to what he had to say. I know eventually he will be desperate,so I will let him stew in this thoughts….it’s hard,and you need to fill your time,but you have to make him miss you, reinvent yourself, when you see him,make sure you look your best….you can do it! Remember he has history with you,something he doesn’t have with her.

  • Katie

    My husband and I have been together 23 years, married for 21. We have 2 daughters, ages 16 and 14. I was completely blindsided 2 months ago when he said he was “bored” and wanted out. I thought we had a very good marriage, shared interests, shared social life and independent social life and hobbies too. I recently found out that he’s been having an affair with our younger daughter’s elementary school teacher. She has left her husband of 10 years to be with mine. She lives in our neighborhood and her children and my children have mutual friends. It’s like my husband has morphed into a completely different person and I don’t understand how he can be so selfish when he was previously so loving. I love the person that he used to be but despise the new version of him. It’s so difficult dealing with all of the various emotions and I’m feeling and dealing with his constant demands to go to mediation and split accounts, property, figure out what to do with the house, custody schedule, etc. I know divorce is common but had no idea how extremely difficult everything would be.

  • Brittany

    Hello, the last time I commented was around october when I left my story. After almost 9 years together and almost 8 years of marriage my husband and father of my soon to be 3 children that I thought was my soulmate left me for a 21 year old. This happening as I’m carrying our third child and home taking care of our other two babies while he is away in Ohio (we live in Arkansas) was painful betraying and heartbreaking to say the least. Well to this day he is still with her. I found out that he took her to north Carolina with him to his next job. This hurt as well considering when he first left her wouldn’t let the kids and I come with him but he is taking her on the road with him. And when we welcome our son in a few weeks he will be bringing her with him. He tells me that she will be apart of our kids lives weather I like it or not, something that I refuse to allow to happen but know that I have no choice. I Wanted to think it was the drugs and drinking (he was hooked on meth before leaving and I found it while we were visiting him) I wanted to believe it was these things that did all of this but it was him not loving me..at all..that did it. It hurts that he cares so much for her in their short time together and that I mean nothing at all to him. My heartbreak means nothing. I have tried so dang bad to move past it all but how is that even possible. Im struggling in more ways than one. I lost my apartment because he wouldn’t send me money, I’m going to raise 3 kids as a single mom making minimum wage (its $8.50 in At) I lost my husband, my kids lost their dad (he would rather stay on the road working then come home and uses the “I don’t know when its a good time to call” as his reasoning for never callimg them, and im going to have to deal with this woman being in my kids life. Im going through so much all the whilr he’s living happy and getting the life he always Wanted

  • Tina

    My husband and I have been together for almost 18 years and we have three sons. He asked for divorce back in March but never left the house. I kept trying to work on the marriage during this time and he kept telling me that he didn’t want to be married anymore, he didn’t want to be in a relationship, he just wanted to be by himself and wanted peace in his life because all we did was argue. He assured me over and over, promised me over and over that it wasn’t because of another woman. Well, I just recently found out that he had been talking and texting a woman for at least year-and-a-half, maybe even longer. When I found out I kicked him out of the house change the locks. He has been gone for 5 weeks now and I found out that he has been spending time with her, taking her out and sleeping over at her house. He says he doesn’t love her but he doesn’t say that he loves me either. I am devastated and heartbroken and so are my sons. He has shown No Remorse for what he has done and continue to see her. Oh and did I mention that the woman that he’s seen is the wife and now ex-wife of one of his best friends of almost 35 years. My two older son’s don’t want anything to do with him and he blames me for it. He blames me for the entire breakup of our family, he blames me for his cheating, he blames me for kicking him out the house and changing the locks, he blames me for everything! I want to hate him so bad but for some reason I love him and I want him back. I feel so stupid, I never thought I would be the woman that would accept a man to cheat on me until it happened. How do I cope and move on with my? How do I find peace and happiness, not just for myself but especially for my son?

    • Lala

      Men. I wanted mine back also, until a week ago when his new girlfriend contacted me to let me know how much he loves her and wants to be with her. I also found out he told her we separated 5 years ago, when it only happened 6 months ago. Also, he’s been seeing this woman for a while. Long before we ever split. My husband blames me for everything also. I don’t know why he just can’t “own it’. Own his part. Own what he’s done. Own the fact that he’s the reason this all happened. I don’t know why he won’t own it, but I’m not at all surprised either.

      I married this man twice. We separated 27 years ago. We remarried 26 years ago. Our first marriage lasted 10 years. The second, 25. I’m 59 years old. And now by biggest fear is that I’ll never love again.

      Here’s the thing, about going back. I did go back the first time around, but……there hadn’t been any cheating. No lies. No disrespect. We just had issues we couldn’t seem to resolve. I wouldn’t go back now, even though my heart feels as though it’s been ripped out of my chest, I cry all the time (and I have never ever been a crier), and I feel like my life is over. I miss him so much I can’t see. Well, let me rephrase: I miss the man I thought I knew. I miss a guy who no longer exist. I miss a guy that was always honest. I miss a guy that was caring. I miss a guy that would have done anything for me. I miss a guy who loved me and took care of me. This guy, the one I left 6 months ago, is not the guy I married, either time. This guy lies. This guy is sleeping with someone else.. This guy cares about someone else now. This guy is not a guy I want to be with.

      I guess what I’m trying to say is, no matter how much it hurts (and I know at times it’s so painful I question whether or not I even want to go on living) I wouldn’t want a man back that didn’t want me. I know, no matter what I’m feeling right now, no matter how horrible, that this pain will pass. It won’t pass as quick as I wan’t it to. I won’t ever even go away completely, but I wouldn’t want to be with someone who I stopped mattering to. Alone will be better. And at least alone I will, some day, want and have the opportunity to be with someone who I do matter to.

      • Tina

        Thank you for sharing your story and I’m so sorry you are going through a difficult time. My heart aches for you and I understand the pain.

        I’ve told my husband that his relationship with her will never last or have trust because it was built on lies, distrust and the problems & issues we had in our marriage and the problems & issues they had in their marriage. They both have insecurity issues and can’t tell the truth about anything. People are always telling me what comes around goes around and they will both get what’s coming to them. I wish it will happen sooner than later!

        I truly hope someday you can find happiness and love. I’ll be praying for you…..

  • Jackie

    My husband of 20 years left me. Moved to another country and now I’ve learned that he has another just after 2 weeks. He accidentally charged the his new life to my credit card and that is how I learned about it. We have no children because of other issues. Now it’s too late to start over for me. I really don’t know where to pick up myself. He says he wants to help me but it hurts so much. He says he loves her and that’s there is nothing I can do about it. It feels so unfair.

  • Hillary

    I have a heartbreaking story to tell. 15 yrs ago my husband cheated on my and impregnated this women. After months of back and forth I decided to work it out. She put him thru hell with his daughter those first years and I stood by his side. Fast forward 15 yrs. My life was good, just that morning we were talking of the future. That evening I was hit with the I dont love you, I feel nothing for you, I am no longer attracted to you. I grabbed his phone and read thru his messages and found he rekindled his relationship with her. He says that she has nothing to do with this, he has had these feelings for a long time and just started talking to her about 6 months ago. I asked him if there was any chance we can make this work and he looked at me with the most look of disgust on his face and said I can never touch you again. The heartache is unbearable. He is still living here in the house he said he is leaving after Christmas. I stopped working many years ago due to health problems and now the anxiety of trying to figure out how I am going to keep a roof over my kids heads is making me sick. i am not sure I will ever be the same after this. I put my whole heart and soul into this man and he has shattered me. He openly text and talks to her on the phone to, coming home from work he was on the phone with her. I feel foolish and my self esteem is gone.

  • Quanita Robert

    I have been married to my husband for 7 years. And he has pushed me out of our relationship to be with a younger women. We are both 29. I do have infertility problems I believe he left for that reason. We broke up a month again and now this woman comes around his family. When I tell you I am so hurt. I cry every single night. I didn’t know I had problems conceiving. I lost my best friend and my husband, he was everything to me. He just threw me away like a piece of trash. I don’t know how to stop crying, I don’t know what to do. I never thought this would happen to me. I’m so lonely and heartbroken. I miss him so much that it’s killing me inside. Sometimes I just feel like giving up on myself. What man is gonna want me with my infertility problems.

    • Cynthia

      Hi Quanita. I know this is hard to hear, but there are many men out there who do not desire to have children. I know, because my son is one of them. He looked for a woman who was professional and did not want children. He is very happy now with his wife. They travel and do so many things.
      My situation is devastating also. But I have been married 42 years, and who is going to want an old woman of 65 years old? I am so heartbroken. I am at a loss of what to do. I can’t stop crying. C.

    • Lynda

      The man who takes you As u are is a real man that deserves everything u offer. Your fertility is not the problem it’s your husband who has issues. My husband abandoned me and our 3 kids after 20 years together and watching your babies grieve their dad when they are innocent is devastating.i am 10 months post separation and still crying and shocked as to what happend and why. Just breath, look at all the stages of grief and don’t rush your recovery you get there when you get there. The heaviness in your heart will pass eventually. Stay strong you are and always will be the better person.

        • Lynda

          I think the pain and memory of it lingers and will for what feels like forever, but with time u get better at dealing with it. Until u find a new love it will never leave U. I hope u cry less each day, run a little further and fantasise how karma is going screw him over… that’s what makes me smile and friends who get angry for me.

    • Hanna

      I was 29 when my husband left me for another woman… I was 12 weeks pregnant with our second planned child he moved straight in with her then made me sell the family house so he could buy a bigger one with her. I understand your pain, the pain of betrayal and embarrassment and missing your best friend. But it gets easier and it wasn’t meant to be, start a fresh, be alone for a while and grieve the loss xoxo

        • Miya

          Everything in life happens for a reason and your ex husband did you a major favor by leaving you right now and not 10 years down the line. You are still young and as you said it is best that you enjoy YOUR OWN company which will lead you to become more independent. Years down the line you will mentally thank your ex for pushing you to be the person you are in the future. Life is full of obstacles but it really shapes you as a person. Best wishes!

  • Cynthia

    I am utterly devastated. Today my husband of 42 years told me he wants to leave our marrige and move in with another woman. This woman followed him in his band, and seduced him,
    . After only 2 months she wants my husband to live with her. She will take care of him she says. This is all after her husband left her a year ago. Supposedly she was depressed and now she is doing this to another woman. ME . She is a family wrecker. I cannot sleep and my chest aches. He is willing to throw away all we have been thru for a 2 month fling. How can that be? I do not understand. I want desperately to talk to someone but I have no one. I would never talk to family or out 2 grown children. I am embarrassed. I hurt so badly I want to end my life. What do I do?

    • Heather

      Oh my, this sounds like my story. My husband is living with her after only being with her 2 weeks, if that. I try to eat and it goes straight through me. I try to sleep and as soon as I close my eyes I picture what he’s doing with her, what he’s telling her, if he’s showing her things he showed me, letting her listen to music we listened to. I can’t do anything without thinking of him. I miss him, I miss us and I want him back so bad, even though I know I deserve better… I want him, my husband! I hate her for knowing that he’s married and it didn’t bother her. She’s 54 years old and he’s 30! I’m just so sick about all of this!

      • Cynthia

        Thank you all for replying and giving advice. I am totally amazed how many women are out there in my situation. Unfortuneately, it makes one feel not alone, but it doesn’t help the heavy heartache.I am still devastated and decided to go to the dr. yesterday when I had trouble breathing. My chest hurt so bad, and I hadn’t slept in 2 days. My ekg showed stress, my blood pressure was way up. I feel nauseous, the pain in my chest is so hurting. My head aches. I am not crying as much and I don’t know if that is good or bad. I just feel this heavy sadness that just won’t go away. I am thinking I am all cried out. My dr. ( a woman) thank God, was so incredibly understanding and caring. She gave me a list of therapists, but no one is interested or available. And what can she or anybody do but feel sorry for you?
        The HARDEST thing is I have is no one to talk to… a body sitting next to me to relate to. I try to get my husband to talk about it and he says adamantly he doesn’t want to talk about it. He/we decided to wait and “see what happens “ and reaccess in January. I don’t want to ruin our family’s holidays. How do I live? What to say? It is like things are normal, but there not. We are like just existing. I am walking on eggshells. He acts normal, but there is an absence of him….I don’t know how to say it. i have to cook Thanksgiving and part of our family is coming, and I don’t know how I will keep it together. I keep,asking myself, what is the right and what is the wrong thing to do? I want my husband to change his mind and stay, I love him so much, but this woman will continue to follow my husband’s band and “be there” unless he ends it. She is Satan tempting him the way I see it. I asked my husband how do I know if this will,happen again and he said you don’t . How am I supposed to,live with that? I said I would go to his band jobs, and he said no, he didn’t want to worry about a shit fight between me and her as he will be working. What does he expect me to do? At what point can I trust someone in the family and talk to someone about it. I thought about my brother in law. We are “ outlaws “ together and often groan and moan about family stuff, but I am afraid he will accidentally tell my husband’s sister. I am a talker and much need someone to listen and understand. I guess this is the best way for now. I have heard from so many caring people. But no one seems to know what to do or have an answer. Cause we are all devastated and don”t know what to do. My heart goes out to all of you in my situation. Cynthia

        • Dani

          Cynthia my heart aches for you. I think (as painful as it is) it is best if you move on from him. Let the family members know because if he is willing to leave you for her, they are bound to know one day anyways. Grief, cry, and feel the pain because once you endure all that emotions you will feel lighter in the future. Treat it as a death of your husband. If he was so easily persuaded by a women who he has known for a short time and is willing to throw away almost half a century of marriage then who is to say he won’t do that again in the future? Get on your two feet and move far away. Seek therapists that are willing to hear about your pain. Love is a beautiful thing but it can be so painful. Give yourself time to heal. Invest on your hobbies and YOURSELF. Surround yourself with your family and children. Life is short and you need to make the most of it. 2018 is approaching and you should mark that year as your new beginning. Make 2018 the year of Cynthia. Lots of love and please keep us updated.

      • Pained by divorce

        My husband of 17 years told me a month ago he wanted a divorce. The pain I feel is horrific. I cry every single day. He met a girl online in July. Once I found out, he stopped until mid October when he text her and started things up. A week later he asked for a divorce. I don’t know how anyone gets through this. We have 2 amazing children and they are devastated. All the paperwork is filed and we will be divorced in a few months. My world has been turned upside down.

    • Rosa

      Cynthia I am so sorry!!!!! Please don‘t doubt yourself! It‘s not you. Please keep in prayer. Believe me God is hurting for you. He feels your pain and despair. Please pray. God hears you and He will protect you. Your husband has been taken by sin and fell for temptation. Never forget, it is not you. Why are you embarressed? You have done no wrong!!! I feel your pain. I am going through this too and feelings of guilt and shame are wrong! You are faithful, have two wonderful children and you are a lovely mother!!! Please keep strong! Please don‘t give up. You are so prescious to God. Give your pain over to him. God is with you!! My prayers are for you. Gid bless and protect you!!!!

      • Julie

        I know your pain only too well and I am still living it every day. I am also undergoing cancer treatment at the same time. It is not you it is him. You have done nothing wrong. One breath, one second, one minute at a time. Whatever it takes. Some times I feel so angry and others so weak. Know this has absolutely nothing to do with you. It is his weakness not yours. It is hard I know but you are worth 20 of him.

        • Cynthia

          Hi Julie. Thank you for responding. I feel so sorry for you ! I can’t imagine being sick while going thru this devastation. I will pray for you. I went to the dr. yesterday. She called to check on me today. I just don’t want to live anymore. I am praying, but God is not answering me. I know I did nothing wrong. I keep telling myself that and that I am a good person. I feel so alone. C.

  • Heather

    My husband and I are from Louisiana, and in May we moved to Mississippi. September 30th was my husband and I one year wedding anniversary. October 25th I caught him talking dirty to his manager at work over the phone. When I questioned him about it, he blew up and yelled he wanted a divorce, out of the blue. He was adamant about me leaving. So on November 3rd, I came back to Louisiana alone. It is November 19th today and I’m just so lost. He calls me maybe once or twice a week from HER number but denies that he is with her! I don’t know if he thinks I’m stupid or what, but it’s obvious he left me for her. Keep in mind, he is 30 and she is 54. I know I deserve better, but I want him back. He tells me he doesn’t love me anymore and he wants a divorce, but deep down I don’t believe that’s what he really wants. He said the reason he wanted out was because I complained too much. His parents said he is just looking for an excuse. He doesn’t take responsibility for anything, everything is my fault. Again, I know I deserve better, but I want him back so bad. I’m so lost without him and my heart really hearts because of this. I’m just waiting for him to call and say he’s sorry and wants to work on things. I don’t know what to do anymore. We both changed each other’s lives. I had depression and social anxiety. Being with him helped me with all of that and I was able to get off my medication. When I met him, he was an alcoholic who his family didn’t want him around because he was always in and out of jail. When we got together, I changed his life because his drinking slowed down tremendously and he didn’t go back to jail in 3 years. His family was wanting him around, and he would do things with his family. They thanked me daily for saving his life! I just want our marriage back before she got into the picture.

  • Cyndi

    My husband left me for his co-worker after 10 years of marriage. I was completely blindsided and devastated. We tried to work it out for 3 months after I found out but he eventually chose her. I think he only tried for those 3 months because he was waiting for her to make her move because she too was married with 3 kids. We have an 8 year old son who is so hurt and angry now. He has major separation anxiety issues. It’s been 19 months that we have been separated and 11 months divorced but I still love him. But I also hate him. I question all the time what I did wrong, what does she have that I don’t? I don’t know how they both could have been so willing to hurt so many people and be selfish. My husband NEVER gave me a clue that anything was wrong, ever. As far as I was concerned we were fine, happy. It wasn’t a perfect marriage, of course, but it certainly wasn’t bad enough to warrant an affair or divorce. I think it’s my weight. I gained 70 lbs being with my husband in those 10 years and I think he just got grossed out by me. His mistress/now girlfriend is thin. How do I move forward and stop being so damn angry and bitter? Will he ever get his karma? They say that men always come back, well mine hasn’t and he probably never will. I’m just so disillusioned by love and trust.

    • Lynda

      Living it and trying to make sense of it. Exercise is the best revenge and it’s the best treatment for depression. So the 70 pounds u put on with him in your life should be the first you loose without him in your life. Just walk and then run, set mini goals and do it with your son. Share the adventure, join a running club, just try to get outside cause being home just allows you time to think about what u lost. I too am waiting for the karma bus to arrive but it must have broken down cause he not only stole my happiness but gave away my ever after as well. Thanks to FB they get to spread their love for all to see. Stay strong and can’t wait to hear when karma slaps him n the face

  • Jo

    My husband of 7 years (together for 20) started going to a gym class a while back and got really in to it. He talked a lot about the woman in the class and even occasionally they’d all go for a drink after their workout. Foolishly I trusted him only to be told recently that a girl 18 years his junior (he’s in his 40’s) had asked him on a date and instantly he was gone. He tells me that they haven’t actually been on a date yet but are emailing and texting each other but he thinks she could be the one.
    I’m devastated that me, our family, our future and future plans were so easily discarded. I’m questioning why I wasn’t enough, what a 25 year old would want in someone his age and fearful of mine and my families future. I’m disgusted in him and feel so angry at his selfishness and how shallow he has become. I know I’ll get through this but it’s so hard right now.

  • DEE

    My husband cheated on me 13 years ago, I forgave him and stood by his side. He had a baby with this women. Just the other day he informed me that he no longer loves me and doesn’t find me attractive. I found his phone and it confirmed for me he started another affair with this same women. He just earlier that day was talking about the future and bam I hate you. I am absolutely broken, the heart ache is more than I can bare. I have no job, no savings, I have nothing. How do I move on from here.

    • Jo

      Hi Dee – I feel your pain and betrayal. I’m in a similar situation myself and don’t know the answer to get through this – which I guess is why we’ve ended up on this website – looking for answers. Everyone says to be kind to yourself and that’s true, but I’m not even sure how to do that. I think what I have learned so far though is that it’s ok to be numb for a while. Not everything must be sorted right away and to just keep breathing in and out one day at a time. God bless.

  • Elize

    But how do you just stop loving the man that means the world to you.
    How do you let go off someone you cant live without?
    Even if he wants to try again I am so hurt. I cant trust and that is why I dont stop fighting.

  • James

    Hello I’m looking for advice on wondering if I’m doing the right thing. I filed for divorce and the initial hearing is in about a week. I’m a male 40 years old and my wife is 41. We have a daughter together and she will be 5 in December.
    We have been married for 11 years and it has not been a Rosy marriage. There have been issues of infidelity, absence from each other for extended periods, no willingness to forgive and move on even years after things occurred. Overall it has been a tumultuous relationship filled with turmoil and a lack of stability. She has never wanted to be a part of my family and her family I hardly even know is there in another country. Essentially it has been just me and her and our daughter.
    Throughout our marriage I have always worked a job that required longer hours and also through the marriage I have never forced her to work and she has willingly worked for about 2 years out of our total time together.
    About a year-and-a-half ago my wife went to Mexico to begin the process of repairing her mother’s house. Understandably this is going to be several months and in fact she did come back after 3 months of being away. She was here in the United States for about 2 months months then left to go back for an additional amount of 6 months which was not necessarily planned. After this time she came back and was here for about another 2 months and then she left again to still take care of unfinished business that was back there. This whole time I was taking care of my daughter and working hard to make a living to provide for her and for us. The last time that she left I’d had enough and filed for divorce. I wouldn’t say that just her being absent was the contributing cause but more so the feelings of abandonment loneliness and the lack of support and making our family a priority.
    In the end I’m not so convinced that divorce is the answer it every minute that I spend thinking about it I don’t ever see myself being happy with her.
    I feel like I’ve been used for the financial support through the marriage and that in the end that’s what has become the main focal point. During this last trip for her to Mexico I had met someone and had an affair that lasted about a month.
    Upon her return I broke all ties with this person and ever since she has been back she’s pleaded with me on a daily basis that she loves me and that she doesn’t want to get a divorce. I still feel compelled to divorce her as even though the Affair was short-lived it opened my eyes to how another life could be.
    I think that my biggest beef is that now that she is back her whole world is about our daughter whereas for the time that she was back in Mexico it was her choice to be there and to be away I’m not just her daughter but her husband as well.
    Perhaps this is wrong and I would be open to any viewpoints.

    • Rosa

      Hi James,

      I know how it feels when you are let down from your own spouse. All I can say is love is a choice and a comittment. You may now think that the grass is greener on the other side but it isn‘t. In every relationship there will be trials to take.You have a marriage and a family to save. Show your strength and honor your self by fighting for your family. Please try to work this out with your wife. Fight for what you believed in! Divorce is not the answer. Hapiness lies within you! Do not try to complete yourself by trying to find someone else. Please give your self and your family at least one last chance! Owe it to your wife, your beautiful daughter, your self and most of all to God who has blessed you with a family! Please find God and someone that can help you. Divorce and destroying a family is not the answer to be happy, believe me. Find your happiness in your self and fight for what you have chosen in the beggining… your wife and daughter!

      May God give you wisdom and help you in this very difficult moment. God bless you and your family…. and PLEASE don‘t give up!!!!

  • Brittany

    Hello all,
    My husband left for work in Ohio while our two kids and I remained in Arkansas. Things were good between us and then he stops all communication. Then a few weeks ago in, a text message no doubt, that things arent what we wanted them to be and that our relationship has grown toxic and unhealthy (only because of his drug problems before he left and the fact he stopped talking to me) and that we should be civil for our children and then two days later informs me that he has found someone that makes him happier, healthier and an all around better man. Really!! How can a 21 year old (he’s turning 29 december) that you barely know make you happier than the woman you share children with, that you have Shared so much with for almost 9 years together. Let me add that I’m 7 months pregnant with our third child so it made everything so much harder. Needless to say I have been trying to get him to come home before with me and the kids and be a family because we haven’t been together as a family since he left in may. And of course he ignores every text I send about us making it work and giving our marriage another chance instead of running away. Its all very hard to handle because we were always very happy and in love and then he started a drug problem around august of last year that I never even noticed. Apparently the drugs aren’t an issue anymore because he passed multiple drugs tests so he’s just a willing jerk that leaves his pregnant wife for a much younger woman with no responsibilities. And what made it worse is he’s going to be taking her on the road with him for work when he refused to take the kids and I with him on the road. Im the foolish woman that wants to have hope that since we shared so much and that since this woman holds no value as the mother of his children or heck for anything except for the fact she has a slim body and can go to the bar with him and won’t complain about his drinking, I want to have hope that he will miss me and change his mind. But considering he is wanting a divorce badly and not talking to me what so ever, I know I need to just move on and let go of this man that I love so much. I just don’t know how to because I want more than anything to keep my family together.

    • Rosa

      Brittany I am so sorry. Please keep in mind that it has nothing to do with you. The problem is in himself. A spouse that cheats shows a great weakness in him self and it is absolutely not you! Please keep strong, you have your beautiful children and soon you will be blessed with another child. Never forget that God is with you and He is protecting you. Keep strong in your prayers. Believe me God hears all your prayers and He will be with you ALWAYS. I feel your pain! My husband left me after 20 years of marriage for a girl half my age!!!
      You will make it because you are very precious and a wonderful mother.

      God bless you. My prayers are with you!

  • Barb

    My husband, one week after our 25th wedding anniversary, met me at the door while I was returning from a bridal shower of a friend’s daughter. He said I am divorcing you. I thought he was joking, as he had said the day before how much he loved me, and given me a video of our life together, 25 diamond bracelet, and even painted his toe nails ILUVMYWIFE. He said he hadn’t loved me in years, and was moving out. He left me for his mistress I had no idea about, but met her through one of my best friends. Apparently, he had been bad mouthing me to family, friends, and his over 100 employees for years. I am an educated woman with two professional degrees, and nobody said anything to me. Apparently I was an abusive alcoholic. He came back after a year, stayed for two months, left for his mistress (her third husband divorced her for her adultery) then begged for a second chance. I found out he continued seeing her for another eight months, until the day before she married her fourth husband.

    Husband blames me. My children, away at college during this time, said Dad had to leave because I was a liar.

    He says his cheating was 100 percent my fault. I have been periodically stalked by this woman. He also admitted to previous non-sexual dating with a few other women.

    How can I ever get my Trust back? Oh, yeah, the mistress followed us on vacation, and left a solid underpants in my beach bag.

  • Kate

    Last Wednesday after 7 years my husband told me that he can’t lie snymore and wants to leave me for another woman. We just moved out from our flat to save money and get a better one. I stayed with my sister he stayed with his mum. He ignored my calls and messages. However i suppouse to meet him today to finalise the financial side. I don’t feel strong enough to face this man. He was so cold and heartlessness over the phone.
    I feel drained and tired. I don’t know what to do.

    • Lynda

      Hi Kate , if u are not ready to meet with him don’t the money issues are not going any where and he can bloody wait. Get your strength and be brave, don’t be forced to do anything u are not sure about. Emotions can get in the way and u are most likely going to play nice cause u love him. He won’t, so be cautious. Get advice from someone u trust and even take them with u, he has a plan already (stupid one) so don’t let him decide what is best for u. I hate saying it but it really is just one day at a time and u will get better at dealing with it. Crying is what we do best and it’s a great way to release your emotions, stress and frustration. Sending u a big hug and know that I understand your pain.

  • Lynda

    Hi all, my story is not that different to all that I have read. What I need today is some courage to keep going. I am 9 months into my separation and having to say “my husband left me and our kids for someone else”. Still crying every day, I would love to hear about how you survive or how karma got justice for u.

    • Sasha

      Hi Lynda….it has been around eight months since we split,finding out afew weeks later he was cheating…my only grace was it was mutual. However, I think it’s hit me harder knowing he cheated… unless it’s about our child I have absolutely nothing to do with him. I went no contact pretty much immediately…as hard as it has been I decided to eat right, not ruminate and to take each day as it came. I went back to work which was a godsend,and although that horrible feeling in my stomach still rears its ugly head from time to time,I’m coping pretty well. He on the other hand isn’t doing too well. He moved in with trollop ( my affectionate name for the OW) and was eager for our child to meet her. He incensed me, but I tried to take it in my stride. He’s played dirty,but he just isn’t too bright. He’s threatened to stop paying all the maintenance….hasn’t happened because I very shrewdly photocopied all bank statements, savings statements,and all his other business dealings prior to him catching on,in the early weeks.
      I love the fact he knows nothing about my life,and yes he constantly asks about me to mutual friends ( those friends who you feel you can’t trust, just cut them off, saves time and people going behind your back)… he isn’t the man he was, he looks terrible, tells our child he still loves mum, and asks her if mum still loves him…he went through a phase of telling me what I had to pay for,trying to hold on to some kind of control, but I just let him Whitter on…..he’s tried to hug me,waves at me when he sees me in the car, has had me followed..I could go on,but one thing I have that he can never take away is my respect, pride and dignity. Yes I still love him, but not enough to want him back. We spend half our lives together,I championed his career, and was his biggest fan. I hope in time I can converse without looking at him with utter disgust. It’s sad really because he’s stuck with a woman who by all accounts he’s not happy with ( too many people are telling me, he moans about her, talks to her disrespectfully and is never seen with her in our village) and the fact he cheated and she knew he had a family, I’m guessing the trust issue will be a major part in their bullshit relationship. Karma works its magic and he got exactly what he deserved. The grass is never greener, life still gets in the way,and the excitement of the affair soon fades…and they are left with a shittier life, and having to stand on the edge,looking in on the wonderful family they had. And yes I’m guilty of making mistakes in the relationship, but I own them, learn from it, ready to meet someone special who thoroughly deserves me… chin up babe, we will get through it,and in time thank our lucky stars.xxx

      • Lynda

        Thank u, I think what pulls me down a lot is the fact that he did wrong but refuses to have anything to do with me cause it’s too uncomfortable for him. He posts how happy he is on FB with the SLAG (OW) and only gives 4 hrs every second week to his kids, lives with hers as she has them every second week. Broke her marriage up so she could destroy my and steal my husband. There is no co-parenting as he refuses to communicate with me and then it’s only via text or email, which is always about money. Which he never has apparently but goes out every weekend drinking. I am glad u have your life in order, good luck finding a real man who deserves u

        • Sasha

          HEY Lynda…hope your ok. I wish my ex would stick to access times. I’ve been very fair ,he sees her mon,wed,fri,and every other weekend on the Friday overnight. Just wish he would stick to it. He’s at our house daily waiting outside to take her to school,or turns up beeping his horn for her to come out…every day is a nightmare. He texts her about twenty times a day, rings all the time. I don’t say anything,but my 13 year old says it’s too much. She would never say anything because she wouldn’t want to upset him,but I see her frustration. I feel for her,and him, because I know he misses his old life…but everything he has done over the last several months have shown me just what a pathetic piece of shit he really is. He thought his life would be better, well from where I’m standing it’s pretty sad. He lives with a trollop who looks about 60 yet is younger than me. ( have to say that made me feel great when I saw just how low his standards had got), a woman who cheated with her best friends partner whilst married, a woman who took her child on a date with another man,whilst she was married,I’d say he met his match…and I laugh to myself every time I think about it. He took away his right to co parent when he treated us so shoddily….after what he put our child through,I’m not sure I even want any kind of relationship with him ….yes it’s hard, but realise one thing, when the dust settles,and they realise just what they have lost, the only looser is them…..in every sense of the word….

  • Annie

    My husband of 24 years left last sept on my birthday – he said the usual I need to be alone figure out what I want I’m not in love with you anymore!! Nine weeks later I found out he had been having an affair with a 32 yr coworker (16 years younger) ! I was devastated , when I found out she decided he wasn’t what she wanted and had no more comtact! He on the other hand lived the single life to the full! He now says he’s moving in with a woman he’s known a few months!! Total opposite of me and totally the opposite of what he would have found attractive! He tells me he’s no money yet I know he’s taken her on two holidays abroad, weekends away etc!! So hurtful he has now distanced himself even more even from our three children! I was doing ok getting stronger but since finding out this latest bomb drop I feel just awful again ( diahorroea appetite loss insomnia ) I’m so disappointed I e let it affect me this way and really do want to move on! I would like an apology from him for all the hurt he’s caused and for him to show al least some remorse! Am I being unreasonable? Thanks Annie

  • Julie

    Hello. Well my story is a doozy as well. Second marriages for both my husband and I. We met in 2001 and married in 2003. Had our ups and downs over the years like everybody else. He runs his own business which involves night shifts. He has had this for 20 years. Over the years we have drifted further apart – sleeping in different rooms because of his shifts and I’m a light sleeper. Soon it became a permanent thing. In late 2013 he was so distant that I asked him what was wrong. He said he wasn’t happy and wanted to go. I begged him to stay to try and work things out but we fell into the same old routine. My resentment built of him putting everyone and everything before me. In late 2013 my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer so the next 8 months all my time was taken up with her before her death in August 2014. My father then became ill and died 3 months after that in 2014. My grief was huge as I was the one who had to handle everything. Fast forward to March 2016 and I knew my marriage was in trouble. Spoke to husband who again said he was unhappy. Tried everything I could to get things back on track but he just wasn’t responding. In February and March this year both his parents died. A month later after that I discovered he had been cheating on me with an employee for the last 2 years. I never thought he would do it as ex-wife and ex-fiancée had done it to him. His mistress has broken up with him 5 or 6 times in that period because he wouldn’t leave me. Apparently she has Parkinson’s and wanted to concentrate on her health and family. He agreed to try and sort things out with me (no promises he said) and all was going reasonably well until I was diagnosed with cancer in August. There were many weeks of tests before my diagnosis and my mind was on my health naturally. I have to have out of state treatment and his reluctance to accompany me at times was confirmed last week that he is seeing her again. He ‘loves’ her with such intensity he says that he thinks about her all the time. He is completely obsessed. She is the female version of him so he says. From what I can gather she initiated contact again but who really knows. He says I wasn’t supposed to find out about it until after my treatment had finished. I am gutted. I love this man with all my heart but what sort of person could see another person when his wife is having cancer treatment in another state? He says he wants to continue supporting me through my treatment. He hasn’t told her that I know because he doesn’t want any pressure from her. My heart is broken beyond belief. I am sitting in the airport with him waiting for my flight wondering what the hell I’m doing. I feel so weak to not give him the boot and get on with my life. He is being so nice to me and hiring a car and saying we will go to the places I said I wanted to go. This whole situation is so screwed up. Why should I be the one to tell him to go. If he wants to go he should go but doesn’t want to look to be the bad guy. I have him physically but she has his heart. I am so tired by my treatment. Part of me wants him to stay as I somehow still love him and the other says just go. I know he will still be seeing her behind my back. So sad angry hurt. Stop the world so want to get off. 😢😢

    • Kim

      Oh Julie I am so sorry for your predicament, the last thing you need when you are battling cancer is the stress of having your husband behaving like this. Not sure what to advise, you sure as hell don’t want him to stay through pity when he wants to be elsewhere, but I know its not a good time to face the big trauma of other life changing event. Don’t know what it is with men and wanting to look good while doing bad things. I really hope things turn out ok for you and really hope you get the all clear very soon with the treatment. My husband texted me about his affair being made official two days after he knew my best friend had been diagnosed with stage four cancer. Amazingly she has been the one that propped me up. Got everything crossed for you be brave xx

  • Patrice Dalton

    After 18 years and 2 children and many affairs (On my husband’s part), finally one of the affairs stuck and he is now choosing her over our family. I am lost at this moment and can’t seem to get through the grieving process. I feel stuck and angry that he has the comfort of this woman to help him cope with the loss of our marriage while I just have myself. I know that it will all get easier with time but getting through it is harder than I imagined. As a mother I have to get up every morning, go to work, get kids ready for school and pretend that every thing is ok when I constantly have to fight back tears most of the day. I really just want to get away, start new but that’s not an option right now. Not sure what I’ll do to begin to heal but I know I have to do some something.

    • Colleen

      I am going through the same thing, my husband left me 3 weeks ago and told me and our 2 kids that he has a girlfriend that he met in August but did not start going out with her until he moved out. I have been with him for 21 years married for 7. i was a teenager and i am devastated. I do not know how to go on. The thought of him with another woman makes me sick to my stomach every minute of everyday. I like you have to get up every day and go to work and take care of my kids but most mornings I do not want to get out of bed 🙁

      • Patrice D Dalton

        I am sad that you are going through that because I know how hard it is. I just keep telling myself that I will get through this and am taking it one day at a time.

      • Rosa

        I so truely unterstand you! I am going through the same thing. After 20 years of marriage and being together for 23 years my husband left me for a very young girl that is only a few years older than our son of 17. It is a year now and I know all the pain and anger you are going through. It takes the light out of your soul and you just cannot believe what on earth happened to your husband. He seems to be a total stranger and sometimes I think an alien must habe replaced him with a very bad copy. You may not believe me now but please keep strong, the hurt and pain will be groe less with time. Don‘t do the huge mistake in trying to search the blame in you. Husbands who cheat have lost a true heart. They are lost in complete selfishness. It is a problem they have within. It is not you. May God aleays be with you and God bless you!

  • MLP

    My husband of 27 years has moved in with his mistress. Her name is Karma. I hate that word. He also has another girlfriend on the side. But Karma is his supposed soulmate because they do lots of threesones and group sex and controlled gang banging. I’m a Mormon. I am so very heartbroken. Five kids including an anorexic daughter desperate for him to come back. I can’t sleep or eat. It’s been 8 months since d-day. Does it ever ever ever get batter?

  • Aaisha

    Hi,

    I’m trying to come to terms with my husband walking out on me. My story is so complicated I just don’t understand himand his leaving at all, as we had everything in life and a man who has everything can still do this???

    I am 29 years old, I have a masters degree from london school of economics, I have a very successful online business. We got married in 2011, my husband who I have known my whole life, has a degree in psychology, which my parents paid for his education. So naturally we all believe him when he says he is a psychologist in Charing Cross hospital with a 30k a year job. At this time I had just finished my masters. We got married in 2011. My husband has OCD and never liked me to move his things or open his post or put his clothes away after washing and ironing. I didn’t think anything of it as it was from the very beginning of our marriage and of course I trusted him because I have known him my whole life. (So recently I find out that he was never a psychologist and for the past 9 years he has been a kitchen assistant barely making 15k a year. Remember I never looked through his post or his bank statements . Please carry on reading there is a whole lot worse )

    So we were living in a very small flat in 2011, my business was doing well. I made enough money in one year to a buy a 4 bed semi detached house in south london. So in April 2012, we purchased the house. The mortgage was under my name only, as my husband said to me that we just wanted a decent house not over the top and there was no need for us to get the maximum we could, so he didn’t apply for more than only what I could get. The house was also only put under my name because he told me, it was all my money so it just made sense and that he trusts me with everything. So I’m paying the mortgage and all the bills whilst he’s not paying anything. In June I get pregnant with our son, he was born in march 2013, unfortunately he was born deaf and therefore had a lot of hospital appointments with heating aid fittings and cochlear implant reviews. Now his appointments were in Birmingham because that’s where he was born as I was with my parents when he was born, so we decided to keep all his medical needs in Birmingham because the centre for his hearing impairment was one of the best in the country. This meant that I had to be in Birmingham a lot with our son whilst my husband was in london and his job ( as a kitchen assistant but told me a psychologist), then unfortunately another tragedy occurred in our family and in January 2015 my husbands brother was shot dead and we now had responsibility of his parents and his brothers wife and kids. I completely understood the situation and was fine with my husband supporting them financially as I was okay supporting us in london. He started going to his parents country every few months leaving me and my son for 3/4 months at a time. I started arguing that His parents can come to us but I can’t do this all my life, I’m exhausted doing everything and that they have no need to live there when they can simply move here, my son has medical needs so I can’t move. My husband always refused. I tried everything to get my son to talk, but wasn’t advised that he best thing for him to learn quicker would be to have a sibling, so we decided to try for another baby, baby was born in march 2017, she was healthy, hearing and I was so happy. I had the son and daughter I always wanted. She was 3 days old and I was in hospital with infections from the birth because of a complicated after delivery with the placenta. My husband left saying he couldn’t get paternity leave and he really needed the money to support his parents back home. I again was understanding even though I was not able to recover. I again decided to stay with my parents. Because I could not do it alone. My son at the same time was starting special needs school as he had also been diagnosed with autism as well as being deaf. I felt iverwhelmed and alone with 2 children despite being married. But still I was selfless and thought he needed the money. My husband then told me 3 weeks after the baby was born that he is going back home to his parents for 3 weeks. We argued, I said you couldn’t get time off for me and the kids but you managed to get 3 weeks to go back home. He went. He called everyday, we argued a lot. I was stressed and he was absent. So on his birthday 7th may, he was still with his parents and I got an email from a hotel, he had spent a night there. I was shocked as they have a house 10 Minuted from the hotel so what was the need. I sent him a text saying I know you were with someone else. He sent me a text saying he couldn’t believe I could gunk such a thing and send him such a text on his birthday. I felt so bad. He switched his phone off from me and told me there was no way I would be able to contact him, he will only call me when he felt like it. This angered me, made me so depressed as I had just had a bayby and made me sleep deprived which affected my kids as I wasn’t able to be there for them I was so tired. My husband returned to london on 22nd may, he did not come home, he didn’t even tell us he was back. He never answered my calls and one day he came to get his car stayed and left. and brother got so fed up of my husbands behaviour so he started trying to find him, he found him parked outside a house about 1 mile from our london house, he stayed in the car all night, my husband came out with a woman. My brother had a fist fight with my husband, police were called, there’s an ongoing court case. Later that night my brother said you bought him that Mercedes and he’s using it to impress other women let’s take it back, we took it back as I had the other set of keys. In it we found the other woman’s name, Mrs… she was also married. We googled her and yes she was married with 3 kids. So my husband was having an affair with s married woman with 3 kids who is 35 years old and has no education. So she is older than me, she had no business and no education. Also, I know I am not miss universe but she is uglier than me. Anyway, after finding this out, my brother decided to change the locks of our london house, so I did. After I changed the locks my husband decided to contact his cousin who also lives in london, as he had nowhere else to go. His cousins wife contacted me, after he fed them the wrong story to hear my side of the story, I told them and they believed me, he told them that the girl was his patient, and she was a suicide case he was helping her. (Remember he’s not a doctor, he’s just told that to everyone, he’s a kitchen assistant), so his cousin then called around mutual friends to see if anyone knew what my husband was up to and he found out that my husband also has another wife in his country with another child. Who was born in 2014, a year after my son was born. Now this is illegal, but because the other wife is in a different country it is not enforceable in the uk. I was even more depressed. My son was born with so many problems and my husband was sleeping around so he had gotten some air hostess pregnant and had to marry her. Who also is older than me. She is 40 and is very bad looking. So he has a wife and child in pakistan and a mistress in london who is also married with 3 kids and also has a Pizza Hut delivery guy as a boyfriend and has my husband too. My husband is currently unteachable. The phone number I have is always switched off. It’s been 4 months and he is with his london mistress. She has told my husband she won’t be divorcing her husband. My husband still hasn’t filed for divorce and my lawyers advise me to wait for him to do it. But it’s been 4 months and he hasn’t. I have also found out from his real place of work that he hasn’t worked there for 6 months, so when the baby was born he was unemployed but still never stayed to help me with the kids. What kind of person does this?

    My question is we had everything, why throw it all way for places where he knows is nothing, why have another wife without leaving me first, why did he come back after he married the other woman, why not leave then or leave after he had the child with her, why have another baby with me?? Why mess me up so badly, why not leave me first. Why have s mistress when I was pregnant with our second child. Why not be their for the kids while I was not well??? Also what kind of women marry a man who they know is married with a disabled child?? Knowing she is a second wife??? What kind of woman becomes a mistress knowing he is married and he knew she was married too with 3 kids. What kind of people ruin so many lives???

    So long I’m sorry. There so much more I could write but it’s so messed up I don’t understand any of what my husband has done to our little family!

    • Fallon

      Hi Aaisha, Your story is so moving. It’s terrible. He has absolutely no heart and soul and unfortunately in the case of the other women, if they knew about hour situation, like attracts like. He is not the man that you thought that you knew. Now that you know this, know in your heart that you didn’t do anything wrong or deserved this in any way. Because he probably feels like such a failure in life, he made so many poor self sabotaging choices and dug himself in deeper and deeper holes in the process. He ended up with a less attractive woman. Inside and out because again, he attracted someone who he felt was more on his level. You and the children are so above and beyond this man and his sociopathic behavior. I hope that your heart heals quickly and you are able to get pass this pain quickly for the sake of yourself and the children.

      • Aaisha Shafi

        Thank you for taking the time to read my story. I’m trying my hardest to the best for my kids but I have days I just can’t cope.

  • Laurie Post author

    Thank you for being here, and sharing how difficult it is to cope when your husband leaves you for someone else. It’s a betrayal and a heartbreak that isn’t easily overcome. But, you know what? You can and will overcome this.

    Allow yourself to experience feelings that you have. Your responses to your husband’s departure are normal and natural. You may wish that you could respond differently, and say and do things in different ways… But you have to allow yourself freedom and forgiveness. This is the first time you’ve experienced something this traumatic, so you are learning how to be, what to do, and what to say.

    Be gentle with yourself. Be kind, and take good care of yourself. Know that this is happening for a reason, and that everything will turn out fine in the end. In fact, things may turn out to be better you ever imagine.

    Blessings,

    Laurie

  • Fallon Wilson

    Hi ladies,
    Wanted to add.. watch as many episodes odf snapped just as a reminder to how far a man can take you and where you absolutely do not want to end up doing. Read women who love too much and how to build a second skin for your soul. Time is without question the best solution, the events that you held and pined about and dissected will eventually subside. Time to whittle down your inner circle to only those people who are empathetic and team you. You are fragile enough now. If I think of anymore pointers, I’ll add. Keep strong and carry on. Xo

  • Fallon Wilson

    Hello ladies,
    I stumbled somehow on this site looking for reasons why men leave good women for other women. I looked within myself recently and felt some sort of relief by saying it was my karma for killing a butterfly in second grade and other nonsense. Just to have an answer!! Anything to justify why I had been dumped. This goes to show that until you release this pain and come to a closure within yourself, you will continue to confront these issues in the next relationships as well. The saying, everything is a lesson or a blessing.
    I met the absolute love of my life, got pregnant, had a beautiful baby boy born prematurely because of complications and I’m sure because of the stress I experienced throughout that entire time with my ex. He wanted me to have an abortion, dumped me, left me on the side of the road.. my heart bled. He left for this woman that I put in my head was better than me, why else would he desert me like that. I had zero self esteem. To not make this into a novel, our son died. He wasn’t there to comfort me at all. Spent the night of our son’s death with his new woman while my breast leaked milk. Devastating beyond belief. His family forced him to attend the funeral. Longer story shorter, forward two years later, my ex overdosed and died. It still left so many open wounds because I never was able to get closure within myself as to why he treated me that way and more importantly, why did I allow it. I wanted him and loved him more than anything. That feeling was so powerful and I don’t wish that upon anyone. My grief is ongoing but was able to meet a new man with similar behavior.. until it’s put to bed, it’ll re occur. What I can give you ladies in terms of hope is that YOU WILL live to see karma. It may come in the form of what you will see or hear happens to him and her, (even though you do not wish his upon them) or you will see good karma come into your own lives if you let it. Good karma for yourself by not seeking revenge but by being a lady with your head held high. They are beneath you and don’t deserve your tears. Release the pain through them for now but your good karma will come in the form of peace of mind. There is absolutely no better feeling. Bless you all!

    • Sasha

      THAnkyou for sharing….I’m six months down the road. My ex has literally rubbed mine and our child’s nose through his disgusting life. as hard as I might I’d say I managed to stay calm 90% of the time. 2 weeks after splitting he asked our daughter to meet her, seven weeks later he moved in with her ( love story of the century), happy to blame me for the apparent shit relationship we had of 22 years. He’s taken her to our holiday home, weekends away,I’m sure we all know the score…..I went no contact pretty soon after the split,difficult when you have to talk regarding your child. He’s stalked me, asked many friends about me, came to the house demanding that I not see any men or bring them in the house ( I told him not to judge me by his standards), tried to manipulate our child by putting pressure on her to meet the OW, manipulated a situation where the OW turned up whilst he took our daughter on holiday abroad….. Any respect or love I had for this man went a long time ago. I pity him and his life, but during the last six months I’ve returned to employment, brought a new car,connected with old and new friends and day by day life gets that bit better. Just recently he seems to have done a complete u turn. When I handed him the car back he brought for me before the split, the look on his face was worth the wait. The man who constantly told me I had to pay him for the use of it,decided I could keep driving it, …well he was too late, so now he’s lumbered with a car he has to pay for. When I discussed the mortgage and said I needed to let the mortgage company know, he begged me not to….I felt quite sorry for him actually. He even tried to hug me,which was uncomfortable to say the least….and I still see karma working. Only the other day he to,d our daughter he still loved me and always would as I was the mother of his child. When she asked if he loved the new woman he said she was alright…..when he picks our daughter up he always tries to converse or grab a peak. Is he happy, he’ll no….am I happy- day by day I laugh more, smile more….cheaters deserve every crappy thing they get coming to them…ladies, don’t waste time worrying , I see a shell of a man who has lost many friends along this journey, who is stuck in a relationship where both thought nothing of cheating.id say the karma bus is riding over them daily……ladies and gents…never go back to the chest. They had you once,and didn’t realise just how good they had it.

      • Fallon Wilson

        Hi,
        Of course hindsight is 20/20. In the moment one becomes blinded by rage, pain, hurt, low self worth and endless questions. Woulda coulda shoulda. Obsessions to their so called new perfect romance. It’s all a facade that years down the line you do finally see clearly. That’s the hard part, it takes time. If only you tell yourself daily or remind yourself when you were betrayed in the past, how now you don’t even remember the details and that story and the persons involved are the least of your worries and the last person to partake in any of your thoughts hopes and dreams. That day will come!! These people will live to see and understand the grave mistakes that they have made and evidently the person that they lost will never return. Even if you do return by some fate, it’ll never be the same and you will find strength in knowing that he will never control your heart again. He will begin to make your skin crawl. You will loose all respect for that POS. You will see her little more than a piece of trash that “took” this man away from you but is he even a man? He isn’t. She is a POC and her self esteem believe or not is even lower than what you think yours is. You know why? Because she is a beggar and beggars can’t be choosers. If she could choose, wouldn’t she choose an upstanding single man or stay with her husband and have a moral caliber worth something? Think about it. These people are garbage. Your life will again have smiles and laughs and love. Not a facade. Hang in there. Xo

      • Colleen

        I am struggling right now. my husband left me 3 weeks ago and told me and our 2 kids that he has a girlfriend that he met in August but did not start going out with her until he moved out. The day he told my kids about her (ages 5 and 12) he said he wants them to meet her. My daughter (age 12) refuses and said if she is around she will not be and he has to make a choice. she has always been a daddies girl but i’m certain he is going to ruin that. I have been with him for 21 years married for 7. i was a teenager and i am devastated. I do not know how to go on. The thought of him with another woman makes me sick to my stomach every minute of everyday.

        • SAsha

          Hi Colleen,your story is identical to mine,and yes I went through so many emotions but the one thing I knew was I would NEVER forgive him for the way he treated our 12 year old. She was a daddy’s girl too. Two weeks after the split he wanted to introduce his trollop,five weeks later he took her to our holiday home, and several weeks later moved in with her. The pain of watching my daughter so upset,made me turn into warrior mom! I went NC almost immediately,wouldn’t engage in any kind of conversation with him unless it was about our daughter. And then something happened….I grew balls! I found a job, started connecting with other people, made more time for our daughter…quality time. I made sure that every time I left I the house I looked the best I possibly could. He on the other hand was asking everyone and anyone about me,asking about me, turning up at the house for silly things, following me in the car……I just totally ignored the behaviour. And god I can see the madness in him. He looks like sh**t, has put on more weight,and has started moaning about the OW….(people are only too happy to tell me). Now during the last seven months he has moaned about money, told me I had to pay for the car he got me…..my answer was to buy my own and hand him the other back…his face was a picture,and I’m not ashamed to say it gave me great satisfaction. So he’s having to pay half the mortgage,pay for two cars,give trollop money to live with her…..I see karma working every day. Only last week he told our daughter he still loved me cause I’m mom,and when she asked about if he loved the OW,he said she was alright! I think of him less and less,and after 20 something years together,I’d say I’m on the right track. We never argued but did get in a rut. What I’ve learned is I’m a strong woman who realises her worth,and I will never go back. I also know that I should have paid more attention, but hey,I can use that for the next relationship. I don’t wish him malice but then again I don’t care what happens to him. All I do know is I see the regret,this man who recently tried to hug me (uncomfortable or what),is desperate to have even a little part of me in his life…well that isn’t happening any time soon. Stick with filling your time Colleen…don’t ruminate,that sh**t just stops you from moving on…and enjoy your kids,because they are the ones that will keep you sane! Good luck Hun. X

  • Jane K

    My husband travels for work, he takes his Viagra with him. He tells me that his medicine is not my business. Sometimes he doesn’t answer my calls for hours and its always that his phone is shut down or the battery is low. He taunts me too, like when I peek at his phone, the phone history is up and waiting for me to see that he deleted my missed calls. He told me that I would never catch him because he is smarter than me. The last straw was when he came home and insisted on doing his own laundry, the first time in 12 years. His father ran around all the time and I know that history repeats itself but he always assured me that he felt sorry for his mother and would never do that. I realized that I know nothing about him other than what he tells me. He could be with underage girls or young boys for all I know. Its so hard on me right now because I feel so scared and alone. i also feel hollow and stupid for letting this go on for so long, and embarrassed to face people, to tell them that he is gone. I wish that I never married this POS and fell for the story that he gave me.

  • DASmith

    I understand how painful it is to live in a marriage with a partner who chests and lies. Over several years, my ex husband cheated many times with different women. There was always the underlying feeling that he was with me only until he could find someone better. I was never enough. We had two children together, and my daughter from my first marriage. We dated for 9 years, while I raised my daughter. After about 8 years together, I broke off from the relationship and moved away. I got grant money to go back to school, found work. I kept my own place and have always been strong independently. I think he liked me better that way, than when I had to depend on him in our marriage. He drove 5 hours almost every other weekend to be with me, and eventually proposed. At first I hesitated, and said we need to talk. He talked me into moving back home, and wanted to live together. After we talked, our understandings seemed mutual. We became pregnant with our now 27 year old daughter, and got married. We had our son 2 years later. I didn’t go back to school full time like I had planned. After a total of 25 years together, he finally met someone, and left me. There were a lot of lies & cheating over the 16 years we were married. I wasn’t sure if I could trust him anymore. I was angry a lot, and hurt. Raising 3 children, holding down a busy career and keeping everything going by myself at home felt like a three ring circus. His announcement that he “met someone he wanted to pursue a relationship with” came two weeks before Christmas. He moved out that weekend. I found out later how much pornogrophy he was watching. No wonder I was never enough, I was compared with and expected to live up to what he was watching.. I discovered a while box of videos!
    He used to tell he wanted me to earn more money. I was only bringing in about $40k a year because I chose to work part time so I could take care of our children. They were active in various Sports that kept me running! My husband at that time made $120k a year. But he still thought I should be making more… Maybe if I’d have finished my education!! As our marriage ended he told me that he did the “honorable” thing when he married me… My response was, Huh? You know, he married me because I was pregnant! He did his honorable thing, he wanted out now! I reminded him we were together more than 8 years, and were already engaged and living together when we conceived her. He got angry and yelled a lot arguing my point, and then walked out as usual. We met through common friends when I was about 17. We got together in Spring of 1982, and divorced in 2010… I grew in this relationship from my 20’s to my mid 50’s. I am now 61, and still single. I grieved whole heartedly, thought I forgave him and accepted her. Yet I still don’t know if I will be able to have trust in an intimate relationship again.

    • Meg

      Sometimes it’s best to remain single considering how selfish these men are. As for your ex his expectations are too high for a women and eventually he will get bored as the years go by. The honeymoon period will soon be over and the reality will kick in. Takes affair couple many years to reach to that point. The best revenge is to just move on and focus on yourself. Go to gym and engage in activities that you enjoy. Focus on your children’s lives and take this time to grow close to them. Being 61 is not that old. I have seen many of my professors from university who are hitting their 70’s (they just love teaching hence the reason why they never retired) and they don’t even look in their 60’s! Life moves on and remember your ex lost the moon while counting the stars. Best wishes!

  • Judy

    My husband of 32 years left me. He stated that he checked out of the marriage then happened to find the other woman. I have been with my husband since I was 15 yrs old….I am now 51 yrs old. We have 2 great kids and 3 beautiful grandkids. He just stopped calling and texting me and the kids during the day as he normally did….became distant….would pick fights with me so he could leave….alot of lies until I found a card from the mistress. My kids are hurt And told their dad that there was a way to end the marriage and it was not with a mistress….then to move in with her. My life is upside down…..So sad and mad…hard to function.

    • Rosanna

      Hello Judy,

      so sorry to hear this. I can feel with you! There is so much unbearable pain. I am going through the same! My husband left me after 21 years of marriage for another woman half my age. Please be strong. I know it is so hard and makes one so angry. It doesn’t matter how we are…we may be perfect, beautiful, loving or just a nagging wife, if they want to cheat it is because they have a problem inside! It is them NOT you! A man who leaves his family is actually betraying himself. He who cheats shows how week and insecure they really are with themselves.

      Please keep strong!

    • Kristin

      I am dying inside. I am in the same sinking boat as you. I ran away and eloped with my husband when I was 17. We are less than 2 months from our 33 anniversary. This past Thursday, 15 minutes before we headed to our youngest daughter’s Freshman dorm to kiss her goodbye, My husband told me he wanted a divorce. The first day I was in shock and didn’t say anything. The next two days I cried, begged, and pleaded with him to try counseling. That is when he told me there was zero chance of working it out, he had been having an affair with a married woman he met while doing business in the Philippines. She’s 12 years younger and he is “in love”. I am literally phychotic with hurt and betrayal, I can not eat, sleep or maintain a coherent thought. I don’t even know who I’m married to. I also found that he has funneled at least $600,000 of our money into a company he started in the Philippines, has a secret bank account and credit cards that he uses to buy her lavish gifts and take her to resorts. He has absolutely no interest in trying to make our marriage work and I feel completely pathetic because even after he confessed to his affair, I asked him if we could still try and work it out. We decided to wait until after the holidays to tell our 18 and 22 year old daughters. We have always been extremely close to our children and know it is going to be completely devastating to them. As much as I want to scream and tell them what a loser their Dad is, I know it would only hurt them more so every time they call, I wipe away my tears and pretend everything is fine. He keeps promising that he will be a “stand up guy” and leave me financially independent so I don’t have to go back to work. For awhile at least. He has proven he can not be trusted but I’m afraid if I bring lawyers into it, he will get very vindictive. At this point my future looks like its not worth living.

      • Tamara

        I’m so sorry to hear your story mine is much like yours. I have been married 27 years and with my husband for 28 years.This October marks one year since he came home and out of the blue told me that he loved me but not the way a husband should love his wife. Can I just say that I didn’t see that coming at all. One month later he admitted to calling his ex girlfriend from when he was 15 just to tell her he was sorry for breaking her heart and he wants to see her cause he still has feelings for her. He has been living with her since February of this year . I feel like a piece of toilet paper that he wiped his axx with. He went from calling me multiple times a day and confessing his undying love to me to treating me like a stranger. Did I mention we have five children ages 24 to 16 and how my heart breaks for them every time one of the states how he cares more about his current girlfriend and her family than them. I wish that I was rid of my heartbreak but the wound is just as fresh today as it was last year. Life keeps moving forward but I hide my pain and smile. I have always been a strong woman but I never thought that I would be this person that I am. I really loved and was loyal to this man and he ruined our family. But we are trying to rebuild and redefine.

      • Meri S Preece

        Hi Kirstin,

        I am so sorry to hear about your situation. We are in the same sinking boat. My old husband also have relationship with a woman in Philiphines. Its half of his age, 30 years old and they met in a bar in Singapore while she worked here as a nightclub girl.

        I am in the midst of divorce now and with on going compulsary couselling from Court.

        Please PM me and we could share our story.

      • Marian

        Hi Kristin, it’s 2 am in the morning and I just read your message. My heart aches for you. My husband informed me early in June that he no longer wants to be married so I know what you are going through. We have been married almost 14 years. Somehow I was able to keep myself from crying and begging him to stay. He would offer no explanation as to why he no longer wants to be married. He quickly said there was no other woman which I have a hard time believing. None of it makes sense to me. He promptly filed for a divorce and has sent me numerous text messages trying to get me to sign the decree just the way his attorney wrote it up. I refuse to be a pushover and hired an attorney just to write up the divorce for me but not to represent me.

        For the first couple of months I felt sad and in disbelief but for the past couple of weeks my heart has been heavy and I can cry at the drop of a hat. I’m fortunate in that my family has been very supportive.

        I’ve read tons of articles on divorce and listened to just as many YouTube videos on how to cope. I decided to get more involved with other people. I joined an exercise group, started back to church and got involved with a women’s meeting with several women from this church. It has helped a lot as otherwise I would be a basket case staying home by myself. I recently joined a Divorce Care Group. I’ve only been once so far but it has helped to boost my spirit. I would recommend it to you if it’s possible.

        Everyone tells me that I will get through this and even be better off for it. I know I will but it’s still so hard at times and so hard to believe he can just walk away from our marriage. I had no clue that he was planning this. He would not talk about it at all saying he didn’t want to argue with me. I wasn’t being argumentative with him. I’ve went over and over in my mind what I should have done to maybe have prevented this but I know it’s to late. I also know if there were things I should have done I’m not accepting all the blame. One other thing that has helped me is writing down all the reasons why I will be better off, all his bad qualities. When I reread them it helps me to not be so sad about this.

        I’m not sure when the divorce will be final but I think it’s close.

        I will be praying that God lifts you up. If I was there I would give you a big hug. You sound like such a nice person and you certainly don’t deserve this kind of treatment. Even though I am also going through this, I feel sure you will come out strong and better off for this. I’m willing to get you will eventually meet someone else and even be happy you went through this.

        I hope to hear that you are not only surviving but you are also doing much better. God bless you.

      • Lynda

        Sweetie I feel your pain, it will never go away but u will get better at dealing with it. It may feel that the only way to get rid of the pain is to stop living. I too have been devastated by the one person who promised to be by myside forever. I am 9 months in after D day and have had 2 tear free days but the tears are silent now. I pray to the karma gods to give him and her what they deserve at least a taste of what emotional pain feels like. My kids are what keeps me going, so stay strong, stay focused and know that he is going to lose his girls cause what he has done is unforgivable. I want my husband back every day but could I live with him no knowing what he is capable of. On day at a time is what I told myself and my kids. You will always be the better person and just know that you have a lot of sisters right here with you.

  • Sarah

    I’ve been with my partner for 17 yrs since I was 14. We have two children together.
    Over the years his cheated on me, his currently cheating on me but this time it’s different, it’s not just sex (not that just sex makes it ok), I found out she’s over 10 years younger than him, just out of uni. His been taking her to spa retreats, hotel breaks, meals or constantly.
    Always taking pictures together, selfies…
    He even messages her when his laying in our bed!

    When his with her he won’t message or text me. He ignores all my messages.
    She knows about me and the kids but doesn’t seem to care… his promising her his going to marry to her and have kids with her, the latest message was about how his going to propose and his going to be big.

    It’s literally killing me inside! I can’t function properly.
    I keep thinking how he doesn’t do them things with me, the spa hotel was the hotel meant for us, never took me!
    He leaves our home to run to her who lives an hour away.
    I cry constantly, I get angry quickly. I feel like I’m on my own and I’ll never meet someone.
    I love him so much.
    He blames me for him cheating. He won’t tell the truth fully, gets angry at me and lies. But I see the messages.

    I know it’s over in my heart and I need to move on but I don’t know how.
    He comes home and spends time with me and the kids, kissing me, saying he loves me but it feels false and his just doing it for now to keep the peace.
    The other night he even called out her name twice whilst sleeping! Like he forgot it was me in the bed with him and he wanted her to cuddle him.

    How can I stop this feeling of hurt? And pain? Get my life back, feel like I have a life?
    I’m hating my job and I’m jeopardising it right now cos I can’t think straight…

    • Sakina

      This sounds horrible Sarah, and you surely, in fact nobody deserves to be so blatantly cheated on. As hard as it is you need to leave him. Now. Else if you keep hanging around there’s a good chance he will force you to leave, once he officially replaces you with the other female.

      Try to find a way out. If you can stay with friends or family, then that’s great. If not, try to look for a place of your own. Whatever it is, start safeguarding yourself and your poor soul from this man. You have to make it a priority to quit this relationship. It’s only the right thing to do in this case.

  • Lisa

    I really enjoy reading your information it was very Helpful. My story will sound familiar to you I was married and still am but going Thur a divorce for 32.5 years I caught him 10 years ago cheating and forgave him now ten years later here I am catching again cheating on me but this time he wants a divorce here I going Thur this I just want it over with and him out of our life’s. I have adult children who hate and are very hurt by their father choice of ending the marriage I have know this man all but five years of my life that 50 years I would never dream it would happen to me But I just want it over and to begin a new chapter with my family and maybe one day Love again 😊 thank you

  • Laurie Post author

    Thank you for being here, and for sharing your stories. I wish I had the right words to say, to give you comfort and hope. I just want you to know that you’re in my thoughts and prayers, and I’m really sorry that you had to experience this with your husband. Sometimes life and relationships just blindside us, leaving us shattered, helpless, and alone.

    Take heart. Don’t give up hope that your life can change and become brighter! Things may seem dim and dark now, but I believe you’re on the cusp of fresh new season in your life. Your life has changed dramatically – in some ways for the worse. But, in some ways, there may be new little sprouts of hope, faith, peace, and joy.

    “Look, I am doing a new thing!” God says. “Do you not perceive it?”

    How are you doing today?

  • Linda

    My husband of 38 yrs. left me. He lost his job in 2010 so we went to visit his mom out of state an 8 hour drive from our kids and grandkids and my family. We never left his mom got sick with lung cancer and I took care of her.
    Before she passed away she asked my husband and I if we would take care of her husband who had COPD.. of course we said yes.
    My mother inlaw passed Aug. 2014..my mother unexpectedly Jan. 2015. Father in-law Oct. 2015. Stepfather inlaw Feb. 2016. Stepbrother inlaw 2016.
    My husband was seeing another woman the whole time I was caring for his family.
    My heart is broken he left me in a house that I have been packing up for the last year because we were headed back to our kids and grandkids.
    Since I haven’t worked out of the home in over 20 yrs. I’m in way over my head. Now I have to figure out how to get my things moved back to Texas without any kind of monetary help from him.
    I’m 61 and having to depend on my kids. This is not how things were suppose to go.
    I just know this is a sadness so deep that I can hardly breathe.
    Thanks for listening.

    • rosanna

      Hello Linda,

      I pray that God will help you and that you will find peace in Him.I feel with you and I wish I could give you a big hug! I know what you are going through or at lesr how you feel. My husband left me after 20 years of marriage for another woman half my age! He left me with a huge debt and will not support me financially either. I will have to loose my house and try to start all over again. I have a beautiful son of 17 that is such a blessing. Please keep in mind that when our husbands leave us and feel the need to start their lives with another woman it is their internal problem. They are empty inside and have lost them selves. Running away will never resolve their problems. Please believe me it’s not you or me they are running away but from them selves. Please keep strong! Would love to keep in contact with you.

      God bless you!!
      Rosa

  • Paige

    My husband kicked me out of the house, jobless, 8 months pregnant and come to find out he’s been having an affair with a girl he met at his CrossFit class. It’s been only a little over a month and they’re already in a relationship! This is the worst emotional pain I’ve ever felt in my entire life, I’m due with our child next month. All I do is cry and pray.

  • Lucia

    It’s been four months since my husband of 8 years told me he doesn’t love me. He says he doesn’t see a future with me. My hear was torn into million pieces, but after I found out he was talking to another woan I felt worthless. I am grieven and it hurts. He left me. I never thought we were going to go through this. I am lost and I pray I can overcome this asap.

    • Charlotte

      Hi Lucia
      My situation sound similar to yours, we’ve been together 8years and I thought we were happy and had a future until one day he said he wants different things, he’s not happy, he’s got debt etc but something didn’t make sense. I thought we would live happily ever after until I then found a holiday booking he’d made a month earlier with another woman, I was devastated, my life was tipped upside down and I was scared.
      A few months have passed and I still am sad, I miss him but then recall what he’s done and get angry at myself.
      You will overcome this, look to the future, be with others who care for you and take time for yourself. Talk to people around you if it helps if you don’t feel like then sometimes company is enough. I find each day can get a tiny bit easier. I am a believer in things happening for a reason ( I’ve no idea what the reason is yet though)
      Keep positive and take each day at a time.

  • anonymous

    After 20ys my husband has left our son & I for another woman & her 3 kids. He hasn’t seen nor spoken to our son since he moved out. I hate feeling like a failure & seeing my sons face sad when he thinks of his dad.

  • Lisa Costa

    I’ve been married for 22 years…23 in July…and another 4 years not married…so like 27 years with this guy?! We have a 17 year old daughter….she is getting ready to graduate high school in a few days and go to prom and get ready for college. I’ve suspected his cheating with the owner of his company’s 29 year old married daughter who also works there…he is 52 and balding. When he started going to work early and taking a shower in the morning (he delivers propane, so he always showered at night) I knew something was up. I ignored it, hoping it would run it’s course, and that my daughter might not have to be affected by it. But, how much can you ignore? It came to a head last night when he pretty much announced that yes, he is having an affair and it’s been going on for a long time and he’s surprised I didn’t figure it out sooner. All this in front of my daughter. This is supposed to be happy time for her…graduating HS, prom, getting ready for college, and he ruined it all. We are both devastated. he still hasn’t left…I’m assuming he’s waiting for the girlfriend’s husband to vacate. she lives probably 90 minutes from where we are, so it should be interesting to see how how he handles stuff with my daughter. Right now, she said he is dead to her. I’m sure that will change. It scares me how angry I am at him. I really hate him. he’s blaming me for it all!!! How did I know he was unhappy??? I didn’t make him screw his boss’s daughter. Why didn’t he leave before all this happened? It would have been painful, but not like this. I am so hurt. I can’t eat or sleep or even drink too much water….I keep puking. I have a dr appt today to see if I can get some meds for the anxiety. I know I have to be strong for my daughter, and I know eventually, it will be OK. I’ll find happiness again, and hopefully, he will be miserable for the rest of his left. That felt good to vent.

    • Shauna

      Hi Lisa, I feel your pain, when kids are involved it’s a hundred times harder. My ex of 22 years changed over night.the only saving grace for me was I was relieved when he went. How they behave is all about them. Don’t let him blame you, because it’s his choice, be there for your daughter,and look after YOU. It’s hard but I chose to block all phones, I only talk if it’s with regards to our 12 year old. It’s been over 3 months since we split,and every day I think of him less and less. My ex has stalked my FB via his sister ( she was quickly removed then blocked) moaned about money, came round to the house and begged me not to see anyone,constantly asks my friends husbands who I’m seeing, where I go out, blah blah blah….he’s pathetic, just like most cheating rats. I will never,ever hold the respect I once had for him, I’ve got a new job, new man, re invented myself,and have a brilliant close relationship with my daughter. I occasionally wobble,but I cannot understand anyone who would want to take a cheat back…..oh and he looks like shit! Karma hunny! Hugs xxx

      • anonymous

        It’s strange how part of me feels relieved that he’s gone even though I have moments of missing him. Hell it was only 20ys of my life. I miss a memory. The old him. When I think about him living w/his new girlfriend & her kids I hurt for our kid who’s being ignored. The other funny thing is he gets arrested for his behavior she bails him out & has no idea he called me the same day. I wish I could be a fly on the wall to hear how he tries to justify why he’s being charged w/violating a RO. Not to mention if he cheated on me w/her what makes her think he won’t do it to her?

    • Amy Laskowski

      i am sorry for what you are going through. The heartbreak and pain are indescribable. My story is similar together 23 married 21 years one daughter. On her 18 birthday she caught him sending inappropriate pictures on tinder. I asked him to leave next day told him to come back we’ll work on us. He refused and said he deleted account but didn’t so for 2 and half months he lied and betrayed me. He claimed he was working on self then gonna work on us. Would come over for 5-10 minutes throughout week and Sundays to go out to lunch to see daughter and I would hug him tell him I missed him he would say I know I just can’t come back yet. Then end May because he posted pictures with her someone told me about it I confronted him he still denied and finally next day told me he’s in new relationship. It has been hell going through this and he said he felt this way for over year half that he cares for me and loves me just not in that way. It’s funny though because 2 nights before she caught him on tinder we got in a fight and he told me regardless of his flaws he never thought about divorce. Now he claims that she has nothing to do with his decision to want a divorce and he’s in love with her. He claims that his decision was not influenced by her even though he was with her the whole time he decided this. I cannot believe he would throw away a family for someone with 4 arrest 5 judgments. She has no career, 2 different children one as young as 6 with 2 different men never married and the last child she had to file paternity suit because she had to prove who the father was. My family has been destroyed and my daughter will not talk about it because she gets so angry. I’ve tried to get her to counseling it she refuses and I worry because one day it will hit her the damage he’s done. He acts like he’s done nothing and I shoujd just accept it and move on. He doesn’t feel he destroyed a family that’s it’s just different.

  • Jessi

    My husband of almost 19 years and together for 20 years has left me for another woman. We have three teenage daughters together. I should’ve known better when he had the first affair when I was pregnant with our second daughter but I chalked it up as we were young when we got married and having two kids so young can be overwhelming. We actually became better after that. At least I thought. Then five years ago he started saying that he could do whatever he wants with whoever he wants so he started going out with a group of coworkers along with the OW. So the affair started with her in October and went through to April. I knew something was wrong but we were still intimate and we were trying new things and going out with friends but he was still with her too. He finally confessed to me he’s been having an affair. I told him he’s got to choose her or me that he couldn’t have us both and that he needs to stop talking to her. But he kept talking to her and then tries getting me to feel sorry for her that her dad had cancer. He would keep telling me over and over for years that he just can’t get over her. A year after I was told about the affair I was diagnosed with MS which turned my life upside down. He was supportive at times but was more worried about the money. He’s always been worried about the money. My health due to the stress of everything got so bad I was begging him to come home cause I couldn’t do it by myself and needed help but he said he couldn’t. Then he had me stay at a motel for a week when he was home so he could see what it wa like without me. Then he went back to traveling. He told me about the affair at the beginning of April. He says he just can’t do it any more. He says he can’t breath. He says it’s not me but him. My girls and I have moved into a townhouse with our dogs. He is at the house which is being sold as we speak. We signed papers to start the divorce procedures. He’s off doing his life but has stayed in contact with the kids and supportive of them, I’m sitting here thinking why was I not enough or good enough. Am I that bad of a wife or person that he just throws me away like a piece of trash. Everybody keeps saying it’ll get better but how do you deal with the pain that is killing me inside.

  • Shauna

    After 22 years together ( I never wanted to marry) we both decided to split..I’d known for afew years that I didn’t love him the way I should. I also know perhaps had we both tried harder,we may have been able to save the relationship. Even the night we decided and told our 12 year old he asked me if I was sure and if we should try again. I said no. Two weeks later he asks our daughter if she wants to meet his new GF. ( I actually think he was in a short overlap relationship, texting etc but have no proof, and don’t care tbh ) Five weeks after that he moves in with her. Tomorrow he’s taking her to our holiday apartment….to say I’m mad is an understatement. He’s someone I don’t know, don’t like and wish I could just walk away from. Difficult with a child! He’s got his sister to snoop my social media page, would ring up for silly things, asked if there was anyone else, then came round the house two days on the trot pleading with me not to see this man he thinks I’m seeing ( male fB friend comments ) and says he won’t pay maintenance unless our daughter can stay at his gf house…he has totally lost the plot. I will never go back,ever, but the anger I have towards him is scary! And I’m not sure why I’m so angry other than the hurt he has caused our daughter by telling her every little detail….if someone out there can give me the answer ( please don’t say just move on) I’d be grateful….. He’s the laughing stock of our village, which is sad in itself. I’ve had to block all phones, iat the moment I don’t contact him at all,unless it’s to do with our daughter…help cause I’m not sure why I feel like I’m going mad!

  • Anne

    After 30 years my bipolar husband left me for a Women 20 years younger than me! He is showing no emotions. It’s like he can move on without any regret,shame or concern for me or his adult children who live in our home. How on earth do I get through this. I’m scared.

    • Rita

      I hate to say it but time, and find yourself someone who cares for you. It worked for me. Dated a lot until I found someone I liked that liked me the same. Now I can’t even re bet my x husband of 16 years. Say good bye to people that hurt you and find a nice guy, there still some out there…

  • Alana andrews

    I was with my 1st husband for 10 yrs & 15 with my husband now. I have 3 girls 28, 25 & 23, he has a son 19 that we raised since he was 4yrs old, 2 grand girls 4yrs & 1yrs old. We rasied all under the same roof & they all graduated & went to college. We had some really hard growing pain with all the kids that destroy our relationship in the beginning. My husband worked more than he was home & he carried the financial burden in paying all the bills. While I was a housewife with a home daycare & taking care of the kids school needs, & all household necessities. I took care of the good care of my family to the point where I lost pieces of myself in the process of making them happy. I didn’t know who I was or what I like to do. I know my husband felt like he was carrying the world on his shoulders doing everything for the family. It was hard for both of us. Then my husband started cheating throughout this marriage & being very disrespectful.
    I’ve been thru DUI’S, sickness, dealth, forecloser thru thick & thin. I loved him unconditionally. I forgave him because I genuinely loved him & thought it would get better & it did. We went to marriage counseling because of his issues & he did change after 10yrs. He WAS FINALLY FAITHFUL & started putting this family 1st after he did all his dirt. I had some health issues & he catered to my every need cook, cleaned, washed clothes, took care of the kids & worked. Then our home went into foreclosure & we had too move. Two of the girls moved back home with their kids & our son was just graduating now he’s caring all the weight. We haven’t sept in the same bed in 5yrs things we back to the way it was but he just didn’t cheat. He felt like he lost himself. After we moved he started going to the gym, buying him clothes, taking mancation trips & “doing him” now he was no longer emotional attached to this marriage or family.
    This past yr has been the worst for both of us. I was excited about my new job but couldn’t show it. I thought now I can work out of the home & find myself. The kids was older & they drifted away, & it made me feel like I had no purpose so this was good for me. We were arguing more & yelling at each every day. He found out about my X in September now he wants a divorce, I’ve been call bit@#!, I’m contagious all mind of stuff. I didn’t know what to do any more it hurts me to see the fact that I hurt him. He will not forgive me he said He don’t have a forgiving heart like me & that was what I choose to do. After all the crap I put up with now I can’t bring up his past & it didn’t count. Smh!! He avoided me every day for about 4 months living under the same roof not even seeing each other at for weeks. The house is empty & quiet he works over nights & I work days.
    I feel trap being here the feeling of being REJECTED, UNLOVED, & I’m hurting so bad that death sounds good compared to the hurt I’m going thru alone. Yes I gave him his space–however be clear that I’m not okay with him dating anyone else during this time. He will not even look at me & now the always taking her out wearing everything I bought him from Head to toe even his underwear. Now he’s buying her things & taking her down town all public. I was so embarrassed one of my friends saw them together & didn’t even know what we was going thru. All of our family don’t all know they just saw us Xmas & the ones who do know he turned them against me like he was the faithful husband. Im just glad it wasn’t one of the kids is so disrespectful. Now he feels I betrayed him in this marriage he did out of his mouth that he has been faithful for 5yrs & not even worth saving because I’m not but paperwork to him & he don’t love me anymore. Now I’m left along to take care of myself, while still trying to be friendly to him in his situation just to keep down drama for the kids. I told him last week that was done, I’m not cooking for him nor will I be available. He is really upset with me now because I won’t sign the paper, cook for him or stay & help him pay the bills til the lease is up. I just want my husband back the way it was when we met. I told him nothing can destroy our relationship from the outside it’s from the inside out & we can get thru this. He says there’s no way in the world that we could ever be together again.  I can’t stand it. I can’t stand it. I can’t stand it. I loved and still love him so much. I wonder does he really love her?? Can he?? How can someone just move on with someone else like that? He doesn’t even seem to be concerned that i’m barely functioning.😢😢

  • Annette

    Let’s see I had dated my husband in high school for about two years before I had broken up with him he took it really hard. So 27 years latter we reconnected it feel like we never broke up. So we ended up getting married and I thought we were enjoying our lives together. Well on April 4, 2017 he was dressed for work and laying on the couch playing on his tablet. As he was putting his shoes on I can tell something was on his mind so I had ask him what was wrong and said this without looking me in the eyes. He said that he was not in love with me anymore and he is in love with his ex wife that verbally abused him. Almost three years of marriage then he went to work like nothing happen. So when he came home from work that night he got a few things and left to go be with her in Florida. He told me that he has been texting her she paid off our truck which I didn’t know until he left also I found out he change his mail address in Jan this year. I try calling and texting to get answers and he won’t respond to anything it’s like I am dead to him. I treated this man good he was the love of my life. I am so hurt by him. He even posted on his Facebook page that he is in a relationship with her and were still married.

    • Shauna

      Annette, I’m so sorry you have had to go through this. Delete his FB from your friends list then block. Don’t contact him, start with working on you. It’s hard cause even though I don’t want my ex back, im still angry….

    • pat

      My husband left me after 28 years he went of with a younger rich one he has come back a couple of times and like a fool I believe don’t him only to get hurt and humiliated again and again I’m still in bits and it has been 2 years I do still love him and will never move on what a sad woman I am

  • Juhi

    Thanks for the post. I ve been really depressed this past few months.. My husband of almost 3 years left me for another woman. We were engaged until he moved to Japan at August last year and than things started to get weird. He is 48 I am 19 and the OW is almost 60! He break up in November, telling me that he loved me but liked her and wasnt able to keep it going.
    I took a month to stop trying to contact him (he blocked me in EVERY SINGLE THING). In December she read my messages and they humiliated me.. he sent me to hell and told me that i am nothing to him and that he wants me to disappear… I am so so hurted…
    I love him so much he is one of my best friends. I told the OW to take care of him because he was a very nice person but she treated me poorly and said something like ”you cant compete with me”.
    I cant understand why he left me for her! I always did EVERYTHING to him, i am so glad i am not pregnnat or something like that. But it stills hurt.. I need him in my life, he is like a father figure to me.. I am still scared and depressed. I ve gained 5kg, and was trying to lost weight but now its everything ruined. I am so done.. he was everything i had, i.. i tried so much to be kind to him but.. Sorry i am really hurted..

    • Kim

      Hi all my name is Kim, just come across this site and really moved by the things I have read. My husband left in November, it would be our 30th wedding anniversary this year and I thought we were the unbreakable couple, until about three months before he left he turned into someone I didn’t know, he was nasty, cruel staying out late, drink driving, to be honest by the time he left it was a relief. But as with most men they don’t leave for nothing especially my husband who had a great life golfing and living like a single man, we don’t have children so no money worries. He is now with one of his old friends who has been with just about all our town and has the IQ of a brussell sprout, they have both been vehemently denying any romance for months until he came clean last week by text! on the very weekend he knew my best friend had been diagnosed with cancer. I hate him with a vengeance although wouldn’t have him back under any circumstances. The thing that’s has upset me the most apart from him seeming to forget anything that’s happened in the last 30 year (has abandoned my 82 year old mother who adored him and has been ill over it all) is the change of personality he has had, its like he has turned into a sociopath devoid of feeling, being as nasty as he possibly can over everything. You would think walking away from all you know for 30 years would be enough damage done especially now its official with the brussell sprout ,without being nasty and cruel. Is this a guilt thing? How can someone change so much?? It makes you lose faith in people. Hope you all go on to live happy lives and hope as my old mum says “god doesn’t pay his debts with money”. Km, England.

  • Catherine

    Husband of 38 years left me, also a chronic alcoholic, retired from job. He went to HS reunion and hooked up with thrice married ex girlfriend from early sixties. Divorced me,married her, she divorced him after three years, and now he has married nice woman he knew from elementary school! She, it seems is financially secure and they have been married for about 18 months. So, he divorced me in 2010 and married #3 in 2016! I am still trying to wrap my brain around all of this! Think a good shrink would have a field day with him! Also, he tried to make my life a living hell after he left me.

    • Angela

      My story belongs on the Jerry Springer show. It’s very embarrassing and hard to talk about.
      I’ve been with my husband for 20 years. He left me this past November. Well, he got busted actually. For many years I’ve been told that he may have had affairs. I just could never prove it. So, for many years I’ve turned my head. I started a new job last year and was very drawn to a co-worker. But, never acted on it because I loved my husband very much.
      One day our 15 year old daughter called me at work because she had found dirty text messages on her dad’s phone that wasn’t from or to her mother. This was the beginning of the end right here. This incident pushed me over the edge. And I began an affair with my also married co-worker. I moved out to sort out my feelings, but I never fully left my husband. He’d call crying begging me to come home. And I did. My affair lasted about 4 months.
      Going back home was like walking into a war zone. Our 20 year old son had moved in his 20 year old girlfriend with her 2 babies into our home. So home life became hectic. Never a chance for me & my husband. We both began drinking. Something we had never done before. And one day I decided to check his messenger.
      And there it was. Him and our son’s girlfriend chatting back and forth. My son had tried breaking up with her and telling her to leave and I was so blinded that I didn’t even see this going on under my nose in our Home! She wouldn’t leave and now I know why.
      My husband also just turned 40. A couple of days before he left I noticed him wearing an earring. I didn’t want to hurt his feelings when I noticed it. So I said nothing.
      He left on November 3rd and has been with this 20 yr old girl ever since. But, because of my own guilt and affair I turned my head. And thought well he just needs some time like I did. But, I lived in my apartment alone. My husband and this girl have not left each other’s side since he left. They moved in with one of his co-workers in his basement.
      I told him my boundary was him finding them a place. And what has he done? Found them a house to rent. He came and took our daughter with no discussion. She’s free to do as she pleases. And nothing I can do because we are legally married. Another kicker is he don’t want a divorce. Says it’s a waste of time and money. Yet refuses to fix us, blames me for everything, won’t pay our bills. He says I’m on my own.
      Not to mention the betrayal to our son. My husband thinks because they were broken up he is doing nothing wrong! My son had tried to forgive, but they end up fighting.
      I feel like at first this was my punishment for what I had done. But he’s taken this to another level! I am seeing a counselor to talk to. She don’t know what to think. His behavior is so erratic that she don’t know if it’s mid-life crisis or if something in his own mind has snapped.
      And my husband really don’t want a divorce. That’s the kick in the gut for me. And not to mention their “relationship” is plastered all over FB. He even has support from my family members!
      Him and this girl are telling each other they love each other. Which my counselor says is hog wash! That he don’t love her he’s just using her for an ego boost.
      I have filed for divorce and temporary relief. He’s left me in a mess with bills and he knows it.
      I can’t help but wonder if he’ll snap out of it once it hits his paycheck. I’ve told him you can’t live two lives. You can’t have a wife and girlfriend. Life don’t work that way. I have my good days and bad days. I lived my life for this man and our family. I can’t fully let it all go. My husband isn’t himself. He looks horrible. Like life has been sucked right out of him. But he refuses to leave this little girl. But, I’m pressing forward. As hard as it is. I have no choice. But, I’m lost and live in my own regret and shame everyday. If I hadn’t looked at his messenger that day. I never would’ve known. I’m blaming myself for all of it. And it’s embarrassing to even tell..

  • used and abused

    hi its not the affair or the leaving that hurts but the vile behaviour that he has shown towards me bullying shouting being vile name calling lying even when outed. Yet i have been honest and never shouted argued all i want is for him to sort out the last bits and go. I know that I will never get an apology but what i want is the last of the stuff sorted out and him gone for my friends to perhaps understand that i dont want to know what he does or where he is or that they have seen pictures of them together. is that to much to ask or even expect from a man with no shame yes but my friends no

  • Laurie Post author

    Dear Sara,

    I’m sorry for your loss, for your children’s loss, and for your husband’s choice. It’s painful and sad when a family breaks up – and when kids lose their fathers for no good reason. I’m sorry you’re going through this.

    One of my family members is experiencing a painful divorce, and their children are suffering greatly. I have a lot of thoughts on telling your kids about the separation and divorce, so I wrote this article:

    How to Help Your Children Through a Painful Divorce
    https://howloveblossoms.com/helping-children-cope-getting-a-divorce-advice/

    Read it, let me know if anything seems helpful to you. And as I told Heartbroken: acceptance really is the best way to cope when your husband leaves you for another woman. Surrender and let him go. Grieve and heal, so you can get healthy and strong…and so your heart opens up to love again.

  • Laurie Post author

    Dear Heartbroken,

    The best way to cope when your husband leaves you for another woman is as simple – and as difficult – as acceptance.

    Surrender to your husband’s decision. Accept that he is focusing on this other woman, and he has chosen to leave you behind. Allow yourself to grieve your new reality, and start looking forward.

    I’m sorry you’re going through this, and I wish it wasn’t happening to you. But the fact is that the more you struggle and fight and rail against your life as it is, the worse you will feel.

    What would it feel like to simply accept that your husband has left you, and let go of everything you wished your marriage could be?

  • Sara

    About 6 weeks ago my husband, whom I’ve been with for 23 years, told me that he didn’t want to be with me anymore. That he’s unhappy with me and his job. He’s leaving me and our children and leaving his job and considering moving from our home in Canada to look for work in the USA.

    A few days later it came out that he met another women online and he’s going to be with her in Ohio.

    I’m working hard to accept that our marriage was not in a good place. I’ve not been happy for years myself. What angered me is that we didn’t try and work things out, and now it’s too late.

    What’s bothering me most right now is that he’s leaving the children. He’s ok with only seeing them once a month and a couple of weeks a year. That I’m going to be a full time single parent. This angers me. I know people who are divorced but have 50/50 custody. I told him that is what I’d want when he asked me what I wanted. But he’s not interested in staying around here.
    The children only know that we are separating and we will be selling the house and staying in the same schools. I don’t know how they will react to him actually leaving the country. He’s such a optimist that he thinks it will be great! Yet he’s not even around now to help them get through the hurt of our separation.

    Have you got any advice on how to help the children through this once he’s actually gone?
    Thanks,
    Sara

    • Sal

      Sara,

      I am so sorry to hear you are going through such a difficult and emotionally challenging part of your life. To be left like you describe is the utmost hurt when you still have feelings. leaving the kids to is so distasteful on his part.

      I am 61. Let me tell you this. My feeling is you are left to raise your kids on your own.. I know the fear and anger you are feeling. I went through this too. You didn’t mention your kids’ ages. This is how I would proceed. Spend as much time as you can with your children. Rear them the very best you can. Be sure they know you love them. Be positive. Encourage them. Do your best to hide your anguish and now focus on what how you can become a fantastic mom and show your children the courage you have. They will highly respect you. It is tough raising children on your own, but the reward is they will soon be adults and if you are able to create a close bond all together with them, you will have your children for the rest of your life! They will come to help you as you grow older and you will be so thankful you had them! I have girlfriends who had a heck of a time raising rebellious kids that I thought nothing would ever become of them. To my surprise, they grew up to be very successful and adore their mothers. For the men, that is their lose. Sure, the kids will suffer from the husband’s selfishness, but they will prosper. Feeling pain and hurt in one form or another is not something we can totally avoid in this life. Give it your best. You will feel very good about yourself later and promise you that you will care less about the scrondrel ex. His days of suffering lies ahead. You’ll have your kids – he’ll have nothing. Think about it and do your best.

  • Heartbroken

    I am having a very hard time dealing with my husband that left me. Everyone tells me it gets better but I really don’t see any way it can.

    My husband started his own business 4 years ago. I supported him and cut back on everything from our very comfortable lifestyle that we had always had. I took care of the kids and kept our home nice. He has always been a hard worker, or so I thought. He would always work late hours even though for the past 15 years, I begged for him to be home to have dinner with me and the kids. He was always too busy. I always felt that I was not a priority and told him on many occasions throughout our marriage. This past year has been the hardest year ever. He stopped paying on our house that we built and we lost it, had to move out of the area (away from all my friends) and moved back to my hometown where I grew up.

    He was always traveling for his job, but when we moved here, he traveled much more. He would leave on Sunday nights and would tell me that he is tired and would come home on a Saturday morning flight. I always tracked his phone and he was where he said he was so i wasn’t worried about him cheating. I always tracked bc he was depressed and didn’t sleep and I would be afraid of him falling asleep while driving.

    On Halloween, he told me that he wasn’t happy and I would be better off without him. We had just celebrated our 15 year anniversary which he wasn’t home for. That night, he told me that he loved his job more then his family. I asked him if he wanted to work on our relationship or just get a divorce. He cried and said he didn’t know. He had to leave on another trip and when he came back 4 days later, we talked about counseling and working to communicate better.

    He had to leave on a trip again the next day, and that’s when I got a facebook message from some woman with pictures of her and my husband. She forwarded me all the text messages and emails between them telling me he said he was divorced. She now knows that he is married but they are still together. My husband left me for her after she called me and told me everything.

    After doing a little investigating, I have since learned that she is actually a prostitute that my husband hired over 12 times and now he thinks he is in love with her. He had been taking her all over the country on his business trips. Meanwhile, I always asked if he would take me on trips so we could have mini vacations. He always told me he didn’t have time. He has also opened over 5 credit cards in my name and maxed them out paying for things for her – all the while, I have been living on a very small income and not doing things with my kids bc we “didn’t have the money”.

    He is still taking her all over the place and showering her with gifts. He doesn’t talk to me and once in a blue moon calls the kids, but blames me for not allowing him to talk to them. But the irony of it all is that the whore has 4 kids of her own and he talks and texts them everyday. He never had time for us in all the years we were together.

    It is so hurtful and I am so heartbroken. I loved him even though he wasn’t perfect. No one is. I did everything for him. He just told me the other day that he really believes that I never loved him. He tries to tell me I forced him to cheat because I was not a good wife. That is so far from the truth. He told this woman that I abused my kids and he was going to kidnap them and take them away from me. He also said that I was a mean and hateful ugly person. How does someone talk so bad about someone they have been with for almost 20 years? I cry all the time. I can’t really function because all I do is think about what they are doing together. I don’t really eat, I don’t sleep and I am just numb. I feel like there is a huge weight on my heart. I think I would be happier if he was miserable, but the fact that he keeps telling me this prostitute is the love of his life, it’s like a knife stabbing me over and over.

    I keep waiting everyday for him to call or text or email me telling me he made a terrible mistake and that he wants to come home, but I know that will never happen. How do you just walk away from your family that loved you so much? I don’t think I will ever understand. I just don’t see a light at the end of the tunnel. My friends are supportive but all of them tell me to snap out of it. I can’t make my heart catch up to my brain. How do you deal?

    • Donna

      Oh Heartbroken, time is what it is going to take for all of us to heal. I am 5 months into this and I can tell you that I am much better today than I was than the first 2 weeks. It was all I could do to hold liquids down initially. Sometimes it is good to look in the rear view mirror, to see where we were and think about where we are going in our personal journey. Please take care of yourself first, and everything else will follow. If you have to set the alarm earlier for me time, do it, or have me time when your children are in bed.
      My husband tossed me aside like a grocery bag, not even worth a second chance or any effort. This speaks volumes about him, not me, which I tell myself again and again. Right now, if my husband did beg for my forgiveness, I hope that I could grant it so that it would help me move forward.
      I read blogs like this and others to help me cope. I also read about narcissists, which I believe my husband is, but had no signs prior to this.
      I started working out to boost my confidence, and to help me sleep. Also I hope that a strong body will give me a stronger mind. If you like tea, try sleepy time tea at night. The last thing I do every night is say “Let go, let God”
      Please believe that you are going to get through, around and over this, because we will.

    • Ariana

      My story is similar, but our departure started in feb and we were never married but together for 9 years. We have 2 sons and he helped raise my eldest from my first marriage. Definately, difficult. So now that a few month have passed by for you, how are you now?is he still blaming you? Is there any remorse from him?

    • Angie B

      That’s heartbreaking to read. It amazes me how they manage to just shut out every part of their life up until they leave. Similar story, 24 years, coming up for a year and I can’t really function. I have no place, don’t belong anywhere if that makes sense . I used to be driven, now I just exisit.
      Hope u are moving forward, at least by a little.
      The slapper will probably end up ditching him for something better, fingers crossed!

  • Donna

    We have been married just 3 months shy of 35 years. Moved across the country for his new Operations and Sales manager job. After 4 months, I started working there too and just loved my job! The twice married 33 year old receptionist really struggles doing the job and was ready to fire her, because she was not capable of doing all of the duties correctly. He moved her into a sales position, where they now openly flirt with one another. After 4 months of constant training I ask him if she is capable of this position. He assures me she is doing great and still needs help closing a sale. August 2nd he comes home from work and tells me I have never been happy in our marriage, just matter of fact. I disagree, he asks me where I have been happy, I start naming places we have visited and state that a bad day here and there does not equal a bad marriage. We do everything together and have the same common interests. He goes on saying that he sees how I light up when we visited our sons, it has been a year since we’ve seen them! Beginning of July we had a realtor showing us a home to purchase and spent weekends shopping for furniture! Sadly I did not take the bait, so now he tells me he feels nothing for me, nothing and to get a boyfriend, he does not care! I can honestly tell you I felt as though I had asthma, I could barely catch my next breath from crying/ sobbing so hard. I fall asleep and at 3 am I think of his cells phones, I demand he unlock them, he does and I find all of the texts and emails stating they love each other, are soul mates, the hotels they are going to and body parts!15 of the texts was on a Saturday where we had all been working together preparing for the end of the month. I kick him out, he moves in with her, I ask with her husband? He says he left the 2nd week in July. Fast forward to Dec. They moved into our apartment that we shared right after I left that I just found out about. He didn’t even help me move! Her 2nd divorce was finalized 3 weeks ago and he is more than ready to dissolve ours. I have moved back to the east coast and am currently living with our youngest son and his wife trying to pick the pieces of my life back together. I struggle with the deception from both of them as I feel they set me up. This is most horrifying situation of my life. My sons, family, dear friends and my faith have kept me going with a glimmer of hope that my life will get better than it is right now.

  • Alison Mann

    I have been with my partner for almost 7 years. After having two husbands who used to beat me, he was the kindest, sweetest man I’d ever met. The only problem we had was his adult daughters. Despite my doing everything possible to get along, they hated me and made my life hell with their jealousy and vindictiveness. We survived this though and were really happy.
    At the beginning of this year he started to pull away. Due to my severe abandonment issues from childhood, I became very clingy and needy and it made him even worse. He became very depressed as he has severe work stress and also his ex wife decided to take him to court for yet more money. He cut off intimacy in April and on holiday in Switzerland in June, he told me that he’s been controlled all his life and never done anything for himself and wanted to start going places on his own and making his own decisions. He said he loved me, but the passion had gone. I immediately accused him of having an affair.
    He kept telling me all through the summer that we would be okay and just needed to heal. In November he said that he didn’t want us anymore. I went to pieces. I wanted answers and eventually he said that he was in love with one of his employees; a 32 year old Polish woman, who is 21 years younger. He then left and after an hour at the village pub, came home and said that none of it was true and he had said it to give me the reason I was seeking.
    He rented himself a 3 bed house and left me homeless. I’ve been staying with my son and have had to give up my job as tomorrow I’m moving 60 miles away to live with my daughter. He said that he needed to sort him himself out and that he was leaving the door open to the possibility of us getting back together. He said he needed to miss me.
    His children stayed with him at Christmas and posted a photo on facebook of them and there was another woman. I bombarded him with texts and phone calls, which he ignored. He eventually met up with me yesterday for coffee. He still wouldn’t say who this woman was. I spent the time accusing him and he said that he wants us to remain friends, meet up for days out etc and who knows what the future holds?
    I just can’t deal with it all. I can’t eat, sleep or handle anything. If he wasn’t going through what appears to be a breakdown, it would be easier, but it’s just destroying me being out in the cold.

  • TC

    My husband of 27 years just told me a week after my 49th birthday (October 14) that he loved me but not the way a man should love his wife. Then in November he told me that he was in love with his girlfriend of 30 years ago when he was 15 to 16 , we met when he was 17 and we got married when he turn 18. We have had a great marriage over the years. We have been through so many things four years of him being a marine which included Dessert Storm and time in Turkey. Then I supported him while he earn his education in political Science and then law school . We have five beautiful children ages 23 to 15. If you ask anyone in the family they are as shocked as I am of this recent epiphany of his. He has been a husband who has adored me throughout our time together with the most beautiful words a man could say to a woman. Even two weeks before he dropped the bomb on me he was dedicating live songs to me and telling me how he would love me forever. Now he is in love with his first girlfriend and they are planning their lives together. He tells me it’s not a choice because if he had to choose he would choose me but he feels that she is the missing piece of his puzzle. He wants a divorce because he can not live with her if we are not divorced because it’s wrong. He has already gone to see her and has broken our commitment if vows. I. Am heartbroken and just overwhelmed with the position he has left me in. It Sucks because I love him and I have to let go of all the things we where planning three months ago for our future our family our retirement and have to educate myself and get a job in my 50’s what a terrible thing to do to somebody who stood by you in good times and bad and all the other ups and downs and journeys that build a great marriage

  • Judith Anderson

    we have only been married a little over a year but have been together 14. shortly after we were married in August he met her in March, it continued all thru the spring, summer and fall and he left yesterday. He says he loves me but is not in love with me and wants to be with her. His behavior makes no sense and I have been by his side while he went thru his cancer treatments and he may need more. He acts like he hates me. I cannot even talk to him right now.

  • Lily Smith

    My story is rather different. My husband which i never lived with, lives in Germany. Our relationship of 4 years seems a lie now. We have always traveled to see eachother for all our relatiinship. He has meet my family and i met his. We were 1 legal step before me relocating me and my son from a previous marriage to germany where he is deployed. 1 week ago i found out he is seeing another women there. He has no plans on leaving her and he is done with me. I felt betrayed because we have waited 4 years to be together. All along he lied and cheated on me. He blocked me form all point of contact and went on with his life. Like im some disposible person. The sad part is that he made my son believe that he would be his new dad. I realize God has sheild me from this man. If i would of left my life, job, family and went after him and then i find this out in Germany, i would of been stuck for real. I know this is Gods will but it hurts. It hurts being blocked from a person u had contact every single day for 4 years. Its barely my 9th day and all my dreams of living with him and our future of germany have been shattered

    • Tai

      I just came across your story and hopefully you are doing better. Yes , you are correct. God allowed you to see the REAL him before you made a major move to uproot you and your son. Yes, it’s painful what you’re going through but he is a coward. Straight up! The very least he could’ve done was talk to you like a man to give you closure, not throw a rock and hide his hand like a five-year-old. You really dodged a bullwt. He sounds unstable. It will take time but you will get over this. My advise to you is to seek God and wait on His guidance when selecting a mate next time. Ask God if this man is the one He has for you and He will show you but you have to be patient during the wait. Another thing, don’t sleep with them unless you’re married to them. This is how women end up bonded to them. Not to say they won’t leave a marriage but like I always say. If he will commit fornication with you, he’ll commit adultery on you because he doesn’t boundaries. If he respects you, he will respect your body and mind as well. If he doesn’t have a REAL relationship with God…..Run!!! There is a reason Gods laws are in place and it’s to protect us. Hopefully you have a relationship with God so you can be led by His Spirit. Acts 2:38 is His plan of salvation if you don’t know. Take care and God bless!

    • wilson jennifer

      I know exactly how you are feeling. I have been married for almost 19 years. My husband walked out on me 10 months ago and it has been the hardest time of my life. I had discovered his affair with a woman that is 15 years younger than him. When I questioned him he moved out saying he has not been happy for 3 years, which happened to be the same time we were going to have another baby. He was unexpected but a true blessing. We have a 17 year old and a 3 1/2 year old. We thought we were never going to be able to have another baby as I had 4 miscarriages. I feel he is going through a mid life crisis. He still denies the affair but she has been traveling with him and she is always with him. Even so much that she is now hanging out with my brother and sister n law. I feel betrayed by everyone. I continue to pray and hope my husband wakes up and realizes what he is giving up.

  • Laura

    My partner of close to ten years started an emotional affair about 6 months ago with a woman he works with who is 11 years younger than him. I found out and confronted him – he told me it was a terrible mistake and that I was the only one for him and he would do everything in his power to prove it to me. I decided to give our relationship another chance. We started seeing a couple’s councellor together and he had me, her and all of our mutual friends convinced that everything was fine. We even spoke about trying for a baby, chose the names, everything! Then i discovered recently that he is continuing his affair with this other woman and that it’s now at the stage where the 2 of them are discussing him leaving me, behind my back. I discovered this only 1 day after our most recent councelling session in which we discussed re-building trust in the relationship. So, I confronted him again and he admits he doesn’t feel the same way about me anymore and he’s leaving to be with her. It’s just so incredibly confusing to be treated in this way. Did he keep me around while he moved on emotionally from our relationship to make it easier? Did he keep me around while he was making his mind up about what was best for him, or until he knew she was committed enough that he could jump into his next relationship? The betrayal is enormous. He knew how much I wanted to have a baby and now I am 33 and single and he willingly took an extra 6 months of my life with no intention of staying. He says he didn’t know how to tell me and didn’t want to hurt me but that’s just so cowardly and such an immature way to handle your feelings. I think in the long run it will be the best thing that’s happened to me as who wants to be with someone who can lie and cheat for so long in that way, all while we consciously discussed and tried to repair the damage from the original affair! I am devastated. I have moved out so have no home and I had to leave our dog with him too. All the while he moves onto the next girl to live happily ever after. It seems to unfair. I loved him so very much for such a very long time and to think he didn’t even have the respect to honour our very loving relationship with some respect is sickening. It makes me wonder if I have spent 10 years with someone who never loved me at all. He has shattered my self-esteem; he’s been watching me torture myself trying to hold the relationship together. What type of person can play with someone’s feelings so carelessly? I’ve wondered if he is a narcissist. I guess I don’t really know. I’m trying so hard to be positive and focus on myself, of course it’s near impossible. He dominates my thoughts every waking moment and then at night he’s in my dreams. Seems to cruel.

    • Maddie

      Your story seems very similar to mine. My husband left me for the chance of being with another woman who was also in a relationship and has a baby. She hasn’t left her partner yet but has said she wants to be with my husband. I’m working on accepting what has happened and moving on. How are you going now?

      • Laura

        Hi Maddie,

        I am trying to work on the same. I have good days and very very bad days but I suppose that’s normal and to be expected. It’s difficult to come to terms with the loss of your whole life as you knew it. Sometimes I battle to stop the obsessive thoughts and remain positive; I’m doing my best. Everyone says it will get easier and I’m sure they’re right. How are you?

    • rachel

      Your husband sounds like a classic covert toxic narcissistic personality disorder. They lack empathy. It doesn’t exist only their fictitious foreself exist. It is insatiable, lustful, cheating and never ending desire for narcissitic supply. I too have suffered at the evil hands of these sort of folk. He never had any intention of reconciling with you. They love to hurt empaths. They actually ate us. Look up narcissistic personality disorder on youtube

    • Brit

      You story is the same exact as mines as well. We managed to have a doctors appointment with the fertility doctor the same week I found out about her. She also thinks it is extremely funny and ok for her to be with my husband. I dont understand why anyone has to go through this at all. The range of emotions is daunting.

    • Olivia

      I am in the exact situation. Their emotional affair has been going on for months if not years. She’s 12 years younger than he is. He started a fight and told me he had depression so I moved out. I came home to find her things in our house 4 days after I left. I’m crushed and completely blind sided. He brought her to our bed. To make matters worse she has had sex with at least 2 of his friends. I don’t understand.

    • kate

      Your situation is very similar to mine, in the fact that my husband of 11 years left me back in July, for an older woman of 40, Czech lady, with lots of money. They are currently travelling the world together… He issued me with the divorce papers a few months later. We were 13 when we met, started a serious relationship. This is my first ever break-up at 35. So hard et painful, still 5months on… I to am consumed day et night with thoughts about him et her having fun. Only Christmas day, they posted their engagement on fb, so another slap in the face their. I hope in time these continuous thoughts will diminish et I will be able to forget him, move on be happy with someone else again in the future. Kate

      • Angela

        That is truly awful and I feel for you. He is a piece of work! It would be good if you could keep yourself surrounded by your friends. Mine have been a great support.
        He is very aggressive towards me and even his new woman has been messaging from his phone, as if he hadnt hurt me enough he gets the boot in. 6 days down the line and trying to stay sane, house has to be sold also. Worst thing is him acting like we never happened at all! Also his family have backed off including my stepson whom I was close to.
        Time for you to let a good man into your life, they aren’t all bad!
        Thanks for your kind words. Hope you get distance eventually x

    • Lorraine

      Laura I’m sorry that you’re going through this awful time in your life. I am also in the same position. A few things of what you have wrote are the same as my husbands actions. Cowardly actions! They don’t seem to have a back bone when it comes to leaving their wives, they find another woman to go to first before they can move on. My husband is 54 and he left me for a 25 year old who looks like she belongs on the Jeremy Kyle show! It’s just unbelievable. Not only do we have to deal with the fact that they have lied, cheated and seemed to have walked away without a care in the world but he has ended up living on a hell hole of a street which he wouldn’t have wanted to even walk down at one time. It causes us to be totally embarrassed and disgusted. But you know what? What goes around comes around and I believe in Karma do let them get on with it! We will become stronger with time and will have our lives back I track just as theirs are about to fall to pieces again. Upwards and onwards girl! X

  • Cheryl

    My husband announced after 15 years together he is leaving me for a 20 year old girl from work (he’s 37). It cam as such a bolt out of the blue, he never said he was unhappy, even after I first found out about it he told me he loved me and it was a mistake so I took him back only for 2 weeks later him to announce he was leaving for her….again!
    We have 2 boys together and i have 2 from my 1st marriage (also cheated on me!), and our oldest together is 14 selective mute and autistic, he can not cope with what is happening and it’s breaking my heart to see him suffer. His Dad doesn’t seem to care the hurt he has caused us all, he just cannot wait to run off with his ridiculously young mistress (our son is only 6 years younger!).
    I am so hurt and grieving for what I thought our marriage was, the future I thought we had together and the loneliness I am feeling at the moment is all consuming.
    I know I will get through this eventually and come out the other side stronger, I do not even recognise the man who has walked out on us. He is a mean spirited, bad tempered selfish person who does not deserve us.

    • M

      He is a piece of crap human. Garbage. I’m sorry for your son. My son is similar. And my ex too.
      Karma will be awful to them. And the girl will tire of him, trust me. And he looks like a LOSER to everyone lol

    • Gwen

      Cheryl. you are literally me(39), except I am nearing 5 months now since my ex husband (37)chose to leave the marriage for a very young girl (19), and QUICKLY RUSHED me out of our home we shared for 10 of our 15 years together while I’m left here in the middle of a road I never wanted to be on again, stranded, left to pick up the pieces -all while he moves on like the past 15 years, and I , never even existed.

      Sadly, My 16 year old son (ALSO from a previous marriage in which my ex husband cheated) was the one who notified me of the betrayal. This was after my husband couldn’t get me out of our home fast enough in the beginning of August-when he made the choice to throw us out so callously, completely blindsiding me with this whole thing-all whilst I wondered why he was repeatedly lying, starting ridiculous arguments, nitpicking everything from how I “let myself go” in the past few months (as in gaining as little as 5 lbs), to the way I chewed my food , when he was around at home for almost the entire month of July (I have since learned from him, he met her on July 1st.so he knew her for a whopping MONTH when he kicked me out.). At the time, I was not only working a physically demanding full time job which included a two hour commute both ways, but was also running HIS home based business full-time, which enabled him to even MEET and have $$ to wave at this little home wrecking wench in the first place.

      ~Since the day he threw us out , I had began to, and over the last 5 months, (aug-dec) have lost 35 lbs, and I’m now back to the size I was 16 years ago, when we decided to become a couple when he moved home from college after graduating, and after about 4 months passed of my shocking finding of my FIRST husband cheating on me. WITH A 20 YEAR OLD. (However my 1st husband and I weren’t that old back then. But STILL.)

      ~ as of yesterday, they as in my ex and new girl, are gone to Europe for new years. My son told me that lovely info too. More sickening news that a 19 year old replacement is getting to enjoy my ex all to herself now over her holiday break from college. In a foreign country. Talk about moving fast. They just have barely known each other 6 months, and she’s been living with him since her holiday break started in early DEC.

      Sorry for the rant, just wanted to let you know you’re not alone Cheryl, and anyone else going thru the heartbreak of losing your husband to betrayal and cheating . I would have sadly probably reconciled a few short months ago, in fact I was about to, until that night when my ex dropped the bomb on me of the fact that he was going full on with this young immature girl who is nothing like me. And even threw in the fact that it was too late for me to have healthy children with him now, as I am 39. Thanks for throwing the last jab in there and reminding me I’m probably no good or useful to any other man at this point either. Not that I would even CONSIDER another man at this point in time. I’m still struggling daily that my husband is gone forever to make babies with…a baby. Ugh. 5 months has gone by and I’m really still getting cut deeply every time I start to feel a teensy bit human, I hear from my son or mutual friends we had about their escapades and lavish life they’re living as its plastered all over fb. And to think my divorce isn’t final, nor are my things back in my possession yet, as I don’t even have permission to enter what was once MY home to get my belongings, and then I hear from someone now his new gf is posting all over fb how she is ” going through JUNK and taking things to the dump” that are probably MINE. PUKE. All while he is full speed ahead with his foot on the relationship accelerator with her…I’m sure as soon as the divorce is final, they’ll be married within a month at this rate. I’ll never understand how. Just wanted you ladies to know if you want to chat, I’m here to listen anytime! Sometimes we all need a shoulder, especially someone going through the same type of personally unwanted divorce. we never asked for being left for someone else.

      • Ren

        Sounds like my life… husband of 10 years refuses to provide spousal support but runs around every week with his chick from the bar( soon to be ex is a alcoholic)

  • Karen

    My ex left me about 2 months ago and started dating my sons therapist. I was so heart broken but after many confrontations I realized he is just not worthy of what I have to offer. we have two autistic children and he has left our family to go play house with her and her autistic son. No matter what anyone else says I know it’s hard and it hurts but any man, especially the father of your children that disrespects you in this way is clearly lost and childish. No matter what i know I will pull through and be the role model my boys need me to be.

  • Sandra

    My husband has been cheating on me for 6 years with another woman and they have a child together. When I found out I forgave him but he never stopped seeing her and just a few days ago he filed for divorce. He is willing to leave his 7 year old autistic son and me with nothing. I feel like I am dying inside.

    • BrokenAgain

      I feel you. My husband has been cheating and lying and gaslighting me for 5 years. Finally left me for his most recent “friend”. She has been smug and sending messages. I have been blocking her. Why would another woman condone this? How can my husband do this to me? I’m so broken, I can’t imagine ever healing. :,(

      • SweetRed

        Everyone heal in a different way. My husband is a cold piece of work. He thinks he’s some type of pimp. Getting over on ladys that get on dating websites. Beware of Jason porter. He’s a Lier told me he had 3 kids the baby momma that he left me for said he has 6 kids. Lied to her n said that the tattoo on his arm is his dead grandma come to find out it’s the other baby momma name. Come to find out he told me he was never married he was married to the second to last baby momma for 12 years. Told me the oldest child momma was dead nope she’s not. He don’t claim three kids. The last baby momma the one he left me for beats him. So for him marrying me she will beat him for that. That’s the reason he left the 1st time.

    • Arran

      My partner has done the same to me we have a 3 year old autistic daughter and she just left after 7 years , If you’re like me and you honestly loved you’re partner and you wanted, thought and were told you were going to be forever happy then there is nothing wrong with you AT ALL!!!!! I understand all the thoughts that are going through you’re head
      I’m feeling them to I really am the pain is unbearable , I believe these websites are the best place for me right now speaking to people in my situation you are not alone the same broken heart as you in a different place , x