Healing Emotional Numbness After Losing Someone You Love


Feeling emotionally numb is normal after someone you love dies. But if you get stuck in this part of the grieving process, you can’t heal, grow forward, or find happiness. Here are a few ideas for handling the emotional numbness that often accompanies grief.

Emotional numbness may be normal, but it’s also scary and confusing. It can affect our relationships at home and work, even spiraling downward into complicated grief and depression.

When I lost my grandma – the first time someone I loved died – I was numb for weeks. I was cushioned by shock, disbelief, confusion, and emotional numbness. Back then I was confused and didn’t know how to handle the numb feelings after a death. Now, I believe this is God or nature’s way of protecting humans from going insane with grief when a loved one dies. I don’t have quick tips on how to come alive when you feel dead inside, but I can offer you a little hope and help when you’re coping with the shock and numbness of grief.







Here’s what a She Blossoms reader says:

“My husband died 13 days, 14 hours, and 24 minutes ago,” says A. on Help and Hope When You’re Living Alone After He Dies. “He was 47. He had a brain tumor…I have no idea how to describe what I feel – or rather what I don’t feel. That concerns me. I have yet to have my gut-wrenching cry or a fit of rage. I do shed some tears when I replay the songs I chose for his funeral or scroll through his obituary online, but when is this dam going to break and everything come rushing out? Does it always happen for every person whose soul is ripped in half? If it does, when?”

She adds that she’s only 45, and she feels like she’s doing something wrong or disrespectful. She’s moving through her grief, but not feeling the sadness or emotional breakdowns she expected.

Emotional Numbness After You Lose Someone You Love“I do lay in our bed holding the blanket that covered us when my husband took his last breath,” she says. “But even reliving the night my husband died hasn’t evoked an emotional response beyond whispering ‘I miss you’ while looking at his photograph on the nightstand. Can I really be this strong or do I just have to wait for the outpouring of grief when I least expect it?”

Such an honest response to her husband’s death! It takes courage and vulnerability to express your thoughts – especially when you’re confused, grieving, and emotionally numb. A. offered a glimpse into her deepest self. Not many people can do this, especially after losing someone they love. That’s when we tend to withdraw, hide, and isolate ourselves in grief.

How to Heal Emotional Numbness

“You learn – in time – how to move forward,” says singer/songwriter Alisa Turner in an article in Homelife magazine. “But you will always carry that grief, because you carry what’s worth carrying. You carry the things you love.”

It’s important to know yourself. How did you deal with grief after losing someone you love in the past? Some people automatically default to numb feelings. Others are immediately emotional and responsive. If you normally feel numb after a shocking experience, then your current numbness may just be how you roll. But, if your emotional numbness is causing long-term problems in your life and relationship then it may need more careful attention.

Hold on to hope

You’re searching for help coping with numb feelings because you want to hurt, grieve, and heal. You lost someone you love – maybe your spouse died, your husband left, or your beloved animal companion was put to sleep. You lost something or someone dear to your heart, and you want to feel better again. You want move on from a broken heart and feel happy again!

But first your mind, heart, body and spirit needs to grieve your loss. You need to process the death of the relationship you had with your husband. You need to experience the heartache of grief and the pain of being separated forever. The most important thing you can do in this time of emotional numbness is keep hoping and believing that you will come through this. If you give up hope, you die inside. You will start to feel the heartache and loss – and you will heal from the pain. You will be happy again.

Give your feelings space and time to change

If your emotional numbness isn’t negatively affecting your life or relationships, let them be. Allow your system to adjust to the shock. Maybe now isn’t the right time to focus on healing the emotional pain after losing someone you love. There will come a time to actively pursue the grieving process after a loved one dies…but maybe that time isn’t now.



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Allow your numb feelings to be. Remind yourself that you won’t always feel this way! You’re walking through a valley of grief, loss, and pain. You lost someone you loved deeply, and your heart is broken. You are responding the way your body, spirit, and mind needs to respond right now. Allow yourself to heal at your own pace, in your own time. Accept that right now you are emotionally numb. You don’t know how long it’ll last or exactly how you’ll handle the numbness, but you will come through this.

Listen for the heartbeat of Jesus

The only man who never experienced emotional numbness was Jesus, God’s own Son. He grieved, got angry, worshipped, and loved. He was alive in ways we can only imagine — and He invites us to taste His joy, peace, and freedom!

How do you listen for the heartbeat of Jesus? By pausing. Getting quiet, still, and calm. By talking to Him, asking Him to fill you with His life. By telling Him about your fear, grief, anger, frustration, and pain. And by giving Him time to respond. Wait patiently, for He will answer your call. It may not be immediate – and He may not sound the way you expect – but He does respond. Connecting with God through prayer and meditation can be the most powerful way to handle emotional numbness, especially after a loved one dies.

Try it. What do you have to lose?

Learn the physiological reason for numb feelings

Emotional numbness has a purpose. Its function is to protect us from completely breaking down and losing our minds from grief. Feeling numb after a loved one’s death is nature or God’s way of helping you cope with something so traumatic and terrible it would undo you if you felt it too deeply. It’s like the physical shock your body experiences: emotional numbness prevents you from breaking under the strain of grief.

Emotional Numbness After You Lose Someone You LoveYou might find it both helpful and interesting to learn about emotional numbness. Read books like Before and After Loss: A Neurologist’s Perspective on Loss, Grief, and Our Brain by Lisa Shulman. Learn how your brain is affected by loss, and how the grieving process affects how you think and feel. A traumatic loss of someone you love has life-changing effects on how you live, move, and even breathe. Feeling numb when someone you love dies is part of a healthy physiological reaction to loss. The more you learn about how your body and brain protects itself from overwhelming pain, the easier it’ll be to handle emotional numbness.

Megan Devine’s book It’s OK That You’re Not OK: Meeting Grief and Loss in a Culture That Doesn’t Understand is another helpful book for going through the grieving process. “Grief is simply love in its most wild and painful form,” she says. “It is a natural and sane response to loss.”

Your thoughts on coping with numb feelings when you lose someone you love are welcome below. Writing is one of the best ways to discover what you really think and feel. Take time to stop and listen to the still small voice, and you will start healing and moving forward.

I read every comment, but don’t worry. I won’t give advice or tell you what to do. It’s your turn to talk.







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8 thoughts on “Healing Emotional Numbness After Losing Someone You Love

  • Valerie

    The numbness is like the receding tide before the tsunami.

    My brother died just before his 35th birthday. He was very damaged by a childhood with severe dysfunction and mental illness, as well as moving around a lot so no lasting relationships were possible.

    He had a curious, honest, funny soul but it was destroyed by a million papercuts. He was blunt and would say what he noticed. He was inventive and would fashion toys and fake bows, etc, out of things found in the yard. He was passionate and goofy. But bullying, mean teachers, abuse, society, it all added up. We didn’t have guidance and so he floundered, wound up working menial jobs, playing video games, and smoking pot, alone with no friends or girlfriend.

    One day he got some bad synthetic weed, had a seizure and bled out. It was several weeks before he was missed or found. His life was sadder than his death.

    I am consumed by grief and remorse. I wasn’t in touch with him for 5 years before his death as I was avoiding family dysfunction and trying to protect myself. I miss him so much and I am so so sorry.

    Thank you for letting

  • Wendy Scott

    I get this. Emotional pain has its pathway and the first few steps are usually shock and sadness and just plain pain for the first few months. I remember when I went through a loss someone saying to me ‘Don’t avoid that pain, lean into it’. I couldn’t do anything for a long time except weep and just deal with myself for many months and then the waves of pain came and I had to let them wash over me one by one. You will find that after a while there will be triggers that will bring on the tears and memories and will start the healing process. Each time you encounter the pain your body and mind gets a little bit more used to your new reality and will slowly change you and how you deal with everyday life. Stand still on the front of your ship and let your loss steer you for a little while. It’s normal to feel out of control and without any sense of what to do next. Pray and let God steer the ship for a while until you are ready to deal with the pain bit by bit. The thawing will happen with time. I really feel for you in this season. There was a beautiful text that I read lately which spoke about how important you are to God at this time “You are not your own, you were bought at a price”. When you feel bland and hopeless remember that God has something special at the end of this journey. That he will bring colour and hope into your life again in the future. Just hold fast and believe that one day this numbness will pass.

  • Antonella Totino

    I am in 10 1/2 months of grief.
    The first days, seconds and weeks of horror were simply shock and trauma. I was confused, scared and practically mindless. But I too, had to care for my children. They lost their father and looked to me for help. That was soo hard bc there were many times that I could not help them. Work was difficult bc I was so absent minded and simply exhausted.
    As the days and weeks passed, and until this moment, I am simply emotionally vacant. I am functioning better, I can hold a conversation, fulfill my responsibilities but I feel NOTHING inside. I miss him so much. I feel lonely and frightened for the future.
    I need to find myself and discover who I am without my husband of 29 years.
    I am not joyful and I do not feel Happy.
    I try to feign laughter and I try to be positive around my children but when I’m on my own, BAM.
    Nothing is the same. I am dreading his upcoming 1 year mark in November but all of October was a nightmare and spent in the hospital. How do I deal with the days leading up to that horrendous day?
    I pray Every day and I will send my ACHE to God. I need Him right now.

    • Laurie Post author

      Dear Antonella,

      Thank you for being here, and for sharing your feelings. I pray for joy and hope to fill your life, for the next few weeks to pass quickly. I pray for strength and courage, and for God’s peace to fill your days. I pray for the rest of September, October, and November…Jesus, take care of your girl Antonella! Walk with her, show her Your presence and power. Help her find the balance between being strong for her family, and finding strength and joy in Your love.

      Father God, may Your glory and strength be seen in Antonella’s life as this anniversary approaches. Show up in her life in unexpected ways…fill her with your light, love, and life. Reassure her, comfort her, and heal her. Amen.

      With His love,
      Laurie

  • Josie

    I lost my soulmate/husband 21 months ago. He passed away suddenly a week before Christmas in 2016. When he passed it felt like I was thrown over a cliff doing a freefall in this dark place. The ground somehow disappeared. I immerged into a world that looks the same as it did before but somehow everything is different. It is a world I don’t feel I belong in. I did go into shock which is why I don’t remember the memorial or even most of 2017. I remember bits and pieces and things I wrote down in my journal. My grief has improved but I feel numb as well. I don’t enjoy anything and don’t get excited about anything. I function well but that is for my children’s and grandchildren’s sake. They too have suffered the loss deeply so I have to be there for them. My feelings always turn off around people so my suffering is done along. I have always been considered very strong though I do not know why. I have always been very spiritual and pray and talk to God everyday. I feel very lonely without him. Even in our marriage I was the strong one but for me selfishly, it would have been better if I had died with him. However that would not have been the worst for the rest of the family. They needed me to get them through the loss. They all come to me for advise even the in-laws. I have become a mom to my daughters in law and sons in law. So that is why I have to continue to be strong. Sometimes it does wear me down. I do wish to be happy again but at this moment it does not seem possible. Since as long as I can remember my faith has always been strong so I will rely on that but some days it seems He has stopped listening.

    • Laurie Post author

      Dear Josie,

      I’m so sorry for your loss, it must be so hard to go on without your husband. I wish I had the right words to help heal the shock and grief you feel, to help you cope with the emotional numbness and pain. It sounds like you hold yourself together very well, that you’re the strong one in the family. Your loved ones lean on you….and maybe you don’t let yourself be weak. Maybe the deepest parts of your grief and pain haven’t come to the surface yet.

      Jesus, I lift your daughter Josie up to you right now. She is hurting – You know how much her heart aches, her spirit grieves, her soul mourns for the loss of her beloved husband. You know Josie’s heart because You are walking right alongside her. You are carrying her, even when she can’t feel or see you. Holy Spirit, I pray for the dam to break. I ask you to touch Josie’s spirit and soul, to heal the emotional numbness that has been holding her back. I pray for Your comfort and love to wash over her, and for her to know You in a deeper, more personal way. Thank you, Father, for her family. Thank you for giving her blessings and gifts, for calling her into Your family. Thank you for taking care of her husband’s spirit and soul…and for preparing a place they can rejoin in Heaven one day. Amen.

      With His love,
      Laurie

      • Josie

        Thank you so much for the prayer. When you commit your life to taking care of a large family, you don’t have time to make friends so when something like this happens you are basically all alone. Thank you and bless you for being there and having someone to reach out to.